Sunday, June 25, 2017

bible school...

Summer is always a very social season, with many events and good activities to take part in...

since today is Sunday I know that one good social activity to help out with and take part with is Bible School...

I have always enjoyed helping create, plan, and organize bible school days, I attended every summer as a child...my favorite was the music / singing, the lessons, and the crafts...all of it !...lol

In the last few years, I helped at church with puppets, music, crafts...it was very fun, and I felt that I accomplished something nice for the community, The Lord's work !

Parents can help out with the Bible school week if they wish, as their children learn more about the Bible, and the Bible lessons....they may also have new friends to meet, always fun ! And meet the pastor.

I believe starting out early, knowing the Bible, starting to know of The Lord, and Jesus, is best as a child, that way you know early on about praying, goodness, charity, kindness...strong foundation to start, and base your life onto...last all of your lifetime...

Other ways to help out if no time, and you are very busy with tending to life and you are apart of the church hosting the Bible school week,

You can donate these prepackaged snacks, refreshments all sealed :

Paper wares / straws
Punch
Juice
Fruit / vegetable trays....healthy...dressings
Cookies
Sandwich items
Pizza for last day pizza party !

Many kids may have health issues, so keep a tally of diabetes, etc before the week starts....have special sugar free if needed...

Many bible school weeks have already taken place, began, others may be next month....most advertise in town, shop windows...

We always need to have responsible adults there, and they need to be evaluated first for creeper problems !....terribly scary for innocent children / parents...help keep children safe, make very sure they are taken home safely after the day has ended...Many may volunteer for this responsibility...

J.


Friday, June 23, 2017

horse paint...

Rodeo events are on the way, some already having team ropings, locally....I always enjoy all of the rodeo events...!

When riding in the grand entry, or parades, it can be fun to decorate your horse, with non - toxic paint ( safer for them )...I would apply to mane / tail just an hour or two before taking part in the events....colorful paint can be placed on horse or pony, then onto the rodeo / parade....

If you wish ladies often love to decorate their mane and tail with colorful bows...cute ! And fun !

The paints used for this are some called Pony Paint, or I have heard of people using the safe, non - toxic crayola paint, washes off easily with shampoo + water....not harmful, keep out of horses face, away from mouth or eyes....never paint behind or under belly of horse or pony !!!

Apply only just before taking part in the events, only in Sun frequently...

Red, white, and blue for 4th of July !

J.

Wednesday, June 21, 2017

more hospitals needed...

I have heard much talk locally about the need for more medical + hospitals....too much overcrowding ! And in many local cities no hospitals at all...upsetting.

Most have money woes, technology that is out of date, not enough rooms, and the emergency rooms are too slow, very long wait time....that is serious, and needs to be helped / changed quickly !

Many people in one area lost their hospital + most medical due to issues....it is terribly scarey to think that locally so many people have no medical / hospital !!!...close by county !

I think it is very upsetting, sad, awful that no medical + hospital is available...everyone has to quickly run to the next overcrowded hospital counties away, and then suffer or even die before they can be treated, get help...

Medi - flight is needed, at all hospitals, medical equipment up to date, working properly, and a caring, respectful, credited, on call staff in all hospitals, should be required...all very professional, smart ! 

I think we shouldn't have to wait + rely on a hospital all the way in OkCity, to hopefully be seen, treated !!!...we should have hospitals locally close by, that can treat All ailments, health issues, traumas, problems, and be well trained, licensed, professional staffed, plenty of room so nobody has to wait to be seen, have their life saved...!

These local hospitals, are overcrowded, only 3 to run to, distantly, no room for the amount of people...for this county, and this county, that have no hospital available...

Having pay out plans available for all to pay on those ginormous hospital bills would be kind for those with no insurance, money troubles....

Being able to save lives is something we should all be able to do, and have those wonderful hospitals, nurses, doctors, all staff that care and will take proper care of you would be a relief to all I know...less worry and stress for everyone !

Grand size, very clean, hospitals are best in my opinion, see + treat more patients, less wait time, less worry...

Medical clinics, in small towns would also be very helpful and appreciated by many....very clean, respectful, caring, professional, advanced....less drive time, on call staff...plenty of doctors and enough room. :)

J.


Monday, June 19, 2017

shade needed...!

Well, it is very hot outdoors today...I think about how much I appreciate a nice shade, whether it be trees, awnings, buildings,...or just stay indoors under ceiling / cooling fans...

All animals outdoors need shade from heat + Sun also !...very important ! Serious !...cattle / all livestock, horses, chickens, goats, sheep, pigs, --- just all animals need shade trees, or barns that are vented, grand size enough, very cool water, shade also is best for water to stay cool, fresh....

Rodeos, cattle sale + purchase barns need shades for cattle / livestock before the sales, feed + water....as for rodeos, all animals need proper shade, rest, water, very cool, before rodeo days before event...I know many sale barns and rodeos locally need this now !!!...proper, professional, more well organized.....and all attendees, need shade too, for crowds....I love rodeos !

Pets need shade if have to live outdoors, create shade if possible, help them keep cool, fresh, clean cool water...feed them as they enjoy...

I enjoy shade trees, they are nice to set underneath in lawn chairs, drink refreshments, chill, in the evenings often...while grilling, set out underneath the shade trees, talk, keep cool...

Shade is best in any way possible to keep cool, rest..

J.


another letter...

Well, it's letter time, I am not a cry baby, or a whiny brat, I just have to find some relief from easy !...

I want to tell you all thank you for getting rid of a lot of harassment, and nastiness, I saw creek crawling the other day, and I also say tell everyone thank you everywhere who helped get rid of all the trash involved in this nastiness...I wish that I could tell them in person, but I know later...

This road makes me weirded out sick or something seeing these old houses, nastiness I saw through here...weird I know, creepy feeling or something...puke !

Here is my bitchy list about E.' s lunatic ways that are I think about to kill me...

My fans in my bedroom are still hacked playing screams, talking all day + night...cats still meowing at ceiling, peeing in floor, behaving crazy....I clean properly, almost daily this happens, they will not sleep, they hear the buzzing, talking screaming on fans or in house, wherever it is, my dog barks all night, I am worried he could be hacked and die too...Upsets me

He tells me daily I have cancer, and keeps saying cancer treatment centers of America in my head, and on the fans...makes me exhausted....scared...j.w. tries to tell me the truth...and calm me...I think j.w. should be able to talk to me not E. !!!...I am scared a lot still...because of junk E. Tells me all the time...! Says they are removing my organs with equipment, you won't live long bitch, bla, bla, bla...on and on..

says he sends tiny short people to follow me, says they are his friends, they are creepy and smelly..weirdos...make faces at me in stores..or on roads...driving..

Tells me, they are going to kill me, I am dying, my pets are dying, says Kyle s. is coming back, every time I go to town he screams in my head, there's Kyle s. !....that idiot was a lunatic he hacked my mind, talked to me same time as E. Talked in my head, years ago...both at same time all jacked up on drugs, trying to kill me at stores, followed me, kyle said he would spit aids blood in my face...almost killed me talking in my head like that !!! 

Kyle hurt animals I saw in road...Upsets me still I saw that.....sad...Kyle kept turning it up on my head saying I had to marry him bitch !...I said no, I won't, he turned it up deep in my mind....screaming....yes you will bitch !...he was a gay guy, he said and all the gay guys hate you bitch !....I could care less ! I told him...creepy nasty weirdo ! I tried to talk to him, to calm him down, he kept on...I hope it doesn't ever happen again !...this has been a nightmare, my whole life...I couldn't get him shut off my head...he said he pressed nerves down in my stomach, I got sick with pain, vomited....I hope he's gone...crazies jacked up on drugs, do not need that equipment !...this went on 5 - months...I survived, it infuriated all the cheap nasty hillbillies everywhere !....

They kept calling me a bitch, so I told them, you're wrong, it's queen bitch to you trash !!!....lol...

E....Keeps telling me when I have something to eat for a meal, you fat bitch ! Then mashed on my nerves to make me nervous feeling, tells me he is punishing me for eating something, next time he screams at me in my head, all you eat all the time is salads, eat real food bitch !....go figure that one !...jacked up in the head, last time I saw him, and paid attention he weighed about 2 pounds, on drugs....lol...nasty.

Plays songs in my head everyday, to exhaust me, this has went on for years with all the crazies with crooked equipment....tired.

He sits up the road at the b-shaw house at his roost like a buzzard, and I am the tired prey, innocent, confused, he talks and yells all night at me....I feel exhausted, and I might pass out or die, scared ! He won't stop talking in my head, or on the fans, I have to keep cool, my room doesn't cool very much, even with air conditioner on, insulation bad in this old house....I feel sicker...

He keeps playing old conversations in the house on fans...I guess eavesdropping got someone in trouble...lol...they don't like what I had to say about them, and got in trouble...haha..don't like what I say, don't be listening !

Yells at me in my head when I turn on my internet, or my cellphone, or when I blog, you kill my friends bitch !...kept hiding my signal he said so I couldn't blog...

Tells me every time I go to bathroom, my uterus will fall out, and that Brown worm is going to fall out again...nervous....I am always upset, tired, confused, exhausted, if I can get a nice night of rest, sleep without talking every second, I feel better for a while...I need peace and quiet at night...

I am a mess, of tired, don't care no more, sick, exhausted, creeped out....these idiots have about made me nuts ! Having to battle all this trash, everyday my whole life, not just the snobby hillbilly family, but the less money hillbilly family, all their people, then at school I had to know those people that were in with them, insults, embarrassing me, harassment, nastiness, all that trash still following me, nosy, just chaos...blaming me for their own ruin...I just laugh...

He said he had to tell me about a handful of friends I really always enjoyed talking to at school, that they are going to be in my life, if that is true, I am happy for them, they were always kind, caring, true friends, that suffered with me at school....tell them I love you guys, can't wait to see you, thank you for keeping me safe when I knew nothing about these corrupt losers !...can't wait to be friends again, I miss you !...and a few others I haven't met yet...if that is true, that makes me happy...

E. Keeps saying they are ok, not mad at me, and that makes me happy, then the next day, he says they are gone, hate me, and I become sad, confused....wish I knew the truth...says this about many people, he says you say for him to tell me about....oh well maybe someday I will know the truth...

I just want E. to have some serious help, don't hurt him bad, he just needs mental health, rehab serious !...I think he is overdosing, having old memories, upsets, flashbacks about his loved ones, I think...frightens me...sometimes he is nice to talk to, days he tells me he is taking medicines, he can be comforting on those days, but just half the time, then he goes nuts later....hellllllllp !

I felt like writing a letter.

Sorry this rambles on, but I have a lot of stress, confusion, tired with him, this, and my mother and grandma's confusion...thanks for everyone taking care of me all my life..

Love, Julie






Saturday, June 17, 2017

prayers...

Praying all the time is best, not only on Sundays, but throughout the week...

We all have many problems, that only prayers can comfort, and often help...The Lord listens to your prayers, each prayer he hears above !....so praying for others too, is best...

Having any strife, often the only comfort is to pray to The Lord above, for help, it often offers hope for us...

I pray often as I can, reading bible scripture is a good way to keep in touch with The Lord and spiritual....

I think being mortal, here on earth we all need to be spiritual, pray, talk to him above often...follow his scripture...he is our creator...be fearful of The Lord, he can create and end all humanity....yikes !

People say : " oh, I pray he never helps me, never listens, I don't pray anymore ! "......you have to work toward goodness, try through difficulty, and keep believing, love him, pray to him....he listens, and knows all about you, for he created you.....it may take many years of praying to him, to be helped....never stop praying, believing in The Lord....

Prayers for many suffering, 

Illnesses, cancer, treatment, recovery
Diseases, afflictions
Those in severe pain
People with mental illness
Upsets, turmoil
Those with addictions
Those in need
Prayers for peace



Friday, June 16, 2017

phases of life, everyone goes through....

Everyone goes through good + bad days in their life.

Often the sad / bad days see no end !...I always keep in mind, that " This too shall pass "....

I know all thing have to end / stop eventually, that is just how life is....it can be upsetting, sad, or it can be joyful and a relief, setting you free from what holds you back from happiness.....whichever it may be, I know that we have to remember not everything stays the same in life forever...

Time, work, and goodness often create good change, and bring happiness, peace, so always remember that one !...this ends turmoil, corruption, evil also...so always strive to be better and good !

Everyone has money issues, pain, illness, bills / payments, seems no relief in sight for those troubles, but with dedication, work, keep trying, never give up !....it will with time even itself....we just have to learn to live within our means of living, get rid of unneeded purchases, know that overexpenses, are too much....any vices need to go !...

Be happy with what you have, even if it is not much, very many people don't even have that much....I always keep this in mind....good words to live by....

We each have good events, bad events in our lives, no need to ever be hateful, rude, or jealous over one another, while it may seem others have everything, that is often only for a short while, all things change, each of us falter, have setbacks, upsets....be cheerful + happy for those good events, you will find yours eventually...!

Phases of life for us, are just as the phases of the moon above, they change many ways, and many things will change also.....all required in life, just how life is for us all...

J.

Wednesday, June 14, 2017

fake tattoos ?...

I think tattoos are very creative, artistic, interesting...I enjoy the artwork many others sport !....tattoos always tell a story, commemorate, remember, honor, show who you are !...

I don't have any tattoos, but I also know that I can simply find a tattoo to adhesive to my skin, just add water !...haha :p

I have seen many different types of those fake tattoos at the stores for purchase in packaging, labeled, contained, many colorful fake tattoos, with glitters too !...

They are available in many different designs + characters, for all ages to use...

Once I had a few fake tattoos of hearts, stars, Sun, clouds, moon, birds, butterflies....very neat...I liked them...

Today I found a few at the store...I remember those !...

J.

Monday, June 12, 2017

ice cream dots....

It is summertime, and I often enjoy ice cream during summer months, whether it is sundaes, ice cream scoops / cones, or in a simple icy cool dish...

I have always liked the fun assorted ice creams, of all flavors...locally I often go to Braums for ice cream, nice to go out with others for ice cream or dinner during summer...nice social way to go say hello !

Ice cream from the local stores, just as good, take back home, call friends / family over this summer...

At the malls, I sometimes see the Dippin Dots vendors, and I sometimes try a container.....I enjoy all flavors, and the texture of the unique icy treat....Ice cream dots !...fun !

Also Wal-Mart, other stores, have available Itti - bitz ice cream dots...it's that brand...almost same as Dippin Dots, just as good, more affordable.....I like most flavors...in small containers...fun for summer !

Summertime is the season for going out for ice cream, or other good social, fun, activity, call your pals !...

j.

Sunday, June 11, 2017

confetti !!!...

Confetti is a creative way to celebrate events...I think it is very beautiful !

Yesterday I saw a few confetti items, to celebrate events with...

Confetti can be sparkle, foils, paper, glittery....all very pretty.

Items I saw were these, found at Wal-Mart, party stores, mostly :

Confetti  blasts / cannons, or in plain packaging it is available...most sizes....but all fun !  :)

Party Poppers
Confetti blaster
Giant confetti cannon
Showtime 12, and  24 confetti popper

Mini party poppers, I had one many years ago, looked like a champagne bottle, you remove top, confetti flies outward...be careful.

The cannons, blasts, aim upward away from faces, air pressure may be crazy !!!...be careful with these.

Silly string is also an old time fave of mine, all colorful hues, spray cans, spray, but never into pets faces, or people's faces, mean, could possibly injure eyes....

Silly string is very fun ! Another way to celebrate.

Find at same stores, brands I have seen :

Party fun
Just for kicks

Celebrate with at events, or for happiness......lol..

julie




Friday, June 9, 2017

corn tortillas...

Purchased a package of corn tortillas, something I like...

Flour tortillas are also nice, but corn tortillas I enjoy with many dishes I can prepare...

Summertime, I like these very much.

Many brands available, most stores :

Save a lot, Wal-Mart, target, local grocery stores,

These brands are good :

Ramirez and sons
Mission
La Banderita
Great Value
Fiesta
Guerrero

j.

Wednesday, June 7, 2017

hot temps, heat illness.....

Whew ! It has been hotter lately outdoors..yikes, it has been often uncomfortable...we need to remember, how easy it is to be taken over with hot temps !

I have many years ago, almost passed out working outdoors, building fences, it was noon time, summer, walking up a hill, and it was about 114 degrees, we were just about to stop for the day, and I almost passed out I think...scared me.

I know all about very hot weather, and even had to suffer through 119 degrees, a week without air conditioning, I went to sleep outdoors in my pool on a plastic raft....haha...late evening.

Quickly ! You can become ill with heat illness, as can your pets...always supply shade, cool water, and ice cubes for pets.....and yourself, we all need these....also livestock need shade....

Heat illness, happens to most everyone, it sort of causes me to be grouchy, snappy, bitchy....we all fuss and quickly argue during the heat, more often, I always try to stop myself before grouching at others in the heat...i have to apologize,...everyone goes through this !...the angrier you are, more dangerous for your heart, mind, body....not good...so cool + calm yourself...I try to ! :)

This heat causes :

Confusion
Heart palpitations
Swelled arthritic body areas
Heart attacks
Heat stroke
Too much sweating
Mind issues

Very serious, danger !

To help with stopping heat illness :

Dress cooler
Drink plenty water, Gatorade, Powerade
Sunglasses
Hats
Umbrellas
Sit under shades, cool off !

If working outdoors, take breaks in shade, refresh with drink, set down, rest from sun...

People fuss working together often, so we are all too hot outdoors, remember to calm while working with co - workers...if fighting starts, tell yourself, or others, to calm, be respectful, we are all too hot, we can have heart failure...be calm....stop anger before it happens...danger !

Enjoy errands outdoors, driving, going shopping early morning, or late evening, when cooler....vehicles can overheat, cause problems....you can overheat while in crowds at town also...

Setting or working in the sun, it takes only seconds to suffer heat illness, so please be careful, cooler, keep calm...

Elderly, suffer easily also in heat, so keep them indoors, resting, they can become ill quickly...

Drinking lemonade, setting under the cooling fans, coloring, drawing, reading, word searches, resting, or painting is something nice to work on....keep cool.

j.






Tuesday, June 6, 2017

not feeling well....

I have still been feeling very weak, my blood pressure is weird or something, feel as I may pass out....very nervous feeling, exhausted...

Tv box, is new different, s - easy is mad at me again, yelling on ceiling, oscillating fans, harassing me about internet, and blogging, ruining his life...all night he talks non stop, all day he talks every second, I feel weird, feel nervous in spurts....he says he is controlling this to harm me !

Yelling at me about money, harassing Mimi, she can't sleep keeps hearing mumbling, noises, ringing, said she's been crying because of constant nightly harassing ! I am very worried about her, me, my pets, my mama, and other grandma...!!!...

He keeps screaming about new tv box, that over east ! Whatever that crap is, yells at me everyday for months now !...you ruined that over east bitch !

I am very tired, harassed worse, exhausted, scared he is going to harm me ! Still mashing on my nerves with crooked equipment !....

He keeps yelling at me about my grandpa's truck, old house, and money, they tore everything up and stole he said, he said I blame you bitch !...hurts me, they stole, tore up things, he said they desecrated in their home, all kinds of nastiness, I am very depressed upset over this sir !!!...

I am tired of b.s. stories, lies, and pain that he has caused with nasty others.....I don't give a damn for these losers !

He keeps saying you are all angry at me, want to get rid of me over money or something !....sick of this daily harassing...keeps screaming at me about baby, baby shower, brother being gone....I don't know truth or nothing ! Sick of harassing !

he Tells me this, that, everything every day...I need some help, and I am scared, of what he will do to me with this constant harassment, equipment, he will scream at me tonight I know...and my mama, pets, grandma's need help...it is getting worse with his mind...he want, tries, thinks, he can control me, with his crooked equipment, and mind, he said he will get rid of me....

I am tired of him harassing the internet everyday almost, screaming at me over getting online ! You are ending people bitch ! My mind can't stop running, swirling with all this fan noise, and easy e..on my brain waves...

I am Very weirdly tired.

I am not whining about things, or being a damned ol tattle tale, just exhausted, need help, I never can rest peacefully at night, and now I am weak, with his mind trying to get rid of me.....

I know I am annoying you probably with I need help letters, but I know I can tell you on here, just person to person what is going on....

I think easy needs to be gone up north or something...he would talk + jabber to a fence post...and tell his imaginary, b.s. stories to it....he would probably scream at it, or try to get it into a bed !!!....

j.


Saturday, June 3, 2017

paint with water books....roofing

It was nice to go to town today.

I always enjoy a leisure activity on paper.

activity books are a fave of mine....

books as :

Word searches
Sticker books
Coloring books, crayon or coloring pencils

Paint with water books are relaxing, fun, even as a child I enjoyed them.....I found three of the paint with water books today at stores, these are paint with water books I purchased very affordable :

Hello Kitty
Lisa Frank

Dollar tree had a few of their own, I purchased one.

Paint with water books are very nice, I use a small paint brush, or clean q - tip,  placed in water, blot onto paper, too much water, coloring ink will run, and ruin painting....be careful, stay in lines to create pictures....fun ! I have worked on one book today...

Also ---

Today I created a pizza, with hamburger fried, then crumbled onto top, with pepperoni, olive slices, onion, cheese, pizza sauce...I enjoy spices, seasonings....

The construction / building crew completed roofing my home today, they worked tediously, quickly, professionally, they were very clean, polite !

They are appreciated, and needed everywhere !.....I know their work is needed, for many work locations....Thanks to them ! Looks nice !

Storm damage caused need for new shingles onto the roof of my home....it takes a lot of work for shingle overlay, I can't believe how quickly they completed the roofing...wonderful !

Shingles are nice for roof of many homes, they work well even underneath the very hot sun...and temps..

That was my day.

Very tired.

j.









Thursday, June 1, 2017

need help !!!

I know I have told you before, about the b.s. up the road, but I seriously need immediate help !!!...stevie needs to be turned off of my brain waves, he keeps choking me, yelling, talking, rambling every second in my brain, all day, all night...

I am very exhausted, cannot sleep at all at night, cats roam all night and he is harassing me every second.

 My blood pressure is weird today....because his embarrassing, air....

I have been nice to him, told him I know everything going to go on and happen, sick of his b.s. ... 4 years now of him on my brain waves, harassing, felt like I was going to pass out or faint today at noon, setting at table in my chair, tingly limbs, eye saw smoke weird like ...panicking, my neck felt like it was choking...tight, he yelled at me, he bitches at me about his family, friends skank's, drugs....screams at me about my thoughts, he doesn't need to listen or talk to me any more ! Says my cat has diseases going to die of cancer...sick of it..

He comments on my thoughts, every time I go to town he tries to clap my head he said, yelling...whole time

Says this is this or that is that everyday, yells about people I never met, money, attention, I have had enough of this b.s...he said I was going to be killed by my family out of jail, I would have to be made to be a prostitute !!!!...I loathe him totally....he harasses us at stores, he's just like his real daddies Dean c. Philip m, Sandy p, his nasty girlfriend's....!!!...

I need help, think I am going to die, he's nuts drug afflicted idiot like easy e needs his equipment took from him he is threatening, evil, nasty talking, vulgar, puts air in my head, and in my hineybo !!!...he presses on my nerves....he's too greased up in the head....!!!....throw him in the tank or other...I won't mind !....

Easy e is still playing screams, talking on my ceiling fans, all fans, gave me diarrhea last year on the way from chicksha, and laughed....I am so tired of nasty easy !!! If I could harass him with that equipment, it would be the end of him, I would send people to scare him at stores, he imagines things he tells me lies, old b.s. stories, I hear a repeat every day, minute, hour of old b.s. stories, with different, endings, beginnings, I have had enough of his crap !

My mind is tired, he also says he hides my phone calls from going to and from....he is nutso !

He tells me everyday I have cancer, hiv, aids, hep c, my brain has tumors, dying, goo, my heart, and kidneys are failing....he tries to make me a hypochondriac !!!....when I saw that Brown worm down there, he screamed, go to the hospital you are dying bitch !...they know you are dying....he needs a lot of rehab, medical, help....

He tells me every meal I am a fat ugly bitch, and I will never do anything this fat, I just laugh because I have been sick n tired a very long time, I lose weight quickly with exercise and diet....I can lose weight...when I lose weight I will send him a picture, and he can eat his words !

He's obsessed with money, and goings on, certain people working for you, he can't stand a lot of things...I think he's still in love with several girls...he's lost due to things....he talks about them often...cries, yells....oh well, that's just how life is I tell him...

He has wore me down, my battery in my head is drained, very low...exhausts me with constant jabbering...every second....

j. w. I., and j.j are good docs as others I haven't met yet, he tells me he hates on them also when they tear him up over rehab harassment....they deserve an award for all the b.s..they work on, put up with...I trust them with my health.....just don't wanna be hacked again...

I know everything going to go on, I know what all this was exactly now, and I also know we are ok with it, because all a person can do is go on, what's done is done....they were sicko, dangerous, and I feel safer now....but not from easy e. With my brain waves, he is dangerous...

Easy is upset about everything, I think he suffers from ptsd, panic, psychosis, from too much drugs...needs a lot of help....he also complains too much about his brother, and that is not good....he's helpful, and always busy, but he has to take care of easy e.. I know...stress for him too I am sure..

I told stevie I was going to have to move to Texas so he would go off my brain waves, and he just keeps hurting, harassing me....maybe texas will make him go off....I am scared of my brain being exhausted again....help....OkCity too screwed up to seek help, I cannot talk to anyone I know to stop this harassment...scared....I can't defend myself, against him, hacking, or others, because I have no equipment to turn them down or off....constantly afraid, it will kill me, I always think, well, this is it !...Easy is hurting me, going to kill me...

J.w. would be nice to talk to eventually at night, I know he's there..I trust him totally...he can tell me right from the jacked up stories, lies, b.s, that Easy tells me all the time....

I am scared of being killed by the crooked fbi, and jacked up  jealous weirdos...I think of it every day, you don't have to worry I am not angry about all this that went on. And I am not going to go talk about anything, top secret...I know it is a serious mess all this, and very dangerous, but I am never mad at you all !....I am mad at nasty hillbillies +  family, sorry as shit all of them...!!!


I am weak, frightened, nervous, upset, as you know I would be, this is all strange, weird, but I keep trying my best to make it through everyday, my mama, and grandma's confusion is stressful, nerve wracking.....

I can't even take a short nap for his constant talking from easy...

Sir, I appreciate you all taking good care of me, and my everything, and I am not whining, just need help with easy e, its got to be too much for me lately...

I am terrified of my body quitting me, or dying off, I feel so lightheaded, dizzy, nauseous, tired....

I need rest at night.

This is very long, sorry, have to tell somebody like y'all, I know you'll be bored of this mess.....

Sorry to bother you, I know how very busy you are with everything...hope you don't mind this post, they said you are very busy...

Love, julie

care packages, charitable gifts....

Being kind, is always necessary to bring goodness.

Many people are in need of help.

Care packages are one way to help others.

I have enjoyed creating these at church for many years, I always wish to be charitable + helpful...you can create / gift care packages, at all times, to those in need who are good people....til they can get more help.

It is a shame to create / gift something to someone and they don't appreciate it, or are evil and don't deserve it, so always try to help those in need who are of goodness....they deserve to be helped !

Placing items, interior of care packages, these need to be affordable, helpful, needed...

We have always created care packages from those items on the travel aisle at Wal-Mart, and anything helpful from dollar tree....you can find most anything helpful from dollar tree, then gift + send away ! :)

Items to send in care packages :

Toothbrush + holders
Toothpaste
Deodorant
Toilet paper
Tissues
plastic plates, cups, saucers
Soaps
Bath wash
Hair brush mini, folding
Donated, used clothing, shoes, hats, sunglasses, coats, gloves, socks, for cold

Refreshments
Medicines to help
Female hygiene items
Canned foods, can openers
Helpful information literature, in languages
Bibles, mini 
Toys for kids

Prepackaged food items, Bugles, all chips, Gardettos, corn chips, Corn Nuts, pretzels, popcorn, peanut butter and cheese crackers, cookies, cereals, bread, candy bars, honey buns, canned hams, mini pizzas all sizes...save a lot good place to start, most affordable...many food items to choose from to care package, whatever you choose is good !

Mini sizes are most affordable, and you can gift to many others that way....very nice I think...show you care.

You may wish to also include, those $ 1 / play pack and go, coloring mini books, that also have crayons....something different, and fun...

Taking part in charitable work, at church has always been something I enjoy, helping others this way, makes you feel as you have achieved wonderful work, bringing goodness, is always nice, being happy with great work...

Include nice card affixed to care packages, say who it is from, nice greeting...

j.