Monday, December 31, 2012

Hello 2013.....

Goodbye 2012.

You weren't a bad year..but you weren't that hot either....lol..

I'm hopeful for 2013 as i am for each new year..i don't know why..lol....Not making new year resolutions because i can never keep them...so i'm not making any...

Staying home tonight...bad weather...bad roads and FOG...soooo not good for driving in at 2am with light snow possibly,getting stranded on the highway, and dodging drunken drivers....WITH NOBODY TO FIND/HELP ME AT 2am.....not worth it...all that mess...getting stranded/killed...no thanks!...

love being with my friends and celebrating,but just not into all the New Years Eve hype.....it's overrated and bleh...besides i'd be miserable and sleepy.

In a bad mood because i feel like crap....yep....i've got that flu like everyone else around here..coughing/chills/hurt all over.....guess things worked out like they were supposed to..

going to take theraflu,go to sleep,and see you in 2013.

Yay for being sick on New Years Eve! ;(

xoxo

Thursday, December 27, 2012

winter has arrived.....

I got my wish.....It SNOWED!!!...

Haha..i guess if you wish hard enough sometimes you get your way...too bad that's not all the time.

Christmas was just meh....it was ok...but of course i didn't get to see my Dad or any of the other family members that are gone working..miss them terribly!!!..hated that...a hug from Dad would be worth a bazillion presents!....but oh well...hopefully my gifts warmed their hearts and made them smile...

AND considering the gifts were things that could actually keep them warm...i'm hoping they came in handy in this snowy icy cold weather....i'm so awesome....lol...easiest gifts i ever thought of, actually ended up being useful this time of year..socks,gloves,blankets,shirts....and candy.

the other half of Christmas got cancelled due to a blizzard...soooooo saturday we are having another small Christmas lunch...sandwichy type lunch...

The gifts i got from family and friends were mainly necklaces and gift cards......i've got a lot of online shopping i'm praying i get to do soon....i want new jeans,snow boots,tops, rhinestone headbands and a new purse/wallet....ya know clothing related items.

i've got to start planning ahead in time for my spring trip to new mexico...sure it's not til march..but i'm going to go ahead and be buying things for it the next couple of months...super excited about that!....it's been FOREVER since i have had a vacation and i am in dire need of a getaway...NOW!...lol...

we spent most of Christmas dinner talking about the upcoming vacation and looking at family pictures from other vacations which got me totally excited and looking forward to the trip....I think i will look at it as a meditational/spiritual getaway for me...mountains have that spiritual effect on people i think...just silence and beautiful views from high above.....peaceful.

anyway gotta go....have to get a few things from town in case we have that snow/freezing rain in a few days they are expecting for our local weather.

xoxo

Monday, December 24, 2012

Christmas eve 2012....

Has to be my favorite Christmas instrumental...beautiful.

Well....here we are....finally made it to Christmas eve.....Dinner today at noon at Grandparents & later at Auntie's house tonight....Cowboy Christmas you know....dinner is BBQ and mesquite smoke...lol.

Excited for today but kinda bummed that i'm not going to get to see everyone in my family..really a let down...but i expected that considering all that is going on....So i will try to make the best of it all and have a good Christmas eve...

I made a strawberry homemade cheesecake,pecan pie,pumpkin pie---to take to all these family gatherings as the desserts...AND i'm contributing potato salad to the BBQ dinner....lol..hope it's good! i like it with plenty of mustard...

We may not get to have Christmas tomorrow anywhere because supposedly there is a pretty good chance we may have a ton of snow....Yes SNOW!....i think maybe everyone around here is excited about that possibility....i like to watch it fall and besides it makes it feel more like Christmas....kinda takes your mind off the fact that you miss your family that can't be here so much....helps me anyway..........and it could keep the annoying snobby relatives from being able to travel to here!...LOL...Yay!...

still rather upset about how that one "supposed friend" acted this weekend...like a spoiled, uncaring bratty.selfish,cold,adult......really hurts she acted that way to everyone...we all wish we had NEVER invited her down, or even saw her, or even exchanged Christmas gifts with her!....she didn't buy anyone else a gift, but she got one from everyone then acted like it was nothing to her..i mean seriously?!....it was pretty much she was like:"Give me a gift!"....then she acted weird and left...

are there any true friends anymore?...can't believe she acted like that...oh well nothing should surprise me anymore...why should i expect anything different from her?...everyone's bratty,spoiled and cold hearted....ungrateful.....maybe today will get me out of this rather pissed off & annoyed, upset mood?

i'm just kinda tired of being so giving and kind with gifts,spending money on nice gifts for them,going out of my way to be nice and cheery to people in my life and getting nothing in return but someone expecting a hand-out..not even a thank you..it seems like some people don't appreciate anything nice you do for them...

anyhow in a bad mood..i need sleep.maybe tomorrow or tonight it will snow like crazy and make me happy....lol

merry christmas.

Thursday, December 20, 2012

dust storms and cookie party....

This song is so cool.....Love them!....

pic from news
Last night a major dust storm blew into Oklahoma...we got a ton of west texas dirt in the air and everywhere...No thanks west Texas for your dust/dirt!...lol...you can keep it...

The wind blew so bad last night at times!!! i have never heard it blow that fast like that...kinda scary.....when it blew through the trees it sounded like a million screeching voices screaming...kinda spooky...This morning there are shingles blown off the roof everywhere..things blown around everywhere..Call the insurance man!!!..bet he's gonna be busy this week.

it got so freaking COLD...this morning just being out there for a few minutes in the wind still blowing a little---your fingers freeze and your bones all hurt....i'm sicker..coughing/sneezing...bad allergies...i will have to buy some Theraflu to make it through this week i suppose..it helps me....bleh..

I HATE YOU dirty cold wind!!!(you cause pneumonia!!!)

Got a few gifts finally given to family that i hardly see,but think of very often.....hope they like their gifts from me, and it makes them smile or something good....And i got my Dad's gifts to my Aunt to hopefully get it to him wherever he is working at right now...I really miss him...but i know with all the craziness going on he's working a lot....things are gonna get back to "the normal" around here..give it time....

just kinda sucks right now....doesn't even feel like Christmas-time really, with the weather being whack & warm and everyone being away working...oh well...we'll manage...Just wish i could at least see a snowflake or several for Christmas??? PLEASE?!...SNOW.

anyhow tonight is the annual Christmas Cookie Party with my friends...excited!...it's a lot of fun..decorating cookies and swapping them with friends...helps it feel like Christmas a little more maybe?

xoxo



Sunday, December 16, 2012

december randomness.....

I thought this was kinda cool..watched it on tv the other night..

Ok....I give up on the "perfect Christmas gift" shopping!!!....
 
My Grandma is the toughest person to shop for!...she's sooooo picky and she'll tell me not to get her anything...then she'll say:"Oh.......well get me a tube of lipstick.".....LOL...lipstick?seriously for a Christmas gift?!that's all?...no way...i'm not getting my Grandma just a tube of lipstick for Christmas!!!....
 
So along with a tube of lipstick(that she will probably not like the color anyway)...i found her a pair of sparkly red earrings and a matching red sparkly necklace $50 total....she likes red....so *fingers crossed on that one*....until this morning she pulls a necklace out of her jewelry box (that is the same length as the one i just bought Saturday at the mall) and she goes:"This necklace here is just too long for me..i don't like them this long."......god!.....i give up on Christmas shopping 2012!..what'm i gonna do about that now?!...oh well!...she can take it back if it's too long for her...lol...yes, i know..someday i will be an old picky lady just like her...not judging her!...
 
To all the friends/family trying to spy on me shopping in town?---Bwahaha!!!...just because you don't see me buying a gift that looks like it might be for you, doesn't mean i haven't bought you one!.....LOL!.....duh!..i might have bought it ONLINE!...i'm sneaky like that!...haha!
 
have to start making more candy tomorrow to get started on my candy gift boxes i give to family&friends as part of their gifts from me...kinda excited to get this all put together and given away......gonna make ALOT of candy for friends/family...almost bought the grocery store out of marshmallow creme and chocolate chips AND pecans...pecan tree didn't come through this year because of drought...boo!
 
taking gifts to my Aunt to hopefully get them to my Dad this week...nervous about gifts getting to him!!!..i really hope he likes them...lots of clothing & etc...ya know..stay warm winter clothing....AND homemade candy.
 
this weekend i also paid for half of my upcoming spring vacation to New Mexico...room already booked for march with friends/fam...yay!...*excited*..talk about that all later blog.
 
Having random people tell you how beautiful you are on a boring downer of a day makes your day better...aww...so sweet of them to say that...but i could never see myself as beautiful...i'm too down to earth and soooooo not superficial about things to ever view myself as beautiful....i mean, i know i'm pretty but i just don't care.....but it's a very sweet comment to say and made me smile..thanks anyway though!
 
been wearing red sweaters....red nail polish.....red lipstick all this month!...Anyone around me puzzled by that---there's no artistic mystery to solve!....LOL...It's December!...hello?...Christmas....maybe it's a Christmas statement?....haven't they noticed the green holly leaves and red berries hair pin in my hair?....Christmasy all month...well...duh!....haha!...they're puzzled and there's the answer...simple.
 
yay! for the Jenn-air cook top given to me by family who didn't want it!....super sleek and cool...ready for Christmas.

nite-nite.





Wednesday, December 12, 2012

i love farm/ranch stores....

Sleepy.

in bed watching Wrangler National Finals Rodeo on GAC.....i've been keeping up with it most every night it's been on...until i fall asleep for the night...

Been a long day it seems like....A few cows jumped the fence and tore it down over by the ponds and i spent most the day trying to find them and drive them back to the other side of the fence....They just look at me like:"What?! We haven't done anything wrong!Go away Julia!".....haha...yeah they are spoiled moos...every single one of them has an attitude...i swear.....

I managed to find a few more gifts for family today..I found cowprint fleece blankets on sale so i bought a few of those...i'm going back and buy some for myself tomorrow!...lol.....and more cowboy christmas gift bags,fuzzy socks(for gifts)a red sharpie marker,cards,coffee cups,and gloves all at the farm/ranch store....I think those make good gift ideas for cowboys/farmers.....

anything from any farm/ranch store would be a good gift to me...i freaking LOVE those stores...i shop all the time in them...I come from a family of nothing but cowboys/farmers so that's the BEST place to shop for them or myself..they have everything related to this life....from equipment to feed to clothing to boots to cute cowboy decor....yeah i'm in love with those stores...can't ya tell?

i'm thinking about assembling gift baskets...you know making a basket full of various things and wrapping it in clear gift wrap...with adornments....lots of things altogether...pretty!....I have so many friends/family that buying gifts can be a bit of a headache....so why not throw in various items?...make it fun,cute, and random...and.....cowboy themed of course.

It takes a while to get to a good town to do some shopping....BUT i don't mind at all really..People sometimes ask:"How do you stand living so far out there in the middle of nowhere?!It would drive me insane!"...and i tell them:"I LOVE it....it's all i have ever known....I could NEVER live in the city/town...i gotta have my quiet desolate,wide open spaces....or i would suffocate and wither away into nothing.".....

some people have to constantly see other people and interact or stay on the go 24/7....not me!!!....I like my quiet time and isolation...sometimes i just don't have much to say to people and i just like being alone..most the people in my family are that way--genetic....i guess i'm not much of a talker....(you couldn't tell that from how much i like to type could ya?!!".....LOL....some people just talk way too much for me...

More shopping&planning to do for tomorrow....

nite-nite....zzz....

Monday, December 10, 2012

do acts of kindness for the world....

It snowed!...Haha...Well....it was just a "dusting" of snow at 2am this morning...I never saw it...i was asleep....Man,I wish it would snow on Christmas!!!...It feels more like it should with snow...

I heard this song on a holiday music satellite channel..I really like it!..great lyrics..Perfect title for that little bit of snow i never saw this morning...lol..i'm going to itunes this one.
It was so freaking cold this morning...11 degrees!...great though-switching things up a bit weather-wise..So i had to go break ponds and water tanks this morning in pastures for livestock and feed them in the truck..in those huge "i can't move or walk cover-alls"...LOL!...kept me warm though...no complaints.

My missing package in the mail arrived and is now wrapped under the tree...i sent a thank you email to the person who got the order right and to me in the mail...thank god i got it!....It was a gift for my Dad...hope he likes it and i get to see him soon...

Along with that gift i also got a few others wrapped today...I've decided that i wanna make my own ribbon bows this year out of wire ribbons because my aunts all do that..NO boring bows out of a package for this girl!...so i attempted it after Auntie J showed me how saturday..I bought a really pretty red/sparkly wire ribbon roll to match my red/white/wreath/berry wrapping paper...

it's fun to change things up like that even the simplest things like making your own bows on gifts...makes it more special and interesting i think...do something different.

here's a video i found to learn how to make them today...BUT my Aunt is the best bow maker and teacher...lol...

Oh!....i won $25 in the drawing this weekend at the parade in town....Haha!!!....me & my friends were all there acting like morons and being stupid..laughing and talking all over town all night.. and the hot chocolate/marshmellows!..it was soooo good!....good day.....AND we sold a lot of candy for the Town & Country Club to donate for the various Christmas charities in town and the toy/food drive for the churches...

Feels great to help contribute good for the community/world and do something nice for all the people and animals suffering this year and all the time---i care for them all and feel sadness in my heart for each and every one suffering human or animal..Bless them all....they're always in my prayers and thoughts...

the world seems crazy and evil at times but things can get better...every good and kind thing you do in the world---big or small, makes the world a better place...we should do that all the time not just at Christmas....instead of being depressed or bored or arguing over money or material crap----Think of the people suffering and the animals and go do something good for them and help make a good difference...forget yourself!---your worries/depression get up off your butt, stop whining/feeling sorry for yourself and get out there and do good acts of kindness for the world...you can start in your community/town or your space you live..reach out to someone/or a charity and help out somehow..be kind...you'll feel great...i promise!

xoxo!!!



Thursday, December 6, 2012

making homemade candy....

Just because this is an awesome song and he's my fave....
 
Ok, so far i have gotten the online purchase straightened out after about 5 emails with the company i ordered from....lol....they were nice though..They DID make a mistake and hopefully it looks like they fixed it and they even sent me a tracking number...they had sent me the tracking number to a previous order from them...lol...that was the problem...*fingers crossed it gets here*...nervous.
 
helped my Grandparents with Medicare supplement enrollment yesterday...online..oh wow...you talk about confusing!!!...i had no clue what to do with all that mess....yikes....it takes a genius to go through all those plans and pick/choose...can't they make that simpler for them?.....hopefully i made the right decisions for them....they chose and i filled out the info online forms for them...anything with the government is complicated..why?...so stupid...especially being completely complicated for the old people....ridiculous...that was stressful let me tell ya!
 
Turned my little bull calf out yesterday on wheat...he's had his shot and he's doing really great..i spy on him with binoculars and see how he's adapting to life with the other cows....i raised him from a tiny little baby on a bottle...he was orphaned and i saved him...been a lot of hours and care...tough at times but i did it!!!...i'm sooooo proud of myself for saving him and i'm proud he's healthy and free now in the pasture...kinda teary eyed turning him out...he looked at me a few minutes and then took off running with the other cows...he'll never leave this farm....he's my baby...isn't that silly?..aww..i love him like a pet...he's so cute...his name is Blue. ;)
 
AND.....so apparently everyone wants milk chocolate/white chocolate fudge as the candy this year..so i guess that's what i'll be making for the parade friday after we finish decorating, and i will make some for my Christmas candy boxes this year...I just use the easy recipe with marshmallow creme.Since our ENTIRE family is crazy about peanut butter i'm going to attempt to make Peanut Butter fudge candy....i hope i can make this right shouldn't be too hard....
Sooooooooo looks like i will have to buy A LOT of ingredients to make all this with tomorrow morning....i still gotta buy ribbons/wrapping paper/tape/and adornments for making things all cutesy on my candy boxes and my gift packages....i know....it's too much to worry with..but i am cursed with this creative mind...haha...i'm constantly thinking of ways to make things whimsical and beautiful..people DO appreciate the added adornment to things and notice it on a package or whatever...they like it...and will tell you they do.
 
anyhow,that's how i roll, so i don't question myself that's just how i have to do things..how i want..my way...
 
xoxo 

Tuesday, December 4, 2012

Christmas stress....

This song just because i kinda like it..was on the radio yesterday...
 
I'm really starting to feel the start of holiday stress....so many things to get done before Christmas and leading up to Christmas....and one of the online gifts i bought not arriving like it's supposed to?.....well that stresses me too....because it just throws me back behind and makes me very angry---(i have an awful mean temper)..i still have hope for it to get here because now it looks like the company may have made an error...so that makes me feel a little better about getting it....*fingers crossed*
 
It's rather ridiculous when you think about it..how you create your own stress over silly things getting done before/or for the holidays you know?....It's not all your fault you get anxious and stressed,of course all the people around you add to that because you play off their Christmas stress....lol...does that make sense? I have so many things to get done/buy/plan/help with that i actually couldn't stop thinking about it all last night....isn't that stupid?...
 
town is having a parade downtown and i'm apart of that in a few days...decorating/planning/helping...i have to help make a lot of candies for a Christmas booth downtown for the Town&Country Club and decorate all that etc....I LOVE making candies and making them cute/creative/colorful...it's just that i gotta have all that done by Friday and i'm completely covered up with a zillion billion other things to get done....not just that but helping with a parade float and various other things....AND working/chores/cleaning out stalls...etc...errands...yeah i got a billion errands i have to get done!!!....
 
It's all apart of the craziness of the holidays i know...everyone deals with it as best they can...
 
 
and gifts/wrapping paper/ribbons....i still have to buy a lot of stuff and also make MORE candy for family and friends or i will never hear the end of it from them.....LOL..."Julia where's my candy?Aren't you making candy boxes this year?! I want one!".....haha...so i have to get those done..i have to...lol..
 
 
and finally....
 
 
Dear Stupid Dirty 80/mph Wind:
 
I HATE you!...Please STOP BLOWING!...You're making everyone sicker!...It needs to rain or snow or something other than you blowing around and making dust storms & allergies all the time.No thank you for making me sick..AGAIN.---J.

Monday, December 3, 2012

stolen mail.....

Well....just got off the phone with a "wonderful" conversation with the nuts down at the post office.....

One of the gifts i ordered online never arrived on friday...and according to the tracking number with the postal service it was delivered to my house on friday.....IT NEVER ARRIVED or it was STOLEN!!!...Wow....hmm....just take your pick of the hillbilly down this road that stole my gift out of the mailbox.....Gee...wonder which one it could be?..hillbilly relatives or neighbors???..if that's the case it's good as gone ya know....

God!....i hate all these losers around here...I'm so mad right now you have no freaking idea blog!...Or it could be person delivering the mail lost ot or stole it?....you can never know.

The guy at the Post office told me he would call me back and try to figure it out..he took my cell number....and said he would call me back later....Yeah..you know i'll never get that gift and he will probably never contact me back with any info on it...because he has no idea...

I swear somedays it seems like you just can't have anything or do anything around here with all the idiots running around...

seriously hoping they locate this but not really expecting them too....

I am soooooooooofreaking angry.

Wednesday, November 28, 2012

Christmas lights....

Finally got the outside lights put up on the house and the trees!....Can't believe i did that all by myself....It was an all day job yesterday...The biggest task was untangling that huge mess ball of lights...LOL.....

You shoulda seen me...I got super mad and at times wanted to throw that ball and give up....haha..i said a lot of bad words!....but i kept on...and after getting out the ladder,nails,hammer...climbing up really high in the air and balancing myself...i managed....lol..Looks really good i think...i know i live out in the middle of nowhere and not many people will see my lights..but hey, who cares! i will see them and the few cars that straggle on down the road by the gates will see them....and my friends/fam will see them....I LOVE decorating for Christmas!

anyhow....Been busy today...really tired....Did all the work i could get done around this place early by 8am then took Grandma in for her eye appointment in town ..etc.....It makes me feel great to take her places and help her and my Grandpa out with things like that...But one thing i do know---Old cowboys are stubborn/hard-headed,independent, and have a mind of their own..you don't try to tell them what to do..don't even recommend "better" ideas to them....it's his way or the highway...THAT is my Grandpa...Haha..Love you Grandpa!....i'm A LOT like you..i do know this.

when i finally got home this evening after all that errand running i took a shower then i made Oatmeal Milk Chocolate Chip Cookies...Really good..i even was nice enough and made my brother cookies...they're his fave.....lol....Think i will try to make a pizza here at home from scratch tomorrow for my friends...cooking is kinda fun ya know?

thoughts on my mind right now---random.

rustic wrapping paper for a family of cowboys?...would it look too plain like a paper bag for wrapping paper?....i like color though..

should i get those boots i want online?

get morgan a present!!!

put trash out tomorrow.

help work on float.

sooooooosleeeeeepy.

nite.

Monday, November 26, 2012

Black friday..cyber monday.....

Well, Thanksgiving was ok i guess....wasn't too many of us..other family that we all really wanted to see more than anything...well....they didn't get to come home for Thanksgiving....*sad face*...my heart broke when i found out that they weren't going to be there....God i miss them all sooooo much!!!...there's always Christmas....*fingers crossed*
 
The rest of the fam----we all had a great dinner..wasn't very eventful and i had to try to make it through one dinner with a fake smile on my face because obviously some of my super snooty relatives were there....yeah...so i had that fake smile on my face the whole time at that dinner....thanksgiving 2012 is over thank the lords!...lol...
 
Did go Black Friday it was an event crazier than any other time i have went before...and the mall....let's just say...WOW...like a pack of rabid coyotes!----all those people....push/shove/yelling at everyone....i'm sure they had a few shanks drawn!....LOL!


We drove around listening to this song with the windows down on the highway in traffic...full blast..after leaving the mall..Bwahaha!!!.My friends are insane and i love them for it!..
 
So far i only like about 5 gifts and i'm finished with my shopping...Today i found some sweet deals online for cyber monday...free shipping...so a girl can't argue with that!....
 
have the house inside decorated,the tree up,and today i will try to get the outside lights up...it's always a HUGE MESS....But i love Christmas even if it's stressful.kinda depressing,and cheesy at times..for all it's worth December is a crazy month...that i look forward to every year ya know?....it should be more about celebrating w/friends&family that you adore and about the real reason for Christmas..like the preacher says....

i hope this month i can make a difference and do great good things that are charitable & giving...it's the time of year to give and be thankful....everyone deserves to have a great Christmas and to know that they are cared for.....homeless shelters,animal shelters,women's shelters---all those need help and could use anything they can be given...food/money/donations of any kind or even donating time to help out...times are tough out there for everyone and there's always ways to help out...so that's what i always try to do...it makes me feel great to help out and be a blessing to someone or something..i hope i am anyway!...lol..

xoxo

Tuesday, November 20, 2012

Thanksgiving 2012....

just random----this was on radio today...kinda like it.





AND...the holiday fun starts...

Going to the church tonight and deliver food baskets to the needy with the Aunties & Grandma etc......First we have to assemble them with all the food...then wrap them/decorate them....i like doing that...it makes me feel great to do something nice for people who need helped out....then help deliver them to their homes/shelters.....it's the right thing to do. ;)

I just always feel really sad for all the people who are starving and homeless....not just at holidays..but all the time...you should always be thankful for what you do have, because some people don't even have that much.....and never will.....

I'm so lucky to have a home,friends,and a family who loves me.......even though they are all insane!!!(LOL)..i love them too!....i'm thankful for all the characters in my life...you all make life exciting with your eccentric wild personalities!..I never know a dull moment...LOVE YOU x100.

So after tonight i will wake up in the morning and get myself ready for an all day of fun...cooking,planning,decorating at Grandparents house.....THEN we are going to go ahead and draw names for Christmas gifts this year at Aunt's house.....Wonder whose name i will draw?....I hope it's somebody easy to shop for....lol.

Thursday is dinner and then supper again at another house.....

I don't know if i will be going Black Friday shopping yet?...i mean, should i partake in the danger and insanity of it all this year?....LOL!...Hmm....might be up for that this year...i'm feeling a little reckless this week...Haha..Must be this codeine cough syrup i'm having to use for this cough.....blame it on the syrup...lol...

xoxo





Friday, November 16, 2012

lost keys....

I love this song...great driving song!...makes me smile...I really like Yellowcard a fave band of mine.

Just got home...Did some more Christmas shopping today with friends..FUN!...i think i'm really doing something starting earlier this year!!!....Haha!.....the jokes probably on me because everyone else is out shopping too when i'm not at the mall....i just don't see them so i "think"..i'm beating everyone at shopping..

I got a flyer from Bath&Body Works today in the mail...(just like every other girl who is obsessed with shopping in there)...Oh man...I got a Buy One Get One Free card...lol....I will use that sucker this week....I wanna try that Frosted SnowBerry...next time i'm in there.......using that card!

Lost my car/house keys this evening..i threw them down on the table and they got covered in shopping bags...lost momentarily...LOL!...I went all over the house looking for those keys!....I just have keyless entry key ring on there and a crystal heart key chain on it....couldn't find the keys....I was like a wild woman nervously searching everywhere for them..kinda scary...that's the ONLY set of keys i have to anything and when they are gone i am in huge trouble!!!... need to make copies i know.

I laughed at myself when i finally tossed aside all the bags from the table and there...there they were!..RELIEF..you just gotta laugh at yourself about stupid stuff like that...lol...and we're always laughing about my Aunties being so absent-minded....Bwahaha!!!....god..i'm just as bad...haha...

THIS is what i need to ask Santa to get me for Christmas...LOL!
 
Some kinda infrared key finder...haha...that's what it's gonna take....Go all out for this!....a tracking device for me to keep up with my keys!!!....how sad...next stop, tracking devices to keep up with everything in my life..lol
 
Nite.

Tuesday, November 13, 2012

playing guitar....learning songs....

Spent the past few days vaccinating livestock and turning them out on wheat pasture...helping anyway...of course, i don't think anybody could do that ALL by themselves!....lol...It's just not something i would think anyone could do alone.....i couldn't anyway....

It's been freezing the past few mornings so there is pond water freezing over in places and the stock tanks were frozen in the corral this morning...and we are putting a few round bales out for all the animals to eat on.....I'm still feeding my little bull alfalfa pellets and starter pellets so he's getting a good start at growing really good...he will hopefully be a HUGE monster bull someday....lol....no really i just hope he grows good and is healthy....

Been playing my guitar the past few days...when it gets colder i play my guitar constantly and try to figure out random songs on it...Finally able to play this one...I got it down fairly good...I caught it on tv the other day,sat down and figured it out....pretty!


you just use: G,Cadd9,Em7,Dsus4...i  think you can strum this or pick it really...i have done both so far...a lot of fun to learn songs on guitar and sing them.....

nite.

Friday, November 9, 2012

i love concerts.....

Had an AMAZING time last night!!!

haha..this video is so crazy! i remember this one from highschool.

Went to the Aerosmith concert with one of my most awesome coolest, best friends in the whole world...Morgan!...

It was so great for us all to finally get together and hang out/go shopping/have lunch and THEN go to the concert!!!....I yelled and screamed so much i can hardly talk today....but it was a ton of fun...I LOVE concerts..been to many--all kinds of bands/singers/music.....have an awesome time each one i attend...yes,im a music girl all the way...

When i go to a concert i just kinda get lost in the moment and the music most importantly....It was for me,Amy,Lacey,Sarah to all get together and meet up with Morgan in OKC for the concert...we never see her because she lives out of the state..*sad face*

I like a lot of their songs..they're great!...BUT she's what you would call a super fan of the band so we decided to go for her birthday...haha!

Guess what?!...I started Christmas shopping too yesterday!...Ahh!....i bought 3 gifts so far..I can't believe i've got a jump start on it sooooo early this year...that's good....I'm proud of that.....AND i need to get supplies together early as well.... to make cutesy cookies/candies to give to all my loved ones this year..Diabetes in a candy tin!!!....LOL!...it's gonna be my yearly tradition to do that!...haha...it's fun making cookies/candy at the holidays to give to family/friends...

Just kinda wish i knew where we stand on the family Christmas this year?...wondering where the others are and when/if i will get to see them this year.....i sure hope so...i miss them so much.....

xoxo

Tuesday, November 6, 2012

voted...election 2012...

I voted today...really hope i made the right choices on the ballot....some of the state questions were kinda confusing for everyone..what they meant and what they will do if voted in or voted out.....I hope the sheriff gets voted back in...he's done a great job the past few years...

so many people voting out there today...it's great people are standing up for what they want.
 
All a person can do is have hope that the elected officials you vote for and believe in will stand up for what the say they want to do, and that the questions you vote on are the right ones for the country.....Things will change with new elections..for the good or the bad...it's a 50/50 chance on that one.....i just have hope for our country that things will be better in the future.....it's always kinda spooky when the election comes around...but that's change, as in all things in life...everything changes...

Our country needs to move forward, not backward and get back on track to be a great nation...have jobs,and thriving businesses in our own country...not out of the country...i'm tired of seeing everyone so down and out of luck...i want the best for everyone and for this country...i believe things will get better i have hope for the future...things may look bleak at the moment, but give it time...as all things..i have so much hope for all things in my life...sometimes hope is all you have....you gotta have faith and believe in something or somebody and that things can get better....if not you can easily become a lost soul i think..

Spent most of last night driving around in the cold air with the top down on the car with friends listening to music and talking til 2am and the gas ran low..lol......we try to get lost on back country roads we don't know and find our way back around to the main road we drove off of...LOL!...god...we're ridiculous..a car packed full of people...it's so stupid but fun...because it is rather dangerous considering all the bad things going on out on these country roads at night....not too smart i suppose!...haha....

the kidney infection is getting better..the cranberry juice messed up my tummy but it really helped with the infection...i think it has anyway.

getting sleepy..going to try to stay awake to see who wins...

xoxo

Thursday, November 1, 2012

100% cranberry juice....

Bought 2 bottles of this 100% cranberry juice today.....hopefully it might help get rid of some of this kidney infection......

Lol....i drink it out of a martini glass to make it fun....i do this everytime i get sick with kidney infection..yes i'm a nerd.

Still feel yucky....went to a Christmas home interior party this evening...felt like puking and somehow managed not to get sick....my mouth tastes yucky from the antibiotics....eww!....i don't know which is worse..the infection itself, or the medicine.....

Saw lots of cute interior things to buy for Christmas...but didn't buy anything...don't feel like it....i don't feel like doing anything but sleeping....

why do i have to have kidney problems?!...every year the same old crap....?!

*cries*

Monday, October 29, 2012

kidney infection.....

Great time at the symphony this weekend!...this is one of the pieces they played....sooooobeautiful....

and it's October.

Sitting here in my pjs in bed...warm and getting sleepy.....

I have somehow managed to get another kidney infection....i have kidney problems anyway...but last night it hit me all of the sudden...chills,pain in my lower back..i felt like i was going to die....I hurt all night got into bed and covered up with my electric blanket set on 7..i still had chills....

went to the dr.today and got into see him finally...took a test and both kidneys are infected...he put me on antibiotic then scolded me about letting it go for a while...but i'm so busy i never think about myself really...i'm always focused on work/business, and half the time worrying/thinking about and/or missing family and friends so much so that it's actually painful....but that's just me...

been thinking a lot about those people i love and miss....i'm just sick and feeling bad today i suppose..i need to stop thinking about things and try to rest..but i can't help worrying about them and missing them...

i still feel kinda nauseous right now...didn't manage to eat anything at noon today when we all met up for lunch at Subway.....i just stared at my small sandwich and picked at it....lol...

the antibiotics are so strong they make you feel just as bad as the kidney infection does, so double that crappy feeling....annoying kidney infections..oh well.

nite.

Saturday, October 27, 2012

symphony orchestra tonight......


Finally got back online this week.

Yesterday, i did a little grocery shopping and went to pay my car tag sticker dues whatever they're called...which i think is stupid that you have to pay for that kinda stuff...lol....i think it's all about bringing in extra tax $'s or something of that nature..but it's annoying and stupid to me!...haha...

Then i got the oil changed in my car...they had to replace the oil filter in it....it was super dirty and they had to check the tire pressure....the cold air the past few days had really made them low.....AND one tire had a nail in it....why is there ALWAYS a nail in one of my tires??!

The football game was really COLD last  night!.....I went w/Amy& Lacey to see her brother play....it was still cold with a jacket and blankets wrapped around you..Brr!.....we got hot chocolate and we cheered them on...Lots of people there...sometimes i think people like football games COLD...they have everything all pre-planned and everything you know....their own rituals.

i'm not much on football games really....i'm more excited about going to the symphony orchestra tonight....We're going down to Texas to catch a concert...Yes,i'm a nerd for the symphony..Thanks to my high school music teacher who taught us about all kinds of music..i have a great appreciation for all music...i know some people say it's boring..but i really love how just the music tells a story...you can get lost in it just by listening....

i think this music is better than a lot of the choices we have to hear these days...not to sound like a boring person, but i do think that...it's good to give all music a chance you might find something you really like.

we've got our tickets...going tonight...hope it's not too cold!

xoxo

Monday, October 22, 2012

several steps ahead....

This is my favorite bad day song....lol....It just tells exactly how i feel on a bad day...always good for days like this..

Everything is so crazy right now...man, it seems like everything has been going crazy and crazier with all the hillbilly relatives..fighting/mouthing/screaming at each other and everyone else in between caught in the middle of it,which would be Me, and the other sane poor souls left in the entire family...

I don't know how much longer we will have our sanity after all this crap...it gets old and wears on your nerves daily..it's just boring...somedays i wonder how much longer i can deal with all this stupid nonsense...they love to play mind games..the scarier the better for them...they love to scare people..i've had a lifetime of them..so i'm already quite a few steps ahead of them on anything they may try to pull....ooh i'm soooooo scared!..Boo-hoo!...Bwahaha!!!

but i'm a pretty tough girl i'd like to think,so i will stand my ground throughout this..i'll take the mouthing,the lies,the threats..anything they wanna throw out at me into the world or my face...yeah..i'm ready so bring it on..because i just really don't care what they say or do or whatever they wanna stir up...i'm so bored with them/this...Yawn!!!...lol.. 

i try to ignore them..sure i'd love to knock them all out!...LOL!..but that wouldn't do anything but give them what they want...they want any kind of attention they can get over their stupid fighting...they try to provoke you....so i pretend they don't exist....I TRY very hard to pretend they aren't real...Haha...it's a tough thing to attempt...i'm just like:"Yawn!..nobody gives a crap..shut-up and go away hillbillies...FAIL!"

they're all spinning out of control and i swear there are days i could just pick up everything and go away..FAR away until this is all over with them....i wish they would all disappear....because honestly i've had enough of them and their insanity...it's just constant.

whatever their cracked minds are furious about who knows?...they probably don't even know...haha!....it's just very unfair to be thrown into the middle of this insanity just because i am related to all of them...i hate them all..everyone for miles and miles hates them....when nobody likes you..it's a pretty sure bet that you've got problems...LOL....and THEY do have problems....they're cracked in the head,insane...and they're hillbillies..haha!!!

it's gotten so bad i don't answer calls and i let the machine get it..you never really know what they're going to scream about..so at least i can record them using that...lol..

i'm just so sick & tired of all this stress with them...and i think that's just pretty sad & pathetic that i have to put up with them....

i wish they would just shut-up and go away!!!...ALL of them..just disappear....i hate them all..

nite.

Wednesday, October 17, 2012

Butternut squash soup.....

Been a busy week already, lots of tough work piled on me....not whining!....but kinda tired...

the weather has warmed up to the upper 80's...so my cold has almost vanished!...without having to see the dr....feeling better so far..saved me a dr's bill so i'm not complaining..despite how much i want it to be COLDER weather now!....lol...

Going to start cooking many more dinners at home now that i can turn on the oven and stove...considering that summer is over, it's ok to have extra heat in the house....besides it's fun to cook at home to me....

Today i made butternut squash soup...YUM!....it was pretty good i have to admit...I like to make soup in the fall...

See,i like to cook fall themed too in the fall...i also love to bake butternut squash like this w/a little butter....it's a fave of mine this time of year....i called it "Squish".when i was a little girl..LOL..i still call it "Squish". to this day....it just kinda stayed in my vocabulary.....haha..."What's Julia making for dinner?".."Squish!"...everybody always looks at me kinda puzzled and then they remember and laugh.."Oh,ok squash..NERD!"....Haha!!!

lots of work tomorrow..off to bed..

nite.



Saturday, October 13, 2012

pumpkin carving party....

Last night was the pumpkin carving party at a friend's house..had fun!.

No super spooky artistic portraits carved on pumpkins like some people are able to...just more whimsical&cutesy--just like me.. ;)

It's really amazing what some people can do with the carved pumpkins...wow....impressed.

We cleaned out the pumpkins(everybody brought their own from the pumpkin patch) and then we dipped them in bleachy water to somehow supposedly keep them from becoming moldy and gross...hopefully that works!

then we put the patterns on them and carved away.

It was fun carrying on with everybody--laughing,being loud,silly,goofy and crazy...love you guys!!!....we ordered pizza and then we ate candy...yes, there was tons of halloween candy!
 
Supposed to go on a haunted hayride tonight..but looks as though that's not gonna happen----thunderstormy all nite they're saying..oh well,so we may all have to cancel til next weekend..
 
 
xoxo

Wednesday, October 10, 2012

changed hair color for fall/winter.....

Still can't get into see the Dr....all booked up...Everyone has this stupid cold/flu!!!

Colored my hair...Love it!!!..it worked..no longer a Blondie...lol...I am a warm medium brunette with red/gold highlights throughout my hair....Great color..lots of compliments already.Needed a change for the fall/winter season..blonde was getting boring...and i get bored easily with all things in life so i have to change everything up from time to time..yes,i am a strange creature that way i suppose...lol.

Today i did a little spraying to kill off massive sticker weed patches in the corral and in the pasture...you gotta kill those sticker weeds before they get out of control..so did that today...i used a mask/gloves..hate chemicals but sometimes you have to use them.

Worked around on moving fallen tree branches off the fences everywhere before that causes any damage...then went home for the day.

talked to friends over the phone.. we all laughed at my sick squeaky voice..*sad face*

MISERABLE.

SICK.

I HATE THIS.

*cries*

off to go stand in the shower and cry, so i can maybe sleep tonight and breathe.



Sunday, October 7, 2012

stress causes anxiety......

Spent most the weekend resting..still sick with cold/flu crap..bleh.

Did get to visit with a friend i haven't seen in at least 5 years....I saw her at Walgreens of all places...she was getting a flu shot with her boyfriend and asked me if i wanted to go have lunch with them there in town..so i agreed..

She's still the same and she told me she still suffers from anxiety...Everyone has anxiety at some time in their lives..I have it occasionally when i get to thinking too much about stupid things..mainly worrying about money/health/family/friends/paying bills/land payments/animals.....stuff like that from time to time....

But anyway...she is kinda a hypochondriac i think....she looks for health problems....things to go wrong...which i have been that way a few times...but you can't help but worry constantly about your health when we are nagged at by every doctor you go to, or every tv news report or medicine/health ad on the tv is constantly saying:"Look out for this and that or you'll die!".....lol you know how it goes..blah..blah....good lord, enough is enough already!!!...let up on it people!

i think they're just trying to keep business booming for them sometimes it seems like that....health related things are just making money for the pill pushers/doctors..etc...in other words it's just about the money mostly, like everything else in this world...Sure they try to keep people informed about their health...but they go way overboard and have created a society of anxiety ridden/paranoid/pill-popping depressed people...so there's a pill for everything.which makes them richer...some doctors/pills are good i know that...but geez....pills for the stupidest crap..i'm like:"Are you kidding me?a pill for that?!"

you might be having a good day,then you get it all shoved in your face from tv/newspaper/doctors...everywhere ya know...oh let's worry now because they say so!..lol....My Grandpa's doctor wants to throw a pill at him for everything and he never gets the prescriptions filled..he says it's all stupid...and i say he's right...I like his attitude of:"Who gives a sh*t?" when it comes to all this medical crap they want you to get paranoid over...who gives a sh*t really...LOL..

Friend who i'll call K.(to protect the innocent..lol)...started asking me about hard boney bumps on the back of the skull at lunch..She asked me if i had one on each side of my lower skull across from each ear..and she had to feel the back of her skull.."Feel the back of your skull and compare the bones"..lol...I was nice about it and she goes:"Feel my skull..i have lumps in the back of my skull."....lol...I was like:"Yeah i think everyone has lumps there..it's how your skull is made.don't worry, i never even knew i had lumps on mine til you told me...i don't think mine are even the same size..who cares"...i smiled...

she's still the same..Bless her..I feel bad for people who suffer through that anxiety hypochondria..but i don't blame them..i sorta know how they feel..i blame life in general..all the stress we have in our society...causes all that worry and anxiety..times are hard..life is not easy breezy!...it takes a tough frame of mind to avoid all the outer influences that are thrown at you constantly...you gotta learn how to steer away from all that BS and laugh in it's face....keep on going on with your life..don't focus on the bad in life all the time..there's good out there the news just won't tell you about that i promise!...haha..

i have learned in the last 10 years that ME+Stress=No Good....so i avoid stress as i can...it's not good for anyone...i'm basically through with the BS so called society out there..i like my simple middle of nowhere life....when faced with worries/anxiety..i do the best i can....i've never taken any kind of prescribed pill for any of that..no depression pill,no mood pills or whatever they are..nothing...i learned how to control my feelings mentally..otherwise it will beat you down...make you go bonkers.

whenever i start to feel anxiety or worry i try to keep busy here on the farm doing something worthwhile....i spend a lot of that weird worry time playing with/feeding/talking/taking care of my pets or the other animals..i find that spending that time while upset/anxiety ridden with animals is VERY therapeutic because the animals are souls/spirits they communicate not through words but by actions or barks/moos/purrs etc......sometimes it's better to deal with those worries by not talking to humans..but to those spirits...they're like therapists i think....animals are my psychiatrists/shrinks whatever they're called...lol..

so i told her about that when she was telling me how she still suffers from anxiety and she liked that....I also told her to stay busy working on something close to her heart/soul...nothing stressful..painting,music,reading, or creating something..works for me anyway...

i turn all my negativity into creativity...hey,that rhymes!...lol

36 degrees tonite...Brr!.electric blanket time!!!...

nite-nite