Here i sit in bed..getting sleepy..another day done...
Today was a not so great day......the shower repair turned into a 4hr job for the plumber....he had to cut into the wall behind the shower to get to the leak to repair it with new pipes....such a mess.....he had to use an electric saw and then i had to get new shower faucets & a new shower overhead spray thing....whatever...that's probably gonna cost me $400 at least.....oh well...always something going wrong around this place.....
i missed half-day's work....but they picked up the slack so no worries there......Was it stressful when he said he had to do all that work on the shower!!!...i kept thinking:"OMG!...what if this costs me $1,000???!"......hopefully not....
then i had to call the internet company and fuss with the electronic billing department over a bill they NEVER mailed me that added up to this month's bill..so now i owe double this month!...god..i swear sometimes i could just forget the whole deal and never look back on technology.....somedays it seems it's just not worth it......just forget it all...i never watch tv much either......it's just all crap to me...
boy was it fun trying to talk to a damn robot phone voice about a bill.....can't we talk to real people anymore?...give people here jobs again?!!...i had to punch in my account# and all that other BS...it wouldn't work twice and i screamed...it kept saying:"Punch in your account #"....and i yelled into the phone:"Shut-up robot voice before i knock your lights out!"......LOL!..yeah..i was frustrated....
either someone is stealing my mail periodically or something is pretty fishy at the billing department or the post office...rural delivery ya never know what is going on.....more BS....
AND something that has been bothering me still and will until it is all over is all this family hillbilly feud stuff...that dumb crap they're all still screaming and all that stupid sh*t just really gets on my last nerve.....i have no answers to anything...i'm left in the dark about what is really going on...what is it all really about and why are they choosing sides and continually screaming and fighting...
and why does my name get thrown around by them?....good lord...i feel like i'm in the middle of an adult, child custody battle or something stupid weird like that!!!...what the hell is going on and WHY drag my name into any of their fighting?...i have nothing to do with whatever is going on..i do not ever go around those idiots!..it doesn't make any sense...i'm just so tired of all this stupid fighting and screaming,also the threatening...you can't talk to any of them about it because they are all insane/fried and on drugs......
then my immediate family are all too insane and fly off the handle about anything i may tell them has been said to me by the hillbilly cousins...so i have to keep it to myself so they won't go do something crazy to the hillbilly cousins and get thrown in jail..because they are so protective they would....
see,i can't get anything settled any way i turn...i get no relief from all this and feel like a stupid child.....i do not care about this and don't wanna deal with all this screaming/fighting...once again BS...i just wanna toss it all into the wind...just like everything else annoying...there's no reason to deal with BS.....and i don't put up with it...
but the family hillbilly cousin fighting will just have to run it's course on it's own.....and i gotta avoid it all like crazy.....it's too exhausting & stressful to deal with at times..but i'm a tough girl..so bring it and i will survive the sh*t storm...as usual i suppose...since i have to...lol..
also why just disappear and drive by all worried 24/7 and never let us know you are ok?...why not actually stop by,or call us and let us know you are ok?.....we really miss you and need a hug.....that's what is hurtful the most dad....
oh wow...a windy stormy week ahead....dust..dust..dust...
i gotta go to sleep...nite-nite
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