People often wonder why I like cowboy things and I collect cowboy things...I guess it would have to be because both my grandpa's and my favorite uncle is a cowboy.....lol...basically we all are really...
I like history and I have studied my family background and heard all those old hand me down family stories about my family members and one thing I have learned about all my great grandparents for generations is that the women and men in my family were really tough and knew how to survive all the bad weather, all the poverty, starving, and all the bad times that they had to face...
they made it work and they survived.
they never had electricity, running water, never had food most times, just horses or t-model fords if they had one of those at all to get somewhere they needed to go....they've just mainly been plain people and lived off the land and whenever people would try to hurt their family they protected their family and loved them...
they always had church/God and they had each other...so when somebody hurt one of their family members they all stood by each other and fought back.....they didn't put up with people's crap at all!!! I like that.
I know most of them were cowboys and they fought and farmed and I'm sure they were probably pretty mean sometimes but they had to be..to keep themselves safe and their families safe...
they didn't care about fancy clothes or electricity or all those stupid things we all worry about all the time now...it wasn't really ever about money because nobody really had money back then...people who have money now are way too greedy and do bad things to get all those dollars and continue to do bad things...money is the root of all evil, and greed will get you nowhere..read your bible!!!
it was about surviving the weather, all kinds of illnesses...the storms and the dangerous people in their lives...so they had to be tough and follow God.
I think about all of them sometimes when I get to feeling weak or upset and I think to myself:"Ya know what? It's not so bad I can survive this crap in my life..hopefully it'll pass soon." I come from pretty tough people so I can face this standing up no matter what it may be....if they knock me down I will get right back up and stand up for myself and people I love/care about...I think you should look at all things in life that way..just get tough when things get upsetting or make you weak...just be a cowboy I think..
because I know that I get whiny and cry about things and it's always ok to cry even if you are a man or woman and you just have to have your emotional moments and get up and go on....I'm sure my family cried way back them even my tough old great great great grandpa's did cry some but they never gave up...because if they had given up I wouldn't be me and I wouldn't be here....
when I am made up of so many tough people I know I can rely on God like they always have and I can rely on my mind because I know that if I think tough I will be tough so you can always keep that in mind....things will always pass...My favorite things to keep telling myself when I am in a situation and I am annoyed or worried is:"This too shall pass" and I know that it will!!!
so when people want to know why I like cowboy stuff or why I like cows, horses, or whatever I like cowboy, I just want to say:"Duh I am a cowboy I'm tough"....that's what has gotten me through all the pain in my life both physical and emotional....being strong and tough....
nobody has to actually be a cowboy you can just think like one and be one...so whenever I've got land and cows and things cowboy I collect, and some people don't have those things well, they're still a cowboy when they think tough, stand up for what is right and don't take sh*t off of nobody!!! haha!...
that's a cowboy....that's why cowboys are my heros....I look up to them for their ability to be tough and stand up for what is right and get things done right and over with...no waiting around or anything just get crap over with and go on with life..fix things right and go on down the fence line...
I'm tired.
love j.
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