Hello 2013.....

Goodbye 2012.

You weren't a bad year..but you weren't that hot either....lol..

I'm hopeful for 2013 as i am for each new year..i don't know why..lol....Not making new year resolutions because i can never keep them...so i'm not making any...

Staying home tonight...bad weather...bad roads and FOG...soooo not good for driving in at 2am with light snow possibly,getting stranded on the highway, and dodging drunken drivers....WITH NOBODY TO FIND/HELP ME AT 2am.....not worth it...all that mess...getting stranded/killed...no thanks!...

love being with my friends and celebrating,but just not into all the New Years Eve hype.....it's overrated and bleh...besides i'd be miserable and sleepy.

In a bad mood because i feel like crap....yep....i've got that flu like everyone else around here..coughing/chills/hurt all over.....guess things worked out like they were supposed to..

going to take theraflu,go to sleep,and see you in 2013.

Yay for being sick on New Years Eve! ;(

xoxo

winter has arrived.....

I got my wish.....It SNOWED!!!...

Haha..i guess if you wish hard enough sometimes you get your way...too bad that's not all the time.

Christmas was just meh....it was ok...but of course i didn't get to see my Dad or any of the other family members that are gone working..miss them terribly!!!..hated that...a hug from Dad would be worth a bazillion presents!....but oh well...hopefully my gifts warmed their hearts and made them smile...

AND considering the gifts were things that could actually keep them warm...i'm hoping they came in handy in this snowy icy cold weather....i'm so awesome....lol...easiest gifts i ever thought of, actually ended up being useful this time of year..socks,gloves,blankets,shirts....and candy.

the other half of Christmas got cancelled due to a blizzard...soooooo saturday we are having another small Christmas lunch...sandwichy type lunch...

The gifts i got from family and friends were mainly necklaces and gift cards......i've got a lot of online shopping i'm praying i get to do soon....i want new jeans,snow boots,tops, rhinestone headbands and a new purse/wallet....ya know clothing related items.

i've got to start planning ahead in time for my spring trip to new mexico...sure it's not til march..but i'm going to go ahead and be buying things for it the next couple of months...super excited about that!....it's been FOREVER since i have had a vacation and i am in dire need of a getaway...NOW!...lol...

we spent most of Christmas dinner talking about the upcoming vacation and looking at family pictures from other vacations which got me totally excited and looking forward to the trip....I think i will look at it as a meditational/spiritual getaway for me...mountains have that spiritual effect on people i think...just silence and beautiful views from high above.....peaceful.

anyway gotta go....have to get a few things from town in case we have that snow/freezing rain in a few days they are expecting for our local weather.

xoxo

Christmas eve 2012....

Has to be my favorite Christmas instrumental...beautiful.

Well....here we are....finally made it to Christmas eve.....Dinner today at noon at Grandparents & later at Auntie's house tonight....Cowboy Christmas you know....dinner is BBQ and mesquite smoke...lol.

Excited for today but kinda bummed that i'm not going to get to see everyone in my family..really a let down...but i expected that considering all that is going on....So i will try to make the best of it all and have a good Christmas eve...

I made a strawberry homemade cheesecake,pecan pie,pumpkin pie---to take to all these family gatherings as the desserts...AND i'm contributing potato salad to the BBQ dinner....lol..hope it's good! i like it with plenty of mustard...

We may not get to have Christmas tomorrow anywhere because supposedly there is a pretty good chance we may have a ton of snow....Yes SNOW!....i think maybe everyone around here is excited about that possibility....i like to watch it fall and besides it makes it feel more like Christmas....kinda takes your mind off the fact that you miss your family that can't be here so much....helps me anyway..........and it could keep the annoying snobby relatives from being able to travel to here!...LOL...Yay!...

still rather upset about how that one "supposed friend" acted this weekend...like a spoiled, uncaring bratty.selfish,cold,adult......really hurts she acted that way to everyone...we all wish we had NEVER invited her down, or even saw her, or even exchanged Christmas gifts with her!....she didn't buy anyone else a gift, but she got one from everyone then acted like it was nothing to her..i mean seriously?!....it was pretty much she was like:"Give me a gift!"....then she acted weird and left...

are there any true friends anymore?...can't believe she acted like that...oh well nothing should surprise me anymore...why should i expect anything different from her?...everyone's bratty,spoiled and cold hearted....ungrateful.....maybe today will get me out of this rather pissed off & annoyed, upset mood?

i'm just kinda tired of being so giving and kind with gifts,spending money on nice gifts for them,going out of my way to be nice and cheery to people in my life and getting nothing in return but someone expecting a hand-out..not even a thank you..it seems like some people don't appreciate anything nice you do for them...

anyhow in a bad mood..i need sleep.maybe tomorrow or tonight it will snow like crazy and make me happy....lol

merry christmas.

dust storms and cookie party....

This song is so cool.....Love them!....

pic from news

Last night a major dust storm blew into Oklahoma...we got a ton of west texas dirt in the air and everywhere...No thanks west Texas for your dust/dirt!...lol...you can keep it...

The wind blew so bad last night at times!!! i have never heard it blow that fast like that...kinda scary.....when it blew through the trees it sounded like a million screeching voices screaming...kinda spooky...This morning there are shingles blown off the roof everywhere..things blown around everywhere..Call the insurance man!!!..bet he's gonna be busy this week.

it got so freaking COLD...this morning just being out there for a few minutes in the wind still blowing a little---your fingers freeze and your bones all hurt....i'm sicker..coughing/sneezing...bad allergies...i will have to buy some Theraflu to make it through this week i suppose..it helps me....bleh..

I HATE YOU dirty cold wind!!!(you cause pneumonia!!!)

Got a few gifts finally given to family that i hardly see,but think of very often.....hope they like their gifts from me, and it makes them smile or something good....And i got my Dad's gifts to my Aunt to hopefully get it to him wherever he is working at right now...I really miss him...but i know with all the craziness going on he's working a lot....things are gonna get back to "the normal" around here..give it time....

just kinda sucks right now....doesn't even feel like Christmas-time really, with the weather being whack & warm and everyone being away working...oh well...we'll manage...Just wish i could at least see a snowflake or several for Christmas??? PLEASE?!...SNOW.

anyhow tonight is the annual Christmas Cookie Party with my friends...excited!...it's a lot of fun..decorating cookies and swapping them with friends...helps it feel like Christmas a little more maybe?

xoxo

december randomness.....

I thought this was kinda cool..watched it on tv the other night..

Ok....I give up on the "perfect Christmas gift" shopping!!!....
 
My Grandma is the toughest person to shop for!...she's sooooo picky and she'll tell me not to get her anything...then she'll say:"Oh.......well get me a tube of lipstick.".....LOL...lipstick?seriously for a Christmas gift?!that's all?...no way...i'm not getting my Grandma just a tube of lipstick for Christmas!!!....
 
So along with a tube of lipstick(that she will probably not like the color anyway)...i found her a pair of sparkly red earrings and a matching red sparkly necklace $50 total....she likes red....so *fingers crossed on that one*....until this morning she pulls a necklace out of her jewelry box (that is the same length as the one i just bought Saturday at the mall) and she goes:"This necklace here is just too long for me..i don't like them this long."......god!.....i give up on Christmas shopping 2012!..what'm i gonna do about that now?!...oh well!...she can take it back if it's too long for her...lol...yes, i know..someday i will be an old picky lady just like her...not judging her!...
 
To all the friends/family trying to spy on me shopping in town?---Bwahaha!!!...just because you don't see me buying a gift that looks like it might be for you, doesn't mean i haven't bought you one!.....LOL!.....duh!..i might have bought it ONLINE!...i'm sneaky like that!...haha!
 
have to start making more candy tomorrow to get started on my candy gift boxes i give to family&friends as part of their gifts from me...kinda excited to get this all put together and given away......gonna make ALOT of candy for friends/family...almost bought the grocery store out of marshmallow creme and chocolate chips AND pecans...pecan tree didn't come through this year because of drought...boo!
 
taking gifts to my Aunt to hopefully get them to my Dad this week...nervous about gifts getting to him!!!..i really hope he likes them...lots of clothing & etc...ya know..stay warm winter clothing....AND homemade candy.
 
this weekend i also paid for half of my upcoming spring vacation to New Mexico...room already booked for march with friends/fam...yay!...*excited*..talk about that all later blog.
 
Having random people tell you how beautiful you are on a boring downer of a day makes your day better...aww...so sweet of them to say that...but i could never see myself as beautiful...i'm too down to earth and soooooo not superficial about things to ever view myself as beautiful....i mean, i know i'm pretty but i just don't care.....but it's a very sweet comment to say and made me smile..thanks anyway though!
 
been wearing red sweaters....red nail polish.....red lipstick all this month!...Anyone around me puzzled by that---there's no artistic mystery to solve!....LOL...It's December!...hello?...Christmas....maybe it's a Christmas statement?....haven't they noticed the green holly leaves and red berries hair pin in my hair?....Christmasy all month...well...duh!....haha!...they're puzzled and there's the answer...simple.
 
yay! for the Jenn-air cook top given to me by family who didn't want it!....super sleek and cool...ready for Christmas.

nite-nite.

i love farm/ranch stores....

Sleepy.

in bed watching Wrangler National Finals Rodeo on GAC.....i've been keeping up with it most every night it's been on...until i fall asleep for the night...

Been a long day it seems like....A few cows jumped the fence and tore it down over by the ponds and i spent most the day trying to find them and drive them back to the other side of the fence....They just look at me like:"What?! We haven't done anything wrong!Go away Julia!".....haha...yeah they are spoiled moos...every single one of them has an attitude...i swear.....

I managed to find a few more gifts for family today..I found cowprint fleece blankets on sale so i bought a few of those...i'm going back and buy some for myself tomorrow!...lol.....and more cowboy christmas gift bags,fuzzy socks(for gifts)a red sharpie marker,cards,coffee cups,and gloves all at the farm/ranch store....I think those make good gift ideas for cowboys/farmers.....

anything from any farm/ranch store would be a good gift to me...i freaking LOVE those stores...i shop all the time in them...I come from a family of nothing but cowboys/farmers so that's the BEST place to shop for them or myself..they have everything related to this life....from equipment to feed to clothing to boots to cute cowboy decor....yeah i'm in love with those stores...can't ya tell?

i'm thinking about assembling gift baskets...you know making a basket full of various things and wrapping it in clear gift wrap...with adornments....lots of things altogether...pretty!....I have so many friends/family that buying gifts can be a bit of a headache....so why not throw in various items?...make it fun,cute, and random...and.....cowboy themed of course.

It takes a while to get to a good town to do some shopping....BUT i don't mind at all really..People sometimes ask:"How do you stand living so far out there in the middle of nowhere?!It would drive me insane!"...and i tell them:"I LOVE it....it's all i have ever known....I could NEVER live in the city/town...i gotta have my quiet desolate,wide open spaces....or i would suffocate and wither away into nothing.".....

some people have to constantly see other people and interact or stay on the go 24/7....not me!!!....I like my quiet time and isolation...sometimes i just don't have much to say to people and i just like being alone..most the people in my family are that way--genetic....i guess i'm not much of a talker....(you couldn't tell that from how much i like to type could ya?!!".....LOL....some people just talk way too much for me...

More shopping&planning to do for tomorrow....

nite-nite....zzz....

do acts of kindness for the world....

It snowed!...Haha...Well....it was just a "dusting" of snow at 2am this morning...I never saw it...i was asleep....Man,I wish it would snow on Christmas!!!...It feels more like it should with snow...

I heard this song on a holiday music satellite channel..I really like it!..great lyrics..Perfect title for that little bit of snow i never saw this morning...lol..i'm going to itunes this one.

It was so freaking cold this morning...11 degrees!...great though-switching things up a bit weather-wise..So i had to go break ponds and water tanks this morning in pastures for livestock and feed them in the truck..in those huge "i can't move or walk cover-alls"...LOL!...kept me warm though...no complaints.

My missing package in the mail arrived and is now wrapped under the tree...i sent a thank you email to the person who got the order right and to me in the mail...thank god i got it!....It was a gift for my Dad...hope he likes it and i get to see him soon...

Along with that gift i also got a few others wrapped today...I've decided that i wanna make my own ribbon bows this year out of wire ribbons because my aunts all do that..NO boring bows out of a package for this girl!...so i attempted it after Auntie J showed me how saturday..I bought a really pretty red/sparkly wire ribbon roll to match my red/white/wreath/berry wrapping paper...

it's fun to change things up like that even the simplest things like making your own bows on gifts...makes it more special and interesting i think...do something different.

here's a video i found to learn how to make them today...BUT my Aunt is the best bow maker and teacher...lol...

Oh!....i won $25 in the drawing this weekend at the parade in town....Haha!!!....me & my friends were all there acting like morons and being stupid..laughing and talking all over town all night.. and the hot chocolate/marshmellows!..it was soooo good!....good day.....AND we sold a lot of candy for the Town & Country Club to donate for the various Christmas charities in town and the toy/food drive for the churches...

Feels great to help contribute good for the community/world and do something nice for all the people and animals suffering this year and all the time---i care for them all and feel sadness in my heart for each and every one suffering human or animal..Bless them all....they're always in my prayers and thoughts...

the world seems crazy and evil at times but things can get better...every good and kind thing you do in the world---big or small, makes the world a better place...we should do that all the time not just at Christmas....instead of being depressed or bored or arguing over money or material crap----Think of the people suffering and the animals and go do something good for them and help make a good difference...forget yourself!---your worries/depression get up off your butt, stop whining/feeling sorry for yourself and get out there and do good acts of kindness for the world...you can start in your community/town or your space you live..reach out to someone/or a charity and help out somehow..be kind...you'll feel great...i promise!

xoxo!!!

making homemade candy....

Just because this is an awesome song and he's my fave....
 
Ok, so far i have gotten the online purchase straightened out after about 5 emails with the company i ordered from....lol....they were nice though..They DID make a mistake and hopefully it looks like they fixed it and they even sent me a tracking number...they had sent me the tracking number to a previous order from them...lol...that was the problem...*fingers crossed it gets here*...nervous.
 
helped my Grandparents with Medicare supplement enrollment yesterday...online..oh wow...you talk about confusing!!!...i had no clue what to do with all that mess....yikes....it takes a genius to go through all those plans and pick/choose...can't they make that simpler for them?.....hopefully i made the right decisions for them....they chose and i filled out the info online forms for them...anything with the government is complicated..why?...so stupid...especially being completely complicated for the old people....ridiculous...that was stressful let me tell ya!
 
Turned my little bull calf out yesterday on wheat...he's had his shot and he's doing really great..i spy on him with binoculars and see how he's adapting to life with the other cows....i raised him from a tiny little baby on a bottle...he was orphaned and i saved him...been a lot of hours and care...tough at times but i did it!!!...i'm sooooo proud of myself for saving him and i'm proud he's healthy and free now in the pasture...kinda teary eyed turning him out...he looked at me a few minutes and then took off running with the other cows...he'll never leave this farm....he's my baby...isn't that silly?..aww..i love him like a pet...he's so cute...his name is Blue. ;)
 
AND.....so apparently everyone wants milk chocolate/white chocolate fudge as the candy this year..so i guess that's what i'll be making for the parade friday after we finish decorating, and i will make some for my Christmas candy boxes this year...I just use the easy recipe with marshmallow creme.Since our ENTIRE family is crazy about peanut butter i'm going to attempt to make Peanut Butter fudge candy....i hope i can make this right shouldn't be too hard....

Sooooooooo looks like i will have to buy A LOT of ingredients to make all this with tomorrow morning....i still gotta buy ribbons/wrapping paper/tape/and adornments for making things all cutesy on my candy boxes and my gift packages....i know....it's too much to worry with..but i am cursed with this creative mind...haha...i'm constantly thinking of ways to make things whimsical and beautiful..people DO appreciate the added adornment to things and notice it on a package or whatever...they like it...and will tell you they do.

 

anyhow,that's how i roll, so i don't question myself that's just how i have to do things..how i want..my way...

 

xoxo 

Christmas stress....

This song just because i kinda like it..was on the radio yesterday...

 

I'm really starting to feel the start of holiday stress....so many things to get done before Christmas and leading up to Christmas....and one of the online gifts i bought not arriving like it's supposed to?.....well that stresses me too....because it just throws me back behind and makes me very angry---(i have an awful mean temper)..i still have hope for it to get here because now it looks like the company may have made an error...so that makes me feel a little better about getting it....*fingers crossed*

 

It's rather ridiculous when you think about it..how you create your own stress over silly things getting done before/or for the holidays you know?....It's not all your fault you get anxious and stressed,of course all the people around you add to that because you play off their Christmas stress....lol...does that make sense? I have so many things to get done/buy/plan/help with that i actually couldn't stop thinking about it all last night....isn't that stupid?...

 

town is having a parade downtown and i'm apart of that in a few days...decorating/planning/helping...i have to help make a lot of candies for a Christmas booth downtown for the Town&Country Club and decorate all that etc....I LOVE making candies and making them cute/creative/colorful...it's just that i gotta have all that done by Friday and i'm completely covered up with a zillion billion other things to get done....not just that but helping with a parade float and various other things....AND working/chores/cleaning out stalls...etc...errands...yeah i got a billion errands i have to get done!!!....

 

It's all apart of the craziness of the holidays i know...everyone deals with it as best they can...

 

 

and gifts/wrapping paper/ribbons....i still have to buy a lot of stuff and also make MORE candy for family and friends or i will never hear the end of it from them.....LOL..."Julia where's my candy?Aren't you making candy boxes this year?! I want one!".....haha...so i have to get those done..i have to...lol..

 

 

and finally....

 

 

Dear Stupid Dirty 80/mph Wind:

 

I HATE you!...Please STOP BLOWING!...You're making everyone sicker!...It needs to rain or snow or something other than you blowing around and making dust storms & allergies all the time.No thank you for making me sick..AGAIN.---J.

stolen mail.....

Well....just got off the phone with a "wonderful" conversation with the nuts down at the post office.....

One of the gifts i ordered online never arrived on friday...and according to the tracking number with the postal service it was delivered to my house on friday.....IT NEVER ARRIVED or it was STOLEN!!!...Wow....hmm....just take your pick of the hillbilly down this road that stole my gift out of the mailbox.....Gee...wonder which one it could be?..hillbilly relatives or neighbors???..if that's the case it's good as gone ya know....

God!....i hate all these losers around here...I'm so mad right now you have no freaking idea blog!...Or it could be person delivering the mail lost ot or stole it?....you can never know.

The guy at the Post office told me he would call me back and try to figure it out..he took my cell number....and said he would call me back later....Yeah..you know i'll never get that gift and he will probably never contact me back with any info on it...because he has no idea...

I swear somedays it seems like you just can't have anything or do anything around here with all the idiots running around...

seriously hoping they locate this but not really expecting them too....

I am soooooooooofreaking angry.