prickly pear cactus....

Talked with the insurance man yesterday about filing a claim on the barn after the horrendous "tornado-esque"(haha) winds that blew part of it away....a cowgirls gotta have a barn!....lol....It's leaking really bad now when it rains and that is no good for the animals, feed, hay.....causes mold and it's cold(hey that rhymes!..lol) in the winter IF I were to let it go and not care....BUT I do care because that's part of my life.... ;)

The claims guy came out today at 10am and took pics of the damage and wrote down everything he needs to get me my insurance money...he walked ontop of the house and the barn!....he's brave...The damage was mostly on the barn but he said he could see it took a few shingles off the house....again...me and shingles on the house are always a mess in the high winds...so hopefully I will get some good money on damages so I can fix things up around this place...they should pay off good because their insurance money I pay in is really expensive and getting more so every year.

really hoping I could get enough money to spray for termites in the barn because those suckers are eating that west wall up inside....and fast...I hate so many bugs that sting/bite/harass/annoy you...just like people...lol...all species have their termites I suppose...

I found a prickly pear cactus growing out in the pasture on the hill today while out checking the animals...I dug part of it up with a good root system on it, and planted it in my flower bed....with my tough gloves on of course..My Grandma and my Aunts are all like:"Honey, are you CRAZY?...You will NEVER get rid of those cactus they never stop you're gonna have a whole yard full!"..LOL....whoops!...oh well, they look cool in the flower bed, rather rustic and I like the pretty flowers they make on them...plus they will grow when nothing else in the world will..

according to Eli he said this kinda cactus tastes pretty good...but don't think I will attempt that...Even though I have seen them in the grocery store minus the ouchy needles, I'm afraid I might see things if I ate them and I don't wanna do that!!!...yikes....

we have talked about this cactus ALL freaking day!...after today I know all that I could ever wanna know and then some about the prickly pear cactus....I learned that my Grandma and Aunts hate them with a passion and then google and Eli told me the culinary side...haha.

if all else falls through i'm sure I could be a cactus farmer...Bwahaha!!!

Oklahoma and the mentally ill.....

Insane or what?

This weekend I briefly encountered one of the most--off the wall, insane people in town and I actually made him laugh and he really SPOKE to me actual words and didn't scream at me like he does everyone else!!!....write this one down in the history books people!

Whenever I am forced into a face to face situation I usually don't panic when I am faced with the probability of a conversation I just wing it and always bring in humor and laugh a lot...that's how I deal with situations involving insanity...I just laugh..I've learned to..life is crazy and about 99% of all of us humans are too....so who knows what'll happen! be prepared and laugh.....all you can do I say..especially when it comes to other human beings....

This guy in town is really spooky to everyone in town...he's been homeless, a bad drug addict, he's stays in bad health....and he doesn't talk to people he just screams at them...Everyone says he has been declared insane and was in an asylum at one time..but he ran out of money$ or left for whatever reason and roams all over town...I always have felt sorry for the guy and people like him ya know?.....he's burnt his brain from all the drugs they say...very sad.

anyway this weekend I was standing in line to pay for my breakfast at the café and he walked up beside me and he was in my way..i said nicely:"Excuse me sir,i need to get by.".....I wasn't thinking about who he was at the moment because I never pay much attention in the mornings...everyone completely stops talking and they all stared like:"Uh-oh!"....he looked like he was going to scream at me so I said:"Is this the café or the casino? there's so many people in here talking I can't tell the difference!"...and I laughed...it was dumb to say, but I said it nervously...

He looked at me and he laughed:"All we're missin' is some machines and tables."....Everyone including me was SHOCKED he replied back in a normal speaking voice..not screaming!!!...So I laughed back and I said:"Haha..yeah and the strippers!"....(because they're always at the casino looking for guys in the early hours!..gross).....Haha..you know me-anything that pops into my thoughts i'll make a joke out of it!...he laughed and laughed at me saying that and then he smiled at me and he said:"You have a good day young'un"....then he left...LOL....everyone in the café looks at me and they're like:"OMG you just talked to him and he didn't scream Jules! holy sh*t!!!".....

i'm proud of that!....I talked to the un-talkable without getting screamed at....holy cow!...everyone always says i'm easy to get along with and down to earth...they must be right....I just like to think I treat everyone equal and as a real person who does have meaning in the world..mentally ill or not or whatever-they just wanna know they matter I suppose ya know?..I always go out of my way to be nice regardless of the insanity they may be....but I would avoid a dangerous unstable person/situation of course...but this conversation was sorta forced... 

Little fyi for you-----Oklahoma needs A LOT of money invested in many more mental health hospitals/clinics and programs..our state falls short in that area of care for people....and I am NOT joking when I say that...Oklahoma needs to spend some money on getting the mental health clinics/hospitals for those people...lots of people in this state need that mental health care and are left without it...kicked out, untreated, and they just roam town and cause trouble like he does...unending cycle with them...really heartbreaking to see...


nite-nite

tornadoes tonight?.....

Hopefully we will survive...issued a tornado watch and a possible tornado sighting nearby..

If i'm not online a looooong time you'll know what happened..I blew away....LOL....

hope the cellar doesn't have water in it!!!..I forgot.

xoxo

jealous, insecure, and unhappy women.....

Rather warm outside today......shorts,flip-flops,t-shirt on...went cruisin' with friends this evening just got home.....radio up, windows down....great day...when you are stressed or troubled just go cruisin' down the highway or any back road...totally clears your mind...we did some awesome Car-e-okee!...LOL....

Thinking about how a suppose-ed friend has been acting the past few years....Can't believe she would ever think bad of me or she would betray me but I guess our friendship has come to the end of the road and I suspect she may have a TON of secrets she has been keeping quiet trying to portray her life as one big beautiful fairytale to me.....I have realized some things lately that I never saw before in the past few years...

First off after she finally got married and had her first baby with this husband of hers (she chased around and practically stalked) she immediately started saying she thought I was waaaaay too flirty with her husband(I would NEVER do that to her or anyone)..Soooooo then it turned into she could NEVER go anywhere without his permission(loser!)I was never invited over anymore because omg! he talked to me!...yeah.....so then she had baby #2 when I hear that her husband is cheating on her(she thinks it will save her marriage)...I was nice and threw her a baby shower and then she's icy cold to me once again...all because her husband said I was sweet and cute...get where this is going?....

I totally quit talking to her husband whenever he was around because she was soooo insecure about me talking to him....I just smile and say "hi"......still she was jealous...then she up and has another baby #3 I went to her shower to be nice, bought a nice gift...she turns icy cold once more and starts saying things to me like:"Julia you need to be married I have a guy for you to marry..why don't you have kids?"...I told her:"No that's ok I don't wanna be married or have kids..i like being single/free and I've never wanted to have kids....life isn't all about that you know? there's more to life than that."

I never bothered her or called her all the time or infringed on her life/family life in any way...but after being friends since we were little girls she turns on me like that all because she is unhappy and insecure in her life/marriage!!!...It really hurts my feelings..it's the worst feeling to feel that way after all these years of friendship to find that she is THAT insecure and threatened by me...I can't believe how she has turned out...

everytime she has turmoil with that husband of hers she has another damn baby!....LOL...well at this point she's gonna have a whole village of children if she keeps on like this....good lord that's ridiculous all those kids she keeps having to "save her sinking ship marriage"

I hate to be tacky like that, but she deserves it after the way she has treated me.

I wonder if guys have these kinda jealous, insecure, unhappy friend problems?

when I declined that offer to date this "great guy" she was fixing me up with, she became enraged and totally quit calling me or anything...(turns out the guy she was trying to force me to date was already married with kids)..yeah great friend she is.....all because she is insecure as hell in her marriage and fake-ass fairytale life she tries to pass off.....I have realized that is all true after talking to some great super sleuth friends who have indeed told me what is real with her...

I should have seen that jealousy coming from a mile away over her "man"....haha!...*eyeroll* god.......like I would ever mess with her stupid husband! that's ridiculous.

people get unhappy with their life decisions and start in on other people's lives because they are super jealous of them and try to treat you like some kinda freak because you don't wanna be married or have kids like them...well, guess what?! I don't wanna be UNHAPPY and MISERABLE like they all are---too much damn drama with all that BS..haha!.....AND if somebody doesn't want a husband or kids that's their damn business!....I sure don't..i'm happy being single/free and having my own money.

jealousy causes a lot of drama and unfortunately the end of great friendships..

and NEVER believe in fairytales BS....guess she learned the hard way...ok, I will stop being tacky...promise!..lol.

i'm ok with ending a great friendship with someone like her as a friend...who wants a friend who is that jealous of you that she goes to desperate lengths to be that cruel to you.

oh well.

wintery thunderstorms.....

 

Had the craziest mess of weather last night and this morning....Thunderstorms + winter weather right afterward!...You could hear the sleet hitting the house this morning right after hail and lightening, freezing rain...now it's gonna be 25 degrees in the morning....well.....there goes all my hardwork that I did planting garden and working on my flower beds!*disgusted*

 

I worked sooooooo freaking hard planting/tilling and watering the garden and the flower beds this weekend...for no reason I guess because now it will all freeze out and croak in the morning after the freeze.....*looks at sky and shakes angry fist*NOOOOOOO!....maybe it won't be too harsh on the plants...I LOVE gardening and stuff like that...fun for me.

 

I planted potatoes(earlier) jalapenos, onions...luckily I haven't planted ALL of the tomato plants or seeds..Whew! good thing..I mean seriously weather!!!Come on! who ever heard of a freeze in April like this?...not this girl!

 

Tried a black berry-peach sweet tea at a Sonic yesterday...Woah!..hello--it's awesome.....Everyone is getting them..."Have you tried that?!"..You go:"Oh yeah it's amazing!"...how sad are we?!..LOL!..Tea=warmer weather....Time to put away the hot chocolate...well except for tonight...geez it's freezing...

 

had to mow for Grandparents this weekend and from now on I suppose til they get a new mower!!!Some stupid idiots stole their lawnmower near the barn!...$1200 mower GONE!..How low and sorry to steal from old people or anybody for that matter..Oh,i bet you I can throw a good guess out there as to which pieces of trash stole it.....told you they were all driving around looking for something to steal--sorry trash!!!....

 

"Someday Julia, be patient" I know, I just gotta be patient...but I hate waiting....when I want something soooooo bad to finally take place. tick-tock goes the clock...i'll just keep on smiling because I know something and it will be hilarious!..Hahaha!

 

nite nite

liquid eyeliner & haircolor.....

Haha......Colored my hair this weekend!....I had to of course take the dark brown out with a bleach kit from the beauty store...Then I waited a day and ran to Walgreens and just bought this cheapo box off the shelf and colored it this color....It's really pretty...lol....

Oh the fun of having a weekend hair coloring party with your best friends!.....at least I didn't dye mine fire red like some people.....(amy) cough cough!....haha

Lacey dyed hers like a chocolate red brown and everybody else went bleachy white or gold...I just went to this color...it's fairly toned down..nothing too bright....I easily become bored with things so I always have to try and change things up a bit..that's how I roll!...haha...

Always kinda tough when washing your hair to make 100% sure that you don't get any hair color in your eyes because it can blind you ya know?...that's the only part I get nervous about really.....because if the color ends up whack you can still bleach that mess out and start all over....lol


Morgan said she used henna dye once and she would NEVER do that again...ever...took ages to get it out of her hair...even bleach wouldn't work....so I stay away from henna dye...You can save yourself at least $100 on hair color just dye-ing it yourself...I spent probably $20 total on coloring my hair and it's pretty long........at the beauty shop it would cost me no less than $100...seriously...you gotta get the hang of it to get comfortable with coloring it yourself.....have to start sometime to learn as in anything in life..but invite over a few best friends on the weekend when you got nowhere to go or nothing to do and it's crazy fun!

bought a new eye liner this weekend too, I ALWAYS use black liquid eyeliner on my eyes...I love it...it looks very professional and it creates a beautiful look to your eyes...it's like painting sorta..brings out your eyes.....everyone says I have very pretty eyes all the time--sweet of them to say! but I think it's the eyeliner!!!..lol.....I use waterproof always and that stuff doesn't move!

 

xoxo

stress sneaks up on you....

Despite the rainy calm night....I woke up this morning grinding my teeth in my sleep, and clenching my fists like I was going to hit somebody...lol....I realized that it is from STRESS with all that is going on around here...It's a lot to handle and try not to worry about my loved ones.....

and you don't know how fast the stress is affecting you really....it's super sneaky..

Pretty easy to figure out---that I go on vacation and not once did I grind my teeth in my sleep at the condo or toss and turn,or clench my fists..not once!...I slept better than I have in a loooooong time and I think it's because I was far away from home and all this worry/stress...

today I got even more stressed when some of the hillbilly relatives drove by the house when I got home from the sale...staring...looking for something to steal or thinking of some way to cause me trouble...they were all whacked out looking....really spooky....oh well...I suppose someday they will all go away and Poof! be gone from my life forever..Grr!.....I really hate them....I can't say it enough....about 90% of the stress and worry in my life comes from them...and I really don't think that's fair to have to put up with forever....

I know it's silly and stupid, but when I saw them today my blood boiled with hate/anger.....will they ever be gone?!...*fingers crossed*..someday.

I really need to learn how to control the stress and try to put it out of my mind/soul the best way I can, because it's not good at all for me...it's just super tough to get rid of something that is constantly surrounding you ya know?...I want them all gone from my life...

my Grandma listens to their crap and that makes me really mad....she's soooo stupid about them sometimes...but she's old and she thinks she has to be nice to them because they are her late sister's family...*eyeroll* whatever...if she only knew how evil and terrible they really are--bad dangerous people....she chooses to live in her "everything is peachy" world...you know....

people say:"Identify the stress in your life and try to eliminate it"...LOL....ME:"Oh, I've identified it alright...there's about 15 of them and I hate every one of them!!!"

xoxo

Why, Hello April.....!!!

Wow...can't believe it's already April!...are you serious?....I spent a whole week out of March on vacation and I still feel weird as if I am still there....haha....must have been the altitude---my brain got damaged probably!....LOL....no, I just seriously could travel more and stay longer out there....oh well..i just had a ton of fun and a great time....
 
Just thinking today about all the damaged people that the universe or God puts into your life for a reason.....sometimes I think people are put in your life to teach you a lesson or for you to care for....I'm gonna go with "care for/help" for the damaged people in my life..because that seems to be the case...I suppose because I am a very caring, compassionate creature.But hey, i'm always for the underdog and down trodden, you know me....
 
I had a great friend tell me today that I am genuine, very caring and real.....I thought about that a sec and I really appreciated the comment...I want to be myself and what you see is what you get...I would never be a fake snobby type.....I think all anybody wants to see really out of people is someone genuine and real...I strive for that in my everyday life---to just be the real me to people...I do sometimes wish I wasn't so caring about endless things and people in my life ya know?...but that's just me....I worry so much about things because of my caring side...
 
I guess that's why the universe, or God, or whoever puts all these damaged people with problems into my life....so I can help them get better or something?....I don't really mind, I must have THE personality for it...lol...because I have a whole bunch of them as friends and family....I should have been a psychiatrist...haha....
 
I believe everything in your life happens for a reason--EVERYTHING....good/evil/people/places/things/vacations/paths/roads/friends/family....I believe it's all preplanned...so when I can't figure anything out I just go..."oh well...must be a reason" and I go on.....

anyway---everyone loves my Pueblo necklace I bought in New Mexico....I liked the animals and different colors...they told me it was protection/power symbol necklace.....not a great pic of it on an old towel but here it is..the bottom animal is a black bear...I guess he must be the most powerful or protector?....