Monday, July 31, 2017

Bread....

Bread is something we can afford and enjoy.

Whether it is for a sandwich, toast + butter / margarine + jelly, or to just enjoy a slice or two with sausage gravy for breakfast.....I like to enjoy bread all ways....

Wheat bread, ya know they say is healthiest, I have been enjoying that many years, but I also like the white, potato, sour dough varieties.....there is also gluten free for those with those issues.....

Purchasing a loaf of bread just off the shelf is easy + simple, just remove and create whatever you wish, sandwich or other....

Bagged bread can + will spoil, have mold, so you have to check the expiration dates on the packaging or the plastic tie, sometimes stamped with the expire dates....keep cool and dry...often it prevents spoil.....

You can sometimes find the day old bread stores locally that offer bread almost past expiration dates, from bread factories, shipped, that are more affordable, I enjoy these stores, they sometimes have other sweet bread desserts, cinnamon rolls, muffins, bear claws, strudels...etc...yum !  ;)

Specialty breads can be many different types, Wal-Mart Bakery has many or local bread stores will have the variety....

Just purchasing a loaf of bread from a store is good....many brands to choose from, I have tried most throughout the years...

Brands as :

Mrs. Baird ' s
Bunny
King 's Hawaiian
Sunbeam
Hostess
The Bakery at Wal-Mart
Marketside at Walmart
Udi ' s gluten free
Sara Lee
Dave's Killer Bread
Great Value
Pepperidge Farm
Nature's Own
Wonder
Rainbo
Home Pride
Tender Crust
Save a lot brands

J.













Sunday, July 30, 2017

after church with family...

Sundays are usually lazy, sleepy days for most.

Sundays need to be well planned, fun, eventful with your family, a day to look forward to for everyone....

Having a good routine, that is well planned can be many ideas, including church is most important, events after church could include anything the whole family could have togetherness and attend...

After church activities together with family / friends can be a few hours after church, preparing dinner, driving to a location to shop at what stores are open, maybe arts + crafts together, attending bible study Sunday evenings, anything that would be fun for all is good after church !

I often enjoy local shopping even if it is just going to the dollar stores or grocery stores after church, creating dinner with family, or going to local restaurant....and resting is also good when everyone has very busy work weeks...

Spending time with family / friends on Sundays is good always ! Creating a routine, that is fun + well planned is nice, even if it is very simple....something for everyone to look forward to....

Attending church is always good, very important to keep The Lord in your life + Jesus on your mind, having your family + friends there is extra special and fun...

J.

No rest, continual messes...

Not complaining, not being whiney brat..

But.

I cannot rest, constant talking at night over surveilance, cats are peeing everywhere, all day + night...meowing at ceiling !!! I need help with this...my tigger cat is behaving crazy, starving, I feed him + water him daily, he is skinny, I wormed him, well taken care of, I know he is old, but this is bad....don't know what it is going on with him, I worry he is hacked by someone evil...! I am exhausted and scared, very tired of all the talking + chatter I hear...messed up or crossed up tangled with someone...???

they all screamed at me almost 5 years back, they were hacking my pets and killing them, and I guess they planned on killing me + my pets...

Cats pee everywhere every day, it is awful, and I know something or someone is causing it, to harass me I think ! I clean properly, use right pet cleaner for whatever they are peeing on, then they roam all night, won't leave me alone, they are nocturnal I know, but this is crazy, I can't rest for what I hear also !!!

S., still harassing my mother nasty tingling her down there !!! Even at town the other day she said it started that, and she was upset, embarrassed, and I know that is not proper for doc work right ?! She said he harasses her at night, and she is tingled, she said it is making her sick, exhausted....this is stupid, he doesn't stop and is allowed to have equipment to harass, he is mentally ill, drug head, with access to seriously dangerous equipment, so why is he allowed to have control of our brain waves ! I live in fear everyday of what he might do to us both or what he might do to my pets, or grandma's !!

I don't want to be killed or hacked again and almost die, it is bad to be me, everyday every second. Constantly talking or yelling on my brain waves....I can't rest, or sleep, nobody can with him up the road, I hear him close by on the fans still rattling or playing screams...

Still have those short people he talks about following me everywhere, glaring at me in stores, one was in the bathroom wiping black shit off the floor in th Wal-Mart bathroom, that was nasty as hell , had been following me around....

s. talks about all those fugs chinzee, mickzee, Adam, Phillip everyday says they are following me, I see them follow me in those damn masks for years now, that he keeps talking about them....I don't need a damn parade every time I go to town following me, staring + glaring at me, that all have aids, this is stupid as shit ! All short stinky Chinese or something men + women....stalkers + s., stalker ! Scared they will spit aids on me, they were screaming up the road I am chinzee ! The night my mind was hearing that sort of hacked, I panicked....all stupid idiots...trash !

I think I have had enough b.s., been through enough trailer trash harassment....I have been nice to s...., but he is not getting any help mental or drug wise, still screams about rogers house + bshaw house, Sullivan house, wallerpants, Janet, Leroy and seth, all those weirdo losers, and Myers, all those sickos....amanda fug bshaw, Travis, Corey Annette bshaw sickos, Amanda rat face bitch taylor, that whole mccracked bunch,  rachel fug nasty snob whore Holt, that over east ! Whatever that is....? And money, he needs help and these nasty short people need to get out of here along with the other trailer trash that harasses me everywhere, I hate hillbillies !

Once again I know u are very busy, and I'm just a tiny ant in a sea of messes for you all, I appreciate all the help and you keeping me safe, but my mind is tired and I cannot rest because of constant danger + harassment from the local trash....

Wish that I could leave most days, for a long time, this harassment is killing me and my mother I am afraid !

Screaming up the road and by the house has been awful and it all deflects back into the house and we hear that almost nightly, so my cats are also, my poor dog is tired too...it makes me upset and I need help with this mess, but I know it takes time....

Any help to ending the crooked chaos would be appreciated !

Thank you,

Love, julie


Saturday, July 29, 2017

Watermelon !.....

A favorite sweet of mine is natural, grows easily close by, and I think is also very pretty...

Watermelons are everywhere at the fruit stands, some people say it is actually a vegetable, not fruit, but it is very sweet ! And good...

I always place my watermelon into plastic containers into the refrigerator, after slicing the watermelon in half long ways, down middle....then I remove chunks of the inside of watermelon with a cutting tool, fork....

Many may enjoy the watermelon as a whole cooled first before cutting....

I like to enjoy watermelon with some salt sprinkled onto there !....very nice !

The scent of a freshly picked, ripened, and cut watermelon will forever remind me of summer, my whole life...sweet scent, a fave scent of mine !

The heat + sun ripen the watermelon easily...

Watermelon has many varieties, and a few colors of the varieties, yellow / gold, orange, red, all good, pretty much same taste to them each....

Icy, cold watermelon is best to me, right now I see it everywhere, I have one in my refrigerator right now !

The seeds are black, and they show up easily in the watermelons....I think the watermelon slices are also nice....a slice individual for each of you !

Watermelon rind preserves and / or bread are both good, my grandma has prepared those before......unique food creations both, just as the jalapeno jelly, I have seen available....

Summer just isn't itself without a watermelon.......haha !

J.


Friday, July 28, 2017

Take out casserole....

This is a recipe I like to prepare often.......

ok, for my tum - tum....ulcer doesn't get upset.....haha !

this is alright.

This can be little more expense, but good.

The brands I use :
La Choy
Kikkomans 

It takes a large baking dish, mixing bowl....many can enjoy....drain all cans of ingredients.....discard water...

Take out Casserole 

You'll need :

One pound of hamburger meat
One can of stir fry vegetables
One can of creme mushroom soup
One can of creme of chicken
One can of bean sprouts
One can of water chestnuts sliced
One can of mini corn
Half cup of water
One cup of diced celery - sauteed
Half cup minute rice uncooked
Half teaspoon salt
Half teaspoon soy sauce

Cook hamburger well done, drain grease, discard.

Mix all ingredients, together. Place into large mixing bowl. Then you will need large baking dish. Pour into baking dish. Bake in oven 30 minutes. 350 degrees.

Very hot when done.

Use soy sauce onto this as much as you prefer...I usually have vegetables as sides with this...green beans, salad....

J.












Thursday, July 27, 2017

Apples + Apple sauce !

I often enjoy vegetables and fruits as snacks, very healthy for everyone to have these not only as snacks but daily on our plates with all meals...

Fruits can be hazardous to your health if you are diabetic, sugar, so be careful and remember that !

I found bagged Apples at the store the other day, I enjoy them as snacks, Red Delicious, Sour Green and the yellow varieties are my faves !....very pretty, shiny fruit, tastes wonderful...healthy...all sizes are good with me ! I wash them before enjoying.

Picking apples from the apple trees my grandparents had was fun many years ago...

Cooking with apples, I prepare Apple Crumble Top pie, and the plain apple pie.....very nice year round.

Apple sauce in containers is very good, just pureed apples blended up, into blender...many times I purchase Apple sauce, quick and simple to enjoy....

Apple sauce in containers can be flavoured, sometimes colorful...cinnamon flavoured is good !

Preparing Apple sauce cake with cream cheese frosting or plain vanilla frosting is very nice...

Brands of Apple sauce I have purchased before are many, all prices :

Tipton Grove
Shurfine
Mott' s
Treetop
Always Save
Valu time
Mussellmans
Dollar stores brands
Go Go squeeze
Great value

Apple sauce is also good as a snack + cottage cheese together...good to me anyway !

Keep refrigerated.

J.



Tuesday, July 25, 2017

No bake cheesecake box mixes...

Cheesecake is a dessert, that is always good !...yum !

I know that I have forever enjoyed creating or purchasing cheesecakes....

The simple way + quickest way of creating a very good cheesecake is the no - bake cheesecake boxed mixes !

These are very affordable, easy to prepare....there is a cheesecake mix and a Graham cracker crust mix in separate packs in the boxes....very good !....lol....read instructions, just need milk, and for the crust, melted margarine + small amount of sugar....prepare separately, and you're done !

Always let these cool first in refrigerator before enjoying....Always keep any cheesecake in the refrigerator, can and will spoil in heat !....terrible for cheesecakes !

Brands of the no - bake cheesecake boxed mixes are :

Jello No - Bake
Great Value
Save a lot  

Also I enjoy the brand Philadelphia Cheesecake filling in the plastic containers, this is nice to just fill into an already premade Keebler brand Graham cracker pie crust, oh nice !....also good to place strawberries into on dessert trays....

Cheesecake is a fave dessert of mine.

J.




Monday, July 24, 2017

Affordable purchases....randomness.

I have been feeling not so good, under the weather, summer flu ? It's over for now hopefully.

Went to town finally, and I always feel weird as everyone does days after having the flu...the heat has been terrible since I have been sick, it causes me to feel weird + bad, guess because I have been ill..?

I purchased a few items at Dollar stores the other day....

Cupcake shaped pencil sharpener, colorful, ------ fifty cents ! Cute...less than a dollar, sharpen coloring pencils, remove top to throw away pencil shavings..

Fruit shaped coin purse colorful ----- zips closed that was $ 3...very cute, different fruit.....I placed coins into there, then place coin purse back into purse....

I enjoy work books that are for all ages, I even work through the work / activity books for younger ages....leisure activity, fun I promise !....

Explorer sticker book, -----  I enjoy placing stickers on pictures the book tells you to find...that was just  $ 3.....and a book called Scratch Fantastic -----  you scratch the pictures through black cover paint, you scratch with wood pen included, and it reveals a picture ! Fun I think........$ 3......passes time....available I could see were Paw Patrol + Ninja Turtles.....lol....all these items for $ 10 total...nice in my opinion !...

I have always enjoyed Oatmeal Creme pies -----  from the stores and I purchased a box of those, oh, they are good !...best with a glass of milk...!...the brands Little Debbie, Freshley 's are nice....

Shampoo ----  I found my fave strawberry shampoo !....haha...it is really good Suave Strawberry shampoo + conditioner....gotta wash that hair !

I found 2 good cleaning supplies I have used to clean with for years, work great !

Clorox Clean up and Comet Spray Lilac Bliss, ----  oh that scent is nice !....use these two to clean counters, sinks, bath tubs, in kitchen or bathrooms...scents well...the lilac scent is one of my fave scents !...pretty flower too..

That was what I purchased blog, hopefully i will regain all my strength from this nasty summer flu.....very tired.

J.




Thursday, July 20, 2017

Very sick...

Not feeling well.

Very sick last night, violently ill....both ends, nastiness !

It was terrible...very exhausted too.

I suppose it is the summer flu ?

:(

Wednesday, July 19, 2017

Security cameras...

Security is required almost everywhere, in many forms, whether it is uniformed officers, real people, and or law enforcement...

so much danger, evil out there all over the world, we have to take safety precautions to keep everyone safe, all the time..

With newer technology, we have the ability to purchase security cameras to record all events anywhere, for legal purposes, and to see who is unruly, causing troubles, and evil...

Security cameras are necessary for life these days, needed all over the world to keep us safe...

They are needed in stores, parking areas, interior businesses, and for the exterior of all public places...many people who can afford them, may be able to purchase many for their home, to keep out propellers, stop theft, see who is harassing them, or causing troubles !

Security cameras are good, for helping end mischief, thwart evil plans, save lives !

Individuals of only goodness should be allowed to have use of, control, watch and see, maintenance and upkeep, never allow evil, mischief to have this equipment, only those of goodness should...

Many brands available, many stores.

Tuesday, July 18, 2017

Always needed, cat litter.....

Cats drink a lot of water daily, my boys drink tons of water, in their water dish....I change it every three days, clean, sanitize their water bowls, make sure I rinse the suds thoroughly...they can get kidney infections !

Water is necessary for all animals, keep them hydrated, and their kidneys working properly, just as humans need hydrated...

I have been purchasing cat litter many years for these silly cats...I adore my boys, they create laughter, silliness, and are my fur baby family !...often you lose sleep when you are a parent to any pet, because cats are nocturnal...they sleep all day, roam at night through the house, mine live only in the house...I love them !

Cat litters I have used / purchase seems as almost every week I purchase a sack, or box of litter for them...

I wish for all cat litters to be less dust, or maybe possibly dust free, I have allergies + asthma, so do my cats, so all cat litters need to be worked on, more natural, healthy, I think..

These I have tried, most every brand you find :

Tidy cats
Special kitty
Fresh step
Soft paws
Jonny cat
Dollar General + family dollar brands
Arm n hammer
Hartz
Any Wal-Mart brand available !

Cat litter I purchase weekly, they drink + pee everyday !, so this is always needed.

:)

j


Monday, July 17, 2017

Terrible harassment...

Still harassing me, I am exhausted, stressed, tired, scared, cannot get rid of s., screaming in my head with crooked equipment, crooked fbi, dea ???..sick of them trying to viciously attack me, hack me, kill me because I am not involved in anything !...

It is sad that a good person like me suffers, with minimal help, I have no equipment to defend myself / brain waves, keep myself safe, still be screamed at in my head, every 5 secs, by s, and others I think...

Screamed at me all day today as I drove to town with my grandma for her errands, I can't even think because of the screaming, I am stressed, nervous, tired of years of brain wave hacks, screams, running my mind off, I know they keep on doing this...screams about money, nasty whores kin to t town.....all follow me still harass, scream about Money and others money, I don't even know all this stuff, crooked red neck okla fbi, dea, sick of this all my life...

I cry daily because of no help, non stop harassment, exhaustion, no sleep !!! I wish I could rest, he and they need turned off of me, so I can rest, I miss a full night rest, thoughts to myself..I think I am going to die, I battle everyday to live I feel..

Keeps screaming you r not involved in nothing so you have to be killed bitch !....sick of this...

Sick of screaming about Jared baby, fake or real, whatever all weird, stupid, pointless, I don't care about what's going on whatever this really is....

Why am I attacked, when I don't even talk to anyone, left in the dark, secrecy, but I am screamed at daily...

I am a good person, just devastated.

I am tough, but this has all wore me out, had enough, too much....need help, and fast I think, I am exhausted, afraid, basically alone...trying to figure this all out...

Sril screams chatter, talking on all fans in my house, feeling weirdness at driveway, cats still peeing everywhere, dog tired.

Still a bitch too !...but the queen of all !

Oh, they will scream after another letter, but s., he seriously needs help now !, he will kill me with his drug head mind....

Love, Julie

Sunday, July 16, 2017

summer cooking....

I was almost about to start being dizzy yesterday evening after my ear started to be itchy, I quickly took a meclizine / Dramamine tablet !...the spins stopped in my head, my ear is itchy, often pops, allergies, sinus troubles always....thank goodness I had those tablets !....take one every eight hours, helps with nausea, sea sick issues also...I have great value meclizine, affordable, and also Dramamine....being dizzy, spins, make me vomit...upsets me...

Talking to you blog, about my purchases affordable yesterday, and some finds...

Peacock feather ink pen, plastic, small, many pretty colorful hues, with iridescent, sparkly stone, glitter, oh, it is so nice, placed in purse, found at Dollar General store !...just $ 1...colorful ink...

Hershey ' s cookie crunch bar, so yum !...affordable, newer candy bar...just tried it, many different kinds...good !

Purchased some bagged potatoes, I enjoy them many ways, washed, grand sized, different than garden, because of grand size...I love potatoes, and those ways of enjoying them for breakfast.

 the hashbrown potatoes patties, preformed, baked with some salt and pepper onto them, and ketchup !....good for breakfast..Wal-Mart, save a lot, local grocery, very easy to prepare, also the hashbrown crumbles in bags, just shredded...often with peppers added...just fry with oil to prepare in skillet....look like small haystack !...lol...add salt, pepper, ketchup...good for breakfast, just ate some.

I have been cooking those simple to prepare items this summer, so I like to use the frying technique, fry daddy cookers with canola oil, or any oil you prefer....always drain foods that are fried on paper towels layered..better for all..

I purchase the Fast Fixins steak strips / chicken strips, breaded, affordable, in packages, yesterday I purchased some jalapeno cream cheese poppers !...these are so good !...breaded already, just fry, enjoy !....easy to prepare...quickly.

Mozzarella sticks, breaded, fry also, just as the breaded chicken strips....easy to prepare...let everything cool down, very hot ! I enjoy fried foods as sides and / or with salads, other vegetables....

And I purchased some Ranch style beans, canned, seasoned, so good, nice with a sandwich as a side, burgers, hot dogs, I love ranch style canned beans, available everywhere, all brands...

Just for fun, easy to prepare.

j.






Friday, July 14, 2017

Pickles !...

Garden has been producing well...had plenty of cucumbers and was able to make homemade pickles, several jars !....I used Ms. Wages pickling pack....good !...salty, but you know pickles !....lol

Tomatoes are doing well, growing a few grand size, yellow squash, nice also....squash casserole time !....I slice my tomatoes after washing, salt as I prefer....all by themselves, tomatoes are good...

I have always enjoyed preparing a sandwich during summer, lately I have been creating those B L T ( bacon, lettuce, tomatoes ) with mustard or mayo added, those garden fresh tomatoes taste good on a B L T sandwich...just place bacon on paper towels first !....grease is nasty on a sandwich...haha !

I purchased a few items yesterday from local grocery, Cheetos Paws ( I think they are cute, remind me of Tigger cat's paw prints )...just laugh !...these Cheetos are Paw shaped like a cat's paw !....very neat, great cheesy chip to go with sandwiches....Wal-Mart has many sacks of the Cheetos Paws....cute !

I also found some flour tortillas Allsup ' s is the brand...turquoise on the packaging...really nice....

Then I purchased a 20 marker pack, by Crayola, affordable...I enjoy using these for my word search books, more fun, colorful, I just mark through the words as I find them...

I have been trying to rest !....taking a nap is a wish of mine everyday, I love naps, even if they are only 15 mins or 20 mins.....power naps for strength during the day, I need more rest....keeping my room dark during the summer is best, to cool with the cooling fans on....

j.






Monday, July 10, 2017

vehicles, new, used, or rebuilt....

Having a nice running vehicle is always a blessing, vehicles create comfort, when travelling distances, running errands, or in emergencies when working properly....

Mechanics that are well trained in garages / auto paint and body shops, are good to have locally everywhere...air conditioning, under the vehicle hood interior, engines, oil pans, underneath, all need check ups...tires need kept up...

Affording a new model vehicle, car, truck, or sport utility vehicle, you can have expensive cost, payments..I have never owned a brand new vehicle, just used vehicles, upkeep can be expensive, so you have to save money anyway...

Brands of vehicles new or used I like are :

Chevrolet
Ford
Dodge
Mitsubishi
Nissan

Rebuilt vehicles can be older, more so affordable, need good mechanic, paint, auto body techs, take old messed up vehicles any make or model, totally start over, rebuild, for purchase, can be fun for all to rebuild, create work...use salvageable parts from other vehicles, need clean, trained, professional workers, so it is honest, looks nice, runs properly for the buyer of the vehicles....

Old junker vehicles you may see, may have parts you can purchase, test before asking to purchase, rebuild salvageable junker cars, with new or used parts, turn trash into treasure, hopefully more affordable for purchase...

Some old junker cars can be terrible to see left in ruin, good to sell for scrap iron, create money from local scrap iron recycling businesses, lots of people scrap iron, ask before you take scrap iron or junker cars....

I like recycling, creating money from trash, gets rid of junker car messes that look bad....money can be fair or less, good or bad, but still you get some money from junker cars, eventually melted down into new vehicles....

Driving used, older cars is all I have ever driven, work just as good as new often with proper mechanics good work, upkeep, I know I enjoy the older model vehicles, some of them good for driving, I enjoy the way they run / drive, renew interior, something fun, new paint colors, add your own personality when rebuilding, refurbishing older models, update or keep old style, all fun, bright color paints on old vehicles a lot of fun to drive and see !...trucks, cars, all...

Window tint, New stereo systems, can be fun also to personalize a rebuilt vehicle, get that air conditioner running properly !!!...haha.  :)

New, old, rebuilt, whichever, save money for fuel, mechanic / garage work....just make very sure it is all worked on by licensed, trained professional, and affordable for your income...

Travel, go to town, saves time, and no more walking in dangerous heat when you have vehicles....

j.



phone harassment...

More screaming at me all night, felt exhausted from it, screaming about rogers house, houses up the road, money sluts, I cannot get any rest...afraid I may die, pass out from his constant harassing my mind...

Tells me everyday julie b, Jess, Allison, Ashley j., Morgan, Megan j., all dead, hate me, then alive then dead, same as all the guys, j.w., j. j, Anthony, Mike, clints, kacey,, Kris both, my bro, Bobby, Frank, r.c.,kenzee, ., whole bunch, dead, hate me then alive, sick of it...! Wish I knew truth...also said last night all of u were angry, dead, fat, then alive...bla, bla, bla....don't feel bad everyday he tells me I am a fat bitch, he needs to gain a ton, he's a nasty skinny weasel...

Calls on phone fake voice machines, calls my house, cell phone, then plays known voices, tells stories...all corrupt, harassing to ruin things I wanna go do, like peaches, screamed all night long cause I wanna go to Texas, they will kill everybody bitch !...tries controlling my life everything in it...stalker.

Stories about that boy from t town....are endless, this then that, don't know the truth, dead, alive, married, girlfriends, kids, hates me, trying to kill me this, that, harasses, I am very tired !...sick of confusion...

Angry yesterday, almost pulled my brain waves down yelling in my head with equip, said u guys were gonna kill me, because I write letters for help, let ya know things going on...

 Exhausted !

Harassing my mom again nasty with equip, yelling about short smelly harassing friends, damn they are stalkers too ! Nosy, loud mouth, yell down road...follow me everywhere...sick of it...

Sorry to bother you again, but this phone crooked shit needs to stop, very stupid juvenile, like Travis bshaw type lunacy....

He's trying to control my life, I can't sleep, eat, think, go to bathroom without him knowing, yelling, or commenting...

I feel sorry for his brother, what a mess, for him also.

j.



Saturday, July 8, 2017

roller derby !...

Women / girls often enjoy competitive, challenging sports, just as men take part in type sports...

One very rough + tough competitive sport that I have seen and heard of locally is roller derby sport ! Often many women like to join the roller derby teams, and compete locally, a few years ago, they were advertising their events / games on tv, and newspapers, I did see a car pass by at town that was advertising their roller derby team....

I think any event that requires team work, friendship and is not causing evil is good to have there available to compete in...good social activities, practices, choosing team colors, names, and purchasing game wear, scheduling games, competitions ---all great ways to be social, create better atmosphere locally....

From what I have seen on the tv, roller derby girls have to be very strong, athletic, tough, enjoy a challenge....it is very competitive, sporty, and you can be bruised, or fall, so they always need game protective wear....

They seem as they are always going to have fun competing on the local news...always be respectful while in competition to all teams competing....

I know there are many people who enjoy roller derby, great way to create strength + teamwork....

j.

more crap...

Just another week of endless crap, same story, just different day.

Not being a whiney brat, but harassment is still bad, from s, and others up the road....I reached a breaking point the other day after being followed by those lunatics short people from the bshaw house and whatever else junk nasty house they are living in up the road or over to Rogers house, all those dump nasty houses on that road.....sick of these nasty lunatics....

Those at bshaw house keep following me in those damn masks, making faces at me, and shouting outdoors toward my house, dressing in a mask of a. Bshaw...weirdos...short tiny people....just sick of this corruption, creepiness...you never know what these drugged out lunatics will try....

Talks, screams about junk house on corner everyday, nasty people living in that nastiness trailer...makes me wanna puke all this....

S. Still needs to be gone far from here along with those lunatics....still talking to my mind every 5 secs, all day, all night, talking much, much worse....I feel sicker, can't relax or calm down, causing anxiety, he is still harassing my mother talking nasty, tingling her nasty, she said she is exhausted from this, and cannot rest....she feels sick from no rest, and coughing....I'm worried about all this I can't get stopped...

He screams about money, sluts, Rogers house, bshaw house, all houses near here, and that over east...every damn day...sick of it !...talks non stop about n mix man corrupt at OkCity, saying he will kill me, whoever that nasty n mix guy is...???..I guess more Dean c, Sandy p, Philip m, corrupt buds ?....

he Yells about all the fugs over at s town, and m town, fug ol nasty Shelby gaybo L....Jennifer fug Richardson, nunleys, nasty fug Mary, Jimmy, Barbara m....Kelly J....j.d. run over all your dogs wallerpants, so sick of all the fugs he yells about !....he says they are all coming back to get me from jail...some stupid crap everyday....also fug rat haired bitch Amanda....talks about her...all the slutfest at s town, and Elgn....

Every time I go to town he says I am hurting people, taking his money, ruining something for him....Yells at me in my head whole time I am at town driving or shopping..

He keeps telling me I am dying of cancer, he says cancer treatment centers of America in my head....he talks non stop about aids, sex, nasty talk, hep c....diseases, having creek babies with sluts, cries about his friends, family...blames me for everything wrong in the world...

Talks about baby being born in my family, fake then real, same ol story, bout my brother...wish I knew truth...

He keeps saying you are corrupt, angry at me, are trying to harm me, this is this or that is that....tells my mom at night she says, that he is saying he is I.t. and j.j and j. w....nasty talk...we are all too tired for this lunacy, drug crap from him....keeps saying that boy is dead, has aids, tons of kids, is corrupt...blah, blah...kyle s told me the same when he was hacking my mind daily....I don't know what is truth or crap anymore...I am very tired, and confusion, exhaustion sets in, I get nervous, anxiety, from all the this is this, or no, it's that, you're wrong I lied, laughing like a lunatic....sick of it...

Cats oddly won't rest, still pee in floor meow at ceiling, dog barks all night, tired...I cannot rest neither can my mom...she says...

I hope this is out of my life soon, I could rest better with less b.s. some clarity, truth officially...

J.

Friday, July 7, 2017

i remember.....

Nice to go enjoy lunch today at Taco Bueno.

Anyway blog,

I was thinking about something I see everyday that makes me sad / upset, and keeps me remembering things, and people I don't ever wanna think about again....

It is weird how you try to go on with life, accept things that happened, and learn to just try and walk away from those feelings, people, emotions, and it can seem often that no matter how much you try to forget them, or whatever it may be, all it takes is seeing something, a scent of something, or driving by somewhere, going to a store you enjoyed with them, this can all cause sadness, it causes you to remember..

I remember so many upsets, danger, people who have upset me, hurt me, broken my heart, and it is often difficult to forget my anger and broken heart....and difficult to forget how I feel being treated so terribly....everyone goes through this I know...

Just seeing things, or hearing someone's name, seeing things that remind me of the people who have hurt you terribly, or even loved ones you miss....it is upsetting + depressing...

I can go somewhere, smell a scent of soap, or even smell a scent in a store and immediately, my memory takes me instantly back to the past few years, and I am thinking about those people being with me, that day, it all brings a person down....

I start thinking, " oh, that was the day I went with them there, or the day I was at town with so and so, I miss them. " or I start thinking : " That is the day I was heartbroken, I was there, I was wearing those shoes, so and so said blah, blah. "...

Old memories that you remember about loved ones can be the most painful, trying to go on from heartbreak, and you know, forget a stupid boy who broke your heart...Things like that..you know you never will be over....

We all learn lessons from our experiences, good or bad...just apart of life....with pain, you learn to be strong + independent...go on...Never give up...

I am always a strong person, brave, courageous, and tough....but some of these places, sights, scenes, scents, are very difficult to forget....

You try to go on with life and forget upsets, heartbreak, pain, danger, and you cannot escape it, because it is always right there in your face, as an item, place, scent, or person....all holding a memory to something or someone you wanna forget.....

no matter how much you try to run from a memory, or go on, it seems to always show up in something...

I know it's weird but I remember.

j.

Thursday, July 6, 2017

long days of summer....

Woke up this morning, I purchased a few packages of the Otis Spunkmeyer breakfast muffins, grand size, three in a package, affordable....good for breakfast with glass of milk...

They are available in many different flavors, blueberry, chocolate chip, banana nut, I think also strawberry, few others...very nice breakfast, I enjoy all of the flavors..

I purchased a few adult dot to dot books, just connect the numerals drawn in a line, dot to dot, creates a picture, very fun leisure activity on paper, use ink pens or pencils, whichever you choose....available at most stores, Wal-Mart, dollar stores - all.....most stores....helps with the very long, terribly hot days of summer....to pass the time, stay cool indoors / shade...

During summer months, boredom can take over, and the hot temps can make everyone go crazy !....best to try to find shade, cool place to stay, relax, slow down, stop grouchy, fighting, anger ways, because easily being upset + being overheated, we can have heart problems, strokes from anger + heat + too much sun....

Finding something good to work on, then relax, cool off, drink icy beverages helps us to all stay out of mischief, and to stop anger / fighting...

Just be lazy, calm down, when working out there in dangerous heat, take breaks, wear sunglasses, lighter clothing, icy cool beverages are always nice !

Things like the connect the dots books, or the coloring books, painting, or craft / art projects are good for calming down in summertime....

Also calling your friends / family and asking them to go to town and enjoy ice cream, or have lunch together, go shopping, bowling, skating, swimming, fun activities as these can pass the boredom of summertime...

I don't ever enjoy staying home every day, bored, I have to get out of the house, go enjoy the day or a few hours with pals....have fun during summer !

j.

Monday, July 3, 2017

independence day !....

I am going to be celebrating tomorrow, here at home, so I will say this today blog.

We need to always keep in mind, why we celebrate the 4th of July, for our country...

Be patriotic !

Never betray our country.

Always honor,

Love our country.

Never take for granted our freedom, always think of those fallen heroes, pay respect.

Thanks to all military !

Red, white, and blue !

j.


Saturday, July 1, 2017

purchased artillery shell firework....

Just purchased from local firework building an artillery shell firework, I have been wishing for !

 Excited to ignite it 4th july !

Artillery shell fireworks are very grand, beautiful, sparkles !...KABOOM !

Remember to always be careful with all fireworks...very important ! Serious ! dangerous !

I purchased the Zeus artillery shell firework, very pretty !

Many different types of artillery shells available, 

my family went in halves on the money to purchase all fireworks, they all will watch, enjoy the sparkles above, so everyone halves expenses.....most families, friends throw in money, for holidays......celebrations !

There were many people purchasing fireworks at all stands, areas, lined up vehicles...

I hear there are many firework displays locally tonight, in cities, small towns....fun !

j.