Tuesday, November 29, 2011

kidney infection #23564837635 zillion.....

Have the day off....i had a Dr.appointment today at 9am for my kidneys.....I woke up last night and they were really hurting something terrible so i got up and took a hot bath at Midnight to try and relax along w/Tylenol...it helped but i could tell it was an infection.....I fell off the wagon and drank a Dr.Pepper yesterday at noon....lol.....i know...i do know better after all i have been through w/kidney infections...but i'm so sick of NEVER getting to drink soda!...Dr.Pepper w/a splash of vanilla is my weakness....and i am paying for that one 32.oz of evilness...*sad face*

Dr. gave me some antibiotics after my pee test indicated it was a kidney infection causing the kidney pain...so i have to take Tylenol & the antibiotic....and rest....I do know my limits w/my kidneys and how easily they can get poisoned after all the episodes i have had w/them....it's annoying...bad kidneys run in my family...so i gotta be extra careful w/them....i have to come back in a weak and take another pee test to make sure they are ok....nobody to blame but myself for this....my Dad is gonna be soooo MAD at me for this!!!...so Ssh! don't tell him i have a kidney infection! i don't need grouchy lectures & him worrying about me!

yesterday morning--finally got those 64 moved over to closer pasture if we have winter weather this week they will be closer to go feed/hay and break the pond water for them...had the antifreeze checked in the feed truck yesterday and went to the feed store....just incase we have bad weather...

got the house decorated,the Christmas tree up and the outside lights going....Oh man...i hope hillbilly relatives are jealous and mad over all the pretty lights we put up on our house!...i put more lights this year just to chap their asses good,because they whined/yelled so much about it!...LOL...i need to stop cussing..haha!

my Christmas tree is a fake one....would love to have a real tree in the house to decorate and smell...BUT i have allergies/asthma bad and i'm deathly allergic to cedar trees so any kinda evergreen tree-pine tree would make me sick....really it's insane to think people would have a tree like that in the house if you had asthma allergies bad..some do...not this girl!

went to Atwoods(my favorite farm/ranch store other than Tractor Supply)and looked at their Christmas stuff...i saw so many ornaments i gotta buy for my tree this year!..i LOVE cowboy Christmas it's all i've known for years & years...it's just home...my life...comfortable.

better go..i have to help load firewood today and bring some home for this week...

xoxo

Monday, November 28, 2011

Horse slaughter...NO!!!

I love animals and i grew very upset and cried when i picked up a copy of the state newspaper The Daily Oklahoman where i found a very disturbing story that made me furious and brought me to tears....Evidently Congress*aka Assholes* passed a law that is now allowing the slaughter of horses here in the US which would permit the killing of millions of horses!..made me cry the whole 2 page story...

i know these jerks know nothing about horses and don't care anything about the history and the meaning of the horse to America and to our tribes....I guess just like the tribes they want to also wipe out the horses...sad but true...they don't care anything about our history and the love we have for the nostalgia of our American west....our tribes,our cowboys,...that's my family history right there....i'm apart of all those people and killing all the horses like that is killing all of us in way..those of us who came from the tribes and the cowboys who settled this land..the horse has always been there...

It's ALL about GREED and taking the lands that many of the wild mustangs run on,to build big unneeded buildings and sell,sell,sell..slowly they are trying to kill off all the beautiful wild and free open spaces so they can make more money and move more sh*tty ungrateful people into the country so they can make some money....just like they did to our tribes in history...move them all out,kill them so we can move in and take over....

Very funny to me how Congress slipped this in under the radar so sneaky like...because they knew a  lot of people would be angry as hell....just like my family is....i found it in the paper and showed my family and we just all grew irate and upset that this is passed through Congress...they just want the land is all it's about..they say it's because of animal neglect since the economy got bad and the big shot horse breeders want this...blah..blah...all i can say is if they do it's so their horses will sell for higher prices...all greedy assholes.

The wild mustangs should be free and protected from this...i have several wild mustangs i have adopted w/my grandpa and we let them live here for free to run and be wild and untouched as all horses should be...they shouldn't be turned into dog food and killed! ;(..let people adopt them,or give them away free,put them on protected refuges or something!

Being a cowgirl this saddens me to no end....the horse means so much to me...they're apart of my life..so sensitive to so many things,sweet, and free-spirited....they should all be left alone and roaming free...they can't do this to them..i'll adopt as many as i can to save them.....it just isn't right...

there has to be some way to put a stop to this greedy evil congress bullsh*t..whoever signed this law needs a HUGE kick in the ass...those horses haven't done anything to deserve this..killing them to take their land..i'm so sick of this greedy political takeover crap!

IF i could find a way to put a stop to this i would..there's gotta be a way..it would be the BEST Christmas present for me ever...

Love,Julie

Sunday, November 27, 2011

totally insane family.....

It's soooooo COLD this morning.... Well...what can i say other than, i am tired of family get-togethers?...haha....This week was a lot of fun & laughter and chaos at times.....

My Dad got home from Texas working and he went w/us to deliver Thanksgiving dinner w/the church to homeless shelters & people going through a bad time...it makes you feel great knowing you helped someone at least have a nice dinner & thanksgiving...next stop Christmas Angel Tree gifts & another Christmas dinner to donate time to....

then that night sometime after we got through delivering dinners w/the church...he left to go over to the bar and Cody stopped by the house w/his friends and he was laughing:"Oh,wow..it is going down tonight and everybody knows it!"...we go:"What?" Cody laughs:"THE *SS KICKIN OF THE YEAR!"...me & sarah looked at each other:"Huh?..Tonight?...he just helped us w/church stuff!...OMG."...we ran and got our jeans on and coats and snuck over to the bar w/Cody and sat at the back in the dark...so we wouldn't be seen...we sat there about  2hrs unnoticed then Diego saw us and said:"Hey,you girls don't need to be in here tonight..not tonight."......he made us leave.. ;(

so we went back home and grouched about the fact we had to leave and i guess it was a good thing because there was a butt-kicking like no other according to everybody who saw it....They told us that Dad got Sandy lured to the bar by some of her friends who are trying to bring her down secretly and he caught her at a table and yelled:"You g*ddamn f****** b*tch! you need to leave my kids alone and outta this! it's all over me! not them!mind your own f****** business!"

Then they said he told her:"I've never hit a woman and i don't like to have to do this but i have no choice!" and she supposedly told him to F off and he hit her in the face a few times and she pulled a knife on him....and somebody got behind her and got it out of her hand and he hit her again and told her:"IF i catch you anywhere near my girls again..callin' them,harassing them,tellin' them stupid sh*t,followin' them,talkin' about them, i will kill you b*tch!..one thing,one word and that is it!..i will cut you up never to be found again you got that?!tell the rest of them that they're on my sh*t list too!" and he kicked her supposedly...another great bar fight we weren't allowed to see...oh well she's INSANE..she brought that all on herself....LOL!

so sometime after the fight took place it must have been 3am,i was asleep and i heard this screaming down the road from the house and i got up and Sarah ran to my room whispering:"Julie! wake up!hurry!do you hear that?! it sounds like dad yelling down the road at somebody!"..so we snuck out the back door,my dogs are barking non-stop,we listened on the porch in our pajamas...lol..all these vehicles were turning around down the road and in the drive...we heard a woman(sandy) yell:"F***You!"and something else...then Dad yelled something at her and some other voices...and then we heard 6 shots from a gun real quick so it was a handgun...and we know Dad carries a handgun...then all the cars left...and i could see that Dad was pulling in the drive at his house down the road...

oh wow..you talk about crazy....i think he must have lost it the other night super mad at that crazy b*tch and her cronies......we got scared..so we called Cody & Uncle Pete and told them...Uncle Pete said:"Well..i'll go down there,see if he's ok,try and calm him down, talk this over..see what the hell took place..told you it'd get bad..he's just crazy enough he flips out he gets so mad and that's it...it gets bad." i said:"Don't tell him we heard all that or know what happened ok?"..so he said he didn't tell him.

nobody got hurt by the gun shots or anything..he just scared crazy b*tch off (momentarily i'm sure)and she got punched in the face by him..she was probably wiped out on her liquid morphine or meth rocks and never felt a thing!...LMAO! sad but true...

Needless to say, thanksgiving dinner was awkward pretending we didn't know what all took place...but sadly we know..it's so weird sitting there and watching DadChad try to pretend nothing ever happened--all the chaos at the bar & etc....

Uncle Pete said he told him sad-like:"I don't want Julie&Sarah to know what i have done ok?...don't tell them any of this ok?Please?"...Story of my life!---pretending i don't know what all happened....i don't know why it bothers him for us to know all the bad stuff he's done?..we probably know more than he thinks we do....everybody around here knows that he does not want us to know every salacious/dangerous/wild detail of what all he's done...it's kinda funny though..we know a lot(believe me, people have told us stuff) and it's no big deal to us..we don't care....we still love him...i certainly don't think any less of him for his wild behavior....he's just my dad...i just keep on pretending i'm dumb to any of that news--- i don't know a word of it all.... ;)

i don't think anybody has a wild/unruly/insane family like mine...oh well..they keep things exciting out here in the middle of desolate nowhere...lol..

xoxo

Sunday, November 20, 2011

Thanksgiving craziness--here it comes.....

Wow.....so here i am the sunday before the week of madness begins...before the next few days become exhausting and busy and nothing but a blur....this will probably be my last post of the week because we all know that this week is Thanksgiving & it's supposed to rain tomorrow and my signal would be messed up on this thing....but i have a full week ahead....

even though most people get off work this week for the holiday...we don't....i still gotta get up at 5:30am every morning this week and work all day except for thanksgiving we only work til 10am...because a cowgirl's work is NEVER done..not whining!..love it !

Tonight---community choir practice starts at 7pm over at 10pm.
Monday--work,then help w/Auntie J's pajama party(all the women in the family) having a pajama party,we'll play/sing w/the piano,drink wine/mixed drinks,watch old movies--(Humphrey Bogart!)LOVE him!..we're gonna act crazy,get liquored up and go toilet paper Uncle Pete's house at midnight!...LOL...NO...we're just going to get liquored up,drive around in our pajamas and go see the Christmas lights they just put up in town....joking! or am i?...bwahaha!
Tuesday/night----IF we survive the pajama party we'll get up,go to work and then at 7pm i will be in the Thanksgiving choir program we've been working on..super excited..we're singing 5 songs w/the orchestra,then there will be a community thanksgiving dinner after that..i gotta think of something to donate to that?...hmm...Hope Dad gets home in time to see us sing...we miss him...he's gonna try to be there..

Wednesday/night---work the sale,help make community thanksgiving baskets w/the church-help deliver them to homes,then go help cook at Grandma's til 11pm...try to rest.
Thursday/night---Our thanksgiving dinner...there will be lots of family & friends..there's always a random badass motorcycle guy there or 2, or another somebody the guys in our family are friends with that they bring--bar people--the wild women--gross.nobody spends the holiday alone around here!...lol...all though some may want to...

It's so funny how everyone in our family is excited about the HUGE butt kicking that will take place probably thanksgiving night at the bar..among the orange/red/yellow jello shots,Wild Turkey that will be flowing, and the band playing loudly in that place..there will be a fight between Dad & the Hillbilly relatives..HAHA!.he's got it all planned out--how he's gonna catch them by surprise...he's networked through his friends,to their supposed friends,and has turned them against them now!.and they don't even know it!..LMAO!..oh man it's soooo funny!...he's just as crazy as they are really..he's insane..HAHA!...

he's got it all perfectly orchestrated ready to go....i hope i get to see this..i will laugh and laugh for days..i wanna yell at them:"HAHA you're gonna get your butts kicked hillbillies!"...but i'm not stooping to their level and that would just give them attention they want..As Dad said over the phone:"Oh..they're gonna get attention alright...plenty of it from me!"....it's so hard to control the giggle fits!!!...it makes me laugh so much i cry!...because they deserve what they're gonna get...LOL

no Black Friday shopping or anything...we may all be giggling too much from the night before we can't even move we'll still be laughing& crying from watching that...lol...hope so anyway...

Happy Thanksgiving!

Love,Julie

Saturday, November 19, 2011

i smell like a cookie.......

Finished working the sale yesterday,went home took a shower,and met up w/relatives that have drove in a week early from Texas...everytime they get here for the holidays it's like party central 24/7...well, i guess you could say it's like that all the time anyway w/our family.....lol...

It was one of our many crazy aunts and an uncle who drove in yesterday..they wanted to take us all out for dinner at a mexican restaurant they love to go to when they are here....I know when our family takes over a restaurant it gets loud & crazy....lol...I like that family time like that though..it's fun to catch up w/them all...of course we all had margaritas at noon...i love chips&queso i could just have that for a dinner it's so good..

then we went to the mall shopping..just us girls all went...didn't buy anything..roamed around for a few hours looking..think we'll go to Oklahoma City to Christmas shop in a few weeks...don't think i wanna go Black Friday shopping though!..NO WAY. 

i have on my Vanilla Bean Noel lotion for my skin from Bath&Body Works...i smell like a cookie!....haha...love it...at Grandparents house last night,we were sitting at the kitchen table Uncle Pete goes:"Who made cookies?i smell cookies.".....LOL....everyone was like:"LOL...it's Julia's Bath&Body Works lotion!"..haha....he started laughing:"You got any lotion that smells like Jack Daniels?"..we all started laughing..i told him:"Nope..but if i find some,i know what to get you & Dad both for Christmas!"...LMAO..

in other news, mountain lions are on the prowl and we saw a fairly large one yesterday up in a tree nearby the rocks w/a dead deer eating it...yikes..it kept looking at us..so we never got out of the truck,we drove on through the pasture......Grandpa says that someone told him there is a lot of mountain lions and panthers roaming around here..some have been chipped/tagged from New Mexico and have roamed here to our mountains....we also have seen black pumas in the area..really pretty..but i'm happy w/my black kitty Pumpkin..LOL...he looks just like a black panther..but smaller and nicer i'm sure!...haha.... ;)

really big cats..so we're gonna have to watch out when we are working..it's illegal to shoot them of course and i NEVER-EVER would do that,unless they were indangering my life/family's life,my pets,or horses/cows lives.....if some are as big as they are saying,they could easily take a human down & maul/kill them...along w/those wild pigs roaming too...we found some tracks yesterday morning where they have been,and a guy at the feedstore had to shoot and kill one that got after him,on his land, it was 700 pounds..it was huge..it was all over town and everyone saw it, so it wasn't a tall tale...lol...

Grandpa says that those wild pigs are really mean & they will rip you apart w/those big tusks they have...it's easy for them to get you down and kill you..so they are getting to be a problem around here....that's why when we are working we ALWAYS have a shotgun handy in the truck...because you never know...

how will the chupacabras ever survive w/all these big cats & wild pigs around here?..EEK!....Bwahaha!..aww..save the chupacabras!..LMAO.

off to work.

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

hillbillies better start running.....NOW.

Shoulda known that as soon as i put away my summer clothes the weather would get into the 70 degrees....um..isn't this november not march?...lol

Well...the hillbilly relatives are still at it...i guess since they dug around and found my cell phone # it's now a fun new game for them to leave me voicemails.....i've been getting some pretty good ones....i played them for grandparents & uncle pete to listen to...Cody & Sarah haven't got any..just me...for some reason..i don't know...it's mainly saying stuff like:"You need to know what a piece of sorry sh*t your father is!He is SORRY...you all think we're trash!he's BAD!He doesn't want you to know how bad he is!I'm gonna tell you little b*tch!."and they went into telling over the voicemail how he's been a drug addict and all that other crap that i already know about and don't give a crap about..Yawn!.FAIL!...LOL..

We all just laughed about it and Uncle Pete looks at me and says:"You know...you better not tell your Daddy about this or let him listen to it...he's already pissed as hell about this already...we don't need him going to jail."...i said:"Believe me...I know"...so late yesterday evening Cody calls Dad and tells him all about it....and me & Sarah are yelling::"Nooooo! Don't tell him!".....Cody starts calling/laughing and he says:"Oh i wanna see this happen it's gonna get bad..they deserve the wrath of THECHAD on them!"

so he says to him:"Hey,Chad...uh they found Julia's cell phone# and have been leaving threats on the voicemail and had a few things to say about you."..dead silence...."OH they have,have they?....well...what did they say?"..cody grabbed my phone and sent it to him over the phone...he listened to it and gets back on there and he says in an evil voice:"That's great...just great...well..they're gonna wish they hadn't said that sh*t because next week i'm comin' home and clean godd*mn house around there,and it's gonna get ugly...they better start hidin' NOW...they're asses are mine!" ..LMAO!..we tried to hide our giggles...it's just so funny when he loses it like that mad as hell.....

and so we told him about them calling Grandma yesterday at home and yelling at her because she won't ever invite them over for holidays or have anything to do w/them since their mother(Grandma's sister)died and she just hung up on them...and Dad says:"Yeah..they wonder why we won't have anything to do w/them or ever have dinner w/them?Really?!It's because they are so F****** crazy! They try to poison the food they cook!...they put acid in a pan of dressing one year!It started bubbling and everyone noticed it and they all acted like their brother's new girlfriend did it because they wanted rid of her!..They even called a dirty cop they knew that year when they "found the acid" in the dressing and tried to blame that woman!...I just looked over and noticed the damn thing was bubbling over & over and i knew they put acid in it!It's that godd*mn barbara& sandy doin' that shit!...they like that sh*t like that!...that's why we have always wanted to keep you kids away from them and never touch anything they make!..Ask Grandma she can tell you about that...true story!"...

we were not really shocked but it's kinda like you're thinking:"OMG!"...see, that's how criminally insane they are....they like to poison people....they all stay high on all kinds of street drugs,sell them too,and now they "claim"they have lupus or something, so those 2 stay high on liquid morphine all the time now they get from a dirty doctor who will write them a prescription.....i just don't understand them..

they are all mad at us and bothering us and we have no idea why...we do nothing but respect them to their faces and are polite/nice to them and go on about our lives..we try to avoid them at all costs but when we have to face them in town or something we're always nice...so i guess you can't explain crazy hillbillies..not this bunch anyway.....we won't invite them over,wait on them for a meal at grandma's house,pay for everything for them,or acknowledge them and it's all because they are so freaking crazy!..

Dad says that they just all stay in the drug business/feel sorry for themselves/and stay wiped out all the time on the drugs,want hand-outs, and they don't know what they are doing...he said:"Don't worry about them..next week i'll take good care of their asses...they're just mad at me...this sh*t is goin' to stop!....they're not even gonna know what hit them!they won't have a head-start to run away from me!..." then he laughed all crazy-like...yikes.

it's really annoying and stressful lately..i hate them all...geez..can't wait til next week!.*sarcastic face*..now we know why there's been so many earthquakes here in Oklahoma...even nature knows...my Dad is coming home next week and there's gonna be some MAJOR ass-kicking...yikes..hope he doesn't go to jail....lol...because he totally loses it when he's mad...he's hot-headed as hell like the rest of us...he's so mad right now...oh man...i'm scared of what he'll do to them...they don't even know what they are in for now....it's all over now but the crying for them....

god..this is all so hillbilly....lol..oh well...at least i can journal about those morons...

xoxo

Monday, November 14, 2011

independent & empowered.....

Heard this song today..it's really good i think..i like a lot of her songs...and she's an Oklahoma girl..so she's cool...lol..

Just got home..when you work all day you feel accomplished...well..when you do any kinda work that achieves something you feel that way....I just wish everyone could have a job & work....things will look up for everyone jobless & hungry....the world can't throw in the towel and say:"I'm done..let's give up!"....things are gonna change& get better..it takes time...we gotta have faith& hope....never give up....and no,i do not believe the world is coming to an end...good grief people on the news!...LOL...turn off the news it's all negative...

now just because i had an empowering feeling today for myself(it may just be the hot chocolate i'm drinking right now..lol..) ,and i think everythings peachy in my world, does not mean that's the only reason i'm so upbeat and positive today...i just have a really good sense that things are gonna get better for the world...i'm staying positive about it all....i'm sick of the sad ol'crap.. 

Today i feel really tough and empowered...i have to thank all of my family for teaching me how to be a tough independent soul..all the praise and encouragement they have given me...especially the talk my Dad gave me over the phone today he told me:"I believe in you 100% that you can and are running the ranching business successfully...you can do anything...don't ever let anyone tell you,that you can't handle this kinda work/business just because you are a girl...because that's a damn lie...you are smart,independent,tough,and a fast thinker...quick on your feet...there will be good&bad times but you can handle it..i'm proud of you and all you're gonna achieve..i will help you in any way i can."

all the times they have basically thrown me out there and said "figure it out kid" have helped me & all the being tough toward me and pushing me through things all my life has made me who i am and in the last few years i have become tougher and i owe it to all of them....maybe today i just had a realization?...the figures & totals---i looked down at that piece of paper and my half of the sheet and i thought:"OMG! i did THIS?!"...yes,i did... ;)

i wanna be a tough independent girl...i don't wanna ever have to feel insecure,lost,tiny,dumb....i've always looked up to the strong women in my family..who are also very tough women who know who they are and don't take crap from nobody...that's the kinda girl i have realized i have become...i've became who i wanna be....empowered...independent...not depending on anyone....sure i have PMS days where i cry and feel stupid but what girl doesn't?...lol...just being my own person and knowing more & more who i am,who i wanna be,and who i'm not...wow...why did it just hit me today?....i'm so proud of myself...

honestly i owe it all to my family for teaching me how to be this kinda independent girl,loving me,&believing in me....wow...i can't believe I achieved those figures....

xoxo

Friday, November 11, 2011

hot tub on a cold night......

Last night,late, i got a call on my cell phone...the call was from some of the hillbilly relatives trying to call me...i never answered....they were yelling the other day saying that i(me Julia) was a little b*tch and they couldn't find my cell phone # but they had someone looking into that, and i think i'm so smart & i am nothing but a spoiled brat!..LOL! news to me.....AND they were going to find my cell phone# and make me talk to them!....lol...

yeah, so i guess they looked it up and found it....I got news for them..i'm NEVER answering it..i have caller id morons! HAHA!....see it continues..they can keep calling and i will just ignore them..ignoring these idiots adds fuel to the fire...it gets them madder and confuses them...this is all about wanting to pick a fight and get attention from me.....never happening....i still don't know what they are so mad about? i never even talk to them or see them.....but you can't explain crazy right?....i really wish i could get back at them good....there's gotta be some way?..but how?...like, do something funny to them w/out them knowing!....but yet,i could know it was happening..Bwahaha!..oh man...

they're just mad at DadChad..he's threatened them back..he is MAJOR P*SSED right now.....we have a feeling that thanksgiving---there will be a huge smackdown on them from him..we know it's gonna happen....can't wait to see what they try next....i'm excited! *sarcastic face*...lol...why am i ALWAYS in the middle of this family fight stuff?!....right in the center of it?.why me?! ;(

just got home from shopping at the mall today..you know us "spoiled brats" gotta shop...lmao!...i looked and looked for my brother a gift...i have no clue what to get him for Christmas yet....I bought Grandma,Winter Candy Apple bath set,some gloves and a scarf.....and my Grandpa a new blue shirt& new roping gloves he wanted...everybody else..i don't know yet?....my friends are getting Bath& Body Works...LOL..act surprised when you open it you guys!...HAHA!...pretend you don't know what it is!....sorry but yes,i once again was drawn into the store....i LOVE it...sorry....i can't stay away from that place...their fragrance wall plug-ins are cute..i bought two that look like a santa and a christmas tree....

after that i went to the grocery store and i can now say we are completely ready for thanksgiving dinner..i bought everything in cans we need, and it went into the kitchen cabinets....Grandma is buying the rest....so i get to help make dinner this year..we don't really look at thanksgiving as a "great" holiday because of what it's really historically about--(the tribes losing their lands)..so we just celebrate it as a day to be thankful for things and have a huge dinner w/family..relax..chill out...laugh & drink....so i can say we are already done w/that shopping dinner stuff...and it's a few weeks away--DONE.

going to go and get in the hot tub tonight...it's supposed to be chilly& windy and that's the best night to run across the cold patio sidewalk barefoot!...haha..i'm gonna get a really bad cold...worse..but oh well..

xoxo

Thursday, November 10, 2011

rabies&pms....

Taking my puppy in today to the vet to get his shots..rabies is going around rampant w/all the wild animals....My other dogs & the cats all have their shots, but i'm mainly going for the rabies shot for this new pup..because i'm alarmed....This week my uncle's new puppy he just adopted from the shelter, got attacked by a skunk over night..it snuck under the garage door and bit the puppy...sad. ;(

Uncle shot&killed the skunk, then had to take the dead skunk to the vet where the vet took the brain out and sent it to OKC to be tested for rabies...well....sadly the skunk had rabies, and my uncle has to have the puppy put down...we're all upset over it..i cried....it was a sweet/friendly/happy cute dog...he was already attached to him...he hasn't cried not once...he's just gotta do what he's gotta do and have the puppy put down....not taking it so good.....becoming attached to/loving something dearly, can be so heartbreaking& torture at times i know.....but ya gotta love and deal w/the heartaches....enough sad stuff!

so this morning i'm taking my new puppy in for his shots so we won't be getting rabies(PMS is bad enough!..lol.)...then i'm going to go try and do a little way early Christmas shopping...beat some overzealous crowds in the coming weeks maybe?....lol...Grandpa gave me the day off and he paid us last night our wages,so i'm looking for a few gifts..nothing pricey or over the top..just things needed...we drew Christmas names out of a cowboy hat last night,and i drew my brother's,so i have to find him something..my dad got my name...haha...can't wait to see what he gets me...he'll probably buy me some jewelry or something neato....haven't talked to him since he called, maybe he will come home for thanksgiving and see us?...

choir practice went good last night..lots of people there...Be proud of me!----i signed up with Grandma's church to volunteer w/community food baskets delivery & prep...for Thanksgiving & Christmas, for people going through a rough patch lately& there's lots of them unfortunately..

count your blessings and be thankful for every good thing in your life,because some people don't even have that much...........it's the right thing to do..help out.....and we're putting the money from the "swear jar" into the donation drive....God don't like cussin'...LOL!..we've got that jar full this week....haha!

anyhow,that's that..now if i could just make this annoying PMS stuff go away....lol

Wednesday, November 9, 2011

hillbillies at it again....

Another day of work in....i'm TIRED....

Tonight we are cooking supper at my Grandma's house....I'm pretty good at cooking..but i am in NO WAY even half the cook my Grandma or any of my Aunts are!....LOL....i love southern cooking...raised on it....i'm trying to learn all their secrets....i watch them make all these too good to be true tasting things all my life and i like to think i have at least picked up on something...haha....i wanna be that good at it...

we're cooking supper and after that we are going to community choir practice w/Auntie J at the auditorium near the town hall..it's gonna be my first time looking over the sheet music for this performance,---it's scheduled 2 days before Thanksgiving...The director said not to worry i will pick it up right off he knows...so even though i have missed practice because of work it should be easy for me to learn....that's a relief...

Looked at indoor Christmas lights last night at a store...we're gonna have to buy some new ones for outside the house,the snow/ice last year destroyed the bulbs..so i'm thinking i'll go LED Christmas lights this year?...i put them up day after thanksgiving every year....i like decorating w/lights...

oh! and grandma says, we've all gotta REALLY over-do the Christmas lights outside this year because hillbilly relatives yelled out at us in town that--"It's not fair we can't decorate for Christmas outside! and it's stupid you all decorate,we're gonna sneak up to your houses and rip all your lights down!"....see how stupid and ignorant they are?..LOL!...we just ignored them...and walked on...i wanted to yell back:"Go ahead and step foot near my house and you'll be staring down the barrel of a shot gun!"...LMAO! or i could yell back at them :"Haha! You might have some money if you'd stop wasting it on meth rocks & having all those babies you don't care about dumbasses!"...HAHA!....i feel sad for those kids... ;(

god,we're all so sick of their mouthing..i don't ever know what they're so mad about?...it must be because we don't/won't associate w/them at all or acknowledge them....they're embarrassing & crazy!..but we've all tried in the past to help them w/food/clothes/money...and they sell it all or waste the money on drugs or something...we have no idea what they stay so mad about they just yell out:"Ya'll think we're trash and ya'll are better than us and it's not fair!" blah blah...you always think:"God....What now hillbilly trash!?"...it gets so old fast..whatever...

even if you're nice to them they all try to take you over..take your land,break in your house,steal from you,lie about you,tell people you're kin to them,follow you around,tap your house phones,get in your banking business,have their cronies follow you/scare you,make threats,call you,they even robbed my aunt's store & my grandparents house a few years back we found out, they also tried to make another cousin lose her job by harassing her.....yep..they've done all this crazy stuff forever....they're insane & horrible...it's all soooo stupid.

i feel as if i have walked around my entire life almost looking over my shoulder or defending myself against them and something they try to do.....i just always expect them to be trying to do something, we all expect it...lots of stress & anger all my life....they think we should give them EVERYTHING and they think--"whatever is yours, is mine because we're related!" that's their hillbilly mentality....

we don't owe them anything!...they will not take me over,scare me,or run me outta the state..i'm tough & clever enough to stay one step ahead of them all the time..they're getting older & slower....plus it will be funny when Dad gets ahold of their dumbassses...just wait...they better run...i do think they are scared of him very much so....he'll knock them out...lol....when he gets the chance after all that crap they said about him..oh wow..it won't be pretty! ;(

they're my grandma's nieces & nephews and their families on that side of the family...all insane....i wish they would all go away....i don't want people to know i am related to them..but oh everyone knows i am...no matter how respectful & nice you are to hillbilly relatives they still hate you...and i don't know why?!..Probably because we aren't trash and don't act like it either and they might realize that in their fried minds?....they're favorite line to scream at us is:"YOU ALL THINK YOU'RE BETTER THAN US!"....

haha...anyway..thanks for letting me get that stressful crap out of my mind blog...off to take a shower and leave..

kisses.

Monday, November 7, 2011

earthquakes/tornados now....

Heard this song yesterday on the radio,on my tv satellite stations...just found this random video..cool song love it

Wow....it just cracks me up how everytime there is a natural disaster some preachers start yelling:"It's the end of the world! Pray! for your souls Jesus is coming!"...oh whatever!....give me a break....there's been natural disasters going on for centuries and all the death,murder,crazy people,and destruction crap has been too...you just never hear about it....it's too old news won't sell...once again..news media at work...lol...god i like to hate on them don't i?... ;)

these preachers don't know when the end of the world is coming or any of that...it was online here somewhere i saw a preacher/religious nuts group calling for the end of the world because we had earthquakes here in Oklahoma....LOL...well...do they not believe all  those F5 tornados we have every year or so are worthy of end of the world coming tall-tales?...Pssh!...Haha! they crack me up..guess our tornados can't compare to earthquakes?....

i think most of us here in Oklahoma think the earthquakes aren't so scarey...we deal w/F5 tornado threats all the time..now THAT is something to be scared of...Looking up into the sky or across the field and seeing a huge mile wide whirlwind of black clouds/debris tornado sucking up everything in it's path and coming for you?...yeah that's something to be scared of....

Speaking of tornados supposed to be here today....oh well

off to work...in the rain, it's lightning now!

xoxo

Sunday, November 6, 2011

earthquakes.......

Just got home 2 hours ago...lol...we all went to the bar last night for open mic night...I played my guitar and sang..it's fun doing that and listening to everyone else..for me singing/playing has always been like opening a window to my mind and letting all the stress/worries/negativity outta there...it just goes away...i really believe music has healing properties....just like after i had that horrible pain from broken bones that year i listened to instrumental/spa music to get through the pain and it helped at night...but my mind is always counting notes & key changes when i listen to ANY kind of music...so maybe it made me focus on that instead of the unbearable pain?..who knows?

I took Cody & Uncle Pete home a few hours ago....they were pretty drunk and restless so i made sure they got home...lol...i drove them both home and helped them into their houses....I just love taking care of people...it makes me feel great that i got them home safe,to make sure they are ok..don't let them hurt themselves or fall.....there's nothing sadder than people not watching out for others you know?.....so they get drunk and rowdy?..big deal, that's normal in my family!....lol.....i like taking care of them...it makes me giggle at the stuff they say and do....unless they get violent..then..well....i don't know...haha!.....

we had another earthquake last night at 11pm...we're getting pretty good ones on the scale they said...it shook a shelf last night and some glasses on the bar...everyone was like:"Wow!..what the hell?!"....haha..they probably thought they were imagining things......

somebody said they thought it could be from the oil/gas companies "fracking" for natural gas..causing the earthquakes?..but i don't know...could be..we're just all amazed to experience an earthquake/tremor..we never have those here!...it's funny....lol...they start east of OKC and travel all the way over here to western oklahoma...craziness....

i think there is a fault line here by the mountains anyway...Call the seismograph people!..haha!...they have some cool graph print-outs after they drive over your land w/that truck...interesting stuff to check-out....

work to do today and yes,i did manage to set my clock back before i left last night.....I think today, i am going to go ahead and see if the gas station is open  at 5:45am,and go fill up the truck w/gas before this week starts,that way i won't have to waste time stopping and worrying w/it...

i'm running on 2 hours of sleep but it's my fault for staying out so late last night and singing/playing..had fun though..i'll catch a nap or so sometime today....it's sunday! ;)

kisses.

Friday, November 4, 2011

laundry friday night.....

Just got back from a long work-related drive...I usually miss my road signs and get lost or something..it's confusing...but i'm mainly a smalltown driver..you know one lane of traffic down Main Street...lol....i have to read my maps and plot/plan,because that Onstar crap just isn't too reliable...Luckily i am pretty good w/knowing my directions in any given spot or place..just when i drive down a driveway that dips downward  then turns all different directions in a town do i get lost....other than that, i can look at the sun or moon and kinda determine which way is NORTH-SOUTH-EAST-WEST if i get confused...lol

We had to drive the 3-4hrs there,way north of Stillwater to buy a movable livestock chute that Grandpa had bought from a guy up way north of Stillwater...so we been gone all day....We got there at 9am and bought it,loaded it and the man asked us:"So,ya'll are from out western Oklahoma huh?"..we said :"yeah" He went on:"They say that's tough livin' out that way,tough people,tough weather,tough ranching..ya'll deserve a damn badge of honor for managing that out that way."....LOL....we just laughed...

I said:"Yeah..i guess you could say that"...i never really thought about it,but i do remember meeting some people from OKC one time that said they got told the same thing...lol...I guess we deserve a prize!....haha..we must be pretty tough to survive living out here our entire lives...when they say the people are tough..that's true..kinda mean..so i guess when i've thought that all my life,i wasn't just guessing..it's a matter of fact....so that explains that.

Found out last night when DadChad called that he's got moved back to work down here closer to home,but back out by Dalhart,TX..well in between Dalhart & Amarillo...but anyway he's closer than Montana!...he should be back there by monday he said,it's supposed to be pouring rain from here to Amarillo on monday but he'll get there safe i'm sure....

didn't dare tell him about crazy hillbilly relatives antics this week..because he totally flips out about them and loses it..i just hope he doesn't find out about them yelling that stuff at us about him being a former drug-addict & other stuff he's done...(like they(Sandy/Barbara) aren't & haven't been?)whatever!..i don't know why they yelled that at us?

Were we supposed to be embarrassed? or upset? or hate him? or what? FAIL LOSERS!..yawn.....we already knew about the really wild stuff..he told us already & told us to NEVER try any of the crazy stupid drugs/stuff he's done..that he wants better for us and it would kill him to see us go down that dark road he did....he said it's a low place mentally & emotionally,he was very depressed/unhappy the whole time,and that he doesn't ever want us involved in it because he loves us...he also said it's a waste of money,time and years from your life...not to mention, dangerous....so he just drinks/smokes now...

he was honest about it all...according to stories we've heard from others in town,i'm sure we don't even know half of all he's done...but we don't give a crap he did all that wild stuff we love him regardless..who cares? that's in his past..he just drinks now...and we don't care..big deal....

they're so ignorant and stupid..they better pray he doesn't find out they said that crap about him and all the other stupid stuff they threatened...oh god i hope he doesn't find out they yelled that to us!..yikes!..i'm seriously afraid that if he finds out they said that he will lose it and go after them...it won't be pretty....it will get very bad....he already hates those crazy b*tches anyway..everyone hates them...

i'm not telling him ANYTHING about it..the only person who might tell him is Cody,and that's only because he wants to see him get crazy.....too dangerous when he loses it like that...

staying home tonight and doing all my week's worth of laundry--towels/clothes/sheets.....lavender & vanilla scented detergent & softner the best! ;) ..i need to stay outta that cold wind,sleep,and take my cold medicine...

xoxo

Thursday, November 3, 2011

dusty cold wind......

It's freezing and i've still got this cold flu thing this morning...guess i will take some more Thera-flu honey lemon packets today to get through work..The wind got really blustery yesterday and it was freezing by 6pm...we were all still working the wednesday sale riding pens, and helping unload trailers when the sky turned cloudy, dark blue, the wind hit and it blew that dust everywhere..it gets all over you and you have this gritty dirt in your mouth,you breathe in dirty cold wind--after you get done working for the day..i love it though...lol..but it's a good recipe for pneumonia when it gets cold like this.. ;(

Since it's just a given that if Harrell can get off work on wed,thurs,or fridays he will take off and drive right to the sale to annoy me & Sarah...all the freaking time...we were ready for him yesterday and hid behind the door that goes from the cafe in the sale barn to the arena where the sale takes place...so we were hiding behind the door,and we could hear him walking down the hall and we tried so hard to not just crack up laughing so as he got closer we both jumped out and yelled:"BOO!" ----he jumped & then he screamed like a girl!!!! LOL..i mean, he sounded exactly like a scared woman screaming.....it was kinda like:"UH...Harrell screams higher-pitch than we do! and we're girls!"

so naturally, we just broke down rolling on the floor almost and  i couldn't contain my giggles...i just broke down and giggled for 30 minutes..everytime we would look at Harrell i just couldn't take it..i couldn't stop laughing...he got all mad and says:"OMG!..what the hell?! you scared the crap outta me!"...i started giggling and i told him:"Harrell, can you sing soprano?"....haha!...then he laughs:"You're so cute when you're evil to me julia!"...lol..*eyeroll*...

you had to hear that scream.....everyone in the sale barn kinda looked over at him like--"What the hell?" "Harrell screams like a girl!"....bwahaha!...i really wish he would turn off the annoying/pestering he does to us....

after work i got home,took a shower, washed the stinky sale barn outta my hair,lit the fireplace,took some medicine for my cold/allergies..and fell asleep watching "GunSmoke" while i was in bed under the electric blanket..for some reason lately i have been watching that show on the western channel..it's so old..and it makes me sleepy..isn't that weird?...haha....i guess i finally stopped listening to that wind howl..it sounds like a million screeches or yelling or something when it blows like that...kinda spooky to me....

good stuff though..along w/my love for old Gene Autry/Roy Rogers re-runs on there..thanks Grandpa! for telling us about those good shows....i love old stuff..old tv,old music,old styles,old clothes..i was born 100 years too late i swear....must be why my house is full of antiques?...i want to sorta have old stuff from another time w/me always.....is that strange or what?.... 

in other news,my new puppy brings up all kinds of objects in my yard....yesterday when i got home i counted 18 things in the yard!...he's been collecting things and putting them in the yard...he drags up everything he can find from old gloves,rocks,tree limbs,cow horns,roadkill(gross!) and bones..i don't mind the bones, as long as i can determine they aren't human(LOL!)..kinda worries me sometimes...indian burial grounds are unknown everywhere around here....he goes roaming all over the pasture and digs,or up on the hill..he's so cute though...

i think he's bringing me gifts,an offering, or something,because cats & dogs will do that when they live outside they appreciate you take care of/love them..i've heard it's a thank you they bring to you...who knows?only they know what they are doing...it's cute though!..i just laugh about it and tell him thank you...lol..Coyotes have finally stopped eating the dog food..they walk right up to the pasture fence and howl now...i guess the rains finally helped things get better...

anyway gotta go to work sale day #2..

love,Julie

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

who cares?...opinions are worthless....

People's opinions have never mattered to me...they're all full of BS...Everyone thinks they know it all pretty much...sure they're entitled to their opinions...but i just don't care what anyone thinks or wants me to listen to out of their mouths/brains...People are bitter and vindictive and w/this economy they are only getting worse...i'm like:"Yeah...ok..whatever you wanna say people...blah..blah..you gave your 2 cents of worthless opinion now get outta my face."

Seems like all anybody wants to do is---pick fights w/others,humiliate them,bring them down,abuse them,be jealous,mouth them....they could look at something so original and beautiful and call it trash or ugly, just because they are feeling sorry for themselves....and don't wanna appreciate the real beauty in anyone or anything..they start bitching and whining before they even know what it is....and it's just not here in the US..i talked to a friend from another country yesterday and she was telling me the same thing...i take it that the whole world is having these kinda "people issues" and money problems....

Anymore you have to dress like a bum all the time to go out in public and look the part to blend in w/all the jealous idiots..never talk about money or good things in your life..because that brings out the bitter in them all...even tiny things like a new pair of shoes..needs to be kept to yourself i think...i just try to act broke all the time...LOL....especially around those lazy hillbilly relatives of mine(Sandy&Barbara-old crazy lazy,dangerous thief hags) who are dangerous jealous of EVERYTHING..

i could pay $5 for a pair of socks and they would say i paid $100 for them..then make up lies about you...they just take the cake when i say insane...they think everyone owes them everything...handouts all the time..they never change...we ignore and avoid their mouthing,heckling,jealous sh*t...it's like:(Oh yawn...here we go again w/the jealousy stuff for the 1zillionth time)it gets old really fast...and it's not just them it's other people around here too....i do not like them..

stealing has got bad..mouthing has got bad...jealousy has got bad...it's kinda as if you have to walk around on eggshells all the time w/most people..no matter how nice you are to them..they don't appreciate it when the bitter claws come out...which is why i avoid people i kinda suspect of being that way....I feel bad the way the economy is and how people don't have jobs and no $ and i want the best for everybody....it angers me like everyone else...but i'm tired of the bitterness,the hate,jealous sh*t....it's getting old..for the most part i try to stay away from town and those crazy people....i don't wanna hear it...

nobody owes anyone anything...sure,we wanna help out w/the Angel Tree gifts this year as always,the church Thanksgiving Christmas dinner donations and donate to the shelters as always...but the last thing i want or need is someone hating on any of us because we're ok...it really hurts when you get mouthy threats for nothing you have ever done...and to think people are so jealous they get irate to the point they turn to that..when we have never done anything but treat everyone kind, and respect them....that's what greed will do to them..

Grandpa said to forget their mouthing off and just keep right on walking...lol...then he said the ones doing all the smart-ass jealous stuff are the ones that always have thought everyone owed them something...he said:"They're showing their asses...if they wanna act like trash let 'em...don't give a piss what they think."..and he's right..half of them being so jealous are the ones that never want to better themselves anyway..they see you have something or some $ and then demand you give them money or let them have everything you have worked hard for....not happening...

He said there's 3 things that will ALWAYS start a fight:
Politics
Religion
Money

so i always avoid those topics...even when people bring that stuff up..i go:"oh..i don't know i never pay attention..who cares."..and i go on...

a person can't give a sh*t what anyone thinks or says about them or anything they do..because they all got a mouth and like to run it..give their 2 worthless cents about your life,business,etc...i don't care what anybody says or thinks about me..i just don't...never have and i guess that's what makes those hillbillies so mad...lol...i know i'm a good person and that's all that matters....

i just walk on and act like i never know what goes on....lol...because i truly do. not. care....i think they're all nutso anyhow..so i just go on and do my own thing...in my brain i try to make most the negative people/stuff that sorta annoys me non-existent...i have a very bad temper so if  i don't let it go and laugh about it..you will see fireworks and it gets bad...i have inherited my hot-headed as hell temper from my family...and it's a bad one....

nobody wants all that damn drama in their face all the time,bitching,mouthing,and all the picking you apart all the time..i don't care...if they don't like something i do, or something i say, that's their problem not mine...LOL...they're just not tolerable in my world.....

xoxo