Good-bye July....

Wow....the last day of July....finally....
Although i don't think August is gonna be any better...considering the weatherman said it's only going to be hotter and still sadly after the rain-dancing we did...no rain....

Got the electric bill saturday in the mail and it was $350...that's not too bad i guess..some people had bills $400 or more...so i can't whine...keeping things turned off and blocking the sun from the windows has helped tremendously! we are smart..lol..i hope.

We had to take a few steers to the sale yesterday and a young bull.....There were guys everywhere selling off their whole herd...i'm really concerned that if it don't rain we may have to also...especially after seeing the weatherman on the news saying all that last night....i wonder just how long those ponds & streams are gonna hold up if the whole month of August is going to be much more hotter/drier.....Nothing to lose sleep over i suppose...*crossing my fingers*

as Grandpa says:"Cattle business is always a gamble...you gotta learn to play the game."......and that takes years of experience i know....i'm still young and green..i'm sitting back and absorbing all the knowledge and experiences i see going on.....it's an interesting game and it takes skill & smarts, to play it right...Maybe one day i will become the cattle baroness i wanna be...haha!

talked to Morgan last night on the phone from Kansas..things aren't any better there..so Oklahoma is not alone....At this point, as hot as it is,(112 degrees everyday)...i told Morgan that we all might as well move to Alaska and herd snow-balls instead of cows....lol.....cooler.

good riddance July! you hot,miserable piece of crap!

love,julie

oh, the hillbilly drama..............

AND the drama continues.....

It's amazing how you can be minding your own business and get thrown into the middle of a huge fight....Oh but you can when it's hillbilly kin involved...especially my hillbilly kin.....they're all insane...criminally insane and i'm not joking about that part.....

remember the last post on them where i went on a rant about them?....it goes back to them and another cousin named Sandy who is a criminal cow who should be locked up...she is nothing but an evil, dangerous, female outlaw...she has always managed to escape arrest...but she needs to be in prison..if you can think of something bad she's done it....she's very insane...

yesterday Dad called and starts talking to me & Sarah about stuff and i told him how i was kinda wanting to go take a night class that starts from 6pm-9pm in august til September and he just freaked out and he goes:"NO NO NO NO...no drivin' at night....NO...it's not gonna happen not with all that's goin' on around there...NO..don't ask again...sorry!"

i didn't say anything because he can't stop me from going to take a class or control me, so i just let it go and then he starts preaching to us that we need to stop going to the mall or casino or stopping at a car wash, or a store or gas station and not paying attention to what is going on.....he kept saying:"You girls don't need to be alone in those places..you don't pay enough attention, Diego is gonna go everywhere with you ok?"...umm...what?...ok...i guess?..so he was all panicked and he kinda cried and he said again:"Nobody's gonna mess with you because of me."...what?

That didn't make sense so we told Cody and he said that Sandy(hillbilly kin) has been threatening to have me & Sarah kidnapped because she is mad at Dad over something he put a stop to her doing, illegal stuff she was trying to get started....he stopped her or something and now she's mouthing off stuff that she's gonna have me & Sarah kidnapped to retaliate against him...i thought...OMG!...how crazy...so that explains all Dad's freaking out....it's pretty bad when your own hillbilly kin want to harm you...they're all dangerous & insane...told ya.

We talked to Diego about it and he said he's not worried about it because Sandy knows she will get her butt kicked big time by a lot of people who hate her already and if she tried to harm me & Sarah she would really get it....he said he thinks Sandy started all this because she knows Dad will flip out about her saying that and she wants to get him worried and draw him out to start fighting again...whatever he put a stop to her doing must have been really bad.....and she's mad...we always make fun of her...she's an evil cow!..nobody likes her.

Sandy is a lot older than us she's 50 something and still trash!...bwahaha!...that's all she is.....we don't talk to hillbilly kin or try to have anything to do with them we always AVOID them and they still wanna start something with you...even if you avoid them...always conniving or plotting something....CRAZY.

god this is all so hillbilly and i'm sure my journaling about it makes me look like a hillbilly too...but i'm not....every family's got some insane/crappy ones in it, we aren't like them! 

i'm still trying to figure this all out...Sarah said yesterday:"You know he's gonna try to move us out there with him, he's so flipped out about this."

whatever...i'm not worried..they're just all fried and crazy...

xoxo.....another day in the life of me..

drought day #35?.......

Had a flat tire yesterday and had to go have it fixed in town...we were way out west on the highway as always miles from civilization...just desolation.....so we stopped and filled the tire up with air from the air tank we luckily had in the truck and drove on it til we made it to a town.....why does that always happen to us when we are working?...oh well could be worse i know....i'm not whining.....turns out it was a piece of welding rod...soooo, somebody's been welding something out that way....thanks alot welder-person! ;(

those guys that work at the gas station changing tires & oil...get really hot in this heat..the garage part of the gas station was boiling and those boys were pouring sweat...i felt bad they had to change the tire for me...i told them:"Thank you so much, i appreciate it."...they told me:"NO problem!"......

The creek is drying up on the place out west of here,so we had to move about 50 cows from there to down here yesterday and that flat tire only wasted our time to get done before the heat hit it's daily 110 degrees...i wish it was Fall!!!

I'm sick of having time limits on things and hurry-ups because the sun & excessive heat...you have to get everything done by noon....and it's really making people crazy...they say hot weather like this makes people more insane and i believe that...everyone's fighting and freaking out about the water and people's water wells are drying up...i'm concerned about our water well.....but i'm keeping hope....

Everywhere i go i hear people talking about how bad it's getting and it's never gonna rain...BUT i have my rain stick and i have been shaking it....me & eli are gonna do a rain dance today and if (Eli)--a full blood Apache and (Me)---a part cherokee, can't make it start raining from the sky then i don't know anymore!...LOL....have faith....

i haven't had any dreams about rain lately...so i don't know when it's going to happen, but it will...god i sound crazy! but it will rain sometime...but i haven't really been dreaming at all, too tired & hot to...I get in my bed about 6:30pm and turn off everything but the fan and i sleep til 10pm, wake up, and then go back to sleep from 10:20pm to 4am--time to wake up Julie!.....

i wonder how hot it is out near Amarillo?..i'm going to go check that Amarillo news website..

xoxo

annoying idiots....lol

It's early..i'm soooo sleepy BUT i gotta go to work...

Stayed out in the pool last night til 8pm floating around watching a thunderstorm try to build...well...it did make a thunderstorm but it went the other way!....god...it's gotta rain soon...people are losing their minds...i wish summer was over already....

While me & Sarah were on the floaty beds in the pool we heard a sound like something walking along the fence near the trees...so we snuck out of the pool and ran around the other side of the house and hid to see who or what it was......

AND guess who we saw?! Frankie!...we decided to try and scare him, so when we saw him walk up the edge of that steep hill on that side of the fence we ran up behind him and screamed real loud:" BOOOOOO!"...LOL...bwahaha!....he screamed like a girl and went rolling down the side of the hill!....haha!.....i laughed so hard i was crying...we looked over the side of the hill and he was lying there pulling rocks & stickers out of his legs/arms/face!.....it's a wonder he didn't break his neck...But that's what he gets for being a perv and trying to spy on us in the pool, in our bathing suits floating on those floaty-beds!....and his pants were unzipped..uh yeah..hello?...major sicko!...we could have him arrested for that sick stuff....

we confronted him about it and he apologized and admitted that he parked his truck all the way down the driveway and snuck up the road to spy on us....remember that time we caught him & Harrell window-peeping on us in high school?!...yeah...and they're still at it....they've got serious issues....
sick of stupid idiots!
this is getting old..i'm so tired of them and all the stupid people around always doing something to ya or i don't know...i'm just tired of all their stupid BS...maybe i'm just sick of summer...i've got a case of the major blahs lately and it ain't good...it's like everyday is 109 degrees and no rain and it wears on your mind day after day....and then they gotta pull stunts like that..even at night somebody is always out prowling around or stealing or something lately...and we live far away from town and they drive all that way to annoy us?..doesn't make sense....

but then again, who or what does make sense anymore....um yep, that's right...NOBODY & NOTHING.

i am developing a low tolerance for BS...i'm becoming more like my family is everyday....i wanna tell all the idiots around here that wanna start drama or talk crap that:" Hey, you're not that special, believe it or not, nobody gives a sh*t about you or what you do, get over yourselves...nobody cares dumb*ss!..leave me alone! "....i wanna tell them all off...including those worthless hillbilly kin of mine....ah well, they'll get what they deserve eventually.... ;)

i wish a coyote would bite their butts one night they are out sneaking around here!...bwahaha!....that visual alone makes me smile! ;)

kisses.

no hay....

Still listening to Reckless Kelly cds..i swear they are my summer soundtrack! Everywhere i go they are with me, in the house,car,driving..always playing somewhere..love them.

Last night was the 2nd night of the rodeo..i got 2nd..again.I wasn't too keen on going because we worked all day yesterday moving huge round hay bales from one pasture to another on the hay trailers..really tired...a few tried to roll off and when you turn the corners down the road, they weave from side to side...stressful..but we managed...we hauled 60 round bales yesterday...as would be expected, some people are stealing hay..so we have our hay all hidden in a secret pasture in trees....lol....they can't find it..hopefully.

We're lucky we have hay, so many ranchers/farmers are having to pay big money upfront to have hay trucked in from out of state, or from Northeastern Oklahoma because the drought has killed most hay pastures out and many people in this business lost all their hay crop...and when that happens you can't hay your cows/horses.....many people had to sell off their livestock because they just can't get by....they can re-buy livestock after it rains maybe...

but winter is just around the corner and hay will still be short...so i don't know...it's one of those ranching/farming lessons to learn...i've learned a lot this summer because of this drought...it's a tough business...things happen and you gotta be smart enough to handle and solve the problems ahead of time and quickly...smart thinking....My grandpa has to be the smartest man i know....he's been in this business for 60+yrs and he's managed....i wanna be just like him someday..

Everyone is panicking about the drought and some towns are running low on water..people are really freaking out....But that's normal to freak over things like that...it's been so dry & hot for 3 months now and things look bleak...but it will rain...

in time it will rain..You gotta have faith & hope...that's just life...Things get bad, then they get better..things change, people change...my Dad told me that...and i think that is very true...

xoxo

Ban all animal testing/experiments!!!.....

It's been a long busy day...just got home from the rodeo....i got 2nd barrel racing....so glad they waited for it to cool down this evening, so the animals won't get hot & the crowd won't get too hot....Me & Daisy(my horse) make a great team!..i love her. ;)

We pushed Steven in the horse tank tonight!...LOL....he needed to cool off...that's what he gets for being a jerk!..I hate how him & Harrell always wait around behind the stands to annoy you after you compete...it's like they plan it all out and have to annoy me!..i suppose i could kick their butts and they know it...yep...that's what it's all about...haha!...

Everyone's going to the bar later tonight...i may go in an hour and sing/play guitar with everyone...it's fun!

We really been missing dad today....hope he comes home soon from W.Texas. ;(

Today i saw something in a magazine about animal testing and how it should be forbidden..Well I AGREE to that!..it was just a gruesome picture and it upset me and made me cry...very disturbing!...It was a picture of a cat and oh man...i cried and then i got angry!..i mean, why in this day and time do they need to be experimenting on animals?! huh?...especially cats & dogs---pets...oh my god...that is sooooo freaking evil...No animal needs to be tested/tortured so a deodorant or soap whatever, will be safe!...That BS makes me so sad & mad.....it's NOT needed and it's barbaric!

It just really upset me and has been on my mind all day..how furious i am that this kinda experimentation hasn't been phased out or banned!...This is 2011 stupid idiots!..we don't need to be subjecting our animal friends to that!.....I DO NOT buy any products tested on animals and i think there doesn't need to be ANY products tested on animals for anything..i wish it could be banned...that whole issue is very disturbing and horrible!

I love animals more than most people......animals don't backstab you, yell at you, they just keep on loving you no matter what..unlike pathetic humans...i'm so ashamed of the human race..pathetic pieces of crap....If i was an animal i wouldn't wanna be tortured & tested or abused or anything...animals don't have a voice for anything like that!....man, it just makes me cry...i was horrified when i saw that article and i wish i could stop all the cruel animal experiments that go on in the world..i think even Europe is working on phasing out that kinda stuff, so why can't we here in the US?!..doesn't make any sense...

I do know one thing......If i had the chance i would kick hard with my cowboy boots, right in the butt, every cold-hearted piece of sh*t scientist/person who does those evil pathetic experiments on animals, who abuses animals or is mean to animals..i want a chance to personally give them all a good ol fashioned butt-kicking from a real american cowgirl....haha!..they better hope they never meet me.


~Nite!~

front porch music......

Seems as though my front porch is becoming the stop by and play music place....lol...i LOVE it....at about 9pm every singer/musician friend i know stops by and talks,plays songs,drinks beer or wine and we stay out there til about midnight....

The driveway was full of cars last night and they didn't all leave til midnight as usual...A guy from Austin,TX (who is friends with my Uncle) was here last night playing...he's a songwriter...everyone was joking:"Oh man we've got a pro in the house!"....haha..he was super cool....he could play anything and he played a lot of songs he wrote....Wow...maybe someday i will be THAT good at music....

I think everyone should play an instrument or be involved in music....It's just something i think is good for a person..a lot of the people nowadays are forming their own bands and playing the bars&clubs around here...i think that's really special because they are doing it because they love it...not to be a person everyone knows or on tv...just simply because they adore it....more people should do that...i do that....i sing and play because i love it and people appreciate the entertainment...not because i want attention or something superficial.....it's just me being me...

i like how people stop by and visit....it's seems like something so special and old to play,sing,talk,drink, laugh on the front porch....good times.

xoxo 

sick of summer....

I love this song..it's so awesome.makes me smile! Gotta love George.

Nothing new blog...just WORK.WORK.WORK and HOT HOT HOT.....

Did manage to go to the mall yesterday with friends and shop...i didn't buy anything....they didn't either, we went to Bath & Body Works and snooped around....smelled some new scents...and new fall candles they had samples of....ooh..i cannot wait for Fall to get here!...sick of this summer...

we got a pizza & sweet peach tea and drank that on the way home...love sweet peach tea!

We got into some road construction and had to detour off the highway out in the country we didn't know, far from home..we almost got lost...lmao!....i bet those road workers are scorching hot out in this heat....yikes..on that pavement it's gotta get extra hot....

got home by 5pm and fell asleep watching tv...lol...i woke up last night at 11pm thinking it was the next day, time to get up...haha....i have weird sleeping patterns this summer....hot weather makes you extra tired i think.

Keep having to fill up my pool because the 109 degrees everyday keeps evaporating it!....

Dear hot weather,
After all the water you keep evaporating out of my pool into the sky..looks like you could make those clouds pee out some rain!..lol.

hurry up and make it rain sky!

love,julie

favorite teacher gone....

Oh man...I've got a major case of the sads today. ;(

I just found out today that my 1st grade teacher passed away....She was my favorite teacher out of all the grades....i loved her!...i'm broken hearted.

She was so sweet, fun, & kind, a great person...she loved being a teacher and helping you learn.....she always decorated our 1st grade classroom so cool, gave us candy, and was so laid-back....more than anything she made you feel so comfortable she was like the whole class's grandma...

We had the best Halloween party in her class...i'll never forget that.

Today i started crying when Brenna called and told me...we started reminiscing about the day Steve(boy in our class) climbed out the classroom window and got a dead blackbird off the ground when Mrs.R turned her back to write on the chalk board...

all of us girls started screaming because Steve was pretending he was gonna throw it on us and Mrs.R turned around, hands on her hips, and started laughing:"Steeeeve....Did you crawl out the window?"...he kept laughing and pretending he was gonna throw it on us girls because we screamed...Mrs.R laughs and says:"Steeeeve, you better not throw that dead bird on those girls."...so he did throw the dead bird on us and it landed on my desk and i just picked it up and threw it out the window and Mrs.R goes:"See Steve, you didn't even scare Julia...she's tougher than you think."...LOL....

Haha...I remember Steve had to write me an apology letter for throwing it on my desk and i wrote that day:"Steve threw a dead bird on my desk and i was not scared."....lmao!....My grandma still has that paper i wrote and the apology from Steve....lol....it was always a joke all through the years at school between me & Steve, about him throwing that dead bird on my desk....he said the only reason he did it was because i wouldn't pay attention to him!....haha!

if i could go back to 1st grade anytime i would...i loved Mrs.R...she was a great teacher and we had a wild, but fun class....ah the memories...Miss you Mrs. R ;( 

start rain-dancing...now.....

Soooo hot outside!.......all the time it's hot,it's been 109+degrees everyday now for almost 2months!... i'm seriously expecting the electric companies to start those rolling blackouts for the power overloading like they did in north texas last year....

Because today in some towns nearby they are being told to save electricity if possible...this heat is running the air conditioning crazy and everyone's air runs all freaking day!....i'm still cringing at the thought of getting that high electric bill....oh man not looking forward to that in the mail......not whining though...things will get better..i'm going to start rain-dancing naked under the full moon every night!...i'll do anything if it will make it rain!..LOL!....ok, i would be way too embarrassed to do that!...but i will rain-dance, just not naked!...haha....

we have all the lights off in the house and i use a flashlight during the day to see around the rooms....we have black out curtains in the windows that block all light & heat AND...we recently put up huge Styrofoam squares in the windows....it has helped a lot doing that...looks kinda silly i know but hey,it works!....

was thinking about going to a rodeo tonight 60+miles away near the Okla-Texas border, but too far and too hot...at 9pm last night it was 97 degrees....so no rodeos out west of here for me...it's probably hotter out near the state line......

gotta save my gas for working in the truck since we have to water livestock and move them so much to water because it won't rain...lots of ranchers selling off their cattle but we aren't, luckily Grandpa built a HUGE pond on his land 50yrs ago....so *fingers crossed* it keeps holding water.....and we have areas of green pasture near some trees that they can shade and eat off of....oh why won't it rain?! ;(

nobody can do anything or go anywhere because it is so hot...just try to stay cool and find something to do in the house.....I've been working on a creative project for someone...a music scrapbook i'm making...it's really looking cool...i amaze myself sometimes what comes out of my mind...lmao!....looks so awesome...colored pens,glitter stickers,card stock,music.....ahh..love that kinda stuff

xoxo

road-side fruit stand....

Just got home..
Been a very busy morning....there's a livestock auction going on this morning....I made coffee for all the cowboys....lol.....if there's one thing i do know, it's that cowboys gotta have their coffee!...Look at the cowboys in my family.....however me, a cowgirl, i can't drink coffee.....it makes me jittery...and i don't like that...I don't know how Grandpa can drink all that coffee at his age...wow.

Stopped by the fruit stand this morning after the auction and picked out some fruit...It smells so good in those stands!..They had so many fruits/vegetables and they were all RIPE...yep, that's right they were not hot-house grown fruits...they had to have bought them in another state, because here in Oklahoma the drought is killing every thing "garden-tastic"(as Dad would call it..lol.)

I saw Amy there and we were laughing about her brother,we laughed so bad that she dropped her bag of peaches and they rolled everywhere!...LOL!...hope they didn't get ruined from the tumble....Hi Amy! ;p

You can't buy any fruits/vegetables ripe, or any good in the local grocery stores..just old moldy, over ripe, green, over priced crap..haha...and our garden is dead now from the horrible heat/drought....but the okra is still kicking...maybe we will be able to freeze some for fried okra sometime..love that stuff...

I bought a watermelon,cantaloupes,peaches,cherries....fruit is so good in the summer..it's just all apart of summer.It would seem wrong without stopping by the fruit stand or catching the farmer's market this time of year.....i like how they put your stuff in a paper bag always...yes, i'm a dork...lol.

Kisses.

cleaned out the attic.....

Since this hot weather has been causing so many fires everybody keeps worrying about house fires....Grandma and Auntie J. decided they were going to clean out their attics of stuff that was a fire hazard yesterday....because you know running these air conditioners all the time could cause malfunction or overheating and start a fire in the attic and that stuff would catch on fire easily...

At 5am we all helped Grandma take down boxes of stuff and throw it away.....that took til 7am so then Grandma said we needed to go over to Dad's and clean out that stuff she put of ours up in his attic in boxes...there was about 12 boxes of our baby clothes & toys...still in mint condition, rather shocking after all these years....they looked untouched....i had so many toys and clothes back then...i may not have had a stable childhood but i had everything toys/clothes-wise a little girl could want....

Grandma asked us what we wanted to do with all that stuff so me & Sarah decided we would keep a few things and throw the rest away...because what am i gonna do with boxes & boxes of clothes and toys?.....mice had chewed a few things up and pack rats had made nests in a few boxes.....so we just threw all of it away...i kept a few small figurine toys: a Pooh & friends set, some glow worms, a Snoopy figurine and we threw the rest away.....

My cell phone rang 2 hours later and it was Dad as usual...he calls a billion times a week when he's gone out there working....so he asked what we were doing and i said:"About to go work, we're getting a late start today because we been cleaning out the attics to prevent fire hazard."...he goes:"Oh, yeah?...what did you clean out?"...I said:"Grandma's attic,our attic, and your attic....we found a million boxes of our baby stuff and we threw it all away, you'll have lots of room up there now." DEAD SILENCE.

he goes:"WHAT?!! YOU THREW IT ALL AWAY?! WHY?!...why did you throw it all away!?what about your baby shoes in boxes and those toys?! what about that toy pink bunny and that glow worm i got you?!..how could you do that?!Why didn't anybody ask me first?,it's my attic and stuff i wanted to keep!" i was like:"Uh-oh, well...i didn't think you wanted or needed 12+boxes of our old baby stuff sitting in your attic."...he starts crying and goes:"I wanted that stuff, i want you to all go get that outta the g*ddamn trash and put it right back where it was!...tell grandma to stay outta my sh*t!".....i was like:"OK."yikes.

he also kept telling me while he was kinda crying:"There was this little dress i bought you, it was yellow and had a little bear on it with flowers..did you see that anywhere?!"...i said:"I don't think so...nope, sorry..too many clothes to go through."....LOL...and i'm not pilfering through all those clothes to find it either...didn't tell him that though.

so i hung up and told Grandma she said:"No, he don't need all that mess up in the attic, i'm throwin' it all away...he's just homesick and too sentimental right now...i'm not puttin' all that back up there, get him a box of your shoes and a toy or two he can keep."

so we did...my glow worm still glows after all these years. ;)

it's so crazy how he was being about our old baby stuff!....i mean he could easily end up on that show about people who hoard things..lol...oh my goodness...craziness.

xoxo

Calling all hot heads......

Good grief!...This heat must be driving everybody crazy....people are fighting,whining,crying,yelling everywhere around here....LOL....and i just thought it was my family going bonkers!..friends are too now...

Brenna already got into a scrap today with a stupid witch from town....i just told her when she called me griping about it:"Hey,hey,let's calm down now,let it go,simmer,simmer,cool down,chill."...god i am starting to sound just like my grandpa....haha...Then Travis got a speeding ticket and yelled at the cop!..lmao!

BUT.

i am pretty grouchy too...i was fired up on my last post!....haha...a case of PMS & horrible cramps+stupid kinfolk's crapola=anger fueled rants....they deserved it though! ;) 

Dad called home last night about the hillbilly kinfolk's crap they been doing and he gets mad as h e l l and starts yelling he's gonna drive home just to kick their *sses AND if this *hit doesn't stop there is gonna be hell to pay from him and they will wish they didn't even know him.....blah blah blah...he was yelling.....yikes!....we figured that it might get dangerous if he did come home and do that, so we got Uncle Pete to calm him down and tell him NOT to come home...oh boy.

Grandma told us to be extra careful what we do tell him....don't even joke that we are tired of someone bothering us,because he will get mad, drive all the way home, and do something to them...he's kinda crazy...that's just him...he will kick their *sses and go on..til he thinks he gets his point across--- into their minds....hope his spies don't call and tell him about the Harrell P. bothering us at the casino thing...*oh god!* You know what?..Cody probably already did that....oh no.

35+days of scorching,dry, heat with tempers over 100degrees will make you crazy and drain your bank account...electric bills are outrageous, the creeks, ponds lakes are drying up and it won't rain a big rain...just small pop-up showers that last 2 seconds......i think everyone is frustrated financially,mentally,physically....it wears on you...heat is all those things, drought is all those things....it's starting to look like another Dust Bowl...seems like....

Drought is NOT good for agriculture,water wells,cattle business, horse business, or any other kinda business you can think of....drought sucks!..nothing to do but pray for rain and gripe...lol.

off to shower..another long, hot, dusty day of work put in...

annoying hillbilly side of the family.....

Oh, the hillbilly kinfolk drive me crazy!...nothing but a bunch of big drama queens...always fighting, lying, stealing, trying to make you choose sides.....What's even funnier is they fight amongst each other.....lol...That side of the family is just insane!...

I'd love to take them down to a nuthouse and have everyone of them thrown in and throw away the key....better yet, i wish they would all move to another planet and go away..it'd make my life & everyone else's so much more enjoyable, not having to listen to them and their crazy sh*t.....bwahaha!...god help us all..

You try to ignore them, avoid them and you'll get invited to another family member's party and Boom! there they are....in your face.whining,crying,complaining, oh they're so mistreated and poor...you try to help them and they don't try, or mess it up..because they are so stupid....they think everybody owes them everything..they all want hand-outs..they're lazy trash....oops did i just say that?!...HA HA HA

they make up lies and rumors...you have to be careful how you word your phrases and say things just right or they will twist it around and say your said blah..blah blah..about so & so or you did blah blah blah to so & so when you never did anything or said anything about the person they are talking about....

what are you supposed to say?...just Hi! and now go make some sh*t up and tell someone we said it!...their days of pulling these antics are numbered i think...because everyone is tired of their lies & crap...sick of it...they have made a name for themselves...you know what's sad?....when you have family members that are willing to harm you or cause you trouble because they are jealous of you over the pettiest stuff..now that's sad!..they get jealous if even other family members like you!...they'll lie and try to say you said something about them or vice versa....there's no truth to any of that!...

Grandma calls her Ma Barker's Match....LOL...she tries to get her thieving sons to do crap for her and steal with her....and tries to act so innocent...."What? i would never do that!"..LIAR!...she's 70 yrs old and still doing that kinda crap...along with her sister..another b*tch from hell who needs thrown in a nuthouse...my grandma's nieces aren't they lovely?...

i seriously fought back the urge to kick them down the steps of the porch yesterday..all of them..LOL!...right in their butts!....I don't feel sorry for them a bit...every piece of bad karma they got coming to them they have brought on themselves....they are not gonna be stealing from us, or taking our farm, or moving in on us,or making up pathetic lies and saying we said whatever about any other family members....i won't put up with their sh*t.

Some people would say:" Oh you should just move away from them and get away from them." But i say to that---Why should i have to move because they wanna bully everyone around?..huh?...we are not moving because they annoy us and live nearby...that's the coward's way out...and i am not a coward....they can try every which way they can to annoy us and piss us off but we aren't playing that game old ladies!....i will bring you all down eventually...haha!...

My grandma's side of the family is INSANE..all of them are...and to think i share the same bloodline with these people...why? why? why?

just because Dad is away working again, they think they can all start crap with us and annoy us...he's only a phone call away and you can bet he knows EXACTLY what you are all up to..even your pathetic piece of crap loser thief sons.....

70 yr old cat burglars and their dumbass lazy fried sons....BWAHAHAHAHA!!!!

just remember old hillbilly ladies & sons---we are A LOT younger than you!...Look out!...you can dish it out there and we can throw it all right back in your faces 100x worse.

oh man i am gonna be roflmao reading this post later on....feels good to type this frustration out..god i hate them.

kisses!

casino & the lake.....

Yesterday i went with Brenna,Sarah,Amy,Lacey to the lake for 4th of july.

Since fireworks were/have been banned we just decided to go to the lake and hang out.It was crowded when we got there.

We headed to the showers and showered off in our bathing suits and walked over to the big tall slide/pool...The time before you go down the slide is CRUCIAL...you have to make sure your boobs are NOT going to pop out of your bathing suit!....if you're wearing a bikini, forget it!...lol...you're screwed already..your boobs are gonna be out of your top when you hit the pool below....haha...

We walked up the tall ladder and people start looking smaller and you're almost even with the mountains in the distance...kinda spooky...When i went down the slide i made sure my boobs weren't gonna pop out!...i held my top down....Amy didn't!...seriously between us journal, i think she just likes to show them off to the cute lifeguards waiting in the pool!.....We all just cracked up laughing when that happened...and the cute lifeguard guy goes: " Oh my job is AWESOME!".....bwahaha!....i was almost laughing so much i cried....

Then we rode paddle boats around the lake for an hour....we had to wait forever to get one of those....it was fun though...

after that we left by 4pm, went home, took naps, and then we all met up again and went to the casino and played tables/machines til 11pm....It was craziness in there...they had a 4th of july dress-up party, so we took advantage of that, and painted our faces in red/white/blue and wore tinsel sparkly wigs...mine was blue tinsel...Amy got everybody star glasses and we wore them....i just wore shorts/t-shirt over my bathing suit and blue flip-flops....

any excuse to dress-up or paint my face outrageous makes my day! ;)

Travis,Eli, AND Cody went with us, because girls don't need to be going to the casinos alone at night!...oh whatever family!..blah..blah.....but anyway they went...and we saw Harrell P...god....i think he lives in the casino!...he came up behind me and started picking me up and trying to kiss me, so i took some face paint off my hand and smeared it all over his face....LOL...i won that one!.....i hope it got in his eye and stained his shirt...take that harrell!

Cody told him to leave us alone or he would kick his *ss....lol...

like we can't deal with Harrell and his stupid friends?!..annoying as they are, we could all whip them i think even though they are 6ft+tall....lmao...

after that we drove home and fell asleep on the couch watching the weather channel in our bathing suits....yes we are crazy...lol..

kisses!

Family drama....long

We had a cook-out yesterday with family at Dad's house...it was eventful....me & Sarah didn't get there til about 5pm because we had to go work(move cows and build a fence where they tore it down)...we were tired and it was super hot outside as always....


We go to his house and he met us at the door and Mark,Diego,Jeff,Rich,Looper, and a few of the other rodeo people/friends were there on the lawn in chairs drinking beer, smoking and talking.....We get to the door and he gave us both a really long hug....so that means something is upsetting him...or he's about to get emotional...


so he said:"Take a seat..sit down, and cool off!"...he started acting really quiet and he goes:" Well...i got news...it's not bad, but not too good, it bothers me, and i can't do anything about it." and we were both thinking:"Omg.....uh...what now?"....


he said:"Well...seems as though...i'm gonna have to take my cowboy job back out in the panhandle west texas, i found out yesterday...and that means things are gonna change drastically around here indefinitely..i'm not gonna be home much anymore except for 1 weekend a month....i hate the hell outta this and i wanna be home and be around here nearby for you girls every damn day....but i can't....my oil field job ended and this old job is steady, good pay, but i gotta move back out there...so...." and he started crying....then we did.


i was all making up excuses and reasons why he didn't need to move back out there to work and how he could find a job working somewhere else and how it wasn't fair....and Sarah is crying and she's saying:" But why so long and far away?..we only get to see you 1 weekend a month!?" and he's crying drying his eyes and he goes:"It's a good job and the money is good...it's a guaranteed job...there's just no other resource...the oil field job is done...so i gotta do what i gotta do....you can always come and see me anytime for a week,or hell,even get you two a job out there working....but grandpa needs your help i know."


I know i'm old enough that i shouldn't be this upset about the fact that my Dad is moving out there to work again for a very long time....it's just that i rely on him so much for emotional support, encouragement, care/love, security, he's just this tough guy that i look to so much to be the hero in a world gone crazy...and when he's not here..i lose that feeling that it's all ok...because my hero isn't here...he's gonna be working cowboy work again in west texas....not here..because he and we all thought he would be home here in oklahoma from now on to work...but whatever....lots of people's dad's work away from them for long periods of time...like Travis said last night his Dad used to stay gone working in foreign countries almost his entire life..he'd see him only 1 week every 3 months or so his entire life....


but then again hopefully we will be able to drive out to see him or pick him up and bring him home for the weekend...it all depends on gas prices and the hot weather....so be happy things aren't always gonna be this way..things can change.


and i usually look for other people in our family to be my "replacement dad hero" while he's gone...isn't that stupid?!.....i wonder if he even really knows how much me & Sarah look to him for all these things...he means so much to us....we just miss him more than anything....and i know he misses us....i mean that is a huge responsibility to uphold being our hero....how does he manage?


so after we all cried, we went back outside and talked to grandma and the aunts,various friends etc....He was sad all evening and Mark was drunk and he stared saying something about dad having to go back to work out there again, and having to move,rent a house...and some other smart*ss arrogant drunk crap and Dad just flipped and he started yelling at Mark and shoved him:" F***Y**!"....and Diego & Jeff had to play referee and stop him from knocking Mark on his *ss......it was sooooo stupid...yep...that's how my family rolls....everything 100miles per hour no slowing down....


so that made a scene and everyone was just like:"Oh...well Chad is just pissed again..no big deal." and they went back to talking....he kept glaring at Mark and they mouthed mean smart *ss stuff at each other all evening...they were both pretty drunk by then....Mark tries to be our replacement father figure and it makes Dad upset that he is trying to take his place in our lives and just throws money at us or fun things to go see and Dad feels turmoil and anger because Mark is here, has caboodles of money and Dad can't be here for us or go places with us.....

i guess what i'm trying to say is he doesn't like Mark playing dad to us...he gets real jealous...because he is our Dad...not him.....and i can understand that he must feel left out when he has to be away from us so long....last time he said unsmiling, when he had to leave:" Mark is not your Dad..i am."


Dad started getting really animated and loose and started quoting words of wisdom to us, laughing, getting loud, and then getting emotional...we left about 10pm...we just had dinner off the grill and then blue slushes from Sonic with Captain Morgan in them....good stuff...lol...we were both sleepy and emotional...so while they were playing horse shoes near the yard lights we went over and told Dad we were going...he goes:" Goin' already?! hell it's just 10pm....well....ok"...he hugged us both really tight and i said:"Stay cool out there...and miss ya." and he cried, hugged us tighter.....he kept crying...he watched us go...i hope what i said didn't make him more sad..


he leaves today to go back out there and i just saw him drive by earlier...slowly...with a sad look on his face so he's just left....it's probably a good thing he didn't stop by and he knows it because he would be worse than an emotional wreck...it's killing him he has to leave again for so long and far away..i'm really worried about how he's gonna take this.....he is very complicated...