Saturday, December 31, 2011

Adios' 2011.....

Another Reckless Kelly song i LOVE off this cd....Willy Braun has the coolest voice! ;)


Had our family New Years' Eve breakfast at Grandparents house this morning at 6:30am....after we did morning haying/feeding....It was fun...we had homemade,from scratch biscuits/gravy/hash browns/eggs/bacon/sausage/orange juice....gotta love that stuff!


After tonight my diet starts..NO SUGAR...and my exercise regime is gonna get intense..i gotta be tough/strong and stay in shape to keep working and be good at this ranching business..In about 2 weeks i will see about buying that exercise equipment i wanna get..


I've gotta keep my check book balanced....living on a farm and in the cattle business most your money goes into investing in your herd/your land/your equipment to keep the land going and keep being productive...and land taxes....i think a lot of people don't understand that you have to put in a lot of money and be a tight wad to keep your land/cattle....go w/out a lot of un-needed things...


so i never spend much money on crap i don't need...i'd rather buy medicine for my horse or a new gate for my corral than buy a sweater or a diamond bracelet!...LOL..i wear stuff til it has holes in it around here when i'm working...haha...i mainly wear my working clothes all the time anyway...so whenever i buy a lip gloss,or a tube of makeup,or a nail polish---it's a treat...that's kinda cool i think...keeps things minimum!...i don't need expensive treats or possessions to make me happy...i could care less about material things or money all the time..just don't care....i've got plenty of jewelry/clothes/shoes/purses---things like that...


i know a lot of people would LOVE to know all my business banking-wise and such and all that....i got news for all those nosy bastards..they will NEVER KNOW all my business because it's MY business not theirs!...LOL!!!.that goes for nosy lazy hillbilly relatives too...all jealous whiners!....people need to mind their own business and leave me alone!..but oh well that's people..anytime they think you got something they want it..especially money/land...they will turn on you in a heartbeat..you can bet your ass on that....


i find it really funny how everyone around here is making a big deal about the ability to now buy FIREWORKS! and set them off for New Years Eve.....LMAO..nobody got to set off fireworks for the 4th because of the drought and now they are sooooo excited they get to!...haha...i guess fireworks  make these hillbillies around here happy because they were all mad as hell this summer...bwahaha!..people are so stupid..


Tonight my New Years Eve will probably be playing my guitar over at the bar--drink Margaritas,or going to the casino w/my friends for that bash thing they are having-drink Margaritas....haha!...i don't know yet...we will have FUN wherever we go!...it's an over-hyped celebration anyway..i gotta work by 5am tomorrow morning as i do everyday....


Hope everyone has a safe,fun New Years and drives all their drunk-ass family & friends home tonight!...lol!


A New Years Eve Kiss from Me to You!!! xoxo

Friday, December 30, 2011

stupid jealous women.....

Finished work an hour ago...At least i didn't have to work til 11pm tonight...Friday night sales are ALWAYS crazy-busy...I got my hand smashed today in a gate that swung backward when a load of steers ran through...i have a nice purple-blue bruise across my hand and it is hurting like you wouldn't believe...i just kept working...no tylenols around anywhere....Once you take the focus off the pain it doesn't hurt so much...you don't have time to think about it..you gotta keep on working you know?


A few of the girls in the office of the sale barn have been bickering and backstabbing each other(as most women do)...i just don't get all the bitch fights with all those women?!...I must be a whole different kinda girl...i just don't fight or bitch,back stab people...i never never get jealous either...i don't get those women...i mean,geez that's all they do..you hear it everywhere you go always women and their crazy hormonal cat-fights...a girl just can't really be friends w/other girls sometimes from my experience they always back stab you...that's why i have just about 6 friends that are girls that i trust been best pals forever!


My guy friends you can talk to them all the time and they never get jealous or make fun of you over anything...really chill and laid back easy going...i like that...that's how friendships should be..no drama!I have been the target of the jealous bitchy gossipy cat fighting women going around spinning tales and making fun of me before..it's pretty pathetic to get jealous of someone over nothing and go and start making up lies and crap like that..when EVERYONE knows i would NEVER do anything like that....that's just how women are....CRAZY....they have talked crap about everyone up and down and back and forth...oh yawn...


they only looked like fools that time they tried to make up that crap about me..everyone laughed them right outta town..i can only imagine the stuff they are making up about that girl in the office...i'm sure they will try to have that all over town soon about her..it's so stupid..i mean really?...you get jealous of someone over anything or nothing at all so start lies about them to ruin them because you are a jealous whiny bitch...


i will NEVER be like those kinda girls..it's ridiculous..as my brother told me you can never work with a lot of women and not get in the middle of a bitch fight...LOL...especially the girls around here i guess! Instead of tearing each other down and being jealous all of us girls everywhere should all be supportive of each other and happy for one another and if not just shut your mouth and walk away from each other and stay away..don't cause drama and spread lies/negativity about one another over jealousy..now if someone is causing you troubles or something you should stand up for yourself and tell them off...lol...that's what i think...


kisses!

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

roping is fun!!!....

Finally got the welder to finish working on the gate yesterday.....we had some work that needed done on the gates and one half of the corral near the barn...just from animals kicking things around and a few mishaps over the past year or so w/those trucks backing into things...but all in all i'm glad we got that done finally....i don't know how to weld,although i did take that class in Ag during high school...lol....i could probably weld around here!.....


Went to the team roping last night over at Uncle Pete's arena...everybody stayed there from 5:30pm til about midnight last night...They just get off work and go load up their horses and drive over to hang out all evening....we helped Auntie J w/the concession....she still likes to help with that even though she and Uncle Pete are divorced and hate each other...Haha!...


There was beer,sodas,water,nachos,hot dogs,pickles,hot pickled peppers----AND the ever famous "frito pie in a bag"...LOL.----you know where you slit a small bag of frito chips down the middle and pour chili,mustard,onion,sprinkle cheese over it and eat it out of the bag like that w/a plastic fork or spoon....good stuff on a cold arena night.....lol...


I like to watch them team rope...it's a lot of fun for me giving it a try too..it's mainly a guy's sport in rodeo..but it's kinda fun for me too even though i am a girl...i think roping is something that takes your mind off things that bother you..you can really get serious about it and focus on that for hours at a time trying to perfect it...you're roping and riding your horse both at the same time while making a throw/catch..you're doing several things all at the same time...something to be proud of yourself for once you accomplish it!


perfecting it takes lots of practice, training and skill...eventually it evens out.....it's a lot of fun for me anyway...i have the best teachers in my family...all the cowboys in our family love roping...my Uncle is a very serious competitive roper...he could talk all day about it,so does my dad...there's no question they can't answer about it either....


i like to rope/ride in the arena to music.....i gotta have some tunes....I've been listening to the Reckless Kelly cd "Good Luck and True Love" non-stop this past week..it's really good..i like all the songs..i could only find a few of the songs people had made videos for..here's one song i did find that's on that cd...


better go another long day awaits...


Kisses!

Monday, December 26, 2011

am i right?....

Well Christmas is officially over....It was a lot of fun...i got many gifts..i'm so spoiled!...lol...but at least i'm not a selfish spoiled brat...i'm a good person..i'm down to earth and i couldn't ever be anything but that...

lots of western/turquoise/silver jewelry.
clothes.
a pair of sky blue nikes---even the shoe strings are blue! ;)
money.
gifts cards.

it was a weird Christmas kinda...Dad never showed up...he never called...i'm starting to suspect some things that i have kinda already had figured out are true..he would do the right thing..i know he would..he wants to take care of us and stay outta that kinda life...he has for 6yrs now..hopefully he's working against all that dangerous stuff..

i know he would do the right thing just for us,because he wants us to be safe and he loves us...and him telling that:"I don't want them to see me like that or know what is going on....nobody is messing w/my family!".....it's starting to add up...i hope i am right..and he is doing exactly what i think he is...too much secrecy and worry w/him....it's all making sense now...and i pray it's true because he is my hero...he has to be doing the right thing...he couldn't let me down..i hope i am right w/what i think is taking place!..if not i will be totally let down..i just hope he's ok and stays safe....

found out this week something big happened(it was funny and needed to happen..names made the papers)..LOSERS!..HAHA!..got what they deserved...they must have felt the walls closing in on them?....that's why they were so stirred up and mad for 3 months?....wow....

the harassing has stopped(for now..hopefully they stay away) the mouthing hillbillys seem to have disappeared...i mean it just all makes sense and the mouthing they all did that day gave it all away...how could we have not pieced that info together?..makes sense...HAHA!...too funny!..but sadly i'm sure this isn't over..far from over....maybe someday...

oh the unwanted drama in my life...lol..

off to work...

Tuesday, December 20, 2011

last post of the week....

My new favorite song on the radio...it's stuck in my mind....lol..

Looks like this week is going to get crazier and crazier around here.....Wow....it's exhausting!.....i hope it's a safe Christmas and nobody gets into trouble....lol..Going to be busy for a few days and i won't have time to think, or blog/journal....

Really wish it would snow for Christmas...but it probably won't... ;(

Took my great-aunt a gift and candy this morning....Hope she really liked it...I try to pick cool gifts that i think will suit the person i'm buying for....hopefully they like what they get....

Have to work the sale Thursday and Friday.....i'm wondering if it will be a slow or fast day considering Christmas is this weekend?....

Grandpa says we are having BBQ brisket on Christmas,fried okra,mashed potatoes,black-eyed peas,salad,homemade rolls.....you know the usual Christmas dinner for our family....lol...being in the cattle business that's the staple for dinner...or sometimes steak....

AS follows here's the itinerary for the week......
Tonight----Community Christmas choir performance-gotta be there @6pm
Tomorrow----Work,then help decorate/deliver Christmas baskets & Angel Tree gifts w/Grandma's church at 5pm
Tomorrow Night----wrap gifts
Thursday--work til 11pm
Friday--Work all day
Friday Night---go to Christmas Party at the bar at 7pm til 3am...that should be an event....i'm sure it will get pretty wild over there..those people make me laugh....haha!
Saturday--Christmas at Grandparents at noon
Saturday Night---Christmas gift exchange at Aunt's house+a party
Sunday Night--Another party at another Aunt's house til whenever...lol...

we really hope we get to see Dad this weekend for Christmas and he isn't stuck in a snowstorm out west working...

Hope everyone has a fun Christmas!

Love,Julie

Saturday, December 17, 2011

Giggling while shopping....

Been awake since 3am this morning...i woke up freezing...i had kicked all my covers off last night..because i was wearing my pajamas i tend to get hot under that electric blanket....lol..

Working on finishing things up for my Christmas party tonight...everybody gets one of these tins from me tonight---filled w/homemade candy/cookies/chocolates/sugar over load! as a gift from me...Diabetes in a tin! from me to you!!!...haha!

Shopping went well yesterday...we went to the mall and i finished ALL my Christmas shopping..Can you believe it?!....I have to say i found the Betsey Johnson jewelry yesterday...I LOVE all of it...i like the art deco side to it and the skulls/figures/colors thrown into it all..really cool.....didn't buy anything for me yesterday sadly.. ;(    .......maybe after Christmas i will buy me something?

we all went to a ultra cool chinese restaurant there in Oklahoma City..it was really good..i'm not much of a chinese food lover....but i liked it...shrimp w/honey glaze,coconut,and rice...

I have discovered that i freaking LOVE shopping in Target...i could spend all day in there just looking at stuff.....and of course we had to go stop by and shop at the Dustees store...oh man..i wanna buy the whole store!...i adore sparkles of all kinds...

I'm seriously gonna try to talk my aunt into buying a Dustees store and putting one in nearby here..bigger than the local one...LOL!...she would be awesome at it..owning it and keeping it going...and i could have all the sparkles my heart desires..real or not...i love sparkles..they don't gotta be real!..i don't care!...haha!

we DID find a gag gift store...and we COULD NOT STOP the giggles while shopping in there...it was just soooo funny everything in there...i kept getting ideas about people opening these things up as gifts and i just couldn't stop giggling!!!Bwahaha!...we even got Harrell,Steven, and Frankie something!...oh man we are gonna get them good this time..they can't top this one.....!

the cashier at the front of the store started laughing at us and he goes:"Ok, what is so funny?..i'm dying to know what you girls have planned for whatever you're buying!"...so we told him and he just cracked up laughing:"Oh my God!....ya'll are so hilarious!..don't even!".....

Sarah looked at me and she's laughing :"Hey,is this what they call Dirty Santa?!"....and i just giggled uncontrollably..:"Yep...i think you'd be right!".....Amy was rolling in the floor just giggling when we found that stuff for Harrell & Co....!!!.....we would just look at each other and all of us just busted out laughing til we were crying!!! haha!

Oh poor,unsuspecting Harrell,Frank,& Steven..!Mwahaha!

Kisses!

Friday, December 16, 2011

Christmas shopping day is here!.......

Driving to Oklahoma City today to finish Christmas shopping!

Worked all day yesterday...have the day off work.....Yay!

Long tiresome drive for us today...going to OKC makes me soooo sleepy...takes forever to get there...but i gotta get this all done...

Me & Sarah LOL-ing about all the stupid gag gift ideas for the Christmas party tomorrow night!...haha!..we're so gonna buy that stuff today when we find a store...haha!

xoxo

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

oh those cover-alls.....

took a pic of my cover-alls...lol...
Well...seems as though i have inherited a pair of blue cover-alls this week...lol..whether i want to wear them or not i HAVE TO.....so i won't get sick working in the cold....My Dad gave them to me yesterday at noon and told me to put them on and wear them ALL winter...

You have to put them over your clothes and your winter jacket..then try putting your boots through the legs of these things to get your feet through---tangled mess!.....it doesn't take long to get hot in these things.....

I had so many layers of clothes on underneath this thing that i couldn't hardly move...i put them on and was walking and i almost fell...Dad caught me!...LOL....Grandpa,Uncle Pete,Dad..giggled about me almost falling over.....

Dad said:"Well maybe you won't need to wear 2 sweaters & thermals under that..just jeans,a shirt,1 sweater and your coat"..I looked at them and laughed back:"Uh..maybe i won't need to wear a coat under this thing!"..he goes:"No..g*ddamn it!...you're gonna wear that coat under there..it's made for that..you gotta keep warm so you won't get sick!..you'll get pneumonia again like last year working in all that dust and cold wind..you're gonna wear that..i don't care what you say".....yeah whatever...

Grandpa said:"Eh...she'll sling that off down the road she'll get sick of that thing."..Dad goes:"She'll wear it.".....I know that he,himself,would NOT put up w/this mess of cover-alls..he just wouldn't...he'd get mad and sling them off too and be done w/them....i've only seen him wear these once and the other times he wears those tan colored ones when it gets really freezing icy weather..he would not be uncomfortable and put up w/these....he just wouldn't,but he thinks i  need to have to put up w/this....whatever!

i can't hardly breathe or move in this thing w/all these layers of clothes underneath it too...does keep me warm at 5am in the icy cold wind though....

it's like something you would wear in the arctic...not Oklahoma...bwahaha!...but i guess they know what works--they've been doing this work forever...it is supposed to be cold/icy in a while they say....i just feel silly wearing this....haha!

xoxo

Sunday, December 11, 2011

coyotes & buzzards.....

This is gonna be gross...Found the bones of that born dead new baby calf yesterday near some blackberry bushes....i saw a mama cow there by herself all day Friday and i knew she must have had a baby...so i drove over that way and she had one and it was dead.....

they do that from time to time..sometimes it's their first calf that dies or sometimes it's the cold winter that kills them...i think she must have had some complications or something along those lines...

coyotes or buzzards had picked that carcass clean in one night or half day....the bones were red..oh man...it was sick and made me wanna puke...i mean everything was gone..even the hide...but it was born dead anyway....

those coyotes are really running in big packs now...some are supposedly crossed w/wolves or something they say..they howl all night-every night non-stop...kinda spooky to me when i'm lying in bed at night or i'm outside in the early morning or late night...not that i'm actually really scared,i'm used to them howling-it's just the eerie tone to their yipping has spooky traits to it.....that's why i have tough dogs outside and my kitty cats have to live in the garage/house or locked up in the barn at night...because they make great snacks for coyotes...*sad face*

they walk right up in the yard every night....i mean i don't mind that,but when they start trying to get in the barn to eat chickens or eating dog food out of the dog bowls in the yard,or annoy my dogs---it gets annoying..i NEVER get a full night sleep around here for all the yipping/barking...oh well..i'd much rather listen to them howl all night,than have to live in a big city full of crime! most definitely. ;)

i usually turn on the porch light or make a loud yipping sound back at them..sometimes they will yip back at you...lol..Julie--"The coyote whisperer"...Bwahaha!...my grandpa says that coyotes stay to the east of panthers at all times..something they naturally do in nature i guess?...i found that interesting....so they must be scared of big kitty cats....lol...

buzzards are always circling in the sky looking for dead stuff to eat...you talk about an ugly bird!.....that's one bird that got beat w/the ugly stick isn't it?....LOL....

poor buzzards..i saw 5 yesterday..and when they are in the road eating road kill they WILL NOT move for anything!...they just sit there and then decide to fly almost right as you are 2feet near them..lots of people lose wind-shields of their vehicles because of those crazy birds....i don't know if it's because they are deaf/blind or just because they are lazy...or what?...maybe they have bad hearing or sight..if so, that's sad to be made that way isn't it?....

my new pup carried the dead calf skull up in the yard and was chewing on it....SICK!...i was so mad at that dog....i almost gagged when i had to chase him around the yard to get the skull from him and then i picked it up w/a shovel....puke...it was red and ok, that's enough i don't wanna gross anyone out more than i already have.....i buried it out in the pasture...nasty!

i didn't make it into town for the Christmas parade...lol...i was too busy working..i just had dinner at home because i had no time to drive into town for all that mess....haha...

i DID manage to find a new pair of thermal underwear in an unopened package in the barn...i guess my uncle or Grandpa had bought a few pairs...it has a shirt and pants you just wear underneath your work clothes to keep you warmer...thermal clothes it should be called---not underwear!..lol....so i think i'm gonna use those this morning to work in...any extra layer in clothes helps block that chilly wind.....

starting to plan the Christmas party for my friends...next Saturday i think?..we're having gag gifts so i gotta find something embarrassing/weird/silly/stupid....this week i will look at gag gift stores in Oklahoma City when i get time to drive there...i love stores like that...i'm such a nerd....

cold dusty work awaits...

xoxo

Saturday, December 10, 2011

work.....

Well i have added to my make-up collection..by 1 item...lol...I bought a new lip gloss that i have been wanting...i think it will look good for Christmas parties & stuff....it's not real red at all...it's sorta tinted pinkish actually w/red/gold glitter in it.....it smells like strawberries to me.....I LOVE wearing lip gloss but i can't ever wear it while working,because of all the dirt i'm surrounded by all day.....ick!....dirt+lip gloss don't mix....lol...well,any makeup+dirt/dust just don't work i think....
Fireball lip gloss by Hard Candy


Worked all day yesterday at the sale til 11pm last night...got home stinking/dirty & cold..lol.....

2 guys got into a fight out in the parking lot over what nobody knows at the sale...cowboys really do like to fight...it's just not a myth or something made up...it's true....fight/drink/chase wild women...they really do....look at all the men in my family....they all do that...lol...

Uncle Pete was a total grouch yesterday while we were working..i swear he gets PMS....lol...it may have been a hang-over i can't be sure....haha....but we're all used to these grouchy spells....working together 24/7 w/this work and being family can take it's toll fast...you really start to annoy each other and get sick of each other easily....and just the fact that ALL the people in my family are hot-headed as hell doesn't help things either...you get all of our strong tempers going and BOOM it gets pretty bad....it's actually pretty hilarious i'm sure to the outsider watching us yell& cuss at each other..but they all do at the sale barns...

we yell/cuss and throw things at each other when we are working and things don't go just right...or when 1 of us almost gets hurt by the livestock or equipment Uncle Pete yells at us..:"Pay Attention g*ddamn it!" that's his #1 line  to yell....*eye roll*.....

Me & Travis both were working yesterday and got to actually sit down and have dinner there for 30mins at the sale barn...i got nachos w/pickled hot peppers of course..i LOVE those things...lol..(just like my Dad does)..

It was like we got that 30mins to have lunch and relax---then right back we went...Travis rides pens ALL day.....regardless of the weather..he takes 3 horses to switch off on so they won't be overworked or  tired....

i mostly work the gates & help w/unloading trailers..or hauling trailers in......i like it though....i think cowboy-ing is a fun job....the cold weather especially when it's windy can make it tough on you...makes you sick..dust blows all over you...other than that it's cool..very hard work...no laziness allowed!..but i like to stay busy always working..doing something....i feel accomplished when i keep on working..i wanna feel tired at the end of the day....helps you sleep..good for your mind and everything to always be occupied working or busy...i think so anyway.

better go...going to have bagels w/cream cheese for breakfast then back to work all day...

Later.

Thursday, December 8, 2011

small town limited ....


Just because this makes me laugh..it reminds me of my hillbilly relatives...LOL!

Today has been a not so great day.....Had to have the feed truck towed into town to a local car garage to get worked on...it started making a knocking noise and the weirdest sounds!.....so we called Uncle Pete on the cell phone and he drove out to the pasture and towed us to town after calling one of the guys at the garage.....Turns out it was the ball joint going out...$231.00.....so that's gonna leave us using a borrowed truck that is hell to drive for a week or so til it gets fixed...lol...oh well...could be much worse...

One of our oldest dogs here on the farm is acting sick and he won't eat...Called the vet and she said he could be having digestive issues and to try and bring him in tomorrow to see her....He's so old i'm afraid it's his time...and that makes me sad....but maybe he's just not taking the cold air so good and is hurting...he has arthritis...poor guy...he's a great friend..so i'm worried about him...we'll see...

just got home from driving into town to buy a few dessert treat bags & metal tins....i'm buying a few things at a time to keep ahead of this buying season..to save up for my candy boxes..i went w/red w/white snowflakes...all they had..of course it would have been all blues but all they had was red....lol....in small town grocery stores it's so funny how limited you are to what you can buy or see in the store...haha!....

i often wonder how they keep small town grocery stores running out here in the middle of nowhere?...i mean town probably has less than 1,000 people in it you know?.....and i live way out in the country so it's a good 40miles to civilization to buy something i will never be able to find in that stupid grocery store anyway....haha.....

i love living in the country..don't think i could EVER be a city girl....lol

i've discovered that i like walking outside super early morning in the cold and admiring the dark clouds against the moon...so pretty and freezing yet very calming..stillness & freezing!...did that this morning at 5am before work....thought about a lot of people i love& miss.... ;)

xoxo

Wednesday, December 7, 2011

make december a month long party.....

Yesterday after i got out of the Dr.'s office there were snow flurries flying around...it was super cold!...Dr. said my pee test was fine....lol....my kidney infection is GONE!..no blood or anything so that is a huge relief on my part.....yay!

after that i went to the feed store and bought a couple bags of horse/dog/cat food to donate to the animal shelter & animal rescues for Christmas...don't forget our animal friends for the holidays if you can afford some food or toys to donate to them...they make me wanna cry so bad i wanna rescue them all from death....i know the economy is bad...but it's not fair that just because there is no money for them or nobody there to adopt them that they have to die!...

i mean,they certainly wouldn't do that to people on the streets....and there's millions of "unwanted people" in the world you know...i get a "big case of the sads" for everything...i'm VERY soft-hearted so i have to just try and make a difference and help out in any way i can for the causes that are close to my heart-make me cry,so once i do all i can,i have to dry my tears and be strong,happy,walk on knowing i DID make a good difference....that's me.

i am in the creative process of planning my candy-"sugar overload" Christmas boxes i make/decorate and give to family/friends....red/green Christmas candy boxes/plates filled w/home-made decorated chocolates/brownies/cookies/candies/pastries--it's the french in my blood..haha!.....i'll post a pic in  a few weeks after i make them all.....i hope everyone likes them..they always do anyway,so what am i worried about?!.....lol

candy is always good at Christmas..i say you should eat/drink whatever kinda crap you want and have fun live it up this ENTIRE month!...that's the way i was raised...you can always diet& work-out AFTER the New Year....lol..who cares!..live your life..have some fun once in a while!...do something you wanna do for once this month......

Like i told a depressed friend yesterday--:"Yeah i know,Christmas can be depressing missing loved ones and the whole theme of it all brings up past emotions/sadness and all,no money,no jobs...but you gotta forget that crap and live in the now.....make it fun the best way you can..laugh and live in the insanity of the whole month..look for the hilarity in it all....you can if you want to..i see something funny everyday in people or things going on!"...lmao...

"Turn that frown upside down--slap a big smile on your face...play some music and toss some lights& decorations up!.let's just party all month long!" that's our family--party non-stop..booze it up all month..well they do that 24/7 anyway..ask anybody about them--they're all drunks anyway.....Bwahaha!....true!....they make me giggle all the time...

i know people just expect me to be wild & drunk all the time because 9 times out of 10 all of them are...but i only drink 1 or 2 drinks and that's it only on occasion...it's funny how people would probably assume i am just like my family..but i could never be that wild & cool...i'm so dorky...i find their drinking & partying hilariously entertaining and funny....i get a kick out of all their wild/ass-kicking-party lifestyle....just observing them...it's too funny and just craziness 24/7...

that electric blanket was so warm & i couldn't hardly make myself get up out of bed,to go out into the cold this morning at 6am to break pond/tank water for the horses/cows...Brrr!

there's the UPS guy in the driveway..probably got some online gifts i bought..i'm surprised they still deliver here in the desolate country side....we may have to go back to Pony Express someday w/all the postal problems going on...lmao!...let's hope the gifts made it here safely..*fingers crossed!*..yikes.

Monday, December 5, 2011

christmas shopping insanity.....

my favorite rock band..seen them in concert and yes,they are from Oklahoma.... ;)

Just snow Flurries??!...ok,i'll take them..that weatherman's prediction was a flop...lol..

Mass hysteria sunday Christmas shopping yesterday......You'd think on a cold sunday there wouldn't be THAT many people shopping at the mall...guess i was wrong...i just made a short drive to the closest mall here to find a new tv on sale that i wanted to get at a good price,because mine is kaput....I found one...the LAST freaking one!...close one..my new shopping guideline for the whole month now is:"If you see it....and you want it..and have the cash handy for it BUY IT NOW..because it will be gone"....

Those people stressed me out like nobody's business yesterday.---i was like:"God just get me outta this crazy place safe!!!" one idiot man and then an idiot girl both at different times walked right infront of me when i was trying to push around that stupid shopping cart w/a ginormous tv in it!..then they stopped and looked at me like i dare you to run over me b*tch!...lmao....oh how i would have liked to after their rudeness...not only thatm people drive like a bat outta hell near the mall.....welcome to the Christmas shopping season folks!...lol..It's kinda like their attitude is:"I may run over you,but holy hell i have that crap i wanted to buy!"...haha....
 
I have bought a few gifts online and hopefully they will get here w/out being damaged or lost or stolen by hillbillies prowling these country roads when i'm working.....lol...sad but true...i'm leery of a lot of people...half of them i'm unfortunately related to!...haha...but oddly they are leaving me alone now?...Hmm wonder why?...geez could it be that ass-kicking they got over thanksgiving?....Mwahaha!....they deserved it!...they knew better than to mess with us and they got it thrown back in their faces 100x worse than they could ever dish out!....

Everybody knows my dad&entire family is crazy/dangerous and i guess those hillbilly relatives were just too crazy& wiped out to realize what they were messing with they "thought" they could handle him..FAIL!.....I think it's hilarious people were saving seats out at the bar that night...just to see him knock them out!!!..i found that out yesterday and i laughed so much i was crying!...lol....people are still talking about it....

Our big joke in the family now,is for us to look at each other and yell:"Little B*tch! I have somethin' to tell you!"...mocking those hillbilly relatives calling my phone saying that..LMAO..yeah,i guess you did have something to say didn't ya? and it got thrown right back in your face...Mwahaha! we win!...

anyhow i guess i will wander out today in the "snow flurries" venture into town,go to the post office and mail off a few bills,then go work....i got my taxes yesterday that i gotta pay...so i'll have to set down today and do some money management figures on paper..land taxes are a b*tch....lol...but i'm keeping my land for sure so i'll pay that crap....*big smile*

xoxo





i suppose i should try and get a computer this year because this one is insane and about 6yrs old now...it has dementia...Bwahaha!..but i want to get that exercise equipment i'm wanting because i have gotta stay in shape no matter what to be a cowgirl.....i've gotta be rough& tough to make it in this business and be successful...i'm climbing the ladder....i'm making progress...

....and besides i don't have much use to invest time& money in a new computer when i'm working all the time anyway..i'm just a cowgirl/farm girl..nothing special....i just need this Wi-Fi to buy things needed and journal away the frustrations and stress of the many misadventures in my life to the world.....haha....it helps me...it's like revenge in a way to all these morons in my life...journaling is like free therapy....

Saturday, December 3, 2011

freezing rain or snow???....

It's rainy & super COLD today...nice change though...

http://www.srh.noaa.gov/oun/

I like checking this weather map link before i got to work....haha..i should've been a weather girl instead of a cowgirl....

Supposed to have freezing rain tomorrow and monday SNOW...i'm excited to see snow..maybe?...but please,absolutely NO power outages from freezing rain on the power lines!..eek!.just hope that my auntie makes it back home from Tennessee before it gets bad on the interstate.....she took a vacation w/her friends to Nashville...wish i could've went....lol..

been working the sale the past 2 days.....so exhausted...so tired that i tried to unlock the front door of the house with the keyless entry button for my car when i got home...LMAO!...i kept pressing the button and looking at the door..and thinking:"What the?!why isn't it opening?!" and then i realized i was trying to unlock the house door w/my car keyless entry!...Haha!...oh man....i hope i'm not getting Alzheimer's....lol....don't tell anybody i did that....Ssh! 

after all that i went out w/friends to the casino and played a few machines,watched a few table games..til midnight...My Dad was there w/his friends & Mark was there..drinking,smoking,playing tables....he kept spying on us the whole ENTIRE time,walking by and trying to see what we were talking about or where we were...WE SAW YOU DAD!...lol....god...he thinks we are babies i swear!...

that casino is rather large,so i don't know how he knew when we were leaving because he appeared out of nowhere and said he was going to walk us out to the car so nobody would get us....whatever!...he needs to go back to work in Amarillo soon....he worries so much he's gotta have ulcers.....i still don't think he knows about my kidney infection(which is better btw)...if he did know...oh man...lecture..lecture..blah..blah...

then late last night he went and got some more tattoos done apparently...it was way too cold last night when Travis,Kevin,Eli,Dusty,Amy,Kelly called me & Sarah to come on over to the bar at 2am and see the tattoos he(dadchad) got...so i don't know what he had done yet?....probably added to his arms....

i forgot to ask him today when he called and told us that our Christmas lights are pretty outside on the house and that we need to keep the fireplace lit and he's bringing us plenty of firewood tonight incase we get snowed in the next 3 days....he kept saying:"Those lights & colors are real creative."....lol...

it's kinda funny to me when a badass like him acknowledges something being cute or pretty to us that we have done...lol...but i also think he's being encouraging to my creative side of my art and stuff...he always has and it means a lot to me that he does.....

staying home tonight..hope we don't get snowed in the next few days...it's hard waking up at 5am to go work in snow!

~ Stay warm! ~

Thursday, December 1, 2011

already December....

First off i have to post this amazing song that i LOVE off of the new George Strait cd i bought...Makes me think of a lot of people in my family...i think it's about the fact that you can learn to love anything you know is bad for you..but you do anyway...the music is haunting and the words are truthful..good stuff..nothing like listening to this driving west on I-40 near Okla-Texas state line...i like driving & listening to the radio...it's so free...

Feeling a little better today...still drinking cranberry juice for the kidney infection..only 100% juice Ocean Spray is the way to go for me....i like to drink it in a martini glass or a wine glass...haha!...make it fun you know..Once you start having kidney problems,you and Ol' Cranberry Juice are going to become best friends..lol...

I took a nap yesterday since Grandpa gave me the day off work,so i just slept in til 11am...had a bowl of soup and went back to bed..i slept 2 more hours then woke up and worked around here feeding pets& horses...my fever is gone now..yay!

i have chosen my Christmas gift bags for the year and here they are...Cowboy Santa and a Cowboy delivering gifts on his horse..i thought they were cute,so i bought several of them to put my gifts in i give to family&friends...i just hung-up these 2 on one of my clothing closet racks to take a pic of....lol..yes,i'm a total nerd...now i gotta go to Oklahoma City and SHOP to fill up those gift bags...maybe next week..but i gotta hurry because it's already december...

This is my sparkly "magic snowflake" decoration hanging in my room on the wall...haha!.My friends& family all laugh because EVERYTIME i put this up on my wall--it snows or freezing rain happens...LOL..i've got it there in my room and now freezing rain may be coming....haha...see,everytime!....

supposed to maybe have freezing rain tonight/tomorrow or a snowflake or two...i have to admit that after this horribly crazy-hot summer w/drought, i want the weather to get extra snowy & cold..i think snowflakes are cute anyway...the design of how many millions of them there are is very interesting...plus, what is Christmas without snow?...

anyway i got work to do and lots of it today...

xoxo

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

kidney infection #23564837635 zillion.....

Have the day off....i had a Dr.appointment today at 9am for my kidneys.....I woke up last night and they were really hurting something terrible so i got up and took a hot bath at Midnight to try and relax along w/Tylenol...it helped but i could tell it was an infection.....I fell off the wagon and drank a Dr.Pepper yesterday at noon....lol.....i know...i do know better after all i have been through w/kidney infections...but i'm so sick of NEVER getting to drink soda!...Dr.Pepper w/a splash of vanilla is my weakness....and i am paying for that one 32.oz of evilness...*sad face*

Dr. gave me some antibiotics after my pee test indicated it was a kidney infection causing the kidney pain...so i have to take Tylenol & the antibiotic....and rest....I do know my limits w/my kidneys and how easily they can get poisoned after all the episodes i have had w/them....it's annoying...bad kidneys run in my family...so i gotta be extra careful w/them....i have to come back in a weak and take another pee test to make sure they are ok....nobody to blame but myself for this....my Dad is gonna be soooo MAD at me for this!!!...so Ssh! don't tell him i have a kidney infection! i don't need grouchy lectures & him worrying about me!

yesterday morning--finally got those 64 moved over to closer pasture if we have winter weather this week they will be closer to go feed/hay and break the pond water for them...had the antifreeze checked in the feed truck yesterday and went to the feed store....just incase we have bad weather...

got the house decorated,the Christmas tree up and the outside lights going....Oh man...i hope hillbilly relatives are jealous and mad over all the pretty lights we put up on our house!...i put more lights this year just to chap their asses good,because they whined/yelled so much about it!...LOL...i need to stop cussing..haha!

my Christmas tree is a fake one....would love to have a real tree in the house to decorate and smell...BUT i have allergies/asthma bad and i'm deathly allergic to cedar trees so any kinda evergreen tree-pine tree would make me sick....really it's insane to think people would have a tree like that in the house if you had asthma allergies bad..some do...not this girl!

went to Atwoods(my favorite farm/ranch store other than Tractor Supply)and looked at their Christmas stuff...i saw so many ornaments i gotta buy for my tree this year!..i LOVE cowboy Christmas it's all i've known for years & years...it's just home...my life...comfortable.

better go..i have to help load firewood today and bring some home for this week...

xoxo

Monday, November 28, 2011

Horse slaughter...NO!!!

I love animals and i grew very upset and cried when i picked up a copy of the state newspaper The Daily Oklahoman where i found a very disturbing story that made me furious and brought me to tears....Evidently Congress*aka Assholes* passed a law that is now allowing the slaughter of horses here in the US which would permit the killing of millions of horses!..made me cry the whole 2 page story...

i know these jerks know nothing about horses and don't care anything about the history and the meaning of the horse to America and to our tribes....I guess just like the tribes they want to also wipe out the horses...sad but true...they don't care anything about our history and the love we have for the nostalgia of our American west....our tribes,our cowboys,...that's my family history right there....i'm apart of all those people and killing all the horses like that is killing all of us in way..those of us who came from the tribes and the cowboys who settled this land..the horse has always been there...

It's ALL about GREED and taking the lands that many of the wild mustangs run on,to build big unneeded buildings and sell,sell,sell..slowly they are trying to kill off all the beautiful wild and free open spaces so they can make more money and move more sh*tty ungrateful people into the country so they can make some money....just like they did to our tribes in history...move them all out,kill them so we can move in and take over....

Very funny to me how Congress slipped this in under the radar so sneaky like...because they knew a  lot of people would be angry as hell....just like my family is....i found it in the paper and showed my family and we just all grew irate and upset that this is passed through Congress...they just want the land is all it's about..they say it's because of animal neglect since the economy got bad and the big shot horse breeders want this...blah..blah...all i can say is if they do it's so their horses will sell for higher prices...all greedy assholes.

The wild mustangs should be free and protected from this...i have several wild mustangs i have adopted w/my grandpa and we let them live here for free to run and be wild and untouched as all horses should be...they shouldn't be turned into dog food and killed! ;(..let people adopt them,or give them away free,put them on protected refuges or something!

Being a cowgirl this saddens me to no end....the horse means so much to me...they're apart of my life..so sensitive to so many things,sweet, and free-spirited....they should all be left alone and roaming free...they can't do this to them..i'll adopt as many as i can to save them.....it just isn't right...

there has to be some way to put a stop to this greedy evil congress bullsh*t..whoever signed this law needs a HUGE kick in the ass...those horses haven't done anything to deserve this..killing them to take their land..i'm so sick of this greedy political takeover crap!

IF i could find a way to put a stop to this i would..there's gotta be a way..it would be the BEST Christmas present for me ever...

Love,Julie

Sunday, November 27, 2011

totally insane family.....

It's soooooo COLD this morning.... Well...what can i say other than, i am tired of family get-togethers?...haha....This week was a lot of fun & laughter and chaos at times.....

My Dad got home from Texas working and he went w/us to deliver Thanksgiving dinner w/the church to homeless shelters & people going through a bad time...it makes you feel great knowing you helped someone at least have a nice dinner & thanksgiving...next stop Christmas Angel Tree gifts & another Christmas dinner to donate time to....

then that night sometime after we got through delivering dinners w/the church...he left to go over to the bar and Cody stopped by the house w/his friends and he was laughing:"Oh,wow..it is going down tonight and everybody knows it!"...we go:"What?" Cody laughs:"THE *SS KICKIN OF THE YEAR!"...me & sarah looked at each other:"Huh?..Tonight?...he just helped us w/church stuff!...OMG."...we ran and got our jeans on and coats and snuck over to the bar w/Cody and sat at the back in the dark...so we wouldn't be seen...we sat there about  2hrs unnoticed then Diego saw us and said:"Hey,you girls don't need to be in here tonight..not tonight."......he made us leave.. ;(

so we went back home and grouched about the fact we had to leave and i guess it was a good thing because there was a butt-kicking like no other according to everybody who saw it....They told us that Dad got Sandy lured to the bar by some of her friends who are trying to bring her down secretly and he caught her at a table and yelled:"You g*ddamn f****** b*tch! you need to leave my kids alone and outta this! it's all over me! not them!mind your own f****** business!"

Then they said he told her:"I've never hit a woman and i don't like to have to do this but i have no choice!" and she supposedly told him to F off and he hit her in the face a few times and she pulled a knife on him....and somebody got behind her and got it out of her hand and he hit her again and told her:"IF i catch you anywhere near my girls again..callin' them,harassing them,tellin' them stupid sh*t,followin' them,talkin' about them, i will kill you b*tch!..one thing,one word and that is it!..i will cut you up never to be found again you got that?!tell the rest of them that they're on my sh*t list too!" and he kicked her supposedly...another great bar fight we weren't allowed to see...oh well she's INSANE..she brought that all on herself....LOL!

so sometime after the fight took place it must have been 3am,i was asleep and i heard this screaming down the road from the house and i got up and Sarah ran to my room whispering:"Julie! wake up!hurry!do you hear that?! it sounds like dad yelling down the road at somebody!"..so we snuck out the back door,my dogs are barking non-stop,we listened on the porch in our pajamas...lol..all these vehicles were turning around down the road and in the drive...we heard a woman(sandy) yell:"F***You!"and something else...then Dad yelled something at her and some other voices...and then we heard 6 shots from a gun real quick so it was a handgun...and we know Dad carries a handgun...then all the cars left...and i could see that Dad was pulling in the drive at his house down the road...

oh wow..you talk about crazy....i think he must have lost it the other night super mad at that crazy b*tch and her cronies......we got scared..so we called Cody & Uncle Pete and told them...Uncle Pete said:"Well..i'll go down there,see if he's ok,try and calm him down, talk this over..see what the hell took place..told you it'd get bad..he's just crazy enough he flips out he gets so mad and that's it...it gets bad." i said:"Don't tell him we heard all that or know what happened ok?"..so he said he didn't tell him.

nobody got hurt by the gun shots or anything..he just scared crazy b*tch off (momentarily i'm sure)and she got punched in the face by him..she was probably wiped out on her liquid morphine or meth rocks and never felt a thing!...LMAO! sad but true...

Needless to say, thanksgiving dinner was awkward pretending we didn't know what all took place...but sadly we know..it's so weird sitting there and watching DadChad try to pretend nothing ever happened--all the chaos at the bar & etc....

Uncle Pete said he told him sad-like:"I don't want Julie&Sarah to know what i have done ok?...don't tell them any of this ok?Please?"...Story of my life!---pretending i don't know what all happened....i don't know why it bothers him for us to know all the bad stuff he's done?..we probably know more than he thinks we do....everybody around here knows that he does not want us to know every salacious/dangerous/wild detail of what all he's done...it's kinda funny though..we know a lot(believe me, people have told us stuff) and it's no big deal to us..we don't care....we still love him...i certainly don't think any less of him for his wild behavior....he's just my dad...i just keep on pretending i'm dumb to any of that news--- i don't know a word of it all.... ;)

i don't think anybody has a wild/unruly/insane family like mine...oh well..they keep things exciting out here in the middle of desolate nowhere...lol..

xoxo

Sunday, November 20, 2011

Thanksgiving craziness--here it comes.....

Wow.....so here i am the sunday before the week of madness begins...before the next few days become exhausting and busy and nothing but a blur....this will probably be my last post of the week because we all know that this week is Thanksgiving & it's supposed to rain tomorrow and my signal would be messed up on this thing....but i have a full week ahead....

even though most people get off work this week for the holiday...we don't....i still gotta get up at 5:30am every morning this week and work all day except for thanksgiving we only work til 10am...because a cowgirl's work is NEVER done..not whining!..love it !

Tonight---community choir practice starts at 7pm over at 10pm.
Monday--work,then help w/Auntie J's pajama party(all the women in the family) having a pajama party,we'll play/sing w/the piano,drink wine/mixed drinks,watch old movies--(Humphrey Bogart!)LOVE him!..we're gonna act crazy,get liquored up and go toilet paper Uncle Pete's house at midnight!...LOL...NO...we're just going to get liquored up,drive around in our pajamas and go see the Christmas lights they just put up in town....joking! or am i?...bwahaha!
Tuesday/night----IF we survive the pajama party we'll get up,go to work and then at 7pm i will be in the Thanksgiving choir program we've been working on..super excited..we're singing 5 songs w/the orchestra,then there will be a community thanksgiving dinner after that..i gotta think of something to donate to that?...hmm...Hope Dad gets home in time to see us sing...we miss him...he's gonna try to be there..

Wednesday/night---work the sale,help make community thanksgiving baskets w/the church-help deliver them to homes,then go help cook at Grandma's til 11pm...try to rest.
Thursday/night---Our thanksgiving dinner...there will be lots of family & friends..there's always a random badass motorcycle guy there or 2, or another somebody the guys in our family are friends with that they bring--bar people--the wild women--gross.nobody spends the holiday alone around here!...lol...all though some may want to...

It's so funny how everyone in our family is excited about the HUGE butt kicking that will take place probably thanksgiving night at the bar..among the orange/red/yellow jello shots,Wild Turkey that will be flowing, and the band playing loudly in that place..there will be a fight between Dad & the Hillbilly relatives..HAHA!.he's got it all planned out--how he's gonna catch them by surprise...he's networked through his friends,to their supposed friends,and has turned them against them now!.and they don't even know it!..LMAO!..oh man it's soooo funny!...he's just as crazy as they are really..he's insane..HAHA!...

he's got it all perfectly orchestrated ready to go....i hope i get to see this..i will laugh and laugh for days..i wanna yell at them:"HAHA you're gonna get your butts kicked hillbillies!"...but i'm not stooping to their level and that would just give them attention they want..As Dad said over the phone:"Oh..they're gonna get attention alright...plenty of it from me!"....it's so hard to control the giggle fits!!!...it makes me laugh so much i cry!...because they deserve what they're gonna get...LOL

no Black Friday shopping or anything...we may all be giggling too much from the night before we can't even move we'll still be laughing& crying from watching that...lol...hope so anyway...

Happy Thanksgiving!

Love,Julie

Saturday, November 19, 2011

i smell like a cookie.......

Finished working the sale yesterday,went home took a shower,and met up w/relatives that have drove in a week early from Texas...everytime they get here for the holidays it's like party central 24/7...well, i guess you could say it's like that all the time anyway w/our family.....lol...

It was one of our many crazy aunts and an uncle who drove in yesterday..they wanted to take us all out for dinner at a mexican restaurant they love to go to when they are here....I know when our family takes over a restaurant it gets loud & crazy....lol...I like that family time like that though..it's fun to catch up w/them all...of course we all had margaritas at noon...i love chips&queso i could just have that for a dinner it's so good..

then we went to the mall shopping..just us girls all went...didn't buy anything..roamed around for a few hours looking..think we'll go to Oklahoma City to Christmas shop in a few weeks...don't think i wanna go Black Friday shopping though!..NO WAY. 

i have on my Vanilla Bean Noel lotion for my skin from Bath&Body Works...i smell like a cookie!....haha...love it...at Grandparents house last night,we were sitting at the kitchen table Uncle Pete goes:"Who made cookies?i smell cookies.".....LOL....everyone was like:"LOL...it's Julia's Bath&Body Works lotion!"..haha....he started laughing:"You got any lotion that smells like Jack Daniels?"..we all started laughing..i told him:"Nope..but if i find some,i know what to get you & Dad both for Christmas!"...LMAO..

in other news, mountain lions are on the prowl and we saw a fairly large one yesterday up in a tree nearby the rocks w/a dead deer eating it...yikes..it kept looking at us..so we never got out of the truck,we drove on through the pasture......Grandpa says that someone told him there is a lot of mountain lions and panthers roaming around here..some have been chipped/tagged from New Mexico and have roamed here to our mountains....we also have seen black pumas in the area..really pretty..but i'm happy w/my black kitty Pumpkin..LOL...he looks just like a black panther..but smaller and nicer i'm sure!...haha.... ;)

really big cats..so we're gonna have to watch out when we are working..it's illegal to shoot them of course and i NEVER-EVER would do that,unless they were indangering my life/family's life,my pets,or horses/cows lives.....if some are as big as they are saying,they could easily take a human down & maul/kill them...along w/those wild pigs roaming too...we found some tracks yesterday morning where they have been,and a guy at the feedstore had to shoot and kill one that got after him,on his land, it was 700 pounds..it was huge..it was all over town and everyone saw it, so it wasn't a tall tale...lol...

Grandpa says that those wild pigs are really mean & they will rip you apart w/those big tusks they have...it's easy for them to get you down and kill you..so they are getting to be a problem around here....that's why when we are working we ALWAYS have a shotgun handy in the truck...because you never know...

how will the chupacabras ever survive w/all these big cats & wild pigs around here?..EEK!....Bwahaha!..aww..save the chupacabras!..LMAO.

off to work.

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

hillbillies better start running.....NOW.

Shoulda known that as soon as i put away my summer clothes the weather would get into the 70 degrees....um..isn't this november not march?...lol

Well...the hillbilly relatives are still at it...i guess since they dug around and found my cell phone # it's now a fun new game for them to leave me voicemails.....i've been getting some pretty good ones....i played them for grandparents & uncle pete to listen to...Cody & Sarah haven't got any..just me...for some reason..i don't know...it's mainly saying stuff like:"You need to know what a piece of sorry sh*t your father is!He is SORRY...you all think we're trash!he's BAD!He doesn't want you to know how bad he is!I'm gonna tell you little b*tch!."and they went into telling over the voicemail how he's been a drug addict and all that other crap that i already know about and don't give a crap about..Yawn!.FAIL!...LOL..

We all just laughed about it and Uncle Pete looks at me and says:"You know...you better not tell your Daddy about this or let him listen to it...he's already pissed as hell about this already...we don't need him going to jail."...i said:"Believe me...I know"...so late yesterday evening Cody calls Dad and tells him all about it....and me & Sarah are yelling::"Nooooo! Don't tell him!".....Cody starts calling/laughing and he says:"Oh i wanna see this happen it's gonna get bad..they deserve the wrath of THECHAD on them!"

so he says to him:"Hey,Chad...uh they found Julia's cell phone# and have been leaving threats on the voicemail and had a few things to say about you."..dead silence...."OH they have,have they?....well...what did they say?"..cody grabbed my phone and sent it to him over the phone...he listened to it and gets back on there and he says in an evil voice:"That's great...just great...well..they're gonna wish they hadn't said that sh*t because next week i'm comin' home and clean godd*mn house around there,and it's gonna get ugly...they better start hidin' NOW...they're asses are mine!" ..LMAO!..we tried to hide our giggles...it's just so funny when he loses it like that mad as hell.....

and so we told him about them calling Grandma yesterday at home and yelling at her because she won't ever invite them over for holidays or have anything to do w/them since their mother(Grandma's sister)died and she just hung up on them...and Dad says:"Yeah..they wonder why we won't have anything to do w/them or ever have dinner w/them?Really?!It's because they are so F****** crazy! They try to poison the food they cook!...they put acid in a pan of dressing one year!It started bubbling and everyone noticed it and they all acted like their brother's new girlfriend did it because they wanted rid of her!..They even called a dirty cop they knew that year when they "found the acid" in the dressing and tried to blame that woman!...I just looked over and noticed the damn thing was bubbling over & over and i knew they put acid in it!It's that godd*mn barbara& sandy doin' that shit!...they like that sh*t like that!...that's why we have always wanted to keep you kids away from them and never touch anything they make!..Ask Grandma she can tell you about that...true story!"...

we were not really shocked but it's kinda like you're thinking:"OMG!"...see, that's how criminally insane they are....they like to poison people....they all stay high on all kinds of street drugs,sell them too,and now they "claim"they have lupus or something, so those 2 stay high on liquid morphine all the time now they get from a dirty doctor who will write them a prescription.....i just don't understand them..

they are all mad at us and bothering us and we have no idea why...we do nothing but respect them to their faces and are polite/nice to them and go on about our lives..we try to avoid them at all costs but when we have to face them in town or something we're always nice...so i guess you can't explain crazy hillbillies..not this bunch anyway.....we won't invite them over,wait on them for a meal at grandma's house,pay for everything for them,or acknowledge them and it's all because they are so freaking crazy!..

Dad says that they just all stay in the drug business/feel sorry for themselves/and stay wiped out all the time on the drugs,want hand-outs, and they don't know what they are doing...he said:"Don't worry about them..next week i'll take good care of their asses...they're just mad at me...this sh*t is goin' to stop!....they're not even gonna know what hit them!they won't have a head-start to run away from me!..." then he laughed all crazy-like...yikes.

it's really annoying and stressful lately..i hate them all...geez..can't wait til next week!.*sarcastic face*..now we know why there's been so many earthquakes here in Oklahoma...even nature knows...my Dad is coming home next week and there's gonna be some MAJOR ass-kicking...yikes..hope he doesn't go to jail....lol...because he totally loses it when he's mad...he's hot-headed as hell like the rest of us...he's so mad right now...oh man...i'm scared of what he'll do to them...they don't even know what they are in for now....it's all over now but the crying for them....

god..this is all so hillbilly....lol..oh well...at least i can journal about those morons...

xoxo

Monday, November 14, 2011

independent & empowered.....

Heard this song today..it's really good i think..i like a lot of her songs...and she's an Oklahoma girl..so she's cool...lol..

Just got home..when you work all day you feel accomplished...well..when you do any kinda work that achieves something you feel that way....I just wish everyone could have a job & work....things will look up for everyone jobless & hungry....the world can't throw in the towel and say:"I'm done..let's give up!"....things are gonna change& get better..it takes time...we gotta have faith& hope....never give up....and no,i do not believe the world is coming to an end...good grief people on the news!...LOL...turn off the news it's all negative...

now just because i had an empowering feeling today for myself(it may just be the hot chocolate i'm drinking right now..lol..) ,and i think everythings peachy in my world, does not mean that's the only reason i'm so upbeat and positive today...i just have a really good sense that things are gonna get better for the world...i'm staying positive about it all....i'm sick of the sad ol'crap.. 

Today i feel really tough and empowered...i have to thank all of my family for teaching me how to be a tough independent soul..all the praise and encouragement they have given me...especially the talk my Dad gave me over the phone today he told me:"I believe in you 100% that you can and are running the ranching business successfully...you can do anything...don't ever let anyone tell you,that you can't handle this kinda work/business just because you are a girl...because that's a damn lie...you are smart,independent,tough,and a fast thinker...quick on your feet...there will be good&bad times but you can handle it..i'm proud of you and all you're gonna achieve..i will help you in any way i can."

all the times they have basically thrown me out there and said "figure it out kid" have helped me & all the being tough toward me and pushing me through things all my life has made me who i am and in the last few years i have become tougher and i owe it to all of them....maybe today i just had a realization?...the figures & totals---i looked down at that piece of paper and my half of the sheet and i thought:"OMG! i did THIS?!"...yes,i did... ;)

i wanna be a tough independent girl...i don't wanna ever have to feel insecure,lost,tiny,dumb....i've always looked up to the strong women in my family..who are also very tough women who know who they are and don't take crap from nobody...that's the kinda girl i have realized i have become...i've became who i wanna be....empowered...independent...not depending on anyone....sure i have PMS days where i cry and feel stupid but what girl doesn't?...lol...just being my own person and knowing more & more who i am,who i wanna be,and who i'm not...wow...why did it just hit me today?....i'm so proud of myself...

honestly i owe it all to my family for teaching me how to be this kinda independent girl,loving me,&believing in me....wow...i can't believe I achieved those figures....

xoxo