It's Halloween!!!........

I worked mostly all day yesterday fixing fence that had been torn down...lol...sometimes that's all we do for hours on end!....This is a picture of my working gloves and me fixing fence...You can buy a pack of them and they're pre-dipped in rubber/plastic and they're blue see!...Haha!....The gloves are really way too big for me,but they protect my hands from being poked or torn by the barbed-wire.....

After working all day we all went over to Mark's house for a Halloween party he was having for our family & a few friends we got to invite.....so it wasn't wild or anything(Grandma was there so he had to be good!)LOL....he had mixed drinks and party food trays..it was cool & nice..my Aunt J. played the piano and i danced with Travis to this song....it was so funny we all kept laughing...Thanks for the dance Travis!...HaHa!

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!

Look! it's Harrell,Frankie,& Steven in candy form!..Bwahaha!

These are the chocolates we bought at Walgreens yesterday to take to Mark's party...pretty neato huh?..i took a picture...it's amazing how creative you can be w/candy isn't it?...lol...Everybody thought they were cool....

Halloween plans tonight---may be either staying home w/friends and watching Sarah's, Addam's Family dvd set(the old black& white ones-the best!--she bought it at Walgreens),if we go to town,i will probably get into trouble for helping shaving cream any of the 3 above(Harrell,Frankie,Steven) or toilet paper their trees/trucks/fork their yard..haha!...i don't wanna vandalize anything..but w/those 3 you know i couldn't resist,just to get back at them....mwahaha!..so i don't wanna be arrested...probably best i stay home?...LOL..

Kisses!

my pics of the sky friday morning.....

I took these friday morning early during sunrise..the colors in the sky&clouds looked so amazing!....whoever says you can't find a beautiful sunrise or sunset here at home,in Oklahoma is a liar....lol...So pretty to wake up with right outside my window....just like a painting...

crazy dream.....

I spent the weekend resting...i did sleep good....but friday night i kinda had an odd dream..i mean,it wasn't really scary..comforting maybe a little?..I'm not going to tell any of my family about it(only Sarah knows and my friends)because i  think it would upset them...and it's just not really something you go telling people who aren't very close friends"Hey,i had this dream about my aunt who died a few weeks ago and she told me blah blah"....because anybody else would say she is crazy!...so here i go telling the world and i don't mind because i need to journal this all out of my mind and i don't care...

I dreamnt that i was talking to my great-aunt who died a few weeks ago....and it was so freaky real like she was right there..even when she hugged me i could feel it..she was in a store(no price tags or names on anything) w/a shopping cart and it had pink & white flowers in it(decorations in her favorite colors)no price tags and she was standing next to a woman w/long brown hair?..who was that?..I walked up to her and she says to me:"Julie...honey,i hate that i left things in such a mess...but it was time to go...i want you to all know i'm doing great..i'm ok..i want you to stop all that worrying." So i asked her:"Do they have shopping in heaven?"...and she goes:"Oh yes, they do and the best part is it's all free." and she laughed..i started laughing and then i told her i loved her and i missed her a lot and she hugged me so close to her, and she said:"I love you too kiddo and i'll see you way down the road ok?"  (AND that was all w/out the cough syrup!)..NO cough syrup involved in that...lol...

and i woke up bawling my eyes out...just tears streaming down my face...it just really upset me and sorta comforted me in a way....i know i have been really missing her a lot and maybe i've hidden my emotions and pushed it away to be a tough girl?....It's all just like her to actually be shopping for things in her favorite colors and worrying about things "being a mess"...i think she knows i've been upset about her and she's reassuring me she's ok now.....

it just really has bothered me all weekend...but at the same time i do know she's ok..i dreamed this way after my Ex-Boyfriend died also,and i talked to him..i never told anyone about it...people would say that i was just too upset..but i guess Harrell and everyone else is right...i do have a very good spiritual connection of some type..i have to agree w/everyone there....as crazy as it sounds...

Just like yesterday when Rochelle(she's a wiccan or something?) told me all that stuff after Amy & Eli told her about the "Harrell stranded thing" and all the other weird things..she said:"I believe you do have a very strong gift Jules..Samhain is coming up in a few days..the moon is changing...it regulates many things....spirits seek you out because they are able to connect w/you...it's a very spiritual time"......

whatever all that means?....i don't know but it seems like everyone is rather obsessed w/all this psychic/witchy stuff..haha!....just because it's Halloween tomorrow...LOL..who knows maybe they are all right?..i don't know maybe it's the indian blood like eli says?...it's odd and confusing....things have been weird lately...

i'm posting a few pics of the sky i took friday morning on the next post..2 posts in one day because i don't have room...oh well..who cares....

love,J.

rainy cold day....

Picture from outside my window-a rainy cold day.

I had a hard time trying to wake up this morning.....I slept right through my alarm clock and Sarah ran into my room yelling at me we had to go to work!..i got grouchy....i don't like to be woke up in the mornings..she took this one while i was yelling at her to go away..haha....and we're all still laughing about it...lol...---me asleep...

I've already been to the sale this morning...it's so COLD...muddy & rainy...but i ain't complaining..at least it's raining now.....finally...I get the rest of the day off since i'm not feeling so great....Grandpa asked me what i had to take for my cough and i told him Codeine cough syrup...He said:"Uh-oh..she's got the knock-out juice!"..we kept laughing about it...Uncle Pete said:"Oh Sh*t..that's some powerful stuff now..you know how much you're supposed to take right?"...Yep...1 teaspoonful every 4hours..i have a marked medicine spoon remember?..lol..

My nite nite juice---LMAO...

Sooo since it's cold i have the fireplace going.

My blue pajamas&my favorite soft,fuzzy turquoise stripe socks.

And my blue electric blanket already warm in my bed..yay!..maybe i will feel better after a bowl of soup and some rest....hopefully...this has been a bad week...i hate this cold stuff! ;(

Cold-germ kisses to everyone!

witchy....lol

Yesterday morning,i stopped at the gas station and filled up the truck for work..who else but annoying Harrell was walking out of the store...(just my luck)...i was standing there filling it up and Harrell walked up and cut off the pump(older model of gas pump shuts off at the side)...i said:"Stop it please...i got no time today for this crap!...i got work to do..and A LOT of it...GO AWAY."..so he started laughing and he turned it back on,then off,then on..annoying!

so i got real mad and i said:"GO AWAY!..you are so annoying...!" He laughs:"Oh..you're so cute when you are mad!...it makes my heart melt!"....*eyeroll*...so he kept on and i said:"I hope your truck breaks down on your way to work on the highway and you are stranded today!".....lol...he goes:"Ok,i'll see you later..but i know you don't mean all that mean stuff...it's just early morning." and he smiled real big and left....

so finally at noon he wasn't there in town on time as usual at the cafe to annoy me, and everyone else...Sarah goes:"Hmm..wonder where loud-mouth Harrell is?"...i said:"Don't know and don't care!"...

at 12:45 in walks Harrell and he looks all mad and he walks right up to me and says:"You are a witch!...and i mean it..a witch Julia!...everybody she's a witch!"....he sat down by his work crew and stares at me..So Eli goes:"Hey,why're you callin' her that?"...Harrell goes:"I had a flat tire on the highway north out here..i've been out there trying to get it fixed!"..i said:"Why are you mad at me over that?!..did you call my cell for help or something?" he says:"NO!...remember this morning? What you told me?!" i totally forgot and then i remembered..I said:"So?..what does that have to do w/a flat tire?"....Harrell says:"You cursed me this morning..saying that...and Steven told me about that time when you were all at work at the shop and the UPS guy wasn't there and you said he should be and Voila'  he appears 5 seconds later...and all that other "psychic stuff" you can do!you're a psychic,a witch...you like the moon, and you have a black kitty cat too!...all witchy Julie!"...LMAO!

i started laughing and i told him:"I think you been watching too many Halloween tv specials Harrell."..LMAO!...he says:"NO.i haven't Julia..you're a witch and you cast spells on everyone! Admit it!"...and the whole place just cracked up laughing....Eli said:"Well..that's explainable...it's the indian blood in her...that's all...we're all kinda magical...it's a gift..not a curse Harrell."

Harrell looked at me and glared...then started laughing.."I have fallen in love w/a witch...Julia!..damn it!..stop casting love spells!"....then Eli started singing this song to me and said it's my new theme song..lol...So i was leaving and Harrell goes:"Where are you going?"....i laughed:"Well..i gotta go fire up my broom outside, to leave and fly back to work." everybody laughed...

sale day today..long day..xoxo

that kinda girl....

One thing i can't stand is people making fun of other people who are different than them....Lots of those snobby types tend to do that...If they see someone who doesn't join in w/them, you know,stays to themself,dresses different,awkward,dorky,nerdy,creative,believes different,thinks different,does their own thing..they automatically like to throw out the word "weird"...

They want everyone to follow them,so when you are an individual i think they tend to get jealous really....when who are they to be calling anybody weird?right?...i think all those people who look down on everybody else are the "weird ones"..The elite/dress alike/can't think for themselves/ follow the leader/money is everything types,live in their own little stuck-up bubble....lol...you know the ones..the most boring people in the world...

I'm the kinda girl who they all want to be in their friends list...They get mad when i choose to be friends with and run with the "so called weird outcast"/artist/awkward/music people..who i really fit in with--they're sweet to me! BUT snobby crowd says:"But Julia...why run with THOSE people?WEIRD PEOPLE!I can't understand?run with us!" It's like being pulled and pushed 80zillion directions at once.."We're better for you! stay with us!" while i'm running the other way and fast!..lol...

That just really makes me mad....they should never say those mean things and make those people feel the need to defend themselves..because they are unique or an individual..i happen to think they're some of the coolest people in the world...and should "keep on keepin on" with their art and unique style....i feel terribly sad for anybody who gets put down,made fun of, or called weird...

The truth is i have always been able to fit in with all types of people...they all like me...but it's because i treat them human and respect them i think....i can fit in with the "elite" people, but then i don't really either...i'm not willing to stoop down to their level of crude mean abyss....they make me sick...i could never treat anybody the way they do...and those "jock-type snobby guys" who all wanna date me?...yeah i know how that would go Bruce A.!..Forget it Mr.!...

i know how all those people are..i'm too smart for them..they don't treat anyone good and never will they eventually bring each other down..seen it happen millions of times...They all compete w/each other and try to outspend each other,back stab,over achieve one another,lifestyle--everything is a competition to them....Some people try everything to be apart of the snob crowd for society...it breaks them financially and mentally/emotionally....

The funniest or saddest thing about the "stuck-up elite" is how hard they try to make EVERYONE believe their life is perfect and so much better than anyones..when the truth is VERY different....that's not even human to not be real with people about things and then treat them like dirt?..it's gratifying for them to treat people who are different or poor bad...everything is a big fake with them...and they wanna call those people weird?....whatever.

i'm sorry but i love/adore the "weird,outcast,artist,creative,people"..no matter how awkward/dorky/weird those people think they are.....i belong with them...i think they're just adorable!.....they're sweet to me and i'm comfortable with them..get over it snobs..because i will never have anything to do with you..

xoxo

long stressful call.....

I swear..the stress of some family members is getting to me...one in particular named Amanda!..I just don't get it..what she's always mad about or needing to hear me say?...i really have no idea...it's just constant bitching/yelling/crying....i could get mad like Sarah and tell her off...but that only escalates into fights....haha...

She called late yesterday and started in again crying and yelling about Dad being gone working and "not caring enough" about her...I mean, what do you want me to say Amanda!?...She said:"He doesn't give a sh*t about me!...because if he did he would never have left that far to work!..He never calls! He does not care! face it Julia!...he abandons us everytime...he leaves and we never hear from him!"...

soooo i told her about him calling this weekend and giving a lecture about driving at night in the cities...she says:"Oh..yeah!..always calling to B*tch at us or boss us around...he's insane and crazy Julia!..i've got people right now who won't even talk to me because they are scared of him!..he goes around everywhere putting the word out there, that we're his family and nobody better bother us blah..blah I'm sick of it Julia! Sick of it!".....

I wanted to yell right back at her:"And I'm sick of you being a damn baby!"

"If he's running people away from any of us, it's for a good reason---he knows something dark/bad/evil going on with someone.."

"sure he can get annoying being so protective, but..that's him...i've accepted it..."

"he's never home because he's working..he has to follow his job.."

"he's got a wild rambling soul...no big deal...accept it, i have....don't try to change him...it ain't happening."

"he's Dad but he's not always around...for every minute/day/hour."

"Do i think he loves us any less when he's not around or doesn't call for weeks?..No,to think he doesn't love/care about us would be ridiculous."

"he's a very complicated man....i've always accepted that as a fact....sure there are times when i really wish i could see him,talk to him about what's annoying me,get a hug from him to reassure me everything is ok...but it's just not possible everyday."

"i miss him too...but i can't fix that,i can't make him appear suddenly and be here for us...maybe in a few weeks we will get to see him."

"call him..not me...when you have issues or whatever is making you upset..because it's your problem to talk over with him..not me."

I told her about other outlaw family members threatening to kidnap us because they are mad at him(because he stopped them from doing something illegal) and she yells:"GOOD!i hope they try something!...He's just way too over protective because he is insane Julia!..he's crazy!.he's not my boss!he's not my damn Dad ANYMORE!" then she cried..as usual..and hung-up the phone..oh the drama!..she talks like she's tired of him caring..but then that's what it's all really about..she's feeling like no one cares....pity party for one!Boo-hoo!..lol..

i was so tired already from working and it was sunday..my sorta sleep day..so much for that i guess...i can't sleep for all this from her....anymore..it's just getting to be too much for me....

My Bedroom dresser mirror....After Amanda's 3hour call i couldn't sleep..so i went ahead and decorated it finally, finished it at 10pm-something..it's not too great looking..but...you can see my new Marigold Blossom wall paint & blue bed comforter!...lol...

feathers in my hair.....

Wow...it's foggy STILL outside this morning....

Yesterday we spent most the day helping the Aunts all plan the huge annual Halloween Party....They had already bought about a few $1,000s worth of stuff for this party and it was at Aunt J.'s house, which her house is like a Halloween lovers dream..it's really amazing.....

After we finished by noon we had lunch and met up w/Aunt Sharon who lives in Oklahoma City...she drives here(home) for family things..2 things about her--she's very pretty & very arrogant...she's an interior designer/hair dresser/artist/shopper/fashionista, she owns an upscale store....lol...she's really snobby but never to us,just to other people---She tends to look down on others who have less money than her----she's my aunt i love her, BUT it's terrible she's so snobby!....other than that, i really like her, she's cool.....

When we got back home,she asked me & Sarah if we wanted to have those feathers put in our hair,apparently it's the cool thing to do now w/your hair...i've never thought about it..so we both were like:"Uh..sure why not?"..lol....so she grabs this huge beauty tray out of her car it was like a tackle box looking thing..and i saw all these colorful feathers/threads/pins...All kinds of colors/designs/sizes...the first thing i notice about anything is the color, and it was really colorful in that box/tray!...Haha!

she grabbed a few blue ones and told me:"This is for you my dear."...and she got dark hot pink ones for Sarah...we all started giggling..She laughed:"I know my girls colors don't i?" she was going to thread them in my hair & Sarah's, but since we are cowgirls, we both didn't wanna get them tangled up/ripped out/dirtied-up,or ruined while we are working you know?..

my hair is long and when i'm working, i just make a pony tail,have on my cowboy hat to keep it outta my face & away from so much dust.....so she had some pins/clamps thing that just pin the feathers up in your hair and i can take them out or put them wherever....they do look awesome though..i really love them!...Thanks Aunt Sharon! ;)

I got a few small bright blue ones and 2 larger blue feathers..really looks cool...i took them out before the Halloween party last night....because they wouldn't go w/my costume..lol....

Anyway, there was a thunderstorm last night and it got foggy...it made for a perfect Halloween party!..lightning/rain/thunder/fog...so many people there...she gave away party favors...candles & lip glosses for all the women and the men got cigars in their gift bags...she spent a lot of $ on that stuff...lol..

the party was over at 1am and then it rolled on over to the bar and everybody was drinking,singing,playing guitars...so much fun..we got home at 3am this morning....i can't drive too good in fog this bad..i get lost even a few miles from home..so it took me a while to drive slowly down the roads....country roads like we live on, are usually foggier than highways/town roads i think....so you gotta be extra careful driving...driving in it, you have to use your memory more so than your vision because you can't see 2 feet in front of you!...haha... 

after the fog clears up a bit, i got work to do today...

love J.

gotta stay awake......

Tonight at 6:30pm we are all going out for supper for Grandma's birthday ..her birthday is next week but we will be too busy, so they all wanted to go for steak and one where there's a bar w/drinks with supper...and then we'll probably go over to the bar and play guitars, or sing w/a band,or karaoke....LOL...you know my family...haha!..I bet i know which steakhouse we are going to...but you know,that will be Uncle Pete's call...he's "Mr.Party Planner" now i guess...lol...And he's driving....it'll just be Me,Cody,Sarah,Jarrod,All the aunts&their men,Grandpa and the birthday girl Grandma.I bought her a necklace..Ssh!....Happy early Birthday Grandma! ;)

Tomorrow night is my Auntie J.'s annual Halloween Party and we gotta help her get that elaborate stuff all set-up and the party favors,food,decorating, etc..etc..all looking good and perfect....guess we will get up early in the morning to get that done....i found a plastic skull that glows in the dark..i'm gonna carry around to go w/my costume...now i can be a Skull Farmer...LOL.. 

had a kidney check-up yesterday morning early...everything is good Dr. says..Yay!

i was still rather shocked when i saw that the pharmacy in town had painted bright red-Season's Greetings! w/Christmas scenes on their windows...um...it's not even November yet!....lol...but it will be pretty soon i guess....that would be fun painting windows like that..don't think i've ever painted on store windows before, i wonder if it's easy to work w/glass outdoors like that..does it dry the paint fast?...who knows..window chalk is very different from paint so i don't know...haha!

There was a sale yesterday and we worked most the day...Harrell was there(unfortunately) and at noon he was parked near the doors to go in the cafe part of the sale barn, and he STILL had what i wrote on his back truck window on there!...so i started laughing and went in to set down and got some water to drink...when you are working all day like that..water tastes so good.....

Uncle Pete must have saw his truck and he walked in laughing and he looks at Harrell sitting in a booth and he goes:"Harrell....do you like your hose?!"...and me & Sarah just cracked up laughing....Harrell laughed:"Oh,that writing on my back truck window huh?....Ask your niece over there..she committed the crime...don't ever make her mad!..she's already pelted me w/hot dogs a while back..she's evil i tell ya....but cute!".....LOL...But i never pelted Harrell w/hot dogs..he showed me something i didn't wanna see and we retaliated and there might have been a hot dog in a trash can that time...but pelted?...no...Bwahaha!...

Anyway Uncle Pete just cracks up laughing w/his friends and he leans over about to cry he was laughing so hard, he goes:"Julie!...now,you need to stop that mean sh*t!..how could you do such an evil thing to poor, sweet Harrell over here?....i'm sure he deserved it all..every bit of it!"...and everybody laughed...Everyone knows how Harrell is..he brought that all on himself...lol..

it's 5:20am and i already have 2 cattle trailers cleaned out and ready by time for the sale...He(uncle) called  this morning at 2am and says laughing:"Wake-up Sunshine!...you gotta have 4 trailers cleaned out and ready to go by 5am,you get 2 and Sarah gets 2..get to work!"....already done w/that....I can't hardly stay awake when i get a wake up call that early....somehow i got those cleaned and ready to go...

He left for Abilene,TX at 3am, he's going to go buy another trailer from someone and be back later today in time for Grandma's birthday party/supper..i think it's about a 4hr drive to Abilene from here...so we're kinda in charge of things today til he gets back....things could get spooky around here today....lol..

kisses & hugs! 

Fireplace.....

Good music.

Put all my summer clothes/shoes in storage boxes yesterday when i got home from working...pulled all my winter clothes/shoes and put them on hangers in the closets,got out blankets,and winterized the house outside on the windows w/caulking,in places where the hot summer melted the old winterizing from last year...just to have that all done and over with already for the season.....we'll probably be too busy later on and then we'd be stuck in cold winter wishing we had done all this...lol...it's taken care of now...

Cleaned on the fireplace & chimney last night...cleaning old creosote/soot from last year...Grandpa said we need to get this all cleaned before winter gets here,and this week we may be in the 30's in early mornings...it was chilly last night late, so we lit the fireplace and it got really warm.....nice & warm...

it was so cold last night!...i woke up freeeeeeezing!...but i'm glad i can say that, after a summer full of 112 degrees everyday...wow..how did we ever survive this summer?..i hope that never happens again...

To me there is nothing more comforting than sitting near the fireplace and drinking hot chocolate on a cold day...i like to watch the fire flicker around and pop..makes me very sleepy....haha..i hope that mesquite tree that hurt my eye will have fun being burned for firewood this year....bwahahaha!...we got that tree chopped down for that reason....mesquite smells good in the fireplace anyway.....i'm so glad my eye is healed and perfectly fine now!..close one.

i put my hand in the pocket on my blue coat, and found $50 from last year!..guess i left it in there and forgot it...there was a whole package of bubble gum too...haha...

Still giggling about Harrell driving around town w/that window chalk writing on the back window that said:"I love my hose!"...Guess who wrote that on there?....GUILTY!...haha!...we had to go in the hardware store unfortunately, and buy a few things to clean the fireplace with...and well..you know who was working as usual(Harrell)and he starts talking pervy and he went and got a hose, like he always does, and asked:"Wanna touch my hose?"...i looked at him and rolled my eyes and i grabbed the lawn hose and threw it down the aisle as far as i could throw it!...LOL!....i told him.."No!..Harrell, i wouldn't touch your hose in a million zillion years!" he said:"You're so cute when you're mad Julie....will you touch my hardware then?"..i started laughing and Sarah laughed"OMG!"..then he grabbed a wrench and said:"Will you touch my tool?"...haha!...i said"NO!....i'm not touching your tool,hardware,hose or anything of yours EVER...i'm looking for fireplace cleaner!"....

EVERYTIME we have to go in that store he is in there working, and ALWAYS has to run to the counter to wait on us on purpose..i hate it because it takes 15 hours to buy what you need and leave the store because he won't ever help you..he just wants to say all this stuff everytime,waste your time...i feel sorry for anybody that has to work with him..god.

we got back at him later yesterday, we went and found some window chalk and wrote in big letters on the back window of his truck:"I LOVE MY HOSE!"...Bwahahaha!..i wonder if he saw it?...he probably liked it though...;(

work today and choir practice tonight....

Kisses!

sundays are for sleeping....

This song is stuck in my mind from this morning..over and over..still love it though!...

I'm finished w/work for the day..yes,we work on sundays...24/7 job...but today everyone has realized i'm exhausted....it's just been the past few weeks.....it's as though we haven't slowed down one bit for anything...not whining!

after that funeral was all over and done we went home and changed clothes,did more work,then went to the casino w/friends....They all wanted to go play tables w/Frankie and the whole town was at the casino i swear....we saw Mark in there,he was smoking a cigar and drinking...lol..surrounded by his wild women&friends..haha...he sent over a tray of drinks to our table....the strawberry daquiri was MINE of course....lol

Back to Frankie....he's ok..but i don't like how he treats people...he sucks up to people if they have lots of $, or the right last name..if he can use them in any way...i hate when people only use people and like them because of their money or status in whatever....it's so sad...i don't care if people have money,expensive things/lives or lots of attention, or who, or what they are..i'm never superficial....i love people for who they are inside..NOT what they have, or who they are in society...

i've never adored/loved/liked someone because of the superficial stuff...i see past all that BS....don't impress this girl at all one bit!....if they are a good person inside w/a good heart regardless of who/what or money,or NO money/attention...i like them anyway..Basically,if you love me,i love you right back--when you have a good heart.....it's sad how some people only like certain people because they might can use them, or because of who they are to share in the attention they have focused on them...isn't that sad?....

we all stayed at the casino til midnight and it was still packed.....they all decided they wanted to  go to the IHOP..at midnight...i know i shouldn't have went, i needed to be in my bed sleeping..but they were all going so i had to go...lol.....We got there and i just ordered a small stack of pancakes and everybody else was ordering these huge grand slam breakfasts...at midnight? not for me!....I get a kick out of all the insane people in there and all the craziness that goes along w/them...drunk people,hookers,truckers,the party crowd...lol...it's just wild in there that early...haha!

it was 1am when my cell phone rang and it was guess who?...DadChad calling from Montana....Seems as though Uncle Pete didn't know where we had went(he was busy w/his wild women at the bar) and since he's sorta the man in charge of the family w/Dad gone working,and they think Mark doesn't care about what we do or where we go.....he lost track of time and us...haha!...why we have to check in still and let them know we're ok?..i have no answer to that other than my family is crazy,over protective and worry too much...

so dad says:"Hey,where are you 2 at?!"...i said:"Uh, IHOP."...silence..."I sure hope to hell it's not just you 2 girls in town this late?!..better not be..Sweetheart.....listen i have told you what goes on that late in that big town and on those roads...dangerous....over and over i have said it and ya'll ain't gonna listen to a damn thing i say!...hell Pete don't even know where the hell you are at!"...i didn't say anything just *eyeroll* and "NO, we're with a lot of friends we're going home soon."....and he started crying and hung up...he was drunk....Haha!....

at 1:30 we left and went to Walgreens and got some cold pills....Nyquil/Thera-flu..because we're sick..i think i have got a bad cold in the works...i'm sneezing and coughing,headache..blah....and Sarah says she has a bad headache/sore throat...we blasted music from the speakers to keep us awake on the long drive home.....

love that song it's so happy!...stuck in my mind now.

"i just haven't met yoooooou yet!"

think i will go to bed and try to sleep today?

i kinda wish it would snow..but why?...lol..

i feel like a stressed out zombie w/a cold. LOL

kisses!

slight change of schedule.....

Well.....i just got home.....I got off work early today at 2pm and had to go shopping at the mall....My great- aunt's funeral was moved up to tomorrow morning at 9am...so Uncle Pete had to let us outta work early to go buy clothes for the funeral...i went home washed my stinking sale barn hair,showered,put on a little make-up & changed my stinking clothes....

i just got a pair of black slacks,cute black heels,shirt,jacket...i'll wear a blue necklace/earrings/bracelets for my something blue.....so that was easily done, and they had a sale going on, so all my clothing totaled up to $70....

Bath & Body Works I love you!!! lol.
Sarah bought her some clothes and then we headed to guess where?! Oh yes,Bath & Body Works!...lol...that's my obsession....yes,i'm a nerd....i love that store and all the smells in there....i've always liked how you can always try out the soaps/smells,and wash your hands in the sink afterward there in the store...because that's how i find out what kinda soaps i like and wanna buy....they had their Halloween stuff on sale..cute stuff!...but i didn't buy any Halloween things....everytime at this year i wind up in that store buying something...haha!

i bought 2 things-
Sweet Cinnamon Pumpkin Shower gel
Vanilla Bean Noel Shower gel

i got almost the last one of each of those 2!..both big sellers they told me..I'll save the Vanilla Bean Noel til december..just wanted to get it because it's ALWAYS sold out fast each year at this time..seasonal..that's how it goes..they had lots of candles that smelled really nice...I liked the Toasted Marshmellow,S'Mores,and Fireplace or something named that?...it actually smelled like a fireplace!...i may sneak back over to the mall next week and buy a candle or 2....it's just too far to drive and we're always busy though....

I like shower gels because some of the spray on smells are too overpowering and loud smelling for me to wear all day constantly...they try to sell you everything...lol...but i always like to smell nice.....right now for a month or so i will be smelling like Sweet Cinnamon Pumpkin when i step outta the shower....better than a sale barn!...haha..

we met up w/Amy at a SubWay and had lunch...we were starving after working right through noon non-stop....it was nice to talk about things other than work & our Aunt dying....

i have to tell you..that i get very nervous & stressed at funerals...i'm afraid i may get too emotional, or cry way too much and i don't wanna be that way....i always worry everyone else may take it better than i am, and there i would be bawling my eyes out, and nobody else would be...in other words, i don't like being sad or crying..i gotta be tough...and i don't like all the talking/standing around w/everyone there afterward..i wanna get out of town and away from it all immediately after it's over...is that wrong?

Grandpa wants us kids to all stay for the dinner afterward, and see everyone in the family & town we haven't seen in years..i don't wanna talk or be around all those crowds of people and try to make small talk w/them..i'm just too exhausted and stressed out already..i have been for the last few weeks....but then again, i don't want to let my Grandpa down..(she was his sister)..i just can't do that...i love him too much..he's one of my heros!

i will end up going to the dinner just for him, and i will be a nervous, stressed out mess all day....i just dread this i always do..uncomfortable at funerals..totally..wish me luck getting through it all..

Thanks blog/journal & the world for letting me tell you what is on my mind as usual...i have to get it out of my mind & type it out to you...helps!

kiss for you all, from me!  xoxo

thoughts, there are many......

I see the full moon is out tonight shining on me through the window right now..pretty! And those thunderstorms this morning were so comforting,relaxing and nice...i love watching them & listening to them..the lightening streaked across the sky it was blue/purple..i slept really good w/the rain hitting the window afterward...til my alarm clock went off!...at 4:30am..ahem..lol..

I'm kinda weepy today...i've been crying...we lost my great-aunt yesterday...huge painful loss to our family..she died of medical complications, and i still can't get a handle on this..it was so sudden...she was always so beautiful,happy,sweet,kind,caring,and a great lady..she had class...and i really looked up to her...i cried all night last night and today i'm still crying...seems every year we lose a great aunt or great uncle but they are all getting older...that's life, and that part sucks..all my favorite old people are passing on...i just have to take what i have learned from them and go on...not dwell on the loss and be happy they are watching down on all of us..she's in heaven now and in no pain i know...

Busy Girl!!! =Me

Aside from my "big case of the sads" it's adding to my--getting really tired and sorta stressed out....work is very busy and this week i have a lot of driving and places i gotta be at certain times..and lots of loading cows,feeding,driving,corralling them...they're going to good homes...

i think mainly it's so stressful because we always are very careful that they are safe,comfortable and not in any danger..they're well taken care of...

and.....

so you constantly have to watch out for them, and not get yourself killed in the process by a wild, mean bull, or something falling on you,landing on you,hitting you,running over you....you have to watch out constantly and be ready to get outta the way or run for safety and drive safely w/those trailers hooked on the truck..sometimes they jump outta trailers/pens and could land right on you..they weigh a thousand pounds or more..huge mean bucking bulls...like today..a mean bull jumped the corral pen and ran after us..yeah..mean bull..mean by nature..he was just crazy....we jumped in the truck and waited til he calmed down and walked away....

that's the life of a cowgirl!...but i love it, it's challenging, the dangerous stuff...

Grandpa sells a few horses to individuals who want to train,rope,ride....he also takes rescue horses in and lets them live on his places & they become his own...he can take a poor starving,neglected horse and make it well again..he said it makes him happy to watch them become healthy again, and safe w/a good home..which is something i am learning how to do....it makes me sad that some a-holes want to have horses killed or slaughtered..i love horses i wanna help them...they should all be safe & free...it makes me smile to see them running free and happy in the pastures....

anyhow-tomorrow-is a sale day, and i have to have trailers loaded and ready by 5am...then stay til 11pm.
friday--early morning repeat,ride pens,stay til 10pm.
saturday-choir practice for community choir at 9am..yes,they wanted me to join again, so i called and told them ok i would....
i have to go buy clothes somewhere saturday, to wear to the funeral on monday
wash my sale barn stinking hair..LOL!,
paint my nails.
all that--after we get done working saturday..hopefully Uncle Pete will pick up the slack on saturday?..but he's got that Team Roping thing going on at his arena, so i don't know yet!....maybe the mall will be open sunday if i can't get outta work early? questions...questions... 

MY thought for the day, after listening to a friend tell me about their situation, i thought about that and--
----I don't really think there is anything more heartbreaking&beautiful at the same time--than not being able to be w/someone you adore & love from afar...to not even be apart of their life...but yet, keep on adoring/loving them anyway...that's sweet & very cute..i would be flattered...

Nite~Nite Kisses!

all free at the garage.....

I love his music&voice..this song makes me smile..

Eli did really good yesterday working w/us...he's really good w/horses and riding through rocky terrain....as we all already know!...

At noon yesterday, Cody still isn't feeling well, so i went and checked on him...i took him all the flu-time stand-bys---sprite/chicken-noodle soup,crackers,Tylenol,Gatorade....I'm a good cousin...lol...i just like taking care of people....when they're sick,sad,depressed,upset...or drunk....lol..i always wanna help them and make sure they're ok..i don't mind at all..it makes me feel great to help.....He was really happy that i brought him all that stuff...i even took him a blanket, he had the chills..they say this flu that's going around lasts a week on and off...oh wow....i don't wanna get it!..i haven't got a flu-shot either!... ;(

so at noon we had our usual meeting place-the cafe...lol....we saw Frankie & Harrell,Steven...Frankie was all bragging on himself about how successful he is..blah..blah...you know it's annoying, everyone is like:"Yeah..that's great..yeah..oh really?..."which basically means--"Ok,Ok...we get it..uh, nobody cares! please shut-up soon!"....nobody is jealous or cares..we're just soooo sick of hearing it over and over.....Haha!....it's really hard to pretend that you are listening to or even care, to someone who is so annoying...lol...

After about 30minutes of that,i got bored,got up and looked in my purse and found pieces of paper/sticky notes/gum wrappers,walked over behind them and stuck pieces of it in their hair!...LOL..i always get bored and do that to those 3...and it is so funny EVERYTIME!!!....i know it's immature,but it is funny!...everybody tries so hard to not bust out laughing...It's hard to not look them right in the face and see the paper ontop of their head and just crack up laughing insanely!...bwahaha! they never knew and the entire place was laughing!....haha...
ME-100
HARRELL,STEVEN,FRANKIE-0
I WIN! Bwahaha! ;)

We had some dorky discussions yesterday at noon...lol...

--arguing an hour about the distance from Guymon,OK to Boise City,OK to Black Mesa,OK..which is further?..Black Mesa!..
--lots of discussion on the panhandle of Oklahoma...why are we discussing all things of the panhandle?we don't ever go there,haven't in a looooong time...haha!..
--talking about Montana's weather and wishing it would get that cold here too..why?
--is it the radiator or the thermostat in the feed truck that is messed up?...it was the thermostat!

and the boys at the garage/gas station, that fixed 3 flat tires for me yesterday,wouldn't even let me pay them---those guys are so sweet!...i was ready to pay them and they wouldn't let me..aww....and they even changed the oil for free!...i kept trying to pay them and they all smiled & said:"No,no, it's on us Julia." are they even supposed to do that?...i hope they don't get in trouble! Maybe they felt sorry for me because i have so many flat tires all the time...lol..

Kisses to everybody!

words of wisdom.....

Super-excited that Eli starts working w/us today!....He's taking over Diego's job since he's gone to Montana/Wyoming to work w/them....Yesterday evening Eli stopped by......we met up w/Uncle Pete when the rained stopped so he could talk to him and give him an overview of what he's up against working w/us all...lol...

after that Uncle Pete started stating the facts about how he lives his life and just how hard it is to walk around and have this last name....LOL....He said this was wisdom for me & Sarah so we should take note....Here's a few words of wisdom....---

"Girls,to be in this business you're gonna have to be 10x as tough and prove yourself...i know you can do this work...i have complete faith...but remember this is a man's business and you'll get laughed at and they'll try to knock  you down...sometimes because they're intimidated,sometimes because you are girls,sometimes just because they are jackasses...always be sure to let them know what your last name is and they'll shut-up and get scared,go away....." HaHa!

"Don't EVER let anyone tell you what you are and aren't gonna do..ya hear me?...Nobody tells a(our last name) what the hell they are and aren't gonna do...Nobody is gonna tell Me,Mark,Grandpa,Grandma,or your Daddy what the hell we are gonna do..i don't care who  the F*** it is, or who the hell they think they are..that shit ain't gonna fly..ain't happenin'...nobody tells us what to do..got that?!....you don't EVER let someone try to rule you..."

"Lots of idiots will try to intimidate you,run over you,give you hell,DON'T EVER take shit off somebody..whether it's mouthin' smart asses, or givin' you hell over anything...you don't owe those bastards shit,just knock the hell out of them and go on..don't worry about the consequences...get your point across....don't EVER take shit off nobody because you don't have to!"

when you walk into any situation or room you gotta have confidence and keep your attitude...let people know when they see you that they better get the F*** outta your damn way....let them know you won't take their BS...you gotta get to certain point where, when you walk in a room or someone sees you they KNOW they better scatter and they damn sure better not try to mess w/you, start shit w/you because they'll get the shit knocked out of them..it's all about the way you carry yourself when you walk in a room,the way you walk and the way you look around a room..look at any room situation like you already own it....once you get really good at this it's fun to watch people clear the room in fear, and the looks on their faces is priceless...you really want certain people to fear you so they won't give you shit."

"You're gonna have to get really tough,and not just for this ranching/farming business, but for life in general..because there are a lot of a-holes in this world...bunch of damn stupid people...bitches & bastards....and around here w/our last name some already will fear you and wont give you shit about anything---you can thank us all for that..see, we've already paved the way for you..but these young kids ya'lls age, you're gonna have to show them you won't be pushed around....just remember NOBODY tells us what to do...if they don't like something about us, or something we're doin'?well...shit that's their damn problem not ours...people are always gonna get jealous or bitter and try to bitch & whine bout somethin'..tell em' Oh Boo-F****** Hoo! ya damn baby!"

LOL! we loved that lecture lots of good funny stuff to live by..maybe if we follow by that we can have everyone for 7 counties runnin' scared of us too..well they probably already are..not for anything we have done but because of our last name....Haha!..oh well..


another $50 for the swear jar next sunday....lmao
xoxo

rainy sunday.....

My costume  for the Fall Carnival last night ended up being a skeleton farmer....LOL...i fell asleep after we got finished feeding horse/cows, and the nice rain fall really helped with me falling asleep....IT RAINED! ALOT!...Can you believe it?!....I just kept on sleeping in the chair then i went and got in my bed and slept more til 5:30...so i didn't have time to go buy a costume for the carnival...i made one...haha!..

I called Amy and she had face paint so i painted my face grayish-white,blacked out my eyes and painted my nose black and put black stitches around my mouth...lol..i wore blue over-alls,blue-checked long-sleeve shirt,sun-hat & cowboy boots..i tied/wrapped blue-bandannas on my wrists to look like bracelets....everybody thought it was pretty cool, so i guess i did ok w/what i had!

Luckily the rain didn't mess up the paint on my face...there was all kinds of old-fashioned games there,arts,prizes,food...you had to donate a dessert for the pie auction, so i made a pumpkin roll yesterday morning..i got that much done for it before i fell asleep....somebody bought it for $45!!!..LOL...i hope it was good...the $ from the pie auction goes to the community Christmas charity where the churches make sure all the people going through hard times have a nice Christmas/Thanksgiving dinner & their kids have gifts...i think that's really special & sweet!

we all left the carnival at 9pm and then went to the Haunted House..it's not really haunted it's a set-up Halloween house you go in this house and it's dark,set-up with mist,spooky things jump out at you,people in costume scare you,weird noises,different spooky scenarios, and the worst part of all....a black tunnel that is some kinda small circular tunnel that all of the sudden starts spinning and strobe lights start flashing..oh my god...

when that spinning and strobe lights started..i felt really sick and just closed my eyes and i felt my way through it....i don't know how they made the lights spin in it but i have never taken spinning things or strobe lights good..always makes me very sick..it messes w/my eyes or something...so i went through it eyes closed...I heard Eli say:"Oh Shit...i am gonna puke..seriously..it's gonna be bad!"..so i yelled:"Eli, close your eyes it helps!"...i guess he did...but that was all a little too much....It was so loud...finally we made it to the end...thank god.

i love my friends they are awesome..it was a lot of laughter and fun!

there was a guy there helping everyone back to the exit afterward, and at first i couldn't tell if it was guy or a woman because the voice was so soft and small..lol...they just had a dark hooded halloween costume on and painted face and they said:"Hey, Julie!"...i couldn't for the life of me figure out who or what it was, it ended up being a guy...i have no clue how he knows who i am?..because i didn't recognize him..so i just smiled and said :"Hey!" and we left..it was crowded....

i felt bad i couldn't tell at first by the voice if it was a guy or girl!!!...haha!...i grew up w/all the men in my family having these very distinct,gravelly,smokey,tough-guy voices and they all still have those voices...i'm around that all the time,so i just naturally think that's how a man's voice is supposed to be, and when it's not i get confused....i guess that's why i like men's voices to be distinct and smokey..i identify w/tough guy voices......they are really cool sounding...how crazy i'm comparing voices to each other!...Haha!..i need some more sleep this morning....

anyhow that's why i love small towns...i live in the country, but small town is enough town for me..i love all the cute festivals and things like that..well..basically it's all i've ever really known..guess that's why it's comfortable....

nice,sleepy,rainy sunday....

kisses & hugs!

boring ol' political correctness....blah

The wind is blowing like crazy this morning....

Work was long yesterday at the sale....the sale was huge--lots of ranchers selling off all their cows because of the drought and no hay left...sad...we haven't sold off all of ours, but we have weeded them down to a manageable size that we can deal w/through winter(if there is a winter this year?)

we didn't get home til 10pm last night we were there ALL day since 4:30am..so yeah i'm tired.

I finally turned on the tv this morning an hour ago...seems as though we never watch the thing anymore...i really don't know why we pay for satellite because we don't watch tv and there's nothing but crap on it..i've never really been a tv watcher, i'm a music girl..that's my thing..

Everytime i do see tv it's all too political just like this morning..god...i saw all that wah! wah! wah! BS on there..annoying...i'm sick of having to see all that politically correct BS on the tv..if i lived in some of those cities like that, i would lose my mind trying to please all the whiny-ass people in those cities..don't say this,don't say that-you might offend someone, this group or that group(how many groups are there now? a zillion?) and to tell the truth i think they are all bonkers..nothing but a bunch of whiny idiots who wanna whine about something all the freaking time...this is a discussion daily at noon in my family--they all HATE the political correctness BS...

thank god,we don't  have to deal w/all the "political correctness crazy people", here in a small town and while working..but we see it all on tv/newspapers in the cities we see that's all going on.....i'm sick of that shit...all the whining and it would make a person crazy trying to say the right thing and not offend.....god...even the politicians are all whiny babies they can't do shit right,make up their minds about anything..i have no faith in any of them..i'm not democrat or republican---i'm independent in everything i do..i do my own thing and admire others who live life how they wanna,say what they wanna, and piss on who has what to say or don't like it.....that's the way my family is and i admire them all for it.

nobody wants ideas and words shoved down their throats/into their minds all the damn time...those idiot groups get mad as hell---when people "won't & don't drink their Kool-aid!"--(agree with them & join them)...lol..."Don't drink their Kool-aid." as my Grandpa says...haha..i like that.

the problem w/all these whiny groups of people is they all need some hard work to do....work that makes them so tired they can't think....and half of them need to stop looking for someone to pounce on at the drop of a hat..they're all just "chomping at the bit" for crap to bitch/whine about---turn things into a big deal that never was to begin with...it's getting old..all the--"I have no rights because i am blah--blah--blah..or how dare you do/say that it's not fair it's wrong!".....it feels as though they wanna have the only voice in anything and the news media plays up to them and let's them--they're just as bad..they love that PC crap....that's why i won't watch any of them..they make me really angry...they all need flushed down the drain...as far as i'm concerned.

these groups, PC crowd, don't want anyone else to have an opinion or any say..they want to have the last word,trying to run that shit in the ground...their my way or the highway BS is getting old...YAWN!

anyway yeah i had to bitch this morning i got so mad watching that on tv an hour ago...i always get mad when it's on...people are stupid.....just watching the EncoreWesterns channel right now..lol....at least it's good...worth watching...no whining on there...

supposed to be a Fall carnival tonight in town.....i gotta think up a costume,make one or buy one before 6pm tonight.....should be fun!

xoxo

smackdown at noon.....

Tired...man i'm so tired...not whining though! ;)

Cody got sick yesterday when we were working....he told Uncle Pete that he wasn't feeling too good yesterday morning and he asked him:"Well...what the hell is wrong?..you drink too much?"....lol...and he said "no"...well, i had to work w/him yesterday on the places to the west and all of the sudden he stopped his horse, leaned over and puked....gross....so he's out w/that flu that everyone is getting....i had to pick up the slack and do 2 jobs all day yesterday....i have to leave here in an hour and do more work, we aren't through yet----we have 2 trailers that gotta be at the sale barn before 5am tomorrow morning.....

and it's so windy & dusty.....

Among other "eventful" things that happened-was yesterday at noon we were sitting at that table we all usually set at in the cafe...we got our orders and Uncle Pete got up to go get some more silverware...well..while he was up walking to the front of the cafe he was talking to those flirty waitresses..(lol)and these creepy guys we didn't know at the next table were talking about me & Sarah...this one goes:"They're cute!I'm gonna go talk to them..who are they?" and this other guy goes:"Ohh...hell no man!..you don't wanna do that!they're half(grandpa's family last name) and half( grandma's family last name)and they're kin to (bad outlaw cousin's name) their Daddy is Chad(our family last name)you don't wanna mess with them,but they say those 2 are good nice girls, not like the rest of the family..but hell, if you have a death wish go talk to 'em...you wanna wind up missing, or w/a broke leg go right ahead!" the guy asking about us goes:"OhhhhSh*T!!!.. f*** it!i'm goin' to anyway!"

so me & Sarah were looking at each other getting all creeped out by those guys talking and in 5 seconds that idiot guy sets at our table and starts talking to us...ooh..he was downright creepy!..he was high or something too...so he just sets in Uncle Pete's chair and says:"How's it goin'? you girls from around here?" we just looked at him and Uncle Pete walked up behind him, told him:"Hey, you're in my chair,get up." and the guy said--"It doesn't have your name on it does it?" so Uncle Pete yanked the chair out from under him and the guy landed hard on the floor and Uncle Pete told him :"Get your ass outta my g*ddamn chair a-hole,you understand that?!"...and the guy starts mouthing him so he kicked him in the side hard!!!LOL...right in the cafe in front of everybody!....oh man!...haha..it was funny though...wrong to laugh but it was funny...he asked for it...

so he gets up and his friends over at the table were all hurrying him out of there and he's still mouthing stuff at Uncle Pete:"I'll kick your ass!"...LOL...he(uncle) just set down and we started eating our lunch...everybody was staring at us, and one of Grandpa's friends nearby goes"Boy, you just stirred up a hornets nest!" and Uncle Pete lit his cigarette and said:"I like to stir sh*t up...keeps things exciting around here..eventful..that f***** asked for that sh*t."......lol...

people are scared of us girls just because we are all apart of this family...always in the bad*ss club....guilty by blood....haha!...kinda cool though..all my friends think it's awesome.....oh well...lol...i feel like,we're so uncool and dorky compared to the rest of our family...i don't have bad girl cred...lmao!

anyhow,oh and yesterday evening late, we painted Cody's fingernails blue while he was asleep!...how mean!...lol..he saw them and i laughed:"Guess who did it?"..he goes:"Duh...they're blue Julia..i know you did it!".....i wonder if he got that paint off yet?...haha

enough rambling, that's been the past few days..no more time to talk for the day blog..i got work to do!

kisses!