homemade cinnamon rolls&coffee.......

 THIS is a good song...and NO it's not a dirty one like yesterdays!!!...LOL!...I listened to this one today on a drive in the convertible...wind blowing through your hair..driving around the mountains...freedom.....it's a song that makes you happy even when your day is bad...that's a good song---when you can't really relate to it at the present, but it makes you happy anyway!.. ;) makes me smile...i like the ganjo he plays..that Australian sound to it.....love it.

Kind of a blah day...it was a good day until we got some not so great news on a grandparent's medical test...the verdict is still out on the results though..going for a 2nd opinion...you know sometimes these smalltown docs get things wrong because they don't have all the state of the art medical equipment or lab work....so we'll see...i'll be praying and keeping hope alive....it's always something you know?.....guess that's what i get for listening to and singing along with that dirty song yesterday and laughing about it right..on a sunday?.....lol

Made the boys at the garage 2 dozen cinnamon rolls&coffee---as a thank you for always being so cool&sweet and changing my oil for free...when i know they probably get into trouble for that!!!they won't ever let me pay them...so i took them homemade cinnamon rolls...they were like:"OH MY GOD!"...they tore into them and started eating them...lol...they kept bragging on them and telling me:"Thank you Julia!..holy sh*t i haven't had anything homemade in forever...can you make them every week?!"...it was kinda cute actually they got so excited about cinnamon rolls!...haha.....i'm glad they appreciated that and it made them smile.....they ate them all by the time i left i think..i just saw crumbs on the plates....lol

That one named Michael ?..i  think is his name?...anyway he told me:"Julia..don't ever get a boyfriend or get married...we would all be crushed..so don't ever do that...you're perfect!...so you can always be our dream girl!"...EMBARRASSING!...oh my goodness! i know i turned red..i'm so shy sometimes it's stupid!...They all smiled at me real big and they all kinda turned red too...haha!...i just said:"Oh wow..thanks that's soooo sweet!"...and i left totally embarrassed!

it was kinda complicated at first to make cinnamon rolls..lol...but i figured it out....the icing was the easiest...the filling in the roll kept trying to run everywhere when i cut them w/string....but i guess they were ok..those boys loved them....i like making things like that for people....it's fun...

going to work out then take a bath...

xoxo

4 wheelers......

It was sooooo freaking hilarious today to see Auntie J...driving us around in the truck rocking out to this song at full blast(the unedited version) music turned up windows down..we drove to town listening to it too...LMAO....oh my! and on a sunday of ALL days!!!...sinners!!!....haha....singing along loudly and screaming w/the  music...LOL...we couldn't STOP giggling...that crazy wild woman!...Bwahaha!

i like the song..it's awesome..i like the beat...lol 

Been having a great time today....we spent most the day on the 4 wheelers driving around the trails on one of our pastures...we have trails made from friends riding around out there and from all of us too...I love 4 wheelers...we race around on them and drive real fast...we drove through a huge mud puddle and got covered in mud...haha...that was awesome...nerd.

A LOT of fun but you gotta be careful and NOT flip it over on you,hit a ditch,hit a mountain,pond,a person, a horse, a cow,a pterodactyl or a chupacabra....LOL..you know none of those things..once you look out for all those things you're in the clear!

We had to get Uncle Pete to help us load them all up onto the trailers...we had to beg him to help us....then he realized we had a fun idea so he decided he would go ride his around too...lol...Auntie J. drove us out there..even though she and Uncle Pete hate each other and are divorced they pretend to be nice to each other around us you know....even though the smiles are forced and they cuss each other behind their backs like crazy....lmao... 

my friends all came by too and rode around..we had a great time....i love lazy sundays..

dangerous bad-asses.....lol

Saturday morning....just woke up an hour ago....

Took the late night shift at the sale last night...i got home by 7pm though...due to the fact that the winds got really strong and they let some of us go on home... it's a bad picture of the sky last night...a cold front was arriving.....it got COLD and the dust blew.....i liked the colors.

 Everybody went to the bar last night and played pool&music...i took my guitar and played a few songs...sometimes i just play the guitar but most times they make me sing too!...lol....oh the bar crowd..you gotta love them...well most of them..the "not mean or dangerous ones" anyway.....

I beat Eli & Kevin at pool last night....i always win w/stripes as my ball...never solids...solids was once the lucky pool ball to get in highschool when we played...but nope hasn't been for a while now..stripes!.....Diego played against me as well...but he NEVER lets me win....he just laughs & laughs when he wins....haha!.....

Amy,Sarah and me tried playing against each other and we couldn't stop giggling so we had to stop playing!!!....

Bad fight at the bar last night...there's always a bar fight...great entertainment!.....LOL.....It's funny how people will come to the bar to fight and just keep on mouthing each other over the littlest stupid stuff....they get some firewater and here they go!...lmao!...We always call whiskey "firewater" as a joke....yes we are idiots...lol..

Eli talks Apache in the bar when he gets to drinking..he'll carry on a conversation w/you in Apache...last night he almost got into a fight w/a Comanche guy who heard him talking Apache and was very drunk, so he started cussing him in Comanche(that guy is a very dangerous guy--carries a knife on him and likes to use it in fights)....see, Apaches & Comanches don't really like each other around here...don't know why...it goes back generations.....so we had to get Travis & that other bouncer to drag them apart...kinda scary for a while...

we left after that...people get too spooky after 1am....and besides that Uncle Pete & Diego made us leave....they said some really bad asses had just walked in so we left..yikes....

we're pretty much limited in weekend entertainment now since all the fighting/mouthing going on w/hillbilly cousins..can't go here,can't go there,stay home,don't do this,don't do that,don't talk to that person,or go w/them anywhere,lock the doors on the house,car,be home by dark...yeah..it sucks bad...but i'd rather listen to my family and be safe rather than sorry..these are some really bad dangerous people we are dealing with now.....

but like Eli said last night:"Uh..Jules...your ENTIRE family is bad-ass & dangerous..it's just bad-asses fighting bad-asses, and your dad is one of the BADDEST!!!...he's at the top of that list around here...EVERYBODY is scared of him!...he kicks ass and takes names..with no mercy!...he has made a name for himself and everyone knows he don't play around about sh*t!"....lol....i never thought of it that way..but it's all still kinda scary you know?.

i just hope/wonder if things will ever go back to what we call normal?..will it ever be over? and how long is it gonna take?.oh well enough worrying/thinking about that crap..

today i have to clean out livestock trailers and then i'm going to clean out stalls in the barn and put new hay in there...

xoxo

high speed chase........

Had to have 4 tires replaced yesterday at the garage and the oil changed in the other truck.....The tires had all of the tread worn down bad...so the boys at the garage told me it was best if i just replaced them.....they changed the oil in the truck for FREE again....lol....

I tried to pay them and they just smiled:"No it's on us!...you just brighten our day everytime you walk in..we look forward to having you stop by!".....lol....TOTALLY EMBARRASSED!...sooooo sweet of them to say all that and do that for free....I hope their boss doesn't get mad at them for doing that....wow.

 i think i'll make them all a batch of cinnamon rolls,or something like that they can separate and share at the garage....that would be thoughtful.....

Harrell&Steven tried to throw me&Sarah in the trash can outside the cafe yesterday at noon....haha..they picked us both up and we're hanging upside down,arms flailing,our shirts were falling down, and that's embarrassing! and they hung us both upside down over the trash cans!...jerks!....Harrell goes:"I'll put you down if you kiss me that's all it takes is 1 kiss!" Then Harrell tried to kiss me and i turned my face away and i just yelled:"PUT ME DOWN NOW !"...(if he was a random person doing that to me,i could have really defended myself believe me)so finally they put us down and right side up on the ground and we ran to the truck..they kept laughing..oh it's sooooo funny isn't it...*sarcastic face*

i grabbed my rope when i got to the truck, and i roped Harrell's foot while he was walking back inside the cafe!!!...LMAO!...he tripped and fell right against the glass door of the building when i caught/roped his foot!!!Mwahaha! I WIN!...because everyone saw it and they all laughed!.....that'll teach him!....it's fun to rope people who make you mad by the foot because it'll trip them everytime....see,i'm a good roper...lol.

Eli kept laughing:"You asked for it Harrell"....i think it kinda knocked him silly when he hit the glass door...but he has a hard head and there's nothing in it anyway so i'm sure no damage could be done to his brain...haha...he got up and he was ok....Frankie kept blowing me kisses and being a nerd...*eyeroll*

in other news, after noon about 1:30pm we were walking out of the tack store and here comes hillbilly cousin& her people and she started mouthing us again..guess she's following us still..making threats she said:"We're gonna have you kidnapped!!!and THEN we'll see what happens!...then we'll see what your Daddy does!I'm sure he won't like that at all!..i wanna see him broken down...he's not bringing me down!"....oh she kept on mouthing her usual...

she doesn't even know what the hell she is saying..none of them do,they don't know what they do or say they're so high on that crap..we just got in the truck and left...we were kinda scared but we just ignored their talk...you always gotta watch them though, they'll do anything...

I wish they would all get thrown in jail so i could go down there and laugh my butt off about it....everybody's sooooo freaking tired of their stupid dangerous BS!!!..when she was screaming all that, people kept staring and acting scared..a guy yelled at us:"watch her!"......when she's present the whole mood of a place changes...you feel silence and just evilness...like dancing around w/the devil...i know who i'm messing w/when she is around...i know how her mind works and ticks...and i know what she's capable of....sure i watch her..but i'm not terrified of her/them....

so then one of my best friends(who shall remain nameless) called me at like 7pm last night and said there was a high speed chase on the road by her house in the country she was really crying&upset..she lives 15 miles NW of us in the country...she said there were 5 cops chasing a white truck down the road and they hit the dead end by her house and were trapped so she stopped at the stop sign and had to swerve to avoid getting hit head-on by it all....

she backed up her truck and watched it all unfold on the dead end there..she said there were 3 people in the truck jumping out--the truck kept rolling and the cops had to chase them down on foot with their guns drawn and they caught them..1 woman and 2 guys...all spooky looking and wiped out....she said the cops took out 7 guns out of truck and a lot of meth&pills...one officer told her what was going on and to stay back(she told him she lived right there almost so he let her go home.....he told her they were very dangerous...and guess who they ended up being?....friends of hillbilly cousins..yikes...

i'm just so thankful that my best friend didn't get killed in a wreck or shot!..makes me cry to think about that ever happening!...innocent bystander....it could be anyone...we've all driven down that road to her house,we do every week or so, and it could've happened any of those times we were driving down that road!

this is all so stupid&dangerous.....at least the walls are closing in on them a little maybe?....i don't know...they're stirred up for a reason...i think we have that much sorta figured out? hillbilly idiots.

anyway....it'll all blow over maybe?....i don't know....

going out for Travis's Birthday today...we're all going to go eat at a mexican restaurant this evening...sopapillias&honey! lol..did i spell that right?

kisses.

 

high winds&dust storm.......

No it's NOT a bunch of clouds in the sky....it's dust rolling in yesterday evening.....the wind blew super strong...supposedly this dust blew in from west texas.....i took this pic of it.....the sky turned brown and almost covered the sun...

It knocked over several power lines and we lost electricity for a few hours...not only that the dust makes everyone sick!..you can't breathe...Luckily we got back home before it hit....

hillbilly relatives pulled into the driveway yesterday morning early and screamed a lot of stuff at us while we were out in the arena riding around...LMAO!...all i could make out was something about:"You little b*tch!...your daddy is a sorry piece of sh*t!..ask him about how he broke (couldn't understand the name she said) leg!...he broke his leg!Ask your daddy about that you little b*tch and ask him about all the drugs!You think he's so wonderful!he doesn't want you to know all about everything he's done...he is sorry!He won't let us have anything to do with you!He keeps us away!He keeps everyone away!.he thinks he's gonna get us but he's never going to..I've got power!!!".....

Power?..oh really..super powers really?...power of what?..morphine/meth delusions?....LMAO...that crazy old witch....we've been giggling about that all day..I HAVE POWER!

what's so hilariously funny about all this crap they keep on screaming is this---We already know about pretty much everything he has done!!! we just let them scream on...and he thinks we don't know about a lot of stuff he's done too...haha..but we know and we don't care...who cares! the past is the past....but we keep on pretending we don't have a clue...keeps everything calm--er....maybe?....lol

we just looked at them like---yeah ok...whatever you say....lol..yawn!..FAIL..ooh..i'm soooooSCARED!!!...so we just ignored them and rode into the barn...Bwahaha!...that really pissed them off bad we ignored them,but we watched them incase they tried to pull something on us....they peeled out of the drive and barreled down the road...haha..see, we can play mind games too hillbillies!!!

Me & Sarah laughed so hard about that...god they're stupid morons...we wonder if that mean ol' rant was a liquid morphine or meth rock induced rant!!!...LOL! They only do all that mouthing so it will start a screaming fight...i'm too smart to give them what they wanna hear....haha..

you'd think they could come up w/a better one than"Little Bitch!" after using that the past few months...LOL...WOW!...i never have had anyone call me a b*tch before...lol...til they have...i'm 100% sure that i'm not a b*tch and i've got 100's of people who can verify that fact....

Stayed home this morning waiting on the internet guy to see if he could set up this laptop on the router...i found out the wireless isn't so great on this laptop.....haha....just great....we'll see if i can get it fixed next week or whenever....i took the morning off for no reason...because it didn't get anything resolved really...

xoxo

don't follow the leader..ever.

Man...i'm tired.....this week has been busy...the sale was really packed lots of buyers & sellers...pretty much equal on both.....windy & dusty this week..really dusty..


IF one more cowboy/cowgirl/rancher/rodeo person asks me:"Hey,have you seen your Dad?..tell him i need a couple horses broke in a few weeks!"...i will scream...Bwahaha!....all day yesterday they would walk up and ask me...i just have to tell them:"Well...he's off, gone working...don't know when he'll be back..but yeah...i'll let him know."...given the circumstances of what all is going on...i don't know what to tell them..


i obviously can't tell them what all is actually going on..could you imagine?.."he's gone and all this dangerous stuff is going on..blah..blah"...they'd be scared--LOL!--"He's what!?..they did what?!..Holy sh*t!!!"...haha....


eh...it'll all blow over someday..just like a storm..like everything does eventually--it solves itself....but that's just considered normal for our family..danger/violence/craziness/...always something going on....we're used to it anymore....


my family is FULL of individuals..we don't follow the leader...each person is who they are..they do their own thing..by their own terms and don't give a crap what anyone thinks or says about them....that's how we all roll...


see,snobby/boring/stuck-up people don't like that individual/unique streak in anyone....they want to control/conform people and have them play by their rules and do what they say/do....and when they don't?..they get labeled by them as weird or out of control...you know any snide remark they can toss out there.....


i think it probably really angers those stuck-up people that they can't be in control of everyone...LOL!!!.....There should be more individuals in this world like us!..too many people are boring/the same old-same old.....those uppity snobs are the weird ones!..it's pretty "weird" to me how they all dress/talk/walk/look alike and have the same attitude....but anyway you get my point... 


while working this week,i got home to realize that my computer was in need of attention(nothing new there)...it's just a total mess..everything...it's old and all this new internet software doesn't match up to it..i have a laptop too and i don't even have the time or patience to deal w/adding it to the router....supposed to be easy..but not with this internet hook-up!!!.i tried late last night to set it up and grew angry and frustrated.....so i went to bed..


when i get tired, i do not need to be trying to deal with the tech world (or crazy people either..lol)....if i'm not online anytime soon..you'll know i messed up my computer trying to fix it...got mad..threw it out the window and ran away...haha


I tried messing with this blog template stuff this morning...i got bored so it's still a work in progress..i'll change it up as i go along as usual...i just have to find a day when i'm not tired and annoyed to figure it out.


take it easy today.


love j.

wild,complicated,&crazy.....

Built fence yesterday...all day around the 3 ponds and then over on another place west of here.....


We got a lot done by 5pm....Uncle Pete,Grandpa,Eli,and the 5 other guys that work w/us went into the convenience store and bought 8 cases of beer EARLY yesterday morning....LOL....they were drunk by noon!!!..they drank it all...lol....Me & Sarah mostly did all the work.....haha....


The wild woman(haha!) that works at the convenience store was telling us how they came in there and bought 8 cases of beer before 7am!!!...that's not a first in this family....Haha!...That woman kept saying:"I don't know how the hell ya'll get any work done w/that bunch....they're always buying beer that early....hell....i have to get the beer stocked up and keep it stocked up in this place right off the beer truck"......


Dad did manage to call me at 2pm yesterday from wherever...my cell rang and i was surprised to see his # on my cell phone screen...He told me he was sorry w/what all has been going on,and he was taking care of it...because it's his stupid mess from the past and he didn't want us involved in what all is going on...he said he thought about hiding us from the hillbilly cousins....he got so worried......and when i asked him if i had figured it out he said:"for the most part"....he kept on apologizing for this stress and then he cried when i told him that we loved him and we missed him....


He kept on saying:"I NEVER wanted for you and Sarah to get dragged into this sh*t!...it's from MY past!....they never should've thrown you into the middle of this!..i'm so g*ddamn mad right now!...i just worry you will be mad at me for this."....I said:"NO....we don't really pay attention or know what is going on..they haven't bothered us anymore"....yep....I lied to him..so he wouldn't be anymore upset.....i just pretended that it's sorta not a problem....just like i always do--pretend i don't have a clue about anything....keeps him calm i guess...lol...


He said he'll be gone awhile doing what he's gotta do.....and that maybe he can see me for my birthday next month....i said ok....


I did tell him about that crazy wild woman(one of his wild women girlfriends from the bar)...lol...she keeps seeing me in town and asking for his cell phone#...i tell her it changed,cause i don't know what i'm supposed to say....so i told him she keeps on bothering me everytime i see her somewhere in town she asks me for his #....


well....he just totally flipped out and in 5 seconds he yells:"That g*ddamn bitch!!!...that whore has no f****** business bothering you about sh*t!...she doesn't even need to be trying to talk to you!!!....you tell her i said to NEVER ask for that f******# again....and if i catch her or hear about her trying to talk to you..there will be hell to pay!!!..she's NOT gonna be talking to you!...none of them are!!!..that sh*t is not gonna fly w/me!...i don't want you around any of those sh*tty people or even talking to them!!!......and if ANY of (hillbilly relatives names) try to talk to you or take you anywhere..there will be consequences!!!..DO NOT ever trust them or go anywhere with any of them!".....


yeah.......so i was like:"Uh...ok..".....and like i'm going to go tell someone that to their face?.....yikes....it doesn't make any sense...he just flipped out about that,started yelling into the phone...I'll just tell her he doesn't have a cell# anymore....lol....the wild women always track me & Sarah down when he leaves,and annoy us about him...yawn.....


we never are around those wild women ever anyway!...lol...or around hillbilly relatives...he's so paranoid or worried all the time somebody is going to try to harm us because we're innocent of that kinda life.....who knows! he knows a lot more than i do about what goes on....he has to trust people around us before he can relax....over protective...he has his reasons i'm sure..stuff i don't know about going on and probably don't ever wanna know about...too much craziness with people around here..


so wild&crazy....but that's him...he can get mad at someone for something they say or do,and he'll just hit them--he doesn't care..he doesn't put up with people's stupid BS, AT ALL....that's how he is...he'd never hit a woman(unless it's hillbilly relative S...lol) and he'd never hit us...never has and never will....


thought about hiding us?really!?....weird.oh well...he's so crazy....but we love him anyway....lol...


freezing today....gotta go put my cover-alls on and go to work..


xoxo.

paid for dinner.......

I really like this song...been listening to this cd alot lately..i LOVE the guitar on this...the video is pretty too...




I paid for everyone's dinner yesterday.....well 6 of my best friends...


Yesterday morning early Frankie&Harrell both were at the cafe when i stopped to get some gas at the gas station across the street.....At the cafe they sometimes have these really good blueberry muffins and breakfast pastry-type things...so me & Sarah hadn't had breakfast and we went over to see if they had any we could buy and just eat those on the way to work....


well....we walk in and there's Harrell,Frankie & Dusty all sitting at the table drinking coffee and Eli was paying for his breakfast and he says:"Hey!...i'm ready for you to buy dinner today!"...and i said:"Great!.....you remembered..good thing i brought my checkbook."....LOL....we started laughing...


So Frankie,Harrell,& Dusty all start mouthing:"Julia....that's not fair!...you buy everyone's dinner but not ours!".....I said:"Not everyone's! just about 6 of my friends who are always in the cafe at noon and have dinner w/me."...Frankie goes:"Hm...well i see how it goes then...what if i actually come in here today at noon..you'll have to buy mine then!"....they all laughed and each one started pretending to cry because i wouldn't buy their dinner....haha!...nerds.


I started laughing and i went over to the counter and bought Frankie,Harrell,& Dusty all 3 each, a hot pink iced donut w/sprinkles on top!....hot pink just for them!....Bwahaha!.....i said:"There you go..i bought you breakfast even though you're all 3 annoying and mean to me...don't say i never did anything nice for you!"....haha...Harrell goes:"Damn it Julie!...why'd it have to be a girly pink donut?!..come on,we don't get to pick?!" I said:"Uh..NO."...we all started laughing.....


they told me thank you...they live to pester me and tease me...but i get them right back sometimes...i'm witty and smart-*ss w/them..i have good comebacks to throw in their faces and they always look forward to that i know.....lol....


it was nice buying everyone's dinner yesterday...it makes me feel great to do nice things like that for people i care about...Grandpa always buys everybody's dinner when they're sitting at the table w/him...it's just something he likes to do.....and i am my Grandpa's granddaughter.....we're a lot alike i think....


kisses.

so not cool..........

Well....they're making threats again and calling....oh big woo!...i'm sooooo scared...hillbilly relatives go away!....Can't wait to see you in the Jailbirds paper!...LMAO! where you belong.... ;)


the thing about all this stupid drug stuff is how they are dragging us into this and we have never had anything to do w/drugs or them...they are indangering our lives--every threat they make,everytime they intrude upon our lives,every fight,the crazy jealous high rants,....it's dangerous & scary.....we're just innocent bystanders...who unfortunately are related to them.....they keep dragging me & Sarah into it and we don't have anything to do w/this..we don't even talk to them!!!..it's all to draw someone out...because they are mad at that person....they stay so wiped out all the time they don't know what the hell they are doing....it's scary...they're really dangerous evil people.


i'm not trying to sound like some kinda boring, goody-goody teacher or something but:


stupid....i just don't get it...i don't care what they do..if they wanna take all those drugs,go ahead be dumb.....it's not my business or my body....i just don't understand though why someone would want to work on killing themselves with all those chemicals for a high.....it gets them all eventually....i'm sure they are making $ selling it to people, but the habit drains their bank accounts,stirs up all kinds of trouble everywhere....


it eats at their heart,brain,other internal organs...makes them super skinny gross-emaciated-bony-looking, and ruins their face&beauty, makes them ugly--- totally nasty looking..which is why it's so hard to watch somebody you adore/love..just fall apart..deteriorate....it's a let down totally when that happens....and in-dangers our lives....


to me, there's NOTHING SEXY about super skinny,strung-out,starving,bony,emaciated zombie people!...ick!...they need to put some weight on,work-out,get tougher,throw out the dangerous chemicals,and start eating!!!


i am sooooo proud when people get off of that crap and stay clean...i don't judge people-i never have....the past is the past..things change..people change....i admire their ability to be able to be so strong and stable--get better,walk away, and never look back...because it gives me someone to look up to,and to believe in you know?....


i have told people in my life:"Look,you gotta get better because i need you in my life...i need you to be here & be strong for everyone..because i love/care about you..i don't want you to die...i want you here alive..if you love me you'll stop."...and that is 100% the truth....several people have listened and done that for me...they're better and off of it...i couldn't be more proud of them!...it means that they loved/cared about me& how i feel,enough,to walk away from it.....and i have them in my life. ;)


i do know that a lot of times addicts are self-medicating pain in their lives...or a mental illness...it's very sad that something so hurtful brought them to that point to where they let drugs control their lives you know?...they're just hiding or trying to deal w/deep,dark,painful issues...which makes it sadder that they blame themselves for something and hurt themselves/their bodies....they shouldn't do that or feel that way!...they need to set themselves free...


everyone goes through self-hate,destructive times in one way or another...but i've always dealt w/bad feelings through painting/music/journaling....art/creative ways....


i just wanna take care of everyone and be there for them.....i know life isn't all sunshine & roses all the time...it isn't for anybody no matter who,or what you are...but there's a better way to deal w/pain than staying high all the damn time.....there's way better things to obsess over than drugs...... ;)


there's nothing cooler& sexier than people who don't let anything control them...they control themselves...they call the shots...nothing rules over them....they're in charge...


i do wish that i could just slap all those hillbilly relatives of mine upside the head and maybe knock some sense into all of them,get them off the drugs....before anything more dangerous takes place...but i know they are all too far fried for that to ever happen.....lol....i'm sick& tired of being caught in the crossfires of all this stupid sh*t.....we're all tired of having to look over our shoulder everyday we go somewhere.....


my Dad and several others in our family just drink & smoke now....i don't see a problem at all w/that...


not to sound like a goody-goody, but that's how i feel...


it's all sooooo stupid&stressful....


xoxo

glitter&confetti = revenge!!!....

Travis bought everyone dinner last night....my friends are all soooo sweet!..i'm buying everyone dinner monday..it's on me... ;)


I get so shy when people buy me things...i'd rather buy something for them....i'd rather them spend their money on themselves..not me....lol....i hate when they won't let you pay them for things.....i always do that right back to them...lol...i buy them things and run out the door so they can't catch me & make me take their money!!!.....haha!...


money,material things,& gifts don't matter to me....it's all the friendships/relationships that matter..not all that money stuff....i'd much rather have those amazing people,than money any day.... ;)


Who found all those tubes of confetti&glitter?!!...LOL!


Whoever found those,gets a thank you note from me!!!.because we got Harrell,Steven, & Frankie back soooooo awesome last night w/those!....Bwahaha!.....They were hanging around the sale barn all night last night...waiting on me&Sarah to get finished working...we saw them sitting in the bleachers...


Eli was there and he gave me the plastic tubes of the confetti&glitter....he said:"Use these on Harrell,Steven,&Frankie...they're going to dump water on you& Sarah when you walk out of the back door."....so we loaded our horses into the trailers after work at 11:30pm...we snuck out the other door and into the truck....


Luckily they were driving Frankie's convertible w/the top down--PERFECT...Bwahaha!....so we caught them in town and me& Sarah dumped ALL of the confetti&glitter tubes all into the convertible all over them!!!..Haha!...oops!..sorry!!!...they were covered in glitter & confetti!!!...WE WIN!...lol...


We couldn't stop laughing!!!..i giggled so much last night,i hurt today!...hope they have a fun time trying to get glitter out of that car and off of them....oh man.....they were shocked & started laughing uncontrollably too..not mad...paybacks! ;)


Harrell opened the car door and rolled out onto the ground and pretended he was blinded or choked on glitter..oh,whatever!..he was trying to stop laughing!....


we left and ran away!...lol.


Taking it easy today and resting....then going to Cattlemen's meeting/dinner tonight w/the work crew...i hope it's not real cold tonight....


xoxo

get up and go on....

Work was so loooooong yesterday....and WINDY & COLD...not whining!


I don't have to work until 2pm-til 11 tonight at the sale.....I'm working the night half of the day because I wanted to sleep a little longer this morning....


I was talking to a friend yesterday about some troubles he's been having in his life....he asked me how i deal w/things that i go through and how i stay so strong...tough emotionally& mentally....it's really thoughtful of him to trust in me to tell me all that...but everyone knows i'm the BEST secret keeper..they can tell me anything...it NEVER gets told....


I told him that i just laugh and go on.....I've been through so much sh*t w/people in my life, that most things just bounce off of me anymore...it doesn't really matter to me...something screws up in my life?..i just step back,look at the situation and i go:"Ok,that's what it is...no big deal..bound to happen sooner or later."...i just really don't care...lol..


i get up and i go on,i try to find humor in it..if there's not anything to laugh about?..i make it funny...i never look back..i just keep on walking no matter how bad it hurts or how much i don't wanna accept it...i don't dwell on the past..let it go...sure i think about past people/things that have been in my life..do i miss them?..sure,sometimes...but there's nothing i can do about the past..it's over....so why worry over something like that or even think about it?...POINTLESS!...haha...


if you're not happy?.don't whine about it or feel sorry for yourself!...you change things..you move on..and find your happiness with whatever or whoever it may be...nobody can just be happy...you have to want it..the only person who can make you happy is yourself and of course if you surround yourself w/things/people that bring you happiness&laughter?...well...that helps it right along! ;)


i decided a few years ago that i wanted to have a life full of laughter,an easy,chill,laid-back,spontaneous life and that nobody will ever break my heart again...being a cowgirl has brought that to me...i don't know if it's the strong,tough family that i have,teaching me how to deal with life that has made me so strong? or if it's just me realizing i have found an occupation i LOVE--it's me---this occupation demands you get tough,quit crying and go on with your life!!!...


whenever i am betrayed by a friend...i omit them from my life...i never talk to them again...they are non-existent in my life because they brought sadness to me..so i look at it as---it's their loss that they lost me...i hold my head up high and i go on...but i haven't had to omit any friends from my friends circle in a few years...they're all good people...


things work themselves out as they should be...if something goes haywire or messes up?..it's supposed to...i believe in signs/symbols---when you're supposed to know something is up,or you're supposed to find/see something/someone...


just let it roll..deal the best way you can..go on..don't look back...don't whine or have a pity party over it...say the hell with it and focus on your work..stay busy!...that's what i do...


my Grandpa always says:"Ah,Hell..it's all-right..it'll be ok kid..give it time.."..and Grandpa is always right..he knows..he's almost 90yrs old!


i don't want to ever have fights/drama in my life....i'm just.:"Ok,yeah,cool whatever..no big deal." about things anymore...but of course if someone causes me troubles i will defend myself,friends,or family...that's just how i am.


every morning when i wake up..i can say to all the negativity&negative people/things that have tried to bring me down,make me sad, and/or will try to in the future--that i have won..and i will win each time...because i am THAT tough....you may try but you can't bring me down.


of course i have to thank my family for making me that way--it's just in my genetics to be tough..i don't know...


xoxo.

voice is gone..the flu!!!

It's so windy& chilly!!!...happy to be finished working for the day...just got home...


I think barrel-racing practice will be cancelled tonight.....unless we can use the indoor arena at Uncle Pete's...but i think he's doing a team roping practice tonight?...whatever....i don't feel like dragging those barrels over there,and he'll get mad we'd be in his way....*eyeroll*


it seems as though all the lightbulbs in the barn have went out...lights everywhere around this place are messing up....some are missing..mysterious huh?...lol...i need to rope&catch that elusive lightbulb thief around here!....haha....I had to buy several lightbulbs/shop lights at Atwoods today....they were $2 a piece...so i replaced them around noon today....it's probably the cold weather making them short out or bust....my guess anyway...


i also bought a huge roll of barbed wire for $65 at the feedstore....that new bull tore down the fence by the 3 ponds over the hill....i'm not building fence in this wind though!..i'll get sicker.


i have caught a cold/flu thing that everyone has....I'm taking Theraflu-Severe Cold Nighttime packs.....you just mix it in hot water and drink it...it really helps!....I slept better last night because i could breathe and not cough.....This Thera-flu stuff tastes like bitter lemon-lime gatorade...lol...but it's better than misery from this flu crap....i just drink it on down and cringe later from the taste....lmao!..kinda like whiskey i guess...


my voice is gone today pretty much......I just squeak when i try to talk now...everybody thinks it's funny or cute and they make fun of me!....lovingly though...not to be mean...just to tease me about it...I just whisper when i talk....They all had me giggling today when they squeaked at me...haha! and even my giggles are squeaks!!!.....oh dear!.....everyone laughed that much more....


oh man, i just realized i have to work the sale tomorrow AND it's gonna be COLD,WINDY....and DUSTY...and i'm SICK..bleh....damn..i'm gonna have to wear those silly cover-alls!!!...LOL!..and i gotta find my gloves & my rope IF i'm working the pens w/Travis....


LOL!...i always smell like cow/horse poop/dirt/hay---Sale Barn-let's bottle that up and make a fancy perfume called:"Livestock Sale Barn Eau du Cowgirl".....well...to me,that does actually smell better than all those overpriced smelly perfumes.....lmao! 


off to drink some hot chocolate,take a bath,and get warm....


Kisses!

went to the spa....

Went to the mall yesterday....i ended up seeing NOTHING i wanted..so i just bought a bottle of sleep aromatherapy hand lotion at the spa...it's supposed to make you sleepy..must have worked because after i took a bath last night when i got home i put some of that on my hands and i fell asleep!...lol..


Me & my friends all got massages at the spa yesterday...Ahhh.....i don't know what it is about having my back massaged that makes me soooooo relaxed and sleepy....If you ever start to massage my back i won't let you stop!....lol..everyone knows this about me...it's the one thing that puts me right to sleep...the lighting,the spa music,the aromatherapy candles...oh man....it's so relaxing....I wish i could live in the spa....we all just got a table each and they give you a towel and tell you to undress behind a curtain and wrap your towel around yourself then lay on your tummy.....best $65 i've ever spent!...i highly recommend that to anyone.....it's so awesome.....


the guy that massaged my back said i have a lot of tension in my upper back and my shoulders....he asked me what my job was and i told him:"I'm a cowgirl"...and he goes:"That explains it doesn't it?"....he was really nice he kept asking me questions about being a cowgirl and did i like it as a job?...and i told him..."It's all i've ever known...it's me...i love it".....he finally stopped asking me questions and i almost fell asleep...i may have snoozed a minute or 2 there...lol....


I don't think Amy & Sarah or Brenna ever stopped talking the whole spa time....LOL...we are such nerds..we were all sleepy after we left the spa and things got really stupid and we were all trying to stay awake...so we all were saying stupid stuff like:"Shut the spa up!"...."It's about spa time you make up your spa mind!"..Haha!..don't ask...we're just nerds...it was really funny though...


I almost bought a salt rock-crystal therapy lamp for $40 they had for sale in the spa..had a pretty peachy gold color to it when it was lit up from inside.....it's supposed to be good for your lungs when you plug it in and it warms/lights up the crystal salt boulder...it was just a small boulder of salt rock carved w/a lamp in it...that would be good for my asthma&allergies problems maybe?...but i didn't buy it...we also saw some  hookah-type things that you breathe in flavored air through...pretty cool...


we left there,then we called Eli,Travis,Kevin to see if they wanted to meet us for pizza at Pizza Hut......I love pizza....Everytime our highschool class took a trip we always stopped at Pizza Hut for lunch...so whenever i walk into one and we eat there together,it's like highschool all over again.....haha.....we laugh and carry on...


Our aunt called my cell and asked us to come over and help her decide what color to paint her dining room so she just invited our friends to come along too, and she made sweet tea and a lemon meringue pie...it was good...yes i had a piece of pie diet!..but a small piece so not much sugar!...lol...


she lives near the wichita mountain estates...oh man...it's beautiful...her house is so awesome and the view out her upstairs window is soooo pretty....some of those houses burned near there,but they are gonna be re-building....my friends were all in awe of her house...she has a pool too....it is beautiful..i'd love to live there...the mountains are what makes it so beautiful..you look at them and feel so peaceful..just like looking out into the huge pasture and seeing them as the backdrop and nothing but trees....we're so lucky to have that view...


Kisses!.....

weird,stressful & crazy.....

Ah, so here it is Monday.....


Looks like it's going to be a rainy day....well hopefully it is because we need rain!


Weird things still going on.....Me & Sarah were followed into the convenience store yesterday.....we went in got a water and paid for our tank of gas....this freaky looking guy all wiped out on something followed us into the store and the cashier at the front was really watching him...so when we noticed him following us we tried to hurry up to the front of the store and get out of there...the cashier looked at us all weird like..she noticed that freaky guy following us.....


oh, i'm sure he's one of hillbilly relatives friends...his eyes were glassy&red.....lol...they are so stupid....he was all twitchy looking and spooky..haha!..obvious what he's been doing.....i'm probably 100% sure he's one of their people....lol....idiots...


we got to the door and he was right behind us....so we got into our truck and he walked out of the store and kept looking at us..we pretended to not see him.....we watched in the rear view mirror to see if he followed us driving down the road..he followed us 2 blocks and turned off....


it could all be to just scare us and intimidate us so we'll go run and tell someone in our family....they're making threats again.(Oooh!..i'm soooooooo scared!...boo-hoo!).*sarcastic face*...now that some of them & their friends got thrown in jail they are furious..they ALL need to be thrown in jail..every last damn one of them..i'm tired of their sh*t!...i don't feel a bit sorry for those idiots!....LOL!..LOSERS!.....


they're just mad at a certain someone over something and trying to draw him out to fight by dragging us into this crap making threats about us....it's so stupid....but what isn't stupid with hillbilly crackheads?...lol...they just all feel sorry for themselves and get wiped out on their drugs...stay cracked out and jealous of everyone and start fights all the damn time....yawn! they're a feudin'! Yee-haw!...Bwahaha!...god this is pathetic.....


Uncle Pete made the weird remark yesterday right outta the blue he goes:"Your Daddy is deadly when he gets mad...everyone knows that..he's crazy as hell.".....umm...why did he say that so randomly? and that's all he said....we didn't ask questions....we probably don't wanna know..but i think i have it figured out maybe?


i know about all the crazy, wild stuff he's done before and that he lives his life wildly and he gets outta control sometimes,he's over protective of us,and he is super crazy when he gets mad--but who cares!...that's just who he is....but i do know for the past 6yrs he's not been doing anything bad narcotic wise..just drinking & smoking......he quit that bad stuff because he said he doesn't want us to see him like that ever or for us to ever be involved in that dark useless kinda crapola because he loves us.....and i'm soooo proud of him for that.....


he's always gonna be wild & outta control...that's just him...if he wasn't a crazy, wild, badass, tough guy i wouldn't know who he was....haha!..i just want him to be safe and ok...whatever is going on right now.


this is all WEIRD and kinda stressful....i hope this all blows over fast....i'm not worried just tired of all this...


going w/friends today to have fun after work.....use up my gift cards at the mall to buy some jewelry or something i guess.... we'll be on the lookout for them today....lol..i'll kick their asses if they get near me....haha!


xoxo

pain!!!.......

Worked the past 2 days at the sale...we had to buy a light kit and replace the tail lights on the stock trailer...it wasn't too hard really doing that...lol...i hate reading directions on things though..lol....It was weird how just all of the sudden the lights shorted out...and we can't be having that!..yikes..the highway patrol will ticket you for that if they catch you!...haha.....good thing we saw it Thursday....


i did manage to slice off the bottom half of finger-nail of my middle finger..that part of nail is gone--nothing but blood and tissue now..it bled forever....It got sliced in a latch on the gate..HURTS!..i wrapped a piece of brown paper bag around it w/tape and kept on working.....brown paper bag supposedly stops the bleeding....worked!..so i guess it does...it's very painful--like make you sick pain!..oh Tylenol i love you....


Nothing is better than being privileged enough to be able to sit at the table w/my Grandpa and his old rodeo friends on sale days.. and drink coffee....lol...listen to them tell old stories....love it.


Last night we all went to the bar til 2am..lol..so tired,but i went anyway..

I've learned how to play this song on my guitar,so i played it and sang w/the house band...(my finger wrapped in band-aids i still could play!).haha!.


Everyone in the bar stood up for me yelled and cheered..they always do....haha!...it's so fun playing and singing..I really like this song turned up loud....it's so cool..makes me smile!..someday whenever i fall in love,it would sound like this song.... ;)


In other news----Lots of people at the bar..bikers,rodeo people,cowboys/cowgirls....The wild women were at the bar last night as always...lol...hanging all over Uncle Pete,Cody & Mark...gross... 


i drove Uncle Pete & Cody home...lol....they were pretty drunk by then.....i like to take care of people and make sure they don't get hurt or hurt someone else you know?..so i don't mind at all..helping them in the doors or up the steps to their houses....it's kinda funny!...haha...


A lot of my friends and people i know,were there at the bar...Harrell & Frankie drove by the house last night at 2:45am and Harrell screamed at me:"Julie!!! i love you,you sexy b*tch! You're Beautiful!!!"...


whatever....he was pretty drunk...i hope he didn't get lost driving out here in the country..i hope Steven was driving, not those 2....


oh,they're good for a laugh...so now we gotta drive by his house at 2:30am and yell things at him....an idea!..ooh! let's wait til Monday..when he has to work that morning early and is trying to sleep!!!..oh no you wouldn't...oh yes i would! Bwahaha!...


Kisses!

go away hillbillies!!!........

So far i have been working out for 1hour a day after i get all my work done....I've kept up a pretty good schedule.....and the only sugar so far i have had is strawberry jello w/bananas,peaches,grapes,pear cubed up in it....that's my only sugar...my Grandma always makes jello like that...i like it...


Something strange is going on w/all the stuff that's swirling about w/hillbilly relatives lately...one hillbilly cousin took to facebook this week and has been trying to harass my friends about me..saying i think i'm too good to talk to them and they leave stupid messages on my friends facebooks...blaming my friends now for the reason i won't talk to them(hillbilly relatives)...blah..blah...oh yawn..whatever who cares....


see,they think i have a facebook,but guess what?jokes on them!...i have never had one--i'm smarter than that!..haha!.so keep on searching for it LOSERS!.....lol....my friends all know how they are and that they are trying to start trouble anywhere they can...i tell ya..they are crazy....they will do anything...falsify your name on things,try to steal your SS#,bank account info,your mail,threaten you....ANYTHING evil you can think of, they will try it....we never know what they are plotting or planning...gotta pay attention.


they're trying to use me & Sarah as some kinda pawn in their fight...dragging us into this...just to stir someone even more....no worries though...it's all gonna be ok....may take a while but it will... ;)


Another strange thing that happened yesterday was Uncle Pete & Mark throwing a piece of paper w/a list of businesses names on it onto the table...We go:"What's this for?" Uncle Pete goes:"Stay away and out of those businesses..don't ask questions."....What?...uh...so we didn't ask...WEIRD.


Sarah picked up a copy of Oklahoma's Jailbirds Paper--(best invention ever!..lol) for our county yesterday in at the gas station(that's not on the list of avoids..lol..)She bought one so we could see if any of the mugshots in the paper were our hillbilly relatives or their friends....how funny!...well....we saw a guy in that paper that was the SAME freaking guy that has been following us around town somedays...he followed us in the casino one night,and then he followed us into the hardware store one day and stared at us all crazy like....we got freaked out and brushed it off as just someone trying to scare us...we never told anyone about it...


he was jailed along about the same time as the hillbillies...he's one of their people....LOL...funny,but spooky at the same time.....casino is on the AVOID list as is Hardware store,grocery store,one gas station...now we know why...


me & Sarah swear we saw someone out of town--in the nearest town yesterday when we were going to the feed store...he saw us and he hid his face from us real fast..he turned his face away so we wouldn't see him...i know it was him....he was standing across the road putting gas in a black vehicle we've never seen before...long sleeved shirt.different-type hat..but i know it was him....lol...and now i think i know what is going on....lol...


he kept trying to see us w/out us seeing him..but i was watching him in the rearview mirror...i know that was him...and Sarah does too......


god this is getting weirder....welcome to my life...lol 

stinky perfume ads.....

Wow...so it's 2012 now....hm...i sure hope it's a good year...a better year....well i don't wanna jinx it saying that!...lol..fingers crossed!


New Years Eve a windstorm blew through at 7pm and lasted til very late...dust in the sky...you couldn't hardly see the security lights outside the casino when we left at 9pm for all the hazy brown dust blowing in the air.....we went over to the bar and played music until 10pm...then the wind blew an electric pole over and the electricity went out by 10:30pm....LOL...so we all just laughed and went home...i had 1 margarita that night...i went home and got in bed by 11pm and fell right asleep..i was soooo cold!..Brr!....the wind chills must have dropped fast when that windstorm blew through...lol....


once again those people excited about fireworks didn't get to set them off because of the wind..fire hazard...lmao...that's funny out of all the nights the windstorm coulda showed up..it happened on New Years Eve....haha!...bet those people are super mad!...lol..


Auntie J. had a whole bunch of magazines shes had setting around the house..she had stacks of them..all  kinds of magazines...she set them in the truck yesterday when we were stopped at the gas station...she set 3 sacks of them in the backseat...well within 5 minutes i guess the heat from the sun heated up those magazines and those perfume ads in them started smelling really loud..i mean..it got so bad we had to turn around take them home and leave them!..


it was like the combination of a zillion stinky perfumes all rolled into one!...we started getting headaches and almost gagging..pretty potent stuff....lol...those perfume ads pack some power w/them..if they wanna attract your attention,they sure got mine...enough to know i won't be buying their smelly stuff!..ick!..it made us sick...i had a headache all freaking day after that...over priced stinky loud smelling perfume...whoever likes that crap can have it..because i wouldn't waste my money on it!...LOL....it was awful..we had to leave the truck windows down just to get that perfumes smell outta there because Uncle Pete and Grandpa got mad it was so loud smelling...haha...


A person would think we had sprayed a whole gallon of perfume in there..but it just came from magazines!...


long day of work ahead....