just be a cowboy....

People often wonder why I like cowboy things and I collect cowboy things...I guess it would have to be because both my grandpa's and my favorite uncle is a cowboy.....lol...basically we all are really...

I like history and I have studied my family background and heard all those old hand me down family stories about my family members and one thing I have learned about all my great grandparents for generations is that the women and men in my family were really tough and knew how to survive all the bad weather, all the poverty, starving, and all the bad times that they had to face...

they made it work and they survived.

they never had electricity, running water, never had food most times, just horses or t-model fords if they had one of those at all to get somewhere they needed to go....they've just mainly been plain people and lived off the land and whenever people would try to hurt their family they protected their family and loved them...

they always had church/God and they had each other...so when somebody hurt one of their family members they all stood by each other and fought back.....they didn't put up with people's crap at all!!! I like that.

I know most of them were cowboys and they fought and farmed and I'm sure they were probably pretty mean sometimes but they had to be..to keep themselves safe and their families safe...

they didn't care about fancy clothes or electricity or all those stupid things we all worry about all the time now...it wasn't really ever about money because nobody really had money back then...people who have money now are way too greedy and do bad things to get all those dollars and continue to do bad things...money is the root of all evil, and greed will get you nowhere..read your bible!!!

it was about surviving the weather, all kinds of illnesses...the storms and the dangerous people in their lives...so they had to be tough and follow God.

I think about all of them sometimes when I get to feeling weak or upset and I think to myself:"Ya know what? It's not so bad I can survive this crap in my life..hopefully it'll pass soon." I come from pretty tough people so I can face this standing up no matter what it may be....if they knock me down I will get right back up and stand up for myself and people I love/care about...I think you should look at all things in life that way..just get tough when things get upsetting or make you weak...just be a cowboy I think..

because I know that I get whiny and cry about things and it's always ok to cry even if you are a man or woman and you just have to have your emotional moments and get up and go on....I'm sure my family cried way back them even my tough old great great great grandpa's did cry some but they never gave up...because if they had given up I wouldn't be me and I wouldn't be here....

when I am made up of so many tough people I know I can rely on God like they always have and I can rely on my mind because I know that if I think tough I will be tough so you can always keep that in mind....things will always pass...My favorite things to keep telling myself when I am in a situation and I am annoyed or worried is:"This too shall pass" and I know that it will!!!

so when people want to know why I like cowboy stuff or why I like cows, horses, or whatever I like cowboy, I just want to say:"Duh I am a cowboy I'm tough"....that's what has gotten me through all the pain in my life both physical and emotional....being strong and tough....

nobody has to actually be a cowboy you can just think like one and be one...so whenever I've got land and cows and things cowboy I collect, and some people don't have those things well, they're still a cowboy when they think tough, stand up for what is right and don't take sh*t off of nobody!!! haha!...

that's a cowboy....that's why cowboys are my heros....I look up to them for their ability to be tough and stand up for what is right and get things done right and over with...no waiting around or anything just get crap over with and go on with life..fix things right and go on down the fence line...

I'm tired.

love j.

was sick.... feeling better.....

Feeling better today!....My stomach has been really  hurting me for 2 days and I got sick and puked!!! icky! At first I thought it might be the flu but I think it's nothing but this stupid ulcer...I got a stomach acid medicine and it's helped...You just take 1 pill a day and avoid spicy, acidy foods...which is hard to do...

there's so many acidic foods and spicy foods....and I like spicy foods!!!....so that's probably what has caused my stomach problem...I'm just eating bland boring foods..cheeses and milk products...which is about all I can eat right now...this medicine will help it...the doctor prescribed it for me but you just buy it in the store it's called Prilosec....I'm already feeling better...

when you have an ulcer it makes you really sick and causes a lot of pain and hurts....it's from eating too much spicy, greasy food..i couldn't even sleep very good because of the pain..I'm going to make sure that I continue to take my Prilosec once a day....and avoid eating spicy food for awhile til I get better and over this stomach problem....

love ya,  Julie

first sunday in august.....

Going to church this morning so far I think...I'm feeling better this morning I just know that I'm going to have to avoid spicy/acidy things to eat or drink for a while until I get better and that ulcer goes away....

saw some of those candy coated almonds at the store called Jordan almonds they are all different colors...I like all kinds of those things...I like walnuts, cashews, almonds, pistachios, sunflower seeds...those are my favorites especially cashews...I used to like peanuts but they make my stomach hurt....like peanut butter but not just peanuts...weird I know but them by themselves make my stomach hurt.....

thinking about looking for some new curtains for the kitchen to change it up and I'm going to paint it bright white here in a week or so...going to theme it something..don't know yet what....lol..kinda tired of chickens as the theme...

something funny that makes me laugh is when I go into a store and I find old toys that I liked as a kid...I used to like whoopee cushions!!!...Haha!!! I always would buy one and blow it up and hide it underneath my family member's chairs and they would sit down and it would make a toot noise!!!...Haha!!! Those made me laugh...I think they are really funny still!....I also liked those punching balls too....I liked to play with those and punch them.....lol...

so when it gets your birthday you might get a whoopee cushion from me!...haha! I think everyone needs to laugh!

ulcer?.....

Been having stomach pain...I think I'm getting an ulcer again...once a few years ago I had a peptic ulcer....I know all the medications I need to take and what not to eat or drink to get better..No spicy food or anything spicy or acidic and no fruit/vegetable that are acidic....

my stomach hurts when I worry a lot so I suppose that's what is causing my pain....I wish it would/could stop.

I hate this! I will get better I know...*fingers crossed* almost through with my z pack for my sinus infection.

leukemia & people i love and care for.......

Just saw something on tv about leukemia and it makes me think about people I love and care about who have had leukemia one of them is an uncle of mine...my favorite uncle....he goes for check-ups and things and he keeps a watch on his blood through the cancer doctor...He's going to be just fine..he's had it for several years now I think...he's healthy....he drinks a tiny bit but that's not much...thank goodness!

I was scared when I found out that he had leukemia because I love him and I care about him...when he's your favorite uncle that's worrisome and scarey....Not too many think about leukemia much I don't think so I think more people should be aware that there are people I know and love who have had leukemia....

getting proper treatment and taking care of yourself and your eating habits and getting rid of bad habits is the best thing to do...Be Healthy!!! I don't think people need to be drinking or anything bad with leukemia and their prescribed meds.....

Drinking and drug use, or any of those bad things are NEVER good for people who take prescribed meds or who have any diseases....it's never good anytime or any day anyhow!!!You have to keep your body healthy and don't drink/take things that will wear your body down....you have to keep your body free of poisons to help it to repair itself continually....

makes me mad when people I love refuse to be healthy when they have ailments and they need to do all they can to be healthy to continue to get better and fight off bad things!!!

whenever I love people I want them to do all things healthy so they will stay healthy...so when I get a little upset and mad and tell them to stop the stupid stuff to get better and they don't understand why I say that or why I get mad.....it's all because I love and care about them.

anywayz, going to eat a bowl of cooked 5 minute white rice this morning for breakfast with toast.....I just put a little butter, teaspoon of sugar and a splash of milk in it and mix it up....I just use some butter on my toast...good!

love,  julie