independent & empowered.....

Heard this song today..it's really good i think..i like a lot of her songs...and she's an Oklahoma girl..so she's cool...lol..

Just got home..when you work all day you feel accomplished...well..when you do any kinda work that achieves something you feel that way....I just wish everyone could have a job & work....things will look up for everyone jobless & hungry....the world can't throw in the towel and say:"I'm done..let's give up!"....things are gonna change& get better..it takes time...we gotta have faith& hope....never give up....and no,i do not believe the world is coming to an end...good grief people on the news!...LOL...turn off the news it's all negative...

now just because i had an empowering feeling today for myself(it may just be the hot chocolate i'm drinking right now..lol..) ,and i think everythings peachy in my world, does not mean that's the only reason i'm so upbeat and positive today...i just have a really good sense that things are gonna get better for the world...i'm staying positive about it all....i'm sick of the sad ol'crap.. 

Today i feel really tough and empowered...i have to thank all of my family for teaching me how to be a tough independent soul..all the praise and encouragement they have given me...especially the talk my Dad gave me over the phone today he told me:"I believe in you 100% that you can and are running the ranching business successfully...you can do anything...don't ever let anyone tell you,that you can't handle this kinda work/business just because you are a girl...because that's a damn lie...you are smart,independent,tough,and a fast thinker...quick on your feet...there will be good&bad times but you can handle it..i'm proud of you and all you're gonna achieve..i will help you in any way i can."

all the times they have basically thrown me out there and said "figure it out kid" have helped me & all the being tough toward me and pushing me through things all my life has made me who i am and in the last few years i have become tougher and i owe it to all of them....maybe today i just had a realization?...the figures & totals---i looked down at that piece of paper and my half of the sheet and i thought:"OMG! i did THIS?!"...yes,i did... ;)

i wanna be a tough independent girl...i don't wanna ever have to feel insecure,lost,tiny,dumb....i've always looked up to the strong women in my family..who are also very tough women who know who they are and don't take crap from nobody...that's the kinda girl i have realized i have become...i've became who i wanna be....empowered...independent...not depending on anyone....sure i have PMS days where i cry and feel stupid but what girl doesn't?...lol...just being my own person and knowing more & more who i am,who i wanna be,and who i'm not...wow...why did it just hit me today?....i'm so proud of myself...

honestly i owe it all to my family for teaching me how to be this kinda independent girl,loving me,&believing in me....wow...i can't believe I achieved those figures....

xoxo

hot tub on a cold night......

Last night,late, i got a call on my cell phone...the call was from some of the hillbilly relatives trying to call me...i never answered....they were yelling the other day saying that i(me Julia) was a little b*tch and they couldn't find my cell phone # but they had someone looking into that, and i think i'm so smart & i am nothing but a spoiled brat!..LOL! news to me.....AND they were going to find my cell phone# and make me talk to them!....lol...

yeah, so i guess they looked it up and found it....I got news for them..i'm NEVER answering it..i have caller id morons! HAHA!....see it continues..they can keep calling and i will just ignore them..ignoring these idiots adds fuel to the fire...it gets them madder and confuses them...this is all about wanting to pick a fight and get attention from me.....never happening....i still don't know what they are so mad about? i never even talk to them or see them.....but you can't explain crazy right?....i really wish i could get back at them good....there's gotta be some way?..but how?...like, do something funny to them w/out them knowing!....but yet,i could know it was happening..Bwahaha!..oh man...

they're just mad at DadChad..he's threatened them back..he is MAJOR P*SSED right now.....we have a feeling that thanksgiving---there will be a huge smackdown on them from him..we know it's gonna happen....can't wait to see what they try next....i'm excited! *sarcastic face*...lol...why am i ALWAYS in the middle of this family fight stuff?!....right in the center of it?.why me?! ;(

just got home from shopping at the mall today..you know us "spoiled brats" gotta shop...lmao!...i looked and looked for my brother a gift...i have no clue what to get him for Christmas yet....I bought Grandma,Winter Candy Apple bath set,some gloves and a scarf.....and my Grandpa a new blue shirt& new roping gloves he wanted...everybody else..i don't know yet?....my friends are getting Bath& Body Works...LOL..act surprised when you open it you guys!...HAHA!...pretend you don't know what it is!....sorry but yes,i once again was drawn into the store....i LOVE it...sorry....i can't stay away from that place...their fragrance wall plug-ins are cute..i bought two that look like a santa and a christmas tree....

after that i went to the grocery store and i can now say we are completely ready for thanksgiving dinner..i bought everything in cans we need, and it went into the kitchen cabinets....Grandma is buying the rest....so i get to help make dinner this year..we don't really look at thanksgiving as a "great" holiday because of what it's really historically about--(the tribes losing their lands)..so we just celebrate it as a day to be thankful for things and have a huge dinner w/family..relax..chill out...laugh & drink....so i can say we are already done w/that shopping dinner stuff...and it's a few weeks away--DONE.

going to go and get in the hot tub tonight...it's supposed to be chilly& windy and that's the best night to run across the cold patio sidewalk barefoot!...haha..i'm gonna get a really bad cold...worse..but oh well..

xoxo

rabies&pms....

Taking my puppy in today to the vet to get his shots..rabies is going around rampant w/all the wild animals....My other dogs & the cats all have their shots, but i'm mainly going for the rabies shot for this new pup..because i'm alarmed....This week my uncle's new puppy he just adopted from the shelter, got attacked by a skunk over night..it snuck under the garage door and bit the puppy...sad. ;(

Uncle shot&killed the skunk, then had to take the dead skunk to the vet where the vet took the brain out and sent it to OKC to be tested for rabies...well....sadly the skunk had rabies, and my uncle has to have the puppy put down...we're all upset over it..i cried....it was a sweet/friendly/happy cute dog...he was already attached to him...he hasn't cried not once...he's just gotta do what he's gotta do and have the puppy put down....not taking it so good.....becoming attached to/loving something dearly, can be so heartbreaking& torture at times i know.....but ya gotta love and deal w/the heartaches....enough sad stuff!

so this morning i'm taking my new puppy in for his shots so we won't be getting rabies(PMS is bad enough!..lol.)...then i'm going to go try and do a little way early Christmas shopping...beat some overzealous crowds in the coming weeks maybe?....lol...Grandpa gave me the day off and he paid us last night our wages,so i'm looking for a few gifts..nothing pricey or over the top..just things needed...we drew Christmas names out of a cowboy hat last night,and i drew my brother's,so i have to find him something..my dad got my name...haha...can't wait to see what he gets me...he'll probably buy me some jewelry or something neato....haven't talked to him since he called, maybe he will come home for thanksgiving and see us?...

choir practice went good last night..lots of people there...Be proud of me!----i signed up with Grandma's church to volunteer w/community food baskets delivery & prep...for Thanksgiving & Christmas, for people going through a rough patch lately& there's lots of them unfortunately..

count your blessings and be thankful for every good thing in your life,because some people don't even have that much...........it's the right thing to do..help out.....and we're putting the money from the "swear jar" into the donation drive....God don't like cussin'...LOL!..we've got that jar full this week....haha!

anyhow,that's that..now if i could just make this annoying PMS stuff go away....lol

hillbillies at it again....

Another day of work in....i'm TIRED....

Tonight we are cooking supper at my Grandma's house....I'm pretty good at cooking..but i am in NO WAY even half the cook my Grandma or any of my Aunts are!....LOL....i love southern cooking...raised on it....i'm trying to learn all their secrets....i watch them make all these too good to be true tasting things all my life and i like to think i have at least picked up on something...haha....i wanna be that good at it...

we're cooking supper and after that we are going to community choir practice w/Auntie J at the auditorium near the town hall..it's gonna be my first time looking over the sheet music for this performance,---it's scheduled 2 days before Thanksgiving...The director said not to worry i will pick it up right off he knows...so even though i have missed practice because of work it should be easy for me to learn....that's a relief...

Looked at indoor Christmas lights last night at a store...we're gonna have to buy some new ones for outside the house,the snow/ice last year destroyed the bulbs..so i'm thinking i'll go LED Christmas lights this year?...i put them up day after thanksgiving every year....i like decorating w/lights...

oh! and grandma says, we've all gotta REALLY over-do the Christmas lights outside this year because hillbilly relatives yelled out at us in town that--"It's not fair we can't decorate for Christmas outside! and it's stupid you all decorate,we're gonna sneak up to your houses and rip all your lights down!"....see how stupid and ignorant they are?..LOL!...we just ignored them...and walked on...i wanted to yell back:"Go ahead and step foot near my house and you'll be staring down the barrel of a shot gun!"...LMAO! or i could yell back at them :"Haha! You might have some money if you'd stop wasting it on meth rocks & having all those babies you don't care about dumbasses!"...HAHA!....i feel sad for those kids... ;(

god,we're all so sick of their mouthing..i don't ever know what they're so mad about?...it must be because we don't/won't associate w/them at all or acknowledge them....they're embarrassing & crazy!..but we've all tried in the past to help them w/food/clothes/money...and they sell it all or waste the money on drugs or something...we have no idea what they stay so mad about they just yell out:"Ya'll think we're trash and ya'll are better than us and it's not fair!" blah blah...you always think:"God....What now hillbilly trash!?"...it gets so old fast..whatever...

even if you're nice to them they all try to take you over..take your land,break in your house,steal from you,lie about you,tell people you're kin to them,follow you around,tap your house phones,get in your banking business,have their cronies follow you/scare you,make threats,call you,they even robbed my aunt's store & my grandparents house a few years back we found out, they also tried to make another cousin lose her job by harassing her.....yep..they've done all this crazy stuff forever....they're insane & horrible...it's all soooo stupid.

i feel as if i have walked around my entire life almost looking over my shoulder or defending myself against them and something they try to do.....i just always expect them to be trying to do something, we all expect it...lots of stress & anger all my life....they think we should give them EVERYTHING and they think--"whatever is yours, is mine because we're related!" that's their hillbilly mentality....

we don't owe them anything!...they will not take me over,scare me,or run me outta the state..i'm tough & clever enough to stay one step ahead of them all the time..they're getting older & slower....plus it will be funny when Dad gets ahold of their dumbassses...just wait...they better run...i do think they are scared of him very much so....he'll knock them out...lol....when he gets the chance after all that crap they said about him..oh wow..it won't be pretty! ;(

they're my grandma's nieces & nephews and their families on that side of the family...all insane....i wish they would all go away....i don't want people to know i am related to them..but oh everyone knows i am...no matter how respectful & nice you are to hillbilly relatives they still hate you...and i don't know why?!..Probably because we aren't trash and don't act like it either and they might realize that in their fried minds?....they're favorite line to scream at us is:"YOU ALL THINK YOU'RE BETTER THAN US!"....

haha...anyway..thanks for letting me get that stressful crap out of my mind blog...off to take a shower and leave..

kisses.

earthquakes/tornados now....

Heard this song yesterday on the radio,on my tv satellite stations...just found this random video..cool song love it

Wow....it just cracks me up how everytime there is a natural disaster some preachers start yelling:"It's the end of the world! Pray! for your souls Jesus is coming!"...oh whatever!....give me a break....there's been natural disasters going on for centuries and all the death,murder,crazy people,and destruction crap has been too...you just never hear about it....it's too old news won't sell...once again..news media at work...lol...god i like to hate on them don't i?... ;)

these preachers don't know when the end of the world is coming or any of that...it was online here somewhere i saw a preacher/religious nuts group calling for the end of the world because we had earthquakes here in Oklahoma....LOL...well...do they not believe all  those F5 tornados we have every year or so are worthy of end of the world coming tall-tales?...Pssh!...Haha! they crack me up..guess our tornados can't compare to earthquakes?....

i think most of us here in Oklahoma think the earthquakes aren't so scarey...we deal w/F5 tornado threats all the time..now THAT is something to be scared of...Looking up into the sky or across the field and seeing a huge mile wide whirlwind of black clouds/debris tornado sucking up everything in it's path and coming for you?...yeah that's something to be scared of....

Speaking of tornados supposed to be here today....oh well

off to work...in the rain, it's lightning now!

xoxo