Haha!...sorry i kicked your chiminea over last night Eli!....
We were all demonstrating the proper way to kick box last night on Eli's porch.....AND i accidentally kicked over his chiminea!...Bwahaha!....Luckily it didn't break or anything it just turned over and got ashes everywhere!...i felt so bad i did that!...but it was funny..we all laughed!...it was kinda in the way for kick-boxing!
only 1 strawberry daiquiri was involved...lol..
oh man.....it was so great to talk to one of my "bestest" friends in the whole freaking world last night...i think you should keep in touch with best friends at least every 2 weeks!...it's good for your soul....One of my best friends lives in Kansas and i hardly ever see her...isn't that terrible?....we've been friends since 6th grade....Morgan is awesome!...I'm soooo lucky to have so many great friends who mean so much to me....
in other boooring news of the day---Still can't feel my hands or fingers after falling the other day....Doc said it will just have to heal*nerve damage*.....again.....yeah so wonderful..*eye roll*..taking tylenol for the pain....
fight...yell...fight..yell..harass...harass....blah..blah..blah..nobody cares!!!..so tired of those idiots...it gets old really fast...
god i need a serious far enough away vacation this summer..far away from all the BS around here...i DESERVE one after putting up with all this...
All i can say is....H O L Y S H H H * T!!....yikes!!!....or OMG!.
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Saw our cousin today that hasn't been around here in a few years...and...all those other guys with huge muscles covered in tattoos looking types at Dad's house outside...they're just like him in the "covered in tattoos badass department"..cool!....lol....i think i saw him too i can't be sure....we just drove on by the house fast!....those guys are scary..lol....i'd be terrified if they were mad at me!...lol....good thing they're not! and hopefully NEVER will be....oh wow....
My aunt goes:"Damn!..now they look mean as hell!."...i'm sure they are very dangerous and mean...who knows what the hell is going on around here..but i have an idea....they're most likely friends of his he runs with and some wild women were around in the yard too smoking cigarettes & drinking....haha!.....
Danger, intimidation and the whole spooky factor run rampant in our family....the spooky dangerous friends are just added eye candy that scare people that much more---they probably need to be!!!..Bwahaha!.....i love all this...i love it!
i enjoy the fact that people who have been threatening us verbally, and who have thought they are all soooo much better than us and sooooo smart...will now get scared and run the other way when they see us in town...their eyes get huge,they get scared looks on their faces and they will literally knock people over to get out of any store we may be in...Bwahaha!!!they asked for danger, well they've got it! run hillbillies!...LOL!
What?!.....Scared of little ol' Me & Sarah???...HAHA!!!...you tell me something is not going on that is scaring the living day lights out of them!...wannabe badasses vs the REAL dangerous badasses..oh, but SHE has so much POWER!.*sarcastic face*..big laugh!....well damn,i guess that liquid morphine&meth told her wrong!...Bwahaha!..i hate her!...guess they miscalculated just how tough and smart they"thought" they were...they have picked a fight they CANNOT win this time (hopefully).....
every time you mention any of the hillbillies names my Grandpa will just laugh and laugh...he can't stop laughing....oh man..this will probably be a giggle a minute...for the most part so far it has been funny what we have seen anyway...lol..
maybe they have found out they're not going to run over innocent bystanders and threaten them anymore?.....i sure hope so..we're all TIRED of this annoying,stressful hillbilly fighting threatening crap...sick and tired of it!...it's been going on for months!....the hillbillies & their friends all need to be locked away forever and stop getting away with all the crap they have done for years and years of it....and they always get away with it....they try to ruin everyone's lives.
life would just get sooooo much better for us all...
We all went to the indian taco dinner fundraiser last night for the fire department....Eli's grandma & his mom...along with several other Apaches are helping out the local fire department raise money...rural fire departments have limited funds so they rely on donations for the most part.....
I got one and i couldn't eat it all....lol.....they are so huge you'll never finish them...so i got a take home box for mine...I LOVE fry bread though....it's so not good for you..but so good i just don't care!....haha..
they had an auction and a dinner.....it was nice all those people turned out and supported the event...and very nice of the tribe to help out...because those fire fighters and trucks are needed!...they are VERY important!....
i may have to go to the chiropractor today after falling off my horse yesterday and hitting the fence.....my fingers went numb on my left hand after i hit the ground....i landed on my side..hit my hip...HURTS..terrible pain..but i'm tough.....Daisy got spooked by one of the dogs and she ran..i wasn't paying attention and fell off..... ;(
Ssh!!!...don't tell ANYONE in my family i fell...because they will get super worried and lecture..over and over and over..blah..blah..blah!...and i especially DO NOT want my Dad to find out because he doesn't need any extra stress or worry at the moment, with all he's doing right now...he's a chronic over worrier when it comes to anything about me.....so Ssh!
yeah....here we go.....again...with the numb tingly hand/fingers.....it's just nerve damage they told me last time and it would heal....something with my back..tail bone hitting so hard...it went away but now it's back.....
Finally home and have the time to blog/journal whatever you wanna call it.... The past few days have been extra busy and it seems every day that i get a little free time i get pulled in another direction to go do something work-related or fun!...
Had my sweet peach tea from Sonic today!..lol...
Now i have to tell about this because i giggled myself crazy this morning when a funny looking car pulled up next to me at the stop light..i couldn't help but look--but how could you not!..lol...It was a car that looked like that real old tv show "The Munsters" car...LOL!...an old guy was driving it and he had a golf hat on...I go:"OMG...what is in this sweet tea?..That looks like Pee-Paw Dracula driving that car!"....LMAO!...Sarah was just about rolling down in the floor board and we couldn't stop laughing!...she goes:"THAT is hilarious! Pee-Paw Dracula!!!"..Haha!..but it looked just like that old car...
we did a double take....Pee-Paw Dracula is on the loose cruising the highways!!!..Haha!..it was going to a car show somewhere apparently.....always liked that show...they were a spooky family and also the Adams family....guess i kinda understood what they went through being so outcast in their towns through the story lines because my entire family has always been so spooky,intimidating,dangerous.....always spontaneous and a little insane...lol...
of course all i have seen of it is re-runs because it's so old....i always liked to watch it on tv in the early 90's when i was a little girl only for Halloween.....they always played the re-runs...Grandpa Dracula was my Favorite....mainly because he was always doing something and his face was green!..lol...ah the good ol' days....
anyways...
after going to the feed store for mineral blocks...i found some seeds there for the garden too----for yellow squash!..I have been looking high & low all over the county for yellow squash seeds to complete the garden....finally found some....yellow squash is my favorite to cook fried in canola oil, or boiled w/milk,onion,a little butter...so i love to have some around in the garden....thanks grams for the recipe... ;)
AND i had to buy some bug spray to kill off the over population of Fiddlebacks around here!!! YIKES!....we have all been finding them everywhere...last night i saw one crawling on my bed!..luckily i killed it before it bit me!...IF they bite you..your skin will die and it will eat the flesh all around the bite if you don't get medical help....they are also called brown recluse...baddies!....
so i have been spraying outside the house & in the cellar for bugs, and planting garden all evening..along with painting a little here in the house...
After working all day, we all went to see a friend from the highschool days play in his college baseball game last night.....It was a lot of fun...He was so stoked that we came to support him!..it was cute..
I really enjoy baseball games and being apart of it in the stands...cheering for the entire team,whistling, and being amidst the complete chaos in the stands when someone makes a good play or a good home run.....lol..it's absolute insanity with a huge crowd in the stands like last night!love it!
Don't ask me why i love baseball..but i do!....my brother is a GREAT baseball player..as well as many of my cousins and then my guy friends aren't too bad at baseball either.....so i guess naturally after attending all the games these past few years i'd understand it easily and adore the sport!...
they played this old song last night along with others over the speakers to get everyone ready for the game....
I bought a water & sun flower seeds,some of my friends were getting hot dogs from the concession stand....the staples of any baseball game..small or big time....lol...
those boys love the camaraderie of their team...they always love re-telling stories of the "baseball game on the road" tales..they just love the sport..baseball is just the entry into summer to me.....it wouldn't be summer without it you know?
my favorite team has gotta be the Texas Rangers...even though i am an Oklahoma girl i LOVE the Rangers..being that i live not but 50miles from Texas anyway it makes perfect sense!..haha.....my brother so needs to take me to one of their games someday! i always try to watch them on the tv when a local station will play them....
had a great time yesterday...i have total crushes on "the boys of summer"!
Just woke up...sitting here in my bed staring out the window...i have the ceiling fan on full strength...it got so freaking hot&humid last night....yeah, i could turn on the air conditioner but i'm trying to save on energy bills.. i slept on my stomach with the ceiling fan blowing down on my back....that feels so good...it's just like the wind blowing against your back in the summertime on a hot day.....i'm usually a side sleeper...but yesterday i crashed and couldn't move.....i love to sleep..
It tornadoed A LOT last night...at one point there were 4 tornados all around this part of west/southwest oklahoma...kinda spooky...the weather radio beeped all night...i slept right through most of that...man i have been so tired..i could've slept right on through a tornado and never woke up!...lol....
we're supposed to have tornado threats all day/night and then some the weather man says...
in other news...Thursday, Grandma got into a sorta mouthing fight w/the local smalltown cop over a ticket he gave her for not wearing a seat belt as she pulled out of the coffee shop there in town...well....that didn't go over well with her at all and she let him have it....lol....she says he got an attitude with her and i wouldn't doubt that considering who he is.....
apparently she tore up the ticket in his face and threw it out the window there on main street and basically told him to go to hell and she wasn't paying that damn thing!...Bwahaha!...gotta love that hard-headed outspoken old woman...NO she doesn't have dementia or anything like that.....THAT is just who she is and has always been...she's her own person and i adore her for that....she has taught me so much about not taking people's stupid BS...
even though she wreaks havoc from time to time..it's always when she feels someone is trying to pull one over on her..she will tell them off.....so yeah..i had to hear all about that this week and how she's going to the damn town board and rip them all a new one over there!!!...Bwahaha!.....go get 'em Grandma!!!...
went out early evening last night with my friends and we ate at a great local mexican restaurant after work...it may have been tornado-ing around everywhere but we HAD TO go eat somewhere regardless! right at that time..right then!...haha!...I love my friends they're all crazy nut-balls like me!.. ;)..Lots of people there at the restaurant...we giggled,talked and acted like our nerd selves...lol
LOVE chips and queso!....they brought out our plates and gave us white queso too...it was really good...ANDstrawberrymargaritas!....love them frozen...anything margarita?..i get it frozen..weird i know but that's how i roll....lol...
I laughed so much today that i actually hurt all over!!!.... It's so silly how i find humor in the dumbest most stupid things...lol...
Just like today?....hiding Scarrell Harrell's wallet at noon in the cafe!!!!...Bwahaha!!!....it was hiding on a shelf behind the booth he was sitting in...he was going crazy trying to find it and the whole freaking time it was right above his head!....
I kept giggling:"We can see it and you can't...hahaha!..i see it Harrell and i'm not telling where it is!...god...i can't believe you can't see that wallet!".....we all kept looking away in different directions to throw him off!...lmao!...worked.
I laughed and laughed about it...well so did everyone else.....yes,certified immature nerds we are!....oh well..laughter is a necessity for me...i love to laugh...be silly/stupid and giggle like crazy....it's good for you! ;)
i love quotes...so here's a nice quote from that quote book i had in storage....
To my family& friends----i thought of you all when i read this one.
To love someone deeply gives you strength. Being loved by someone deeply gives you courage.----Lao Tzu
Finally got home...just out of the shower...getting sleepy.
Today was kinda busy...and stressful...I don't know who in the world is dropping nails all over the roads around here....if i could find out who it is i would make them go fix every stinking flat tire i get!!!...i swear this weekend i have had to fix 4 tires all with nails in them!!!...4!!!...but the boys at the garage fix them for me for free!!!....haha!.....still seriously hope they aren't getting in trouble for doing that for me free...i try to pay but they won't let me!.oh well....thanks boys!
ok, here goes...i have a lot on my mind/heart tonight....i found out today that a cousin of mine just got life for selling/making meth and stealing...i'd be lying if i said it doesn't bother me...because it does....BUT he had a problem and he had several chances to get his life together....he didn't...he slipped over into the abyss and couldn't get out of that darkness.....now he's in jail....i guess where he needs to be...
i had word sent to him by an aunt a year ago who occasionally saw him in her hometown..i told her to tell him i was worried about him to call me,come to see me, or write me...he apparently got better after that, and wanted to talk to me....but he never had the chance to because he was too far away and too poor to call me or drive out here...i thought:"ok..don't worry he's getting better"..you know?
i keep thinking that if maybe i could have seen him/hugged him and told him i wanted to help him i could have saved him from this?.....he just needed to know that someone cared about him....and i think that he knows i do care about him very much..he just got lost...i've always felt sooooo protective over him and felt sorry for him...we're the same age...and i love him like a brother....
he grew up very poor and neglected by his hillbilly mother who got him into the drugs and basically has treated him like dirt..and he doesn't know who his real dad is.....it just makes me cry so much for him..he's really a sweet person and he really deserves better than this....he just made the wrong choices...they say they have to hit rock bottom before they can get better....he will have to get better now...
it just makes me so mad & upset that i could just go find his sorry piece of crap excuse for a mother and kick her damn face in...but i have a strong feeling she's gonna get karma thrown her way...i hate that woman for the way she has treated him and everybody else..she needs to be in jail for all the stuff she has caused and the way she treated him!...well....times a tickin' ol' gal'..
so tonight here i sit upset and crying...thinking of a million things i wanna tell him...and how i wanna reach out to him and just hug him...because i'm sure he's scared....and i can't do anything to help him now...all i can do is find out where he is going to be incarcerated at, and send him letters of encouragement/support and let him know that all is not lost...i'm here for him...sarah said she's going to write him and an aunt said she would....
i mean i just don't understand why in the crap they wanna do those stupid drugs and basically kill themselves with it..destroy their lives..I mean come on!....it just really bothers me..tremendously...breaks my heart they do this to themselves!.. ;( i know it's a very complicated thing...pain they try to medicate/mental illnesses/no self-worth/no self-respect/low self-esteem/boredom....could be a combination of things..i don't really know....
i wouldn't EVER judge anyone for something like that...i haven't lived the shitty life he has had to endure..i don't know all the facts and i can't hate on someone for bad choices you know?...he's family and i will always care about him....i have to be there for him..i'm supposed to be the supportive uplifting one because i'm in the right place.....
it's just fate that i am the one to make the effort to be a ray of sunshine to all of my dysfunctional family members...i have the personality and the caring side to me....and i want to be that for them...because god knows i'm the only one in this family that can/will do it!!!....haha!...
You know what's sad is when someone texts you and asks sometimes:"Hey what are you doing?" and you say:"Oh,just looking up cousin so an so on the state jail website...seeing if he looks different while in jail and is ok"...lol...kinda funny i know, but sad at the same time....he won't be the last one to be going probably...so i have my heart braced for the sorta shocking news about the next one....
getting sleepy..it's thundering and there's a tornado watch out tonight...looks like another no sleep night....
Heard this song today driving home...I love Dierks...he has a cool sound to his voice...great song driving down a country road on a cloudy day...perfect.
This week has been extra busy.....i just got off work today..actually an hour ago...just in time to go finish mowing the yard....gonna be an extra long day...oh well....
Super sweet of Amy,Lacey,Eli,Manuel to stop by and have lunch with us today at work!!!...I LOVE YOU GUYS SOOOOOO MUCH!!!.. ;) well...technically i know that anywhere there are cowboys, Amy & Lacey will show up to just about anything just to drool..can't say i blame them..LOL...but still leaving the bank(your job)at noon to go to the dirty/smelly ol' sale barn for "lunch"?....Bwahaha!..
Harrell&Steven took my sunglasses today at work....they hid them all morning...the sun wasn't too bright with the clouds but still it hurts your eyes....So I finally got the sunglasses back and 2 hours before i left i took Harrell's cigarettes,baseball cap and held them ransom...right up until i left...he kept yelling:"Those cigarettes are my sanity!"....Haha...I said:"Ok, for $5.99 you can have your sanity back buddy!"...lol....
i don't smoke, so i gave them to Eli...who knows where they are now?!...he's probably still looking for them at the sale!...I WIN!!!.....i'm so evil sometimes...not really, but you know...i get even.. ;)
staying home tonight...we're STILL on lockdown with all the craziness going on 24/7....lol...i don't mind though..i wanna be safe.
It was nice to finally get away for awhile to Oklahoma City and just have a girl's day out this weekend...go shopping and relax....
I went with a few friends and we went to the mall.....we found a Sephora store and bought some new makeup....I bought new foundation,brushes,and some creme' brulee body wash--smells good!...well technically it's like bubble bath...but considering my kidney problems i have to just use it in the shower like a body wash....just one of the downsides to having kidney problems...NO fair!....I LOVE bubble baths...but i can't go there... ;(
Believe me, i adore the simple/quietness of smalltown life being a country girl...BUT...i do not like missing out on all the great shopping and fun sights of the city...so when i do get to "civilization" it's a huge exploration/adventure sometimes...LOL.."Oh! wow a new store!".......
makeup is fun to me...
i'm all about painting my own nails and nail art....I bought a nail art rhinestones wheel at another store that was full of colorful rhinestones and glue...it's a lot of creativity to paint/decorate nails...takes practice but eventually it gets easier...sparkles!
as for all the news about the media fueled big hype over the lottery-----all i can say is that i'm glad i've never one the jackpot lottery...heard about all the fighting over the winners on the radio....i wouldn't want that added chaos in my life....people think if they can get millions they will have all their problems solved and life will be easy...but it doesn't work that way.....
i'm sure you find out real fast how money/attention can make your life miserable.....people come out of the woodwork everywhere with their hands out being your "best friend"...and won't leave you alone...they would probably turn on you..you'd see who's the real deal in friends/family and who is just trying to use you or mooch off you..lol..people are crazy animals that way...
i think if i got all the money i wanted and could have anything i wanted, life would be boring to me.....it just would for me....i wouldn't be impressed..because i'm not superficial...i get bored easily with things and having everything so readily available would just be weird...i wouldn't know what to think....
being an individual with your own spirit and mind can be tough in a materialistic/superficial money obsessed world....but you learn to manage with simplicity...i do anyway...lol..
