kidney infection.....

Great time at the symphony this weekend!...this is one of the pieces they played....sooooobeautiful....

and it's October.

Sitting here in my pjs in bed...warm and getting sleepy.....

I have somehow managed to get another kidney infection....i have kidney problems anyway...but last night it hit me all of the sudden...chills,pain in my lower back..i felt like i was going to die....I hurt all night got into bed and covered up with my electric blanket set on 7..i still had chills....

went to the dr.today and got into see him finally...took a test and both kidneys are infected...he put me on antibiotic then scolded me about letting it go for a while...but i'm so busy i never think about myself really...i'm always focused on work/business, and half the time worrying/thinking about and/or missing family and friends so much so that it's actually painful....but that's just me...

been thinking a lot about those people i love and miss....i'm just sick and feeling bad today i suppose..i need to stop thinking about things and try to rest..but i can't help worrying about them and missing them...

i still feel kinda nauseous right now...didn't manage to eat anything at noon today when we all met up for lunch at Subway.....i just stared at my small sandwich and picked at it....lol...

the antibiotics are so strong they make you feel just as bad as the kidney infection does, so double that crappy feeling....annoying kidney infections..oh well.

nite.

symphony orchestra tonight......

Finally got back online this week.

Yesterday, i did a little grocery shopping and went to pay my car tag sticker dues whatever they're called...which i think is stupid that you have to pay for that kinda stuff...lol....i think it's all about bringing in extra tax $'s or something of that nature..but it's annoying and stupid to me!...haha...

Then i got the oil changed in my car...they had to replace the oil filter in it....it was super dirty and they had to check the tire pressure....the cold air the past few days had really made them low.....AND one tire had a nail in it....why is there ALWAYS a nail in one of my tires??!

The football game was really COLD last  night!.....I went w/Amy& Lacey to see her brother play....it was still cold with a jacket and blankets wrapped around you..Brr!.....we got hot chocolate and we cheered them on...Lots of people there...sometimes i think people like football games COLD...they have everything all pre-planned and everything you know....their own rituals.

i'm not much on football games really....i'm more excited about going to the symphony orchestra tonight....We're going down to Texas to catch a concert...Yes,i'm a nerd for the symphony..Thanks to my high school music teacher who taught us about all kinds of music..i have a great appreciation for all music...i know some people say it's boring..but i really love how just the music tells a story...you can get lost in it just by listening....

i think this music is better than a lot of the choices we have to hear these days...not to sound like a boring person, but i do think that...it's good to give all music a chance you might find something you really like.

we've got our tickets...going tonight...hope it's not too cold!

xoxo

several steps ahead....

This is my favorite bad day song....lol....It just tells exactly how i feel on a bad day...always good for days like this..

Everything is so crazy right now...man, it seems like everything has been going crazy and crazier with all the hillbilly relatives..fighting/mouthing/screaming at each other and everyone else in between caught in the middle of it,which would be Me, and the other sane poor souls left in the entire family...

I don't know how much longer we will have our sanity after all this crap...it gets old and wears on your nerves daily..it's just boring...somedays i wonder how much longer i can deal with all this stupid nonsense...they love to play mind games..the scarier the better for them...they love to scare people..i've had a lifetime of them..so i'm already quite a few steps ahead of them on anything they may try to pull....ooh i'm soooooo scared!..Boo-hoo!...Bwahaha!!!

but i'm a pretty tough girl i'd like to think,so i will stand my ground throughout this..i'll take the mouthing,the lies,the threats..anything they wanna throw out at me into the world or my face...yeah..i'm ready so bring it on..because i just really don't care what they say or do or whatever they wanna stir up...i'm so bored with them/this...Yawn!!!...lol.. 

i try to ignore them..sure i'd love to knock them all out!...LOL!..but that wouldn't do anything but give them what they want...they want any kind of attention they can get over their stupid fighting...they try to provoke you....so i pretend they don't exist....I TRY very hard to pretend they aren't real...Haha...it's a tough thing to attempt...i'm just like:"Yawn!..nobody gives a crap..shut-up and go away hillbillies...FAIL!"

they're all spinning out of control and i swear there are days i could just pick up everything and go away..FAR away until this is all over with them....i wish they would all disappear....because honestly i've had enough of them and their insanity...it's just constant.

whatever their cracked minds are furious about who knows?...they probably don't even know...haha!....it's just very unfair to be thrown into the middle of this insanity just because i am related to all of them...i hate them all..everyone for miles and miles hates them....when nobody likes you..it's a pretty sure bet that you've got problems...LOL....and THEY do have problems....they're cracked in the head,insane...and they're hillbillies..haha!!!

it's gotten so bad i don't answer calls and i let the machine get it..you never really know what they're going to scream about..so at least i can record them using that...lol..

i'm just so sick & tired of all this stress with them...and i think that's just pretty sad & pathetic that i have to put up with them....

i wish they would just shut-up and go away!!!...ALL of them..just disappear....i hate them all..

nite.

Butternut squash soup.....

Been a busy week already, lots of tough work piled on me....not whining!....but kinda tired...

the weather has warmed up to the upper 80's...so my cold has almost vanished!...without having to see the dr....feeling better so far..saved me a dr's bill so i'm not complaining..despite how much i want it to be COLDER weather now!....lol...

Going to start cooking many more dinners at home now that i can turn on the oven and stove...considering that summer is over, it's ok to have extra heat in the house....besides it's fun to cook at home to me....

Today i made butternut squash soup...YUM!....it was pretty good i have to admit...I like to make soup in the fall...

See,i like to cook fall themed too in the fall...i also love to bake butternut squash like this w/a little butter....it's a fave of mine this time of year....i called it "Squish".when i was a little girl..LOL..i still call it "Squish". to this day....it just kinda stayed in my vocabulary.....haha..."What's Julia making for dinner?".."Squish!"...everybody always looks at me kinda puzzled and then they remember and laugh.."Oh,ok squash..NERD!"....Haha!!!

lots of work tomorrow..off to bed..

nite.

pumpkin carving party....

Last night was the pumpkin carving party at a friend's house..had fun!.

No super spooky artistic portraits carved on pumpkins like some people are able to...just more whimsical&cutesy--just like me.. ;)

It's really amazing what some people can do with the carved pumpkins...wow....impressed.

We cleaned out the pumpkins(everybody brought their own from the pumpkin patch) and then we dipped them in bleachy water to somehow supposedly keep them from becoming moldy and gross...hopefully that works!

then we put the patterns on them and carved away.

It was fun carrying on with everybody--laughing,being loud,silly,goofy and crazy...love you guys!!!....we ordered pizza and then we ate candy...yes, there was tons of halloween candy!

 

Supposed to go on a haunted hayride tonight..but looks as though that's not gonna happen----thunderstormy all nite they're saying..oh well,so we may all have to cancel til next weekend..

 

 

xoxo