Just woke up...sitting here in my bed staring out the window...i have the ceiling fan on full strength...it got so freaking hot&humid last night....yeah, i could turn on the air conditioner but i'm trying to save on energy bills.. i slept on my stomach with the ceiling fan blowing down on my back....that feels so good...it's just like the wind blowing against your back in the summertime on a hot day.....i'm usually a side sleeper...but yesterday i crashed and couldn't move.....i love to sleep..
It tornadoed A LOT last night...at one point there were 4 tornados all around this part of west/southwest oklahoma...kinda spooky...the weather radio beeped all night...i slept right through most of that...man i have been so tired..i could've slept right on through a tornado and never woke up!...lol....
we're supposed to have tornado threats all day/night and then some the weather man says...
in other news...Thursday, Grandma got into a sorta mouthing fight w/the local smalltown cop over a ticket he gave her for not wearing a seat belt as she pulled out of the coffee shop there in town...well....that didn't go over well with her at all and she let him have it....lol....she says he got an attitude with her and i wouldn't doubt that considering who he is.....
apparently she tore up the ticket in his face and threw it out the window there on main street and basically told him to go to hell and she wasn't paying that damn thing!...Bwahaha!...gotta love that hard-headed outspoken old woman...NO she doesn't have dementia or anything like that.....THAT is just who she is and has always been...she's her own person and i adore her for that....she has taught me so much about not taking people's stupid BS...
even though she wreaks havoc from time to time..it's always when she feels someone is trying to pull one over on her..she will tell them off.....so yeah..i had to hear all about that this week and how she's going to the damn town board and rip them all a new one over there!!!...Bwahaha!.....go get 'em Grandma!!!...
went out early evening last night with my friends and we ate at a great local mexican restaurant after work...it may have been tornado-ing around everywhere but we HAD TO go eat somewhere regardless! right at that time..right then!...haha!...I love my friends they're all crazy nut-balls like me!.. ;)..Lots of people there at the restaurant...we giggled,talked and acted like our nerd selves...lol
LOVE chips and queso!....they brought out our plates and gave us white queso too...it was really good...ANDstrawberrymargaritas!....love them frozen...anything margarita?..i get it frozen..weird i know but that's how i roll....lol...
I laughed so much today that i actually hurt all over!!!.... It's so silly how i find humor in the dumbest most stupid things...lol...
Just like today?....hiding Scarrell Harrell's wallet at noon in the cafe!!!!...Bwahaha!!!....it was hiding on a shelf behind the booth he was sitting in...he was going crazy trying to find it and the whole freaking time it was right above his head!....
I kept giggling:"We can see it and you can't...hahaha!..i see it Harrell and i'm not telling where it is!...god...i can't believe you can't see that wallet!".....we all kept looking away in different directions to throw him off!...lmao!...worked.
I laughed and laughed about it...well so did everyone else.....yes,certified immature nerds we are!....oh well..laughter is a necessity for me...i love to laugh...be silly/stupid and giggle like crazy....it's good for you! ;)
i love quotes...so here's a nice quote from that quote book i had in storage....
To my family& friends----i thought of you all when i read this one.
To love someone deeply gives you strength. Being loved by someone deeply gives you courage.----Lao Tzu
Finally got home...just out of the shower...getting sleepy.
Today was kinda busy...and stressful...I don't know who in the world is dropping nails all over the roads around here....if i could find out who it is i would make them go fix every stinking flat tire i get!!!...i swear this weekend i have had to fix 4 tires all with nails in them!!!...4!!!...but the boys at the garage fix them for me for free!!!....haha!.....still seriously hope they aren't getting in trouble for doing that for me free...i try to pay but they won't let me!.oh well....thanks boys!
ok, here goes...i have a lot on my mind/heart tonight....i found out today that a cousin of mine just got life for selling/making meth and stealing...i'd be lying if i said it doesn't bother me...because it does....BUT he had a problem and he had several chances to get his life together....he didn't...he slipped over into the abyss and couldn't get out of that darkness.....now he's in jail....i guess where he needs to be...
i had word sent to him by an aunt a year ago who occasionally saw him in her hometown..i told her to tell him i was worried about him to call me,come to see me, or write me...he apparently got better after that, and wanted to talk to me....but he never had the chance to because he was too far away and too poor to call me or drive out here...i thought:"ok..don't worry he's getting better"..you know?
i keep thinking that if maybe i could have seen him/hugged him and told him i wanted to help him i could have saved him from this?.....he just needed to know that someone cared about him....and i think that he knows i do care about him very much..he just got lost...i've always felt sooooo protective over him and felt sorry for him...we're the same age...and i love him like a brother....
he grew up very poor and neglected by his hillbilly mother who got him into the drugs and basically has treated him like dirt..and he doesn't know who his real dad is.....it just makes me cry so much for him..he's really a sweet person and he really deserves better than this....he just made the wrong choices...they say they have to hit rock bottom before they can get better....he will have to get better now...
it just makes me so mad & upset that i could just go find his sorry piece of crap excuse for a mother and kick her damn face in...but i have a strong feeling she's gonna get karma thrown her way...i hate that woman for the way she has treated him and everybody else..she needs to be in jail for all the stuff she has caused and the way she treated him!...well....times a tickin' ol' gal'..
so tonight here i sit upset and crying...thinking of a million things i wanna tell him...and how i wanna reach out to him and just hug him...because i'm sure he's scared....and i can't do anything to help him now...all i can do is find out where he is going to be incarcerated at, and send him letters of encouragement/support and let him know that all is not lost...i'm here for him...sarah said she's going to write him and an aunt said she would....
i mean i just don't understand why in the crap they wanna do those stupid drugs and basically kill themselves with it..destroy their lives..I mean come on!....it just really bothers me..tremendously...breaks my heart they do this to themselves!.. ;( i know it's a very complicated thing...pain they try to medicate/mental illnesses/no self-worth/no self-respect/low self-esteem/boredom....could be a combination of things..i don't really know....
i wouldn't EVER judge anyone for something like that...i haven't lived the shitty life he has had to endure..i don't know all the facts and i can't hate on someone for bad choices you know?...he's family and i will always care about him....i have to be there for him..i'm supposed to be the supportive uplifting one because i'm in the right place.....
it's just fate that i am the one to make the effort to be a ray of sunshine to all of my dysfunctional family members...i have the personality and the caring side to me....and i want to be that for them...because god knows i'm the only one in this family that can/will do it!!!....haha!...
You know what's sad is when someone texts you and asks sometimes:"Hey what are you doing?" and you say:"Oh,just looking up cousin so an so on the state jail website...seeing if he looks different while in jail and is ok"...lol...kinda funny i know, but sad at the same time....he won't be the last one to be going probably...so i have my heart braced for the sorta shocking news about the next one....
getting sleepy..it's thundering and there's a tornado watch out tonight...looks like another no sleep night....
Heard this song today driving home...I love Dierks...he has a cool sound to his voice...great song driving down a country road on a cloudy day...perfect.
This week has been extra busy.....i just got off work today..actually an hour ago...just in time to go finish mowing the yard....gonna be an extra long day...oh well....
Super sweet of Amy,Lacey,Eli,Manuel to stop by and have lunch with us today at work!!!...I LOVE YOU GUYS SOOOOOO MUCH!!!.. ;) well...technically i know that anywhere there are cowboys, Amy & Lacey will show up to just about anything just to drool..can't say i blame them..LOL...but still leaving the bank(your job)at noon to go to the dirty/smelly ol' sale barn for "lunch"?....Bwahaha!..
Harrell&Steven took my sunglasses today at work....they hid them all morning...the sun wasn't too bright with the clouds but still it hurts your eyes....So I finally got the sunglasses back and 2 hours before i left i took Harrell's cigarettes,baseball cap and held them ransom...right up until i left...he kept yelling:"Those cigarettes are my sanity!"....Haha...I said:"Ok, for $5.99 you can have your sanity back buddy!"...lol....
i don't smoke, so i gave them to Eli...who knows where they are now?!...he's probably still looking for them at the sale!...I WIN!!!.....i'm so evil sometimes...not really, but you know...i get even.. ;)
staying home tonight...we're STILL on lockdown with all the craziness going on 24/7....lol...i don't mind though..i wanna be safe.
It was nice to finally get away for awhile to Oklahoma City and just have a girl's day out this weekend...go shopping and relax....
I went with a few friends and we went to the mall.....we found a Sephora store and bought some new makeup....I bought new foundation,brushes,and some creme' brulee body wash--smells good!...well technically it's like bubble bath...but considering my kidney problems i have to just use it in the shower like a body wash....just one of the downsides to having kidney problems...NO fair!....I LOVE bubble baths...but i can't go there... ;(
Believe me, i adore the simple/quietness of smalltown life being a country girl...BUT...i do not like missing out on all the great shopping and fun sights of the city...so when i do get to "civilization" it's a huge exploration/adventure sometimes...LOL.."Oh! wow a new store!".......
makeup is fun to me...
i'm all about painting my own nails and nail art....I bought a nail art rhinestones wheel at another store that was full of colorful rhinestones and glue...it's a lot of creativity to paint/decorate nails...takes practice but eventually it gets easier...sparkles!
as for all the news about the media fueled big hype over the lottery-----all i can say is that i'm glad i've never one the jackpot lottery...heard about all the fighting over the winners on the radio....i wouldn't want that added chaos in my life....people think if they can get millions they will have all their problems solved and life will be easy...but it doesn't work that way.....
i'm sure you find out real fast how money/attention can make your life miserable.....people come out of the woodwork everywhere with their hands out being your "best friend"...and won't leave you alone...they would probably turn on you..you'd see who's the real deal in friends/family and who is just trying to use you or mooch off you..lol..people are crazy animals that way...
i think if i got all the money i wanted and could have anything i wanted, life would be boring to me.....it just would for me....i wouldn't be impressed..because i'm not superficial...i get bored easily with things and having everything so readily available would just be weird...i wouldn't know what to think....
being an individual with your own spirit and mind can be tough in a materialistic/superficial money obsessed world....but you learn to manage with simplicity...i do anyway...lol..
